mind yourself please

To who ever is reading this; you’re lovely. Absolutely lovely. A perfect creation. You have so much potential and can achieve so much. Really, you are. So live your life the way it feel right, dream big dreams, and live passionately.

Last time I read Howl's Moving Castle I made a list of all of the things Howl calls Sophie and here they are

Outspoken old woman

Nosy old woman

Dreadfully nosy, horribly bossy, appallingly clean old woman

A terror

You overactive old thing

That one-woman force of chaos

Dear Sophie

My good Sophie

Rude as well as a bully

Sophie dear

Dear Sophie

Mrs Nose

Sophie dear

Busy old fool, unruly Sophie

Mrs Nose

Mrs Moralizer

Mrs Longnose

Mrs Snoop

That fool Sophie

I always thought I had lost myself. But what I just realized is that I’ve probably just forgotten who I am.
—  my thoughts under the shower
let’s compare

canon Mercy

  • a white woman who has angel motifs. something we’ve seen all the time.

  • a white woman who has unethically resurrected/prolonged the life of/biomedically altered two men of color. (Genji and Reaper).

  • has very little backstory because misogyny actually and because Blizzard needs to keep her likable and not expand on her complicated character. if she’s not one-dimensional, she’s not appealing. if she’s not a hot, sexy nurse with almost no personality aside from being nice, bubbly, compassionate, and a little bit tired then she has no worth. let’s also note all of these personality traits are linked to her job and she really doesn’t have anything unique about her. (see point one)

  • has not aged since she was 17 or in her 20s? because of all of the biotic treatments. yes. that’s canon. Mercy is forever sexy and young. because “we need hot characters to sexualize” so no she is not representation for older women - she doesn’t look old. that’s kind of the point. we need older women who don’t fit the niche of heteropatriarchal standards of beauty. (compare to Ana and how her design transcends that box wonderfully).

concept Mercy

  • a black man with angel motifs. literally unheard of. I have never heard or seen of this. white angels happen way too often due to the idea of whiteness = purity.

  • a black man who did the same as canon Mercy. it’s still as bad but it isn’t, basically, white-on-black medical interference. there’s a long, sad history of black people and their bodies being used for medical experimentation. it’s not good. if concept Mercy had happened, this would have made his actions more sympathetic and more believably from a sense of compassion and care.

  • a black man who would have more backstory (maybe, if Blizzard’s inevitable racism didn’t get in the way… maybe this is wishful thinking…) than canon Mercy because he’s allowed to be complex and complicated because he’s not their sexxi nurse.

  • a black man who would have gotten to be a fucking healer??? a black man in the role of someone who helps, and has almost zero ties to violence. (Mercy’s game mechanics also reflect this and how she was upset Ana used her tech and “Must violence always be the solution?” – THIS would have been concept Mercy’s stuff too!!!!)

  • would have been in a relationship with Genji. we would have had canon gay men of color together. we could have had this.

  • “but Pharmercy is good!!” actually no hate because I sort of like Pharmercy and I’m a lesbian but a lot of the times fans don’t treat Pharah right and make her into some muscleheaded Big Brown Bitch and it gets very racist very fast.

  • “but Pharmercy could still be good!!” I mean yeah it probably could have been and I might’ve have for once had a straight ship in OVW but you know what would have happened? racism. this fandom sucks shit. but ngl if gay Gency had been canon I would have OTP’d them and never even thought about pairing Mercy with Pharah.

concept Mercy who is only a little different than canon Mercy but has 

  • pants
  • realistic and functional clothing
  • not immediately reeking of sexualization
  • still has everything canon Mercy has going on but: PANTS


I am not a people person.

I’m going to go off on a ramble here, but I need to get this off my chest, because I feel fake online, and the one thing that I never want to do is be dishonest with people.

But like I said, I am not a people person. I don’t like socializing. I don’t jump on my computer to talk to people right away. I don’t like having friends depend on me for their happiness, because it kills me inside when I don’t want to interact but I know they need me. I love sitting in my room and drawing with my Skype and discord on mute.

