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Cups x Since U Been Gone
Anna Kendrick, Pitch Perfect Cast, Kelly Clarkson
Cups x Since U Been Gone

MIX #10 “Since I’ve Been Gone”

So, for my tenth mix uploaded here, I’ve decided to make it a Pitch Perfect one. Pitch Perfect is the reason I mix music.. I mean, I’ve always loved music but PP made me realize my passion for it again. So, with that being said, here’s my latest mix. A little sketchy in certain places so I may edit it sometime but yeah… Let me know if you like it :)

Also, if you have a request for a mix, let me know and I’ll try my best to make it!

Commissions

So after watching the reboot of a show called porridge I am opening up a new commission.

Romantic letters to your significant other for when you just don’t have the words to express yourself I do. Simply message me and give me a vague idea of what you want to say and I will write you a love letter for all occasions.

Christmas, Birthdays, Valentines day, Anniversary, your in trouble and need to say sorry.

Each letter will be 5 Dollars per thousand words and an additional 3 Dollar if you want a romantic four line poem or love song thrown in the mix.

If interested please message me.

 Thanks.

I honestly love the fact that the hardship in my life was just the right mix to make me react to depressive thoughts the way I do now.

That is to say, I kill and eat them. They are weak, and I am strong and terrifying I n my capacity for both love and violence.

To everyone out there; when depression rears its head, do not shirk or hide. Let it see you smile. Show it your teeth. Give it something to be scared of. Take a sort of dark glee in the prospect of skewering it mentally and eviscerating it and you will be stronger for the result.

anonymous asked:

What do you feed your pigeons?

The local feed store mixes my pigeon feed for me.
50lbs each of Field peas, wheat, oats, barley, layer pellets, scratch grains (for chickens), and chicken layer pellets and 100lbs of wild bird seed.

Autumn playlist

1. Alice Phoebe Lou - she

2. Kodaline - all i want

3. Birdy - skinny love

4. Catfish and the Bottlemen - cocoon

5. One Direction - a.m.

6. Ed Sheeran - dive

7. Cody Simpson - awake all night

8. Melanie Martinez - soap

9. Wolf Alice - slik

10. One Direction - 18

11. 5 seconds of summer - vapor

12. Sam Smith - too good at goodbyes

13. The neighbourhood - daddy issues

14. Little mix - turn your face

15. LP - lost on you

16. One Direction - moments

17. Harry Styles - meet me in the hallway

18. The script - the man who can’t be moved

19. Niall Horan - paper houses

20. Il volo - grande amore

21. The weeknd - shameless

22. Selena Gomez - cologne

23. Macklemore ft. Kesha - good old days

24. Ed Sheeran - give me love

25. One Direction - fool’s gold

26. Zayn ft. Sia - dusk till dawn

27. Lana Del Rey - born to die

28. 5 seconds of summer - beside you

29. Little mix - the end

30. Lady Gaga - you and i

31. Ariana grande - thinking ‘bout you

32. Niall Horan - this town

33. 5 seconds of summer - jet black heart

34. One Direction - little things

35. Melanie Martinez - night mime

36. Alice Phoebe Lou - orbit

37. Ed Sheeran - perfect

38. Harry Styles - sweet creature

39. Niall Horan - flicker

40. Rihanna - love on the brain

41. Il divo - regresa mi

42. One Direction - i want to write you a song

43. James Bay - let it go

44. Little mix - love me or leave me

45. Salvador sobral - amar pelos das

46. Alice Phoebe Lou - girl on an island

47. Wolf Alice - i saw you (acoustic)

48. Ariana grande - a little bit of your heart

49. Ed Sheeran - the a team

50. One Direction - fireproof

51. The makemakes - i am yours

52. The neighbourhood - you get me so high

53. The script - no good in goodbyes

54. Niall Horan - mirros

55. Alice Phoebe Lou - society

56. Ed Sheeran - photograph

57. One Direction - over again

58. Wolf Alice - blush

59. Demi Lovato - hallelujah

60. Alice Phoebe Lou - the city sleeps

61. The neighbourhood - sadderdaze

62. One Direction - walking in the wind

63. Haley Reinhart - can’t help falling in love

64. Ed Sheeran - friends

instagram

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keith, stressed, lying in bed watching the cealing : i mean, my dad was human and my mom was galra. then who am i? what does that even makes me? i’m some weir-

lance, doing his night time skin care routine, looks at him for a second: you’re just mixed.

