miss lilibug

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I wore a new dress today for my fiancee’s birthday.
Lili wanted a photo of me, then a photo of her taken.

…People who think Lili doesn’t exist just need to look at the difference between these two photos. Lili smiles wider than I can and she likes pulling her arms in to make herself smaller. Also, her photo is a bit blurry because she can’t stand/sit still for photos. She gets too excited.

She’s just so cute!

MAAMA TAK LOTSA PIKTURS ND VIDIOS OF ME AT DA FARM TODAY!!!!!!!! : D WE GO DERE ERLY FOR MY BIRFDAY JUST LIK WE DID LAST YEER FOR MY BIRFDAY TO!!!!!!!!! MY AND MIS LIZY’S BIRFDAY NOT TIL 19 BUT MIS LIZY GONNA BE REEL BUSY WITH WORK!!!!!!! SO WE WENT TO DO WAT I WNTED TO DO FOR MY BIRFDAY TODAY!!!!!!!!! : D

MIS LIZY GONNA HELP ME POSST MORE PIKTURS BUT HERE A VIDIO MAMMAA MAK FOR US OF SOME PIKTURS ND VIDIOS FROM TODAY!!!!!!!!!! I SO HAPY ND I HAD SO MUCH FUN!!!!!!!!!!! : D

I REEEEEEL CUTE!!!!!!!!!!!!! : D

LOVE LILI

Well, Lili started inhaling the food, so I couldn’t get a photo of the plate right before she started eating (by this point she’d already eaten a piece of chicken and half the broccoli o.o), but here’s what Regina made us for dinner tonight: Chicken and broccoli.

I know with Anorexia recovery, I shouldn’t be counting calories, but since this was all under 200 calories, I don’t feel so anxious about it. Honestly, that’s a big deal for me.

Now that dinner’s over, I’m actually letting Lili have some Hershey Drops because they make her so happy.

Here is the face of a truly happy five year old haha:

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HIIII!!!!!! YESTURRDAY WAS ANGEL’S BIRFDAAY!!!!!!! : D HE GOT TO BE OUT ND DIDN’T CWY EVEN THO HE SKARD OF LADDEES EVEN MAAMA!!!!!!!!!!! DAT A BIG DEEL!!!!!!!!!!!!!! : D HE OUT ND HE EATT SUM BRWONEE DAT MIS LIZY MAK ND HE PWAY WIF DA LIL DINOSORESS WE GET HIM AS A PWESEENT ND COLLUR IN HIS DINOOSORE COLLURIN BOOOK ND WATTCH DINOSORE!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I DA ONE WHO RITE DA RAWR ON DA BRWONEE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! : D ANGEL DO IT ALL WIF HIS BABEEE NAANOOOK!!!!!!!!!!! : D I TINKK HE DO OK CUZ MAAMA STAY WAY ND GIV HIM SPASE SO HE DIDN’T TINK SHE GONA HURT HIM ORR MAK HIM WOORK WATEVUR DAT MEENS!!!!!!!!!!! : D I SO GLAD HE GET BE OUT ND HAV SUM FUN!!!!!!!!!!!!!! : D

I TINK ANGEELA’S BIRFDAAY NEEXT!!!!!!!!!!!!! : D

LOVE LILI

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On Friday, right before Jenny and I got out of the car so she could help me carry my bags into the airport, Lili demanded a few more pictures be taken. 

So, here are just a couple of them. And I love them because the one on the left is of me and Jenny, but the one on the right is of Lili and her “Mama." 

I just…love the difference.
I love getting to see what Lili looks like when she’s out, how she can smile even more than I can and just how happy she is.

Along with the picture of her wearing the hat Jenny made for her, this is my favorite photo of her. :) <33

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YESTURDAY ME ND MIS LIZYS BIRFDAYSS!!!!!!!!! WE HAD A LOTTA FUN!!!!!!!!!!! : D

FIRST WE OPEN PWESENTS FROM MAAMAA!!!!!!! MAAMAA GOT ME SOCKEES ND A LIL ALIEN FROM TOY STORY ND A MOOVEE DAT GOT FROZEN FEEVUR ON IT!!!!!!!!! : D I WAS SOOOOOO HAPY ND I TANK MAAMA LOTS!!!!!!!!