I am a rather altruistic person, which means I do things that might not make me comfortable for the well being of others. It’s a personality flaw of mine. I end up burning myself out a lot of the time.

So I try to take some self care, and I try to block out the world. I turn off my phone, I don’t message people back right away, I sit alone in my own little corner in my own little chair. 

Problem is, that’s when my mind eats me alive.

What if someone needs me to talk to them? What if they’re having a bad day, and they need a positive message? What if this is the last time I’ll ever get to talk to someone? What if a friend needs me to talk them out of suicide?

So I go online and force myself to be social. This is in no way your fault. This is a flaw of mine. It’s a form of anxiety I struggle with daily. Someone not talking to me when I force myself to be social makes it worse, because my mind jumps to the negative right away, and my social anxiety twists that knife deeper into my heart.

I have the same problem when people ask me to be friends with them. It’s one more person my mind is going to worry about. It’s one more person I feel responsible for. That’s why when people suddenly ask me to be friends, I respond with “in time we could” or “if I get to know you, anything’s possible” because I can’t risk my other friend’s time with me.

I want to be everyone’s friend. I want to be there for everyone when they need me. I want to be social all the time without getting tired.

But that’s not me. And I am so tired.

anonymous asked:

Oh my god! I'm so excited because of the jikook fanfiction you imagined. Can you tell me (us) the whole story plot you imagined???? Please????

Hello Anon :)

Yes, of course i can. So here we go….

I imagine that it would a nice story plot for a fanfiction, if Jimin would be in love with JHope’s girlfriend secretly for a few years. 
But because he likes JHope so much, he didn’t admit it and love the girl just in his mind and enjoy the time he can spend with her an JHope.

Maybe some day JHope have to go to the hospital, because he hurt himself at dance practice, and as a good friend, Jimin go with him as his emotional support.
While he’s waiting of JHope he walks through the floors of the hospital, looking around, and walks his way back.

Suddenly he hearing a nurse screaming “Watch out!”, and he turns around, just to see a boy in a wheelchair rush up to him. Jimin have no time to react, and the boy and the wheelchair collide with him, and all both, included the wheelchair, fall up the stairs.
After the impact Jimin is bury under a wheelchair and the boy, and his whole wrist hurts like hell. 

Jimin isn’t amused of the fact that he break his wrist and have to stay in the hospital for a night. Especially he have to stay in the same room as the boy in the wheelchair. The boy looking not amused too. 

In the night Jimin wakes up because of weird sounds, which come from the wheelchair-boy who try to get in his wheelchair, and Jimin isn’t a beast. That’s why he stand up and help the other boy in his wheelchair, curious what he want to do in the middle of the night. 

blablablablabla XD

After Jimin left the hospital on the next day, he get mad because the picture of the wheelchair-boy which name he still don’t know, pops up in his head, so he go after a few days to the hospital again to visit that boy. 
Surprisingly the boy is very nice and a little bit shy, and Jimin wants to comfort him, so he start to visit Jungkook everyday after dance practice. 

Jimin and Jungkook become friends and even close, so Jungkook knows about Jimins secretly crush, and Jimin about Jungkooks hope that he can walk one day again.
Jimin don’t notice it, but his crush on JHope’s girlfriend goes away, because he’s slowly fall in love with Jungkook

blablabla…i don’t know what to do with my whole life, okay? XD 

me listening to pats fans complain about two losses


For seven hundred years, my people have been enslaved without voice, without hope. Now I am their sword. And I do not forgive. I do not forget.

