Prompt: Businessman!Sam AU, a variation of the one I wrote in The Babysitter. The reader feels uncomfortable being surrounded by his high class colleagues, so Sam tries his best to make her feel a little better about being stuck at a tedious business dinner.
Character: Sam x Reader Reader Gender: female Word Count: 2.5k Warnings: Language, smutty goodness, a little PDA, dirty talking/rough/possessive/dom!Sam (give me a minute here), orgasm denial, I said the word “daddy” like once. let me know if I forgot anything else!
A/N: This is filth and I’m sorry. But I’ll admit right now, I’d let this version of Sam completely fucking destroy me. No shame. Dom!Sam girls, unite. And PLEASE tag me in your smut appreciation day fics!@fvckinpayno vs @balthazars-muse – let’s fucking gooo.
Okay but what if Dean’s pissed that Cas hasn’t texted or called in weeks, so Dean goes out, trying to prove to himself that he’s still got it (because really, when was the last time Dean had a hook up?) He starts to drink heavily, as he keeps checking his phone to see if Cas has texted him back, but to his disappointment… Nada. So he continues to drink with thoughts in his head like “Well fuck him, I’ll just have myself a good old Valentine’s Day.” and yeah, he knows he’s full of shit and if Cas would just text him something… anything, he’d be happy because it’s been weeks and he’s about to lose it. Right when he’s about to check his phone again, a sexy girl sits next to him and Dean just goes with it. Drink after drink, trying to flirt, despite his mind being a million miles away, but he takes her to his car anyway, and then she’s straddling him, kissing his neck, while Dean peeks over at his phone that he has in his hand, sighing.
The girl is writhing on him, she starts giving him a hickey, and Dean wants to be into it. He really does, but when she notices that he’s not, she pulls back and is all, “What the hell is wrong with you?” She turns to see him staring at his phone and she grunts as she rolls off of him. No more words are exchanged when she leaves his car, slamming the door behind her and all Dean could do is sigh with relief as he runs his hand through his hair. He pulls out the bottle of whiskey he has in the glove compartment and finishes it, all while staring at his phone, wishing his angel would just text him back already. He ends up passing out in the car, waking up the next morning hungover as hell, so he drives back to the bunker hoping there’s some decent grub in the refrigerator. Bacon. Bacon sounds good. If Sam’s there, he’ll just play it off like he had a great night, when really, all he needed and wanted was Cas.
I think by the end of the episode , it was clear. The Amara thing is non consensual, Sam letting Dean know it’s ok, and not his fault, and the other message. Heart. Who Do You Love (I kept seeing that next to the title of this episode, was it a working title or alternate title, or subtitle?) Either way by Dean making it clear the hold is NOT LOVE OR DESIRE answers that question. Who does he really love. Cas. The heart theme is too strong with Dean lately and making it clear his heart is NOT pining for Amara, it has to be pining for someone and the only other person that makes any sense is Cas. (I seriously doubt it’s an ex) So while I try so hard to get through these weird episodes with Amara or other things that seem to be tearing Destiel apart, I actually think they’re doing the opposite and maybe, just maybe, this will all end with our Destiel hearts being filled.
Dean Winchester is very important to me, if you couldn’t tell. And from the minute Amara showed up, I have not been happy. I am not a fan, to say the least. And if you also couldn’t tell, I’m a pretty big Destiel shipper. So to me, this whole Amara business is bullshit. It’s predictable on the writers’ part, and it’s annoying as hell. But from what we just saw at the end of 11x13, I have some new ideas.
Dean says, “call it desire, call it love, but it’s not that.” The way he describes her, as wanting to kill her and end her when he’s not around her, but feeling this indisputable, unstoppable attraction when he’s with her leads me to believe that Amara is less of a love interest and more of a personification of an addiction or a toxic relationship. Dean wants to end her. He wants to get rid of her. But he can’t. Because he’s addicted. In a toxic relationship, you often want to end it, to cut the person out. But you can’t. Because your mind needs them. When you’re an addict, you often don’t want to take the drugs or drink the alcohol, but you have to. Because your body needs it. Dean doesn’t love Amara. He doesn’t, and he never will. He is addicted to her. And that’s going to be an interesting battle in and of itself.
(Also no one can convince me that Dean loves Cas and this addiction to Amara is killing him.)