MIS LIZY OPEN HER PWESENT ND SHE GOTTA BOOOK DAT MAK HER REEL HAPY!!!!!!!!! SHE CWY CUZ OF THE NOTE MAAMAA RITE IN IT!!!!!!!!!! MIS REGINA SAY DAT DA BOOOKK SEERES IS THE REESEN MIS LIZY ND MAAMA MEET A LONG TIME AGO SO DAT WHY MIS LIZY CWY ALLL HAPY!!!!!!!!! : D

WE HAD MAC ND CHEEESY FOR LUNCHEE ND MAAAMA MAK IT SPECEL BY PUTTIN BAKEN IN IT!!!!!!!! IT SOOO YUMY!!!!!!!! : D ME ND MIS LIZY SOOOO HAPY BOUT IT!!!!!!!!

DEN MISTUR WITEY COM OVUR NF SPEND TIMME WIF ME ND MIS LIZY ND DAT MAK US BOTH HAPY TO CUZ WE MISED HIM!!!!!!!!! MIS LIZY GONNNA SEEE HIM AT WORK TODAY ND WE BOTH ECITED!!!!!!!!!! : D

DEN MAAMA TOOOK US TO DINNUR ND WE GOT YUMY CHICKEN TIKA MASALLA PASTEE!!!!!!!! IT SOOO YUMY ND DA BEST!!!!!!!!!! : D

ND DEN WE COM HOME ND MIS LIZY USE DA COMPUTUR TO SEEE HER BRUDDER BUT DEN AFTER MIS LIZY COM OUTTA DA BEDROOOM WIF MAAMAA ND MIS MEGAN ND MIS ANNNA DERE AND THEY GO SURPWISE!!!!!!!!!! DEY COM OVUR TO SURPWISE MIS LIZY ND GIV HER PWESENTS!!!!!!!!!! IT SO NICE IT MAK ME SMILE LOTS!!!!!!!!!!! : D

ME ND MIS LIZY HAVE REEL FUN BIRFDAY!!!!!!!!!! I SAD IT OVUR BUT HAPY MAAAMAA MAK IT SOOOOOO SPECEL!!!!!!!!!!! I LOVE MAAMA SOOOOOO MUCH SHE DA BEST MAAMA IN DA HOLE WORLD!!!!!!!!!!! : D

HAPPY BIRFDAY TO ME ND MIS LIZY EVEN THO IT NOT OUR BIRFDAYS NOW!!!!!!!!!!! : D

LOVE LILI

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Well, it took really quick switching, but both me (bottom photos) and Lili (top photos) got to take photos with Anna and Elsa while we were at Disney. The time for me and her to switch between photos was less than a second!

It was absolutely, positively magical, seriously.
Along with Alice, they’re two of the only characters we met that were so in-character that, for a brief moment, we felt like we were talking to the real characters.

It was overwhelmingly wonderful, especially since Jenny, Lili and I got about 10 minutes alone in the room with Anna and Elsa. :)

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Lili got her very first Easter basket the other day, all because the Easter Bunny “called” her and told her that since she’d been so good and Jenny (her Mama) wasn’t going to be with her in person to celebrate Easter (something the Easter Bunny found out thanks to Mia’s new stuffed animal bunny), she could get her basket (which ended up being a Hedgehog basket) early.

It was the cutest fucking thing and she was so excited over it.

There are so many photos and videos of Lili from Jenny visiting this time around and gods, they make me so happy.
I just love Lili so much. I’m so thankful she exists. <3333

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HII MIS LIZZY SAY I CAN WRIT BOUT TODAY ND HOW HAPY IT MAK ME!!!!!!!!

TODAY MAMMA TAK ME ND MIS LIZZY ND ALL OF US TO DA BIG DISNEY STOR DAT NOT TO FAR WAY!!!!!!!! MAAMA BEN WANTIN US TO GO FOR LONG TIME!!!!!!!!! WE HAVN’T GON SINCE DA SUMER!!!!!! BUT WE WENT ND GOT LOTSA STUF!!!!!!!! : D

I LOV DA STOR IT SO BIG ND GOT LOTSA LOTSA STUF TO LOOK AT!!!!!!!!! WE WENT DERE KNOWIN WE WANA BUY A PIGLET ND EEYORE FOR A CUPPLE DA LIL KIDS!!!!!!! ANGEL LOVE EEYORE ND PRECIOUS ND ELLIE LOVE PIGLET SO WE SO HAPY FIND DEM!!!!!!!! WE GOTS DA LAST EEYORE!!!!!!!

MAAMA GOTA PWETTY CUP DAT SAY 2014 ON IT!!!!!!!! ND MIS LIZZY GOTA ELSA SHIRT DAT REAL REAL PWETTY!!!!!!! I LIK IT LOTS ND LOTS!!!!!

