Figure Skating AU - An old piece among various others tba soon
Note: This was done back in early 2015 (yes, before YOI. I’ve always loved the sport) in conjunction with Nicole’s lovely birthday gift for me that year (Read it on AO3: HERE). It belongs to an art log full of pair-skating Eruri illustrations. Hopefully I will finish it all sometime this year orz
So sorry for the silence for the past 2 months. >_< I’ll jumpstart again within the next month!
A trail of darkness is all that
follows her around, through every corner, every step forward, every pause,
every victory and loss, thicker than the wall of isolation surrounding her,
darker than the life she’s been cursed with. It’s a ghost—or a collection of
many, of those she stained her hands with their blood, of those she betrayed, and
of those she left behind. It’s a soul that feeds off of death, that creates
death and spreads it through her lungs and veins, consuming her body with every
second that passes, and it’s the only reason she doesn’t look back. For all the
waste and damage that have been done, it will render all of it pointless; her existence,
her sad existence which cost the death of many, even for the sake of a single life
that was never hers, and it’s a vague mixture of selfishness and selflessness
all at once.
Cold is what she claims to be, but
instead is what she feels, frozen in an endless loop of guilt and regrets, of
mistakes and flaws she wishes to fix, but still she doesn’t look back—can’t
look back. It’s a vast world with many choices, none that were ever in her
reach, for her path has been destined since the day she opened her eyes to that
vast world, clear and straight, even if it weren’t empty of some small bumps on
the road. Bumps like friendships she didn’t know she’d make, bumps like the
truth behind all the lies she’d been told, bumps like a love that never
blossomed, for its spring never came.
What remains are memories, of the
loved ones who hated her, of the hated ones who loved her, of the clash of the
two, the rise of one and fall of the other, but she doesn’t look back, even
when failure is the only fate that awaits her, she won’t look back.
So even if her heart is weak and
fragile, and even if she kills, hurts, and betrays, even if she doesn’t look
back, her humanity is the sole thing that remains, with all her perfections,
and all her imperfections outweighing them. All the sins committed that tears
won’t wash away, only a dying wish for a divine force to pull her out, almost
nonexistent; or perhaps, at the heart of it, that force is human, one that is
greater than her, one that she can never become, but one she can look up to and
admire. And because of that, she knows… beauty exists even in an ugly world,
even if rare to come by.
Sorry, she says to herself for she has no power to say it out loud. I’m
really sorry, and the words taste sour, a flavor that doesn’t go away no
matter how many times she washes her mouth.
Hi I can’t draw cats for the life of me. :’) I was going to add a bit more to this but I just kinda gave up haha. I might add more later though! (probably just doodles) Thanks for the ask @nakamatoo! It was fun. :D
This is hard to answer because I honestly don’t know where to start! Sorry it took me a while to answer, I wanted to write this down so :) Sorry if it’s messy and repetitive. Eren is so so important to me in so many different ways and he makes everything so much better. I genuinely care a lot about him and he has changed me in positive ways. It’s hard to explain but to me he’s just wonderful and amazing and he’s always there for me.
Eren is a truly fantastic and genuine character and he brings out the best in people (including me) and is able to inspire everyone around him. He is a genuine kid who stays true to himself no matter what, who speaks up for what he thinks is right. He has a ridiculously huge heart even though people ignore that and his core is brave and determined, he moves people just by being himself. Eren is passionate, ardent, desirous, strong willed and those are things I deeply admire about him. He is unique and so so so amazing, he makes me value stuff around me a lot more and he makes me feel passionate and loving, he inspires me and gives me something to look forward to, he gives me a reason, something to be happy about and I will never regret loving such a delightful character. I’m unconditionally proud of him and I feel like every day I find a new reason to admire him. I could just sit all day and stare at him and I would never get bored.
Eren is a great friend, the best friend anyone could possibly have and he is always there for his friends no matter what, even when it means protecting them with his own life. He cares a lot about his dear ones and would never hesitate when it comes to them. Although his childhood was taken away from him, Eren remains loving and caring and would do anything to get that happiness and freedom back. Eren works harder than everyone else to achieve his goals and never gives up, he trains so ridiculously much because he believes he can achieve greater things, he overworks himself to prove his worth and to feel like he is needed and that he can help everyone. Eren is the type of person who overworks himself to the point of being physically exhausted and getting nosebleeds just so that he can be useful and because he wants to use his abilities to use others. He wants people to approve him, he wants to feel needed, he wants to know he can be more than just a burden, he wants to help and he wants people to understand how much he values his cause and how much he would sacrifice for it. Eren bluffs because he himself wants to believe he’s strong and a “good weapon” for humanity. He wants to believe in himself, he needs reassurance just like a normal kid would and that’s because he treasures people’s lives and is tired of seeing everyone around him suffering because of him.
Eren has begged to die, he has been tortured, he has seen his friends die, he has seen his mom being eaten, he was forced to grow up way too fast, he has to live with the fact he has his goddamn father, he knows when he’s going to die, he has been hurt countless times, people have tried to kill him, he has lost all his hope, he has seen awful stuff, he struggles a lot with all the mixed memories he gets, he feels betrayed by his own dad and by people he looked up to, he has self harmed himself so so so many times, he is exhausted, he is feared and not trusted by most people, he has lost limbs, he even has been eaten by a titan, he has been treated like a monster with no feelings, he blames himself for the deaths of so many people, he blames himself for his dad’s acts, his dreams have been crushed… but this kid remains strong and true to himself, Eren keeps his head up for the sake of what is right. Eren wants to help people without expecting anything in return from them, and that’s something very important he has taught me. He keeps fighting no matter what and dedicates his heart and soul to what he thinks is the right thing to do. He spreads strength and hope, he makes people understand their true value and gives them a reason to always keep fighting.
