minnie maud

This is why females suffer from crappy body image. It’s the image we see when we look down at ourselves. This is the image that messes with our minds. Everyone sees you as the top picture. Some days you and other people ser you as the second picture. But everyday. Women see themselves as the bottom picture.

This is for me to tell you. You are beautiful. And this image of yourself doesn’t define you. It is not a true representation of how amazing you are. It’s just a stuffed-up, weird-ass, arial view of yourself. And trust me when I say.

You are worth so much more than how you look. YOU ARE A SUPER STAR AND YOU WILL RISE UP INTO THE SKY AND BRIGHTEN SOMEONE’S NIGHT SOMEWHERE.

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Okay so lets talk about bloating.

First picture was taken last night after 3000 calories plus. As you can see it is not the most flattering picture.

The second one was taken first thing this morning and looks significantly ‘better’.

Everyone’s body will look like that at the end of the day. Your organs and body has to expand to digest all that glorious nutrition you have fed it. But it will go away. I know it is uncomfortable and sets off ED thoughts, I know. But it will go away. Please do not freak out about it.

There are things you can do to take your mind off it and make it better.

  • Drink peppermint tea (or any kind of tea really)
  • Get into baggy clothes or pyjamas
  • Cuddle up and watch your favourite Tv show or film
  • Remember that it is okay and will not turn into fat. It will disappear. It is water weight and food and will go. I rpomise. 
  • Keep fighting 
I JUST WANNA STOP JUSTIFYING FOOD TO MYSELF. I ATE IT SO WHAT? WHY DO I HAVE TO FIND REASONS, WHY CANT I JUST BE OLD ME AGAIN, WHY DO I THINK OF FOOD THIS MUCH, HOW DID I EVEN END WITH A DISORDER, WHY DID I DO THIS TO MYSELF, WHY DID I START THINKING THIS WAY, WHAT WAS THE REASON BEHIND IT, WHO TAUGHT ME TO FEEL THIS WAY, WHO PUT THAT MUCH INFORMATION AND STUPID PROANA SHIT, HOW WEAK WAS I THAT I LET FOOD CONTROL ME AND MY HEALTH, WHAT WAS THE FIRST TRIGGER THAT CREATED THIS WHOLE DOWNFALL. GOD I. AM. SO. ANGRY. RIGHT. NOW.
Just incase you need it...

- i am giving you permission to disobey your eating disorder
- i am giving you permission to recover
- i am giving you permission to eat what ever you want
- i am reminding you ALL that i love you and care about you and you deserve to be alive and healthy and happy

once I had a dream that I ate sugar, and I woke up that morning screaming and shaking from anxiety, so if that doesn’t show you how fucked up eating disorders are, I don’t know what will. take care of yourselves, you deserve your health and your peace of mind. this life you have is too beautiful to lose

Get off the scale! I have yet to see a scale that can tell you how enchanting your eyes are. I have yet to see a scale that can show you how wonderful your hair looks when the sun shines its glorious rays on it. I have yet to see a scale that can thank you for your compassion, sense of humor, and contagious smile. Get off the scale because I have yet to see one that can admire you for your perseverance when challenged in life.
—  Steve Maraboli
The brain does weird things when you deprive it of food.

And I don’t mean just calorically. Even if you’re eating 2000, 3000 calories a day in recovery, if they’re all safe, you’re still going to be obsessed with food and what you “can’t” have.

(AKA a friendly reminder to challenge yourself today.)