Guys, I can’t think about real things any more, so I’m going to think about something of zero consequence. Which is this tumblr.
I don’t know what to do with it. I always believed that despite the values I found abhorrent, the Duggars, the Bateses et all (with some notable exceptions) were, on some level, genuinely good people.
But in the last two days:
My ex and her wife had a note left on their front door saying that the writer can’t wait until their marriage was no longer legitimate and that they’re going to burn in hell. Signed with a “Trump2016,” so…no coincidence.
My friend’s niece was harassed all day at school by kids chanting “build a wall.” Her own (black) children are being told they should be segregated from the others, and one kid said he’s sorry for “their kind” now that Trump is president. (I’m scared shitless for her gender nonconforming child.)
My friend’s husband had to arrange an assembly to assure the students of his school that they and/or their parents would not be deported. Many of my friends teach in inner cities, low income areas, and areas with a high immigrant population. All of them cried trying to figure out what to tell “their” kids after Trump “won.”
This is TWO DAYS, in my relatively small pool of immediate friends and acquaintances.
And I don’t believe that, any more, about the fundies I thought were good people.
They knew that Trump was legitimizing racism, xenophobia, Islamophobia, homophobia, transphobia, ableism, anti-Semitism and sexism. And…is there a word for bigoted against poor people? Does “classist” cover that? Or is there a more specific word?
And they voted for him. Despite everything Jesus has ever said about loving your neighbor, defying wrong and standing by those shunned by society, despite all they bleat about putting Jesus and others before yourself, they felt that Trump was a better choice purely because he wants to imprison people who get abortions. (Which isn’t in the damn Bible. Nowhere in the goddamn Bible does anyone say “a fertilized egg is a person.” It does say that the loss of fetal life is equivalent to loss of property, not loss of a person.)
They are not good people. They gleefully rose to the occasion of legitimizing bigotry and bullying, knowing that it wouldn’t affect them, ignoring everyone who isn’t like them.
And I don’t know what I can do here any more.
I can’t lightheartedly snark on them. I can’t comment on how man they’re annoying but the kids sure are adorable. I can’t even make heavily sarcastic pointed comments. I can’t make light of the suffocating darkness that is these peoples’ souls.
I never expected them to vote any other way. But I’d probably feel differently if the election had gone the other way. It’d be easier to let it go, or just throw it on the pile of gross things about them.
I guess I just thought they never really hated people who were different. I figured they felt that self-righteous pity the super-religious seem to have by the gallon. But I didn’t think they were this ugly.
There’s nothing entertaining about where our country’s going,
and I can’t bring myself to look at, let alone laugh at, the assholes who think he’s doing
I have no idea what I’m doing here; if I’m going to change my mind in a few weeks or months when all has calmed down and things (maybe) seem a little less hopeless. But right now, when I look at the future I just see a huge blank stretching ahead of me. Not a new page to be filled, but an abyss.