milso problem

Well-intentioned questions:

“When will he get leave next?”

“Where will he be stationed next?”

“Will he be able to come back for my wedding/Christmas/birthdays/holidays/anniversary?”

“When will you get to see each other again?”

You know what really just pisses me off?
When he doesn’t reply to my text messages.
I know I sound crazy right now and I know it shouldn’t piss me off.
But it’d be nice if he was busy or not in the mood to talk, to just tell me so rather than ignoring me.
And when he doesn’t reply to me (after replying to me constantly for an hour or so) I get this stupid insecure feeling that someone else is holding his attention, some other girl.
Why am I so insecure?
Why do I get this stupid feeling, every time he doesn’t reply to me, that he’s going to leave me?
Fuck. This.

The jar is finally complete!

For our 2 year anniversary, I put together a jar filled with 365 different colored notes with different things written on them.

Blue is songs that remind me of him.
Pink is date ideas.
Orange is prayer requests.
Yellow is reasons why I love him.
Green is scriptures to get him through the day.

I’m super excited to send it to him and I really hope he likes it.

. “Contrary to what the cynics say, distance is not for the fearful; it’s for the bold. It’s for those who are willing to spend a lot of time alone in exchange for a little time with the one they love.”

Meghan Daum

Things every milso learns quickly

-Mood swings are really hard to avoid

-Sometimes your soldier is a different person every month & you need to learn to understand that 

-Sometimes he’s clingy and other times he’ll go a week with almost complete silence

-You can’t “fix” him. You love him for the person he is. 

-He may not want to tell you about his day because he doesn’t want to hurt you with what’s really going on out in the world.

But he loves you more and more each day. He’s protecting the people he loves and that destroys him at the same time. He may not be able to say how he feels in words, but his heart is still true when he comes home.