mine: rue

Maintaining a relationship with Juni and Bean Sprout’s birth family is really difficult. Sometimes I just want to cut and run, even though I won’t, because it’s HARD.

We caught the kids’ grandmother, who is the relative we email with, in a few big lies recently and it is bugging me. If we can’t trust her to tell us the truth about important stuff, how can we build a relationship that makes us feel comfortable slowly reintroducing contact with the kids?

I don’t know. There’s a lot of resentment on both sides I think, and it’s hard to work through. Rue just adds another complex layer to it all and it makes me want to just distance us all from it. Juni is still working through her trauma of Rue’s sudden removal and her belief her sister isn’t safe. It set her back at least 6 months and we’re still not back to baseline. The birth family doesn’t/can’t/won’t understand why it mattered to Juni at all. They also think if they keep Rue then Juni will come back to them when she turns 18. And maybe part of my own shit is that I’m afraid they’re right.

I may delete this later, it’s verging on TMI but I needed to vent.


Some photos of my kenku costume at Anthrocon 2016, taken by @adammillerstudio! Oh boy did I ever have a lot of fun! The other raven in these photos is @qawstume and the snowy owl we are mobbing is @crystumes, who made both of the blanks that we used for our masks.

If you have any questions about this costume please check out my FAQ!


My D&D character, Rue, for that one OC outfit meme. The prompts I got, from top to bottom:

👑 dressed as royalty 
🎄 in an ugly Christmas sweater
❌ in something they would absolutely never wear (a wetsuit in this case)
💤 in their sleep attire (soft, loose enough for maximum fluff expansion)
🌁 OC in a hoodie (also acceptable sleep attire)

(I’m not accepting any more asks. Thanks to those of you who sent prompts!)