keith:

lance: like me, i’m mixed too. I’m afro-cuban. You are…humra? galuman…

keith: *starts to smile a little, relaxing himself*

lance: garhum!! humgarl??? ugh we need to work on it. you NEED to have a nice identity name! i’m gonna give you a cool name, keith!! i swear!!

Rating Shiros

Regular Shiro

  • the original and the best
  • i miss him so much………..
  • 11/10

Pre-Kerberos Shiro

  • so innocent, so pure
  • look at those puppy-dog eyes 
  • LEAVE HIM ALONE YOU MONSTERS
  • 10/10

Kuro

  • EVIL
  • the yellow eyes look cool though
  • i am a shadow, the true self
  • 3/10

Mindscape Shiro

  • was a jerk to keith
  • shiro would never
  • 0/10

Sven

  • STOP SAYING HE’S DEAD HE’S AT THE SPACE HOSPITAL
  • took a gunshot for someone he had just met, what a great guy :’)
  • 9/10

Kuron

  • unsettling voice
  • ALMOST like regular Shiro but something feels off?
  • i hated his new look at first but now it’s kinda growing on me…
  • mixed feelings
  • 5/10

Scruffy Kuron

  • same as above but the long hair and stubble bump up the score
  • 6/10

Junk Shiro

  • CUTE…
  • that shoulder to waist ratio though
  • 10/10

Emmett’s Top Surgery Guide

Alright so a few people have asked me to do this so here we go-

(I hope I covered everything)

What do I need to prepare for?

  1. Get clothes together. You will probably not have the energy or motivation to change, so have some sweat pants and a few shirts. I recommend zip up hoodies because buttons are too hard sometimes. Really, zippers are the best. You can deal with buttons 2 weeks post op when it’s easier.
  2. Prepare food. This is especially important if you’re gonna be alone a lot or if you’re stubborn like me and don’t like asking for help. Cooking is gonna be hard, so get easy things. Ramen, other microwaveable soups. You can do it stovetop too if it’s not too high for you to reach (I’m 5'2" and it was a bit hard for me). Chips and pretzels and crackers and cookies are also good because it’s tasty and good to just have by you for if you get nauseous and need a quick bite or if you jsut can’t make yourself get up. I know it’s not healthy but let yourself live a little. I also bought some chicken tenders and stuff like that to throw in the oven because do have a freezer that’s on its own so I could reach all the stuff. I love coffee but the coffee pot was too far back for me to reach and the mugs were way too high so I bought some of the cold pre made Starbucks and dunkin donuts coffees. Also have money to order food possibly depending on how long you’re laid up and what you can do.
  3. Have things to drink. A good water bottle or Styrofoam cup is important. Having water and tea and other liquids is important because the pain meds and antibiotics can dehydrate you and you will be a bit dehydrated from surgery in general. Hydration can also make you feel more energetic too.
  4. Queue up some movies and shows. Netflix (or recorded shows or on demand shows or dvds or blue rays or whatever) is amazing. I watched a lot of parks and rec and also paranormal survivors. You’re gonna have a lot of time and you’ll be sleepy and it might be hard to focus so easy things to watch are good
  5. Have a place to sleep. I slept on a recliner in my living room for about 2 and a half weeks post op. I did try to sleep in my room but I kept rolling over and it hurt so much. I wasn’t able to sleep on my stomach a whole night until about 3 and a half weeks post op. The recliner was amazing. If you don’t have that, lots and lots of pillows to put on 3 sides of you work too. My headboard has shelves built in so I couldn’t use pillows to prop myself up, but my grandmother got a surgical wedge for me and putting blankets and pillows around that helped when I moved back to my room
  6. Have help scheduled. If you’re alone most of the time, have a visiting nurse or friend or family member come check on you and help you out for a couple hours. Having someone with you all day is ideal, but you don’t have to, and I know that’s not possible for everyone.
  7. Have a mental health care plan. This is important whether you’re mentally ill or not. Top surgery brings up a lot of emotions and many people experience mood swings and depression after surgery. This happens because surgery is trauma to your body, even if it’s good. Your mind is trying to understand why there is missing flesh and all of that can be overwhelming. The pain meds don’t help with that either.
  8. Get a long phone charger. As long as possible. You’re gonna be sitting and laying in some weird positions and you’ll be bored out of your mind, so you’re gonna wanna have your phone. If you don’t have a long phone charger or can’t get one (or if you’re breaks 1 day post op like mine did) you can use an extension cordd or a power strip to make it longer
  9. Have other things to do. Maybe a book or a sketch pad or coloring or clay. Just something else to keep you busy for when you are tired of Netflix
  10. Trim your body hair. I suggest trimming your armpit hair a little, if not all the way, because the ace bandage will pull on it and it will be uncomfy. Also if you do anything with your hair elsewhere, do it pre op
  11. Also if you have pets that need their habitats cleaned, do that the day before surgery. I have fish, a turtle, a hermit crab, 3 geckos, a guinea pig, and a dog. I changed bedding and cleaned tanks for all of them except the dog admit was worth it. It would’ve been way too hard post op.
  12. If you take any medication be sure to call the hospital and check if you should stop it or keep taking it. I stopped T and my vitamin supplements and all oral steroids 2 weeks before and you’re not supposed to take nay medication the morning of, but the hospital told me I could because it’s psych medication and I’m better on it than off