Eren has been through so much development and that proves how amazing his character really is. He is aware of his surrounding and learns with his mistakes. He has doubted himself so many times and he has learnt that he can’t do everything alone, he has learnt how to value team work. He’s way more than his “anger issues”, he’s honest, emotional, courageous, compassionate, and there’s this huge mix of emotions inside him. He’s reckless and stubborn but he always takes action and has learnt to control his emotions. He has a great morality and wants the world to be fair and real. He has a striving spirit and a kind and generous heart. His sheer determination and his hard work were enough to take him to the place he is now, and he should be proud of himself. He has learnt so much and he has a huge huge huge potential. He can do anything he sets his mind to. Eren admires and respects his comrades with his entire heart, he looks up to people and follows their examples because he wants to be a great soldier.
Eren made it to the top 5 in his trainee squad even after being told he wouldn’t be able to make it, he didn’t hesitate to fight the colossal titan when it appeared in Trost despite being a new soldier with no fighting experience, he sacrificed his life for Armin and saved him with only one leg, he saved Mikasa form her kidnappers giving her a new family, he punched a titan with his bare hands and saved everyone, he was ready to sacrifice his life just so that Historia could eat him. Eren is badass and wonderful even without relying on his titan powers and fights even though he knows he has low chances of actually winning. He closed both holes in wall Rose and wall Maria and provided humanity their first victory against titans, he fought the female, armoured and colossal titans alone, he mastered his hardening ability and used it to save everyone once again, he gives people a reason to remain hopeful. He carries the burden of “not being a hindrance to humanity” and deals with a lot of stress, uncertainty and pressure, yet he’s still ready to go no matter what. This kid never gets time to properly rest and just be a kid, and was forced to embrace powers he never asked for.
In spite of everything, this is just a little boy who probably misses his mom probably a lot and who doesn’t want anyone to go through the same as him. Eren is my happiness, he is always full of life and lights up my world just by being his unique and amazing self. He really does inspire me a lot and really do care a lot about him, so I hope one day he gets the opportunity to be happy and surrounded by his loved ones. I am very grateful that I found something so worth of love as Eren and I’m always here for him :)
snk manga: constantly shows how much armin and eren mean to eachother, also shows that armin is the reason why eren started dreaming about the world outside the walls and why he realized he wasnt free, shows how eren and armin both dont mind being physicially close to eachother, shows how much they trust eachother and would literally die for eachother
snk anime: ok how can we make all of this 0% gay & 100% hetero
Reiner has 2 years left, which means he got the power 11 years ago at the age of 10. He is now 21. If Annie got her titan power around the same time he did, she was 9 when she got her powers.
She was 16 after graduation, that means she had her powers for 7 years, which leaves her with 6 years.
Putting all these numbers together, approximately 4 years have passed, counting from the time Annie caged herself inside the crystal.
In conclusion, we have 3 possibilities to consider:
Annie has 6 years left in case she: a. doesn’t age inside the crystal and b. is still inside the crystal up until now (which I kind of doubt).
Annie has 2 years left in case the crystal doesn’t freeze the aging process.
Annie has less than 6 years left in case she: a. came out of the crystal during the time-skip, and b. the crystal freezes the aging process. This could give her 2-3 years left minimum, a little less than 6 maximum if she only came out recently.
“we never see you anymore, big bro.” isabel blurts out. she’s sitting on the ramparts of the roof saddle style, leg swinging freely in open air.
“i have more responsibilities now.”
“sure.” furlan snorts, sitting to isabel’s side on the floor of the roof, a knife’s blade polishing between his fingers.
“fuck you, furlan.” levi spits, kicks up gravel that sprays into his lap.
“you’re always around the commander.” isabel chimes, sing songs it like a taunt, and it flairs levi to anger.
“like a dog.” furlan adds.
“like a little angry dog.” isabel giggles. levi squints his eyes, smacks furlan generously upside the head, and points a finger directly at isabel’s nose. furlan groans and rubs his head, and the two of them whimper. turning heel, he stomps away toward the door. “aw! come on, levi! we’re just messin’ with ya!”
“let ‘im go, bel. he’s got some shoes to polish.”
levi stops mid-step, twitches his head to the side and looks over his shoulder. “if it wasn’t for erwin, none of us would be alive right now.”
“you say that…”
levi turns, shoulders up to his ears. isabel and furlan are his family, the only two people in the whole world that can see and understand him… though a third is quickly coming to bloom. “you know damn well it’s true. stop being an asshole about it.”
“it’s because we avoided the rain storm–”
“it’s because we had him.” levi nearly shouts, but his voice is so smooth it strikes like a slick venom. “get your fuckin’ head outta your ass and realize that.”
“he tricked us.”
“not before we did first.”
“as if he ever was to begin with…”
the same fight as always. the strain between furlan and levi could only be distinguished as jealousy, and levi doesn’t care to understand why. they are his to protect and care for, and the best way he can do that is to follow erwin. what furlan’s deal is doesn’t fucking matter to him, as long as he’s still breathing to even have a problem at all. “he saved us then too.”
“he doesn’t give a shit about us. he gives a shit about you.” furlan says softly.