I GOT TINKERBELL ND SOM OF HER FRENDS!!!!!!!!!!!!! I BEN WANTIN TINKERBELL ND HER FRENDS FOR LONG TIME ND WE ALSO GET DA NEW MOOVEE!!!!!!!!!! WE GON WATCH IT TOMOROW!!!!!!! : D 

WE GOTA LIL POOOH BEAR FOR DA LIL KIDS CUZ IT EASY TO BRIN ROUND PLACES!!!!!!ND MAAMA SURPWIS ME BY GETTIN ME A LIL SVEN DAT I LOVE SO SO MUCH!!!!!!!!!!!! LOOK AT HIS SILLY FACE!!!!!!! HE MAK MIS LIZZY ND ME SMILE LOTS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

WEN WE GOT HOME WE GO TO TARGET ND MIS LIZZY GOTA NOTHER SHIRT!!!!!! SHE SAY IT DA SIGN OF A SUPUR HERO WICH MAK HER REAL HAPY!!!!! SO I HAPY!!!!!! : D

MAAMA TAK TREE PICTURS ME TODAY!!!!!!! ND I WANTED SHARE PICTURS CUZ MIS LIZZY SAY IT OK!!!!! SO I SHARE!!!!!!! I SO HAPY!!!!!!!

LOVE LILI

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Today, my fiancée took me and Lili to a farm with a pumpkin patch. Since Lili and I have the same birthday (Oct 19th), we’ve sort of split up the things we’re going to do. Although I’ve never been to a farm or pumpkin patch, today was for part of Lili’s birthday (she’s never been to either as well, obviously).

All of these photos are of Lili.

We had an absolute blast. :) There was a petting zoo where Lili and I got to pet goats, cows (Lili LOVES cows. She was in heaven. The 3rd photo is her reaction to getting to pet her first cow), piglets, ponies, and sheep. We went into a huge cornmaze that Lili managed to get us out of (hence her “TADA!” stance in one of the photos). We went on a hayride around part of the farm, Lili got a stuffed animal cow (now named Maggie Moo), got food (Lili and I had a corndog for the first time), and then went to pick out our pumpkin.

Lili “decorated” the pumpkin (she wanted the pumpkin to be Mickey Mouse) when we got home and gods, she was so excited.

We had such a good time…and to see/feel Lili so happy makes a lot of us in the system happy. I’m so glad we got to do this for her birthday. :’)

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NAM - LILI!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
ROOL - BEIN 5 ND REEL HAPPPEE ND FUN ND SWEEET ND HELPIN LIL KIDDS BY BEIN FRWENDS WIF EM ND STUF!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! : D
BIRFFDAY - OCTUBUR 19!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! : D
AGEE - 5!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! : D

I A LOTTAA FUN!!!!!!!!!!!! : D I LOVE HAAVIN FUN ND MAKIN FRWENDS ND BEIN HAPPEE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! : D I LOVE MY MAMAA WHO MIS LIZZZY GONA MAWRY ND I JUST LOVE LOTSSA STUF LIK I RITE!!!!!!!!!!!!! : D

DERE LOTSSA PIKTURS OF ME BUT I WANT A PIKTUR OF ME WEARIN SOME MY STUF SO DATS WAT I CHOOOSE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! : D 

LOVEE LILI

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MOREE PIKTURS!!!!!!!!!!!! : D
MIS LIZY SAY IT EASER TO RIT NUMBURS ND SAY WAT EACCH PIKTUR IS!!!!!!!! : D

1 ME ND MAAMAA!!!!!!!!! : D
2 ME PETIN A PWEETY COWW!!!!!!!! COWS ARE DA BEST!!!!!!!! ALOONG WIF CORGIS!!!!!!!!!! : D
3 DAT COW LIKS ME LOTS!!!!!!!!!! : D
4 PRECIOUS!!!!!!!! SHE GETIN BETTUR AT SMILIN!!!!!!!!!! : D
5 PRECIOUS ND MAAMAA!!!!!!!!!! : D
6 DA LIL PUMPKINS LIL KIDS WHO WNT PIK OUT PUMPKINS PIKED!!!!!!!!!! DEY RIT DERE NAMES ON DEM ON DA BOTTUM!!!!!!!!!! : D
7 NOW YOU SEEE DA PUMPKINS SITIN ON DERE BUTS!!!!!!!!!!!! : D
8 WE TURN MY BIGGGG PUMPKIN INTO MICKEY MOUSE VAMPIER!!!!!!!!!! HE REEL CUTE!!!!!!!!!! I REEL CUTE TO!!!!!!!!!! : D

LOVE LILI