What do I do the day of surgery?

  1. Go to the hospital!! Your surgeon (or someone from their office) eill give you directions to the hospital and a list of what you need. I needed my ID, my insurance card, pre-op paperwork, and all of my meds. I ended up needing none of those things, but I was told to bring them so I did and I suggest you do the same.
  2. Anxiety is 100% normal the morning of. I was very anxious and so was my dad and we ended up screaming at each other. My way of coping with the anxiety was to text my partner, and I also Facebook live streamed a couple time sin the car (it’s 2 hours from my house to the hospital)
  3. When you get to the hospital go with the flow. I was called on my way and told to get there asap bc there was a cancellation. I told them that wasn’t happening because of how far I live and I was already on my way but I would be there in time for my surgery slot. When I got there, I checked in and everything was okay. Until they mixed me up with two seperate patients and I got really anxious. But my surgeon came to meet me and calmed me down and it was okay. They let one of my parents stay with me until I went to the OR which was also nice
  4. The OR is scary. There are a ton of people and the table is cold and everything is moving fast and you just lay there. I actually somehow felt calm though? I think I hit the point of being anxious where I was in stress nirvana and nothing registered anymore. I just breathed deeply and said that whatever happened was gonna happen and then they told me to keep breathing the oxygen in and that they were giving me the medicine to make me sleep.
  5. Rely on whatever you believe in and whatever helps you. I had play doh with me and my favorite stuffed animal in the car and I kept it in my bag at the hospital. That helped me stay calm a lot. I also am spiritual in the sense that I believe that things happen the way they happen and that’s that, and we should go woth it and tackle it as it comes. If you are religious, praying or worshipping however you like can help in the money’s and days leading up to surgery too.

What’s it like waking up?

  1. It’s weird. It’s really fucking weird. I was very sleepy and confused. I don’t remember a lot of it. I remember asking for my partner (they couldn’t be there because they had class) and I remember being sleepy. Apparently I asked for Adrian so much that my mom called them and I talked to them. Apparently i said that they are wonderful and that I’m in love with them (which is true) and tbh my parents still make fun of me for it. I don’t remember doing that at all. I also remember needing to per and the nurse asked me if I could get up or if I wanted a bed pan and I said I was gonna get up. I did, and I was so stumbley and dizzy. I remember getting confused about toilet paper and it took me forever. I also got tangled in the wires and tubes from the IV. This happened 3 more times while I was in the recovery room
  2. I also had a very hard time breathing. I was coughing and my oxygen saturation was in the 60’s which I not good. They gave me albuterol and oxygen which helped a lot.