Jongdae || As your Boyfriend

@unloyal-jongdae - Here you go, sweetie! If only I got this out on his birthday

  • There would be a lot of random yelling and singing.
  • Like, just brace yourself I guess? Especially if that isn’t what you’re like because you know
  • ….
  • Joking aside, gosh… this guy is so sweet? He is so supportive of you and everything you do. He only wants the best for you, you are his world and that is his priority.
  • He always looks down at your lips first, ALWAYS. And his eyes bore into your soul, looking into your beautiful eyes before pulling you into him for an ephemeral, yet passionate kiss.
  • He could look into your eyes forever
  • If and when you two fight, he can’t stand it. Always begs for your forgiveness and seeing him so desperate (in a good way) really gives you hope for your future together.
  • Always gives you his jacket because he is a gentleman
  • So you can be sure he lets you wear his shirts too.
  • Always sending you videos of him jumping around the stage due to ‘pre-concert butterflies’, so to speak.
  • “Yes, honey, I know. Please mind yourself.”
  • Having you as his lock screen and having him as your own.
  • He always hogs the quilt/blankets when you guys are asleep. He strikes me as a person who sleeps like a starfish and doesn’t realize until the middle of the night when he randomly wakes up and sees you completely exposed.
  • So he pulls you close and wraps the quilt around you two properly.
  • Like a fajita.
  • Loads of pranks on the other members if you’re at the dorms. Like everyone hates it when you two are together. Of course, the members are happy to see Chen has someone like you to take care of him but goodness, shit happens when you two are together at times.
  • You two are just an indestructible and invincible duo.
  • Having him serenade you. He always sings to you whether he’s beside you or through a video call when you can’t sleep
  • While he’s a prankster and he definitely has a filter, of sorts, there are times when he teases you far too much for your liking, I’m sure. It’s not even that they’re hurtful, they’re just annoying.
  • (My ‘kind of bf’ does this to me all the time but that’s a story for another time.)
  • Ass-grabbing included ^^
  • In interviews, he’ll always vaguely hint that he’s in a relationship, or at least that he’s absolutely smitten with someone. He loves leaving his fans going crazy and he admires the theories at times

Let’s take it downstairs~

  • Jongdae strikes me as a person who isn’t so into morning sex. I mean, he likes it, but it means he has to hurry through it all if he has to practice.
  • Sex at night so he can take his time to caress you and feel you tremble and shake and just be in his arms for once since you two are practically long-distance.
  • Y’all have heard him sing.
  • He’s so vocal in bed.
  • It doesn’t matter what you’re doing - it may even be just because of the atmosphere that has been created - you’ll always hear him.
  • Like Chanyeol, he’s BIIIIIIG into dirty talk, even takes it to the next level.
  • Using that 1% of his brain to good use.
  •  “Let me please you, baby. I’m going to take you so hard your mind will be as blank as paper,” he’d whisper into your ear.
  • Also big into body worship and loves leaving marks and hickeys all over your body.
  • You’re constantly wearing a scarf after a night with him.
  • However, he can be extremely loving and gentle. Just like all of the members so far, they are more than happy to go from gentle to rough and vice-versa if it means their partner is happy and getting pleased.

Dating Jongdae is fabulous, everyone. Where can I get one?

Can people who like Rika leave V fans alone, and can people who like V leave Rika fans alone? Like please? It gets annoying. 

I’ve seen a lot of hate on the V route opening video and on multiple posts towards both these characters. I get that you want to defend your fave’s, but does this mean you should spoil someone else’s fun? No. Everyone needs to calm down and stop acting like children. Like, I almost don’t feel like playing V’s route anymore because of all the people spoiling the fun. Let other people enjoy things.

don’t forget to take a break, drink some water, eat some food, or do anything that makes you feel safe && secure, your well-being is the utmost importance. 

You don’t get what all this is about
You’re too wrapped up in your self doubt
You’ve got that young blood, set it free 

There’s method in my madness
There’s no logic in your sadness
You don’t gain a single thing from misery
Take it from me 

vent art featuring tweek since im extra miserable

anonymous asked:

When you get this, respond with 5 things that make you happy :) Then send this to the last ten people in your notifications anonymously.

Now to find five other things that make me happy oh my. You guys are pushing this. Ermm *tells self to be less cynical*

  1. playing with cats and/or dogs
  2. getting tagged in keanu reeves posts
  3. when i can have breakfast by the water
  4. long walks on the beach, bare feet, when it’s just on this side of cool
  5. playing with my baby siblings