Debating with our bodies and mind

So lately i have not been doing any type of exercise or have been eating right. I miss it, You know?

Like the difference between now and before when i was working out is incredibly a big difference. I cant even open a bottle of water without feeling weak-ish (-_-) sad i know.

All the muscle I’ve built up replacing my fat has turned back to fat. It sucks. Although i’m still in the 160’s almost 170….its all fat and that’s a no no that’s not healthy to me.

Losing weight is awesome but we also have to be careful not to let it get into our heads negatively and also positively. Yes i did say positive.

Believe it or not..that extra positiveness is awesome for insperation to keep going but also scary because your mind tricks you into thinking things you know is not right or wont benefit you just because “your a pound lighter” ya know? 

just had to share that


Well I guess I should reflect on all the things that happened this year huh?

Honestly I don’t remember much. This year has been an interesting but awesome year. This year I started high school for the 5th time. Now I didn’t like it no. I could have graduated this year like I was supposed to but I chose not to because that would have ment that I had to graduate in summer school and not walk across the stage like most people do… I didn’t want that I deserved to walk across my DAMN STAGE! (Sorry for the language) but really I have a education disabilities… No I’m not stupid or “slow” I can carry conversations I am street smart lol . God just made me a little more special is all. I’m not the only one with problems in school. Many people have IEP’s like I do or some have 504’s, it’s apart of me (Google it) and from all this things I’ve went through and meetings that basically made me feel like I’m not “smart enough” I deserve to walk across my stage and be proud of my self!! And have the feeling of “wow..I did it” so out of all this things that happened this year this will be the best thing that will happen to me. I graduate in May 2014…

The next best thing that happened is when I meet my fellow spark girls! Lol and going through my insanity workout ( which I will be starting after New Years) meeting people from different places is cool. Better yet starting a group with them and gaining followers on the ways is even cooler. We have showed other people that no matter where you live or the culture you have the struggles of weight loss happens to EVERYONE. We stuck but each other’s side and encouraged one another like every human should do. I can call all you gals my friends I really can. One because friends help each other out and two because we’ve all vented to each other lol and three because you’re all awesome :)

My baby cousin was born and now all I want to do is eat her up and be a big role model for her

I have a boyfriend now? It’s so weird lol he’s my first boyfriend. I’ve never had one or even kissed a boy. So let’s see if in 2014 ill be telling you guys if we’ve kissed haha.

Talking about bfs if you’ve never had one, or even kissed a boy, or if your still a virgin like me.. Be proud of your self because there’s not many of us. That bucket put of girls like us… Guys like that. They like being able to have someone whose fresh. Most importantly God loves it. My bf told me “I respect you for haven’t lost your virginity I really do” and I said ” it’s really not that hard when you value yourself and God.

This year I’ve also kind of let off some friends who basically wouldn’t be good in my future and I’m ok with that. The older you get the less you care about how many friends you have but as to who are good friends. Now I’ve never really cared about the number if friends I’ve had and have always known my differences between friends and “friends” but sometimes you have to really take a look

Welp lol let me get off here and say everyone who read this is awesome and if you didn’t your still awesome.

Happy New Years and may God bless you all with light for the future.. :D
Feliz año nuevo y que dios te bendiga y que te lleva con luz para el futuro .. :D

Good morning ! :)

Hey good morning everyone or good evening. This week I took everyday a day at a time. I went to the doctors. Everything’s all in check and back to “normal”. I didn’t workout this week or in general this whole month except a few little workouts but I did get back into the habit of looking at what i eat. So that’s good. I posted pictures of a pumpkin I carved! I don’t celebrate Halloween but doesn’t mean I can’t carve a pumpkin right? Lol. I carved out Mickey Mouse and it came out cute. I need to learn on keeping my self disallowed with working out. I’m becoming I guess lazy and that needs to stop. So that’s that :) hope you guys had a good week and that you all have a good day.

Mineidis: Day 16 /week 3

Ok, so its week 3, back to getting back on track. Well one i just wanted to say that i’m really happy that there’s a website called sparkteens and i’m also happy that we’ve made this group and for the support here and on spark. It’s changed my life so much that i don’t think i could have ever done if it wasn’t for spark. You guys are awesome :)

It’s been a pretty calm day so far till my family comes home and i have to leave with my grandma to do some work. Did my insanity. It’s going good so far besides it being hard, but when you work hard and have that determination you can achieve your goals. I posted pictures today and it’s not that i don’t like my body don’t get me wrong i do but my legs restrict me from working my hardest when working out. It’s also hard/ annoying to shop for clothes especially since i’ve lost more weight on top -__- which is why after insanity i have to find good leg work outs. Once i lose at least 3-4 inches of my legs i’ll feel better.

<><><><><><><>meals of the day<><><><><><><><><>

1.) oatmeal

2.)whole grain bread with regular cream cheese

3.) 2 tacos (ground turkey) 4.) a taco and a piece of steak ( i didn’t want to but it was soo tempting.my grandma made some and it smelled good…. haven’t had any what so ever spanish cooked food in a long time D: agh haha) and little bit of green bean