“I could say
In a thousand different languages
How cute you are;

But it sounds too cheesy,
So I won’t do it.

I could write
In a thousand different books
About your hair and your smile;

But I’m paranoid,
So I won’t do it.

I could look
Forever at your face
Because you’re too gorgeous;

But I’d creep you out,
So I won’t do it.

I could create
Many different words to try
To describe how I feel about you;

But it still wouldn’t be enough,
So I won’t do it.

I could try to
Run away and see you everyday
Even if you live so far;

But I’d be grounded forever,
So I won’t do it.

I could make
A few poems, a few words
To try to show you how in love I feel;

How in love I feel with you,
And I’m just trying to.”

- Lucca M.

I just want to take a second to talk about 1D and what they mean to me. They came into my life at sort or an interesting time. It was like the middleish of my eighth grade year. At first I was trying to avoid being into them because I thought well this is just another Justin Bieber situation and the fans were gonna be really fucking annoying and they’re probably not that great. I was curious about them though. Some of my friends were into them but I was kinda whatever about them. Then one night, I don’t really know what came over me, but I wanted to know what their sound was other than just What Makes You Beautiful. So I went on Itunes and I listened to I Wish. I fell in love with it. I the continued and fell in love with the rest of the album and gave in and bought it. Which led to me looking up their names and finding out which one was which. It was the next day I think, thatI went and I searched the infamous 1D funny moments.. The video diaries were actually the funniest things in the world to me. I fell in love with them. My best friend liked them too so we had that in common and they were a lot of fun to talk about. My freshman year I was obsessed. OBSESSED. To the point where literally every other thing that came out of my mouth was about them. I literally couldn’t stop talking about them. For Christmas I got tmh tickets with my best friend and I was so excited.. And then our friendship fell apart and she had started hating 1D and I still loved them with all my heart and yet she still went to the concert and I didn’t get to. Anyways, after that I kind of put them on the back burner of my mind because I was sad I didn’t get to see them and I felt kinda hopeless about ever seeing them. Plus my obsession with Little Mix was becoming even more prominent. Midnight Memories came around and bruh that leak night was one of the best nights of my life honestly. That year was REALLY REALLY shitty for me so that night was a huge deal to me. It was one of the only times I was happy. For Christmas I got tickets and it didn’t even feel real. In a weird way 1D were really the only stable thing I had that I knew I could always count on. My sophomore year I was highly depressed and I had the worst friends in the world. 1D were there. I watched all fucking 8 hours of 1D Day and it made me so happy. My awful friends were always making fun of me for my taste in music and the fact that I loved 1D and Little Mix. They made fun of me for my body. I couldn’t do anything without being ridiculed. I had, had enough. I stopped talking to them and for a while I was completely alone. I had nobody to count on except my favorite bands and coming onto tumblr where I could actually see there were other people who had the same interests as me and I would have given anything to meet someone who liked the same bands as me in my reality. Eventually I did and she’s the best person I know. Anyways, like I said I only really had 1D and Little Mix to count on. They were the only stability I had that I knew could make me laugh or be a tiny bit happy when I was so fucking sad I could barely even will myself to get out of bed. Finally I got to see them. I mean yes I saw 5sos too and I was super excited about it, but 1D is different. They have had a huge part in shaping who I am. I honestly feel so blessed to have been able to see all five of them. I’m so sorry to anyone who never got the chance to. The Four leak came around and it was such a failure I was kind of dying laughing. Then, when Zayn left I legitimately had a mental breakdown. I found out in English class and my whole body went numb. I couldn’t breathe. I had to sit for an hour and a half and hold in my tears. As soon as I got in the car I broke down. I didn’t stop crying for literally three days. No one could say anything to make it better. This was my first real heartbreak as dumb as it sounds. I was so sad I wrote a song about it and I could only play through it once when I recorded it because I couldn’t get through it without crying. They were the one thing I could always count on and I felt like my whole life was falling apart again after it started to get better. I was so scared they were just gonna end it. I didn’t know what I was gonna do. So now here we are. I love Zayn so much and I’m so happy that he’s in such a good place. When Drag Me Down dropped last night I was kind of anxious about them without Zayn. They blew me away. I am so fucking proud of them. The single is amazing and they are here to stay and I love those boys with all my heart. Being a One Direction fan is one of the craziest most emotional things in the world and I wouldn’t trade it for anything. To anyone that tries to make me feel bad for loving them because they are “just a dumb boyband” literally fuck you. You have no idea what sort of an impact they’ve had on me and so many other people. And this “dumb boyband” has done more for me than a lot of people I actually know and I feel so fucking lucky to have them in my life. In the words of 1D, “all my life you’ve stood by me when no one else was ever behind me, all these lights they can’t blind me, with your love nobody can drag me down.” That is what 1D are to me. They have stood by me when I had nobody. They love us and they give make me so happy, so damn right nobody can drag me down because I have them. This song might be for their families, but this song reminds me of what they are to me.