Night 1 in the hospital

  1. I spent 1 night in the hospital. I know some surgeons do more, some do less.
  2. It was an interesting night. I was on a lot of pain medication and I was starving. I ate a lot of banana bread my mom gave me.
  3. My dad stayed the night with me which was also nice.
  4. Instated on oxygen most of the night until I was breathing better on my own with the help of a spirometer every hour
  5. The hospital however was not good about giving me my meds. Hospital are notorious for fucking up when someone should get meds. I take a lot of medication, mostly for psych stuff, and I absolutly need all of it. The one in particular they weren’t giving me was my anxiety medication, which also stabilizes my blood pressure. So of course my BP is high and they are asking why and saying they can’t give me my meds because it’s not in the system.
  6. So long story short I didnt get my meds but it was fine because it was only one day
  7. In the morning, I got to go home. They gave me one last dose of pain meds and I was ready for the 2 hour car ride back to my house
  8. Before I left however, my surgeon saw me and I got to see my chest. I didn’t expect to see it so soon. The only other time I felt so at peace was when I was high. I also got my drains out that morning because I wasn’t draining much so my surgeon didn’t feel like they were needed

Being home

  1. It is hard. I slept for the first 3 days most of the day. I was on a lot of Percocet. I needed it. I literally just slept on the recliner all day. I woke up to pee and to eat and watch a little bit of parks and rec.
  2. Speaking of peeing. The anesthesia basically stops everything and peeing is hard after surgery. It’s like you can’t make yourself do it, you just have to let it happen
  3. Also pooping. This is TMI but for the love of fuck have stool softeners because pain meds and antibiotics fuck that up and the last thing you need is a tummy ache along with your chest hurting. I took stool softeners in the hospital and when I got home and it still took me 5 days to shit. I know that’s gross but really, love yourself and buy stool softeners.
  4. Okay last bathroom thing I promise. Wearing underwear that are kinda tight is not a good idea. The elastic is gonna be too hard to pull down and you’re gonna get tired and frustrated. I know how absurd that sounds but that’s really how it is. I just didn wear any for a couple days.
  5. Every single thing is difficult. I was so weak I could barely lift a mug. Everything was really hard. I needed a lot of help.
  6. Post op you will cough and need to take very deep breaths. Your lungs are paralyzed during surgery and it takes time for them to sort their shit out once you wake up. I coughed a lot and I coughed up blood and it was gross. I also was at a very high risk for pneumonia so I had to watch that
  7. As the days went on it got easier. I could do more things. I could cook more, I could get up and do things. 4 days post op my partner and my friends and an old teacher came over and saw me and hung out which was nice. Having support is really important and honestly those people made me so happy.
  8. Having someone to help you is so important and also having someone to give you positive vibes and love and support makes all the difference
  9. Emotionally you might be a mess. That’s okay. Go with it. Make sure to take time to self care and do things you enjoy. And don’t be afraid to ask for help
  10. You will get back to normal in time. Recover at your own pace.

What it looks like

  1. When you first see it, it’s gonna be blue and purple and green. All bruised. The stitches look angry and jagged. And it only looks worse as the days go by for the first week or so. That is normal. Your chest went through a lot and it’s gonna bruise and look swollen and gross.
  2. The bruising does fade and the stitches will fall off (if they are the kind that does that). It’s gonna be weird. Don’t pull them, don’t fuck with them. I know how tempting it is, but just don’t.
  3. The swelling lasts for about 3 weeks, then it looks pretty much how it’s gonna look. Remember it’s not gonna be completely flat, it has to match your body
  4. Also you’ll have to wear a surgical binder for at least a month post op

Showering

  1. Wash up. Washcloth and soap or wipes are your friends. You can’t shower head to toe unless you wrap your chest with plastic wrap, which is really hard. I do not reccomend it. Wash your hair in th sink if you want, but only if you have help. Moving your arms like that is gonna be hard.
  2. Once you can shower head to toe, it’s amazing. And your stitches will fall off faster. It’s just really nice. But be gentle because your chest is still tender.

Things I didn’t expect

  1. I’m psychotic so I normally have some hallucinations, but the pain medication made it so intense that I couldn’t function. I thought I was being watched constantly, I was screaming and crying and panicking. It was really scary and really bad. If you’re psychotic, please keep this in mind and share concerns with your doctor. I stopped my pain medication early because of this.
  2. If you have body related trauma, surgery might bring that back up. No one told me this and I was not prepared. I was raped and I have trouble not being in control of my body. I wasn’t even thinking of that until I was on the table seconds before I fell asleep. I would never know what happened during surgery (aside from the obvious) and that scared me and tbh it still does.
  3. I didnt expect how hard it would be to sleep. I slept on the recliner in my living room for almost 3 weeks. I sleep on my stomach and I just couldn’t because it hurt so much. Once I was a month post op I could though and thats what I do now
  4. Infection. I was expecting it to happen as soon as i went off antibiotics but it happened around 3 weeks post op. The nurse at the surgeons office told me i was crazy and she was really rude so I sorted it myself but it was unexpected at that point.
  5. Emotionally it really was hard. Some of that was my mental illness but some of it was post op mood swings and depression. I knew it was a possibility, but I didn’t expect it to be that bad.

Okay so that’s it I think. If there is anything I forgot or if you have questions feel free to ask!!

10

Little Mix Music Videos - Little Me
Release Date: December 18th, 2013
Director: Julien Lutz (Director X)

Wish I knew back then, what I know now. Wish I could somehow go back in time. And maybe listen to my own advice…

i utterly loathe subtlety and mixed, vague signals like hit me! just fucking hit me! directly in the face! w/ a hammer! it saves my nerves from being fried and me from being a wreck! swing and hit bitch! it’s so easy!

“Fitting In” Analysis

(Notes on actual filming here)

- Rick Roll

- Logan’s voice is high when he’s upset

- Gay Jokes™

- Roman and Patton both using big words…?

-Panic at the everywhere

- Thomas is patronizing Virgil. 

- Dark eyeshadow

- Overall, Logan’s gotten much more dramatic in his gestures lately

- Patton seems to have gotten more emotional lately as well

- There’s a very clear internal conflict; Virgil wants to share his opinion and be heard, but he’s very hesitant to be too harsh in fear of backlash. It’s addressed what’s going on, but not so much how visibly frustrated and upset he is by this attempt to find balance.

- Logan doing Virgil’s job

- A nod to Virgil being ostracized

- They’re all trying to include him, but they’re way way way too overt

- Roman’s response to a loud noise is to draw his sword. He’s also upset at the possibility of hurting Patton (and seemingly even a little angry). It’s very ‘duh’ sure, but it feels extremely parental

- Will there be a thing about how Logan feels like his niche is being taken over?

- Patton’s spider tangent

- “Don’t be mean” -Patton. Virgil repeats this later.

- Roman is very arrogant, self-absorbed, and over generalizing. I always forget this

- What the fuck is this thing about crofters

- Patton is soft

- “You don’t have to be mean to him” -Virgil

- Roman doesn’t like to be the only one confused

- Patton will fight

- So… Virgil finds Roman evil?

- L o g a n  i s  a  l o u d  b o y

- Roman is actually trying to be nicer

- How far does Virgil’s self depreciation go?

- Why doesn’t Virgil think he’s smart

- Roman has a hard time with things not being even

- Mixing metaphors it makes me upset

- alliteration

- Patton buddy you high key hit the blinds

- THE NEW OUTFITS (and virgil giving Roman an obvious once-over)

- Virgil’s hoodie reminds me of Sally (maybe that was intentional)

- Patton got so excited he hurt himself :(

- Roman goes to a lot of trouble not to hurt Virgil anymore

- Witty Bants™

- Virgil’s endcard smirk

- C r o f t e r ‘ s

- Take it easy, guys, gals and nonbinary pals. Peace out!