he’s nothing like the man he was before, the cocky oh-i-am-so-smart detective
he’s afraid and uncertain and guilty, oh how guilty… and he looks so broken because he’s not sure he’ll actually be alive again, he may go on but without john… it wouldn’t be living, it’d be just existing and he, sherlock holmes, the man who won with death, is now unsure if he’s going to make it
Okay but let’s get something straight: Mary didn’t just try to kill Sherlock once. Right here, at this very moment, we have a proof she would do it again. I really don’t know if there’s anything else you need to know about her.