miles away

long distance is better than reality.
there’s no judging.
you learn someone’s PERSONALITY before you learn their looks.
bc you love their personality so much, you fall harder for the acne sprinkled on their jaw or the stray hair sticking out from their scalp.
i mean, yeah, no touching sucks.
no hand holds, no arms snaking around your waist out of nowhere, no random cheek kisses when you turn your head to look at something, no hands running through your hair when your frustrated…
but you have the comfort of knowing that miles away, someone loves you so dearly, that they don’t even look at the people they go to school with anymore. they don’t try to hook up with the girl next door or the quarterback.
and the thing that keeps your relationship alive is the thought of one day seeing each other. that thought keeps you up at night.
you fantasize meeting them at the airport on a summer evening and you can almost feel the hot tears streaming down your cheeks.
you lay in bed and stare at the ceiling, seeing them walk towards you as your out with your friends, completwly oblivious to their plan. you can almost feel your mouth go dry.
i know for many, long distance isn’t ideal bc you may never meet that person. they might actually find someone who they can hold at night. you may even find someone. they could break under the pressure of being so far apart that they say they just can’t do it anymore.
but i can guarentee you, you might feel more love in one of those relationships. you’re not taken for granted. you’re so cherished and loved and kept in the little box next to their heart and under the key they wear around their neck bc they wish they could see you and hold you and wipe your tears when you cry, not just virtually do it. they know they won’t see you for a long time, if ever, but they still keep you so close, when in reality, your lover might not even text you that day bc they know that they’ll just see you tomorrow at school next to the water fountain and never think twice about the 5 messages you sent asking where they are.
long distance is so so hard on your heart and it’s so so tough to say that you’re in love with someone who’s feet are in the Atlantic when you’re smelling the Pacific air when someone asks about your relationship status, but all you have to do is believe.
they can work. stop putting them down, stop putting down your friends. everyone has a chance at love, whether or not it’s through a 2am Skype call.
—  b.r.g. // disconsolant // ♡