Note: Okay, it isn’t so good, but at least I tried. Hope you guys will enjoy it anyway. It isn’t long so.. Tell me what you think about it, but please no insults. I already know it isn’t one of the best fanfic you could read.
He was lying on the gross, his body was hurting as hell. He barely could move his head to look around. He could hear his friends screams, but he couldn’t see them. All he could see was blood.
Red and dirty blood. It was falling onto his eyes and it was blurring the view. He tried to clean his eyes, but his arms were hurting too much.
Was it the end for him? Yeah, maybe. He didn’t have anything anymore to keep him fighting, he realizated. He didn’t care to see the outside world anymore. Because of him a lot of people died. It would be better if he just died right there. He didn’t deserve to live.
He was a monster.
Someone was calling his name, but he didn’t know who that was.
“Eren!” Again, but this time it was clearer.
It was Mikasa, still he couldn’t put a finger on it.
“Are you okay?” He felt two arms wrapping around him, trying not to hurt him.
She cleaned up his eyes. He looked at her and he saw what he thought he would have never see again.
A crying Mikasa.
“Eren..” she called his name whispering “Why didn’t you fight?”
“I’m a monster..” he just whispered back “I don’t deserve to live”
She was shaking.
“You’re not a monster” she spoke softly “A monster wouldn’t blame himself of being a monster” she paused sobbing. She caressed his cheeks gently as she spoke again.
“And it wouldn’t have saved a little girl who needed a family and give her a reason to keep living”.
“I don’t have anything to keep me fighting anymore” he revealed “I don’t want to see the outside world anymore. I don’t want to exterminate the titans anymore. Anything doesn’t count to me anymore”.
“What about me?” she asked whispering.
“Didn’t you promised me to stay by my side, forever? Don’t you care about Armin and the others anymore?” she yelled “Everyone is fighting because of you. Because you taught us that the freedom is the most important thing”.
She leaned down her face close to his.
“Don’t you care about me anymore?” she whispered as she touched his forehead with her own and closed her eyes leaning closer. He could feel her breathe on his mouth then he felt her gentle cold lips touching lightly his own.
She was kissing him gently. He felt everything Mikasa was feeling right then. Her fears, her weakness, her sadness, and the most important thing, her love.
He closed his eyes and he returned that gentle kiss.
She was right. I did have something to keep him fight and it was her. It always was but he was too blind to notice it.
The pain in his body slowly was going away. He felt like he finally could do everything just like before.
She pulled away and he brought his hand to her face, trying to wiping her tears.
“Thank you” he said as he was trying to standing up.
lol I’m just kidding I can’t just drop this manga without finding out the whole thing. But seriously though. I know that this sounds pretty annoying already and that I’m biased because I’m an eremika trash but just look at Mikasa at this chapter.
She’s already at the first stage of grief. The denial stage.
It’s really, really heart-wrenching for me because Mikasa has lost enough. Knowing that your only family in the world is going to die soon and there’s absolutely nothing you can do about it is just… painful. It just plain cruel.
I don’t know, man. This December update really got me and I just… feel so bad for all of them. I just can’t.
I don’t know if I’m being like Mikasa too, but I think there might still be some kind of plot twist to keep Eren and