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      “Will you think about our arrangement while you’re away?

                                                  Yes.

                                         Will you miss me?

                                                   Yes.

                            I’ll miss you too, 

                                                … More than you know.”

The fact it was just a few weeks ago that the only person I’ve ever loved came back into my life after about 2 years, I learnt to stand up for myself and tell them to leave me alone even though it hurt, and I was really depressed/feeling suicidal around this time too, and now a month or so later, I feel like I’m really beginning to understand myself, my mind, my feelings and cut myself some slack is really refreshing. I know that I’m beginning to grow and understand myself as a person more than I ever have before and that I need to take care of myself before I can do anything else.
I feel very content, a little sad deep down sometimes, but I know that I can definitely do it, like there’s something inside of me that has just sorta sparked all this determination and I’m learning to push myself to hang out with more people and cut off the negative people that hold me down.
I have a long way to go to completely feel “healed” or whatever you wanna call it, but I honestly feel so much better for it cause I’m so sick of feeling down and shit. Like, fuck it. I’m gonna do whatever it is that makes me happy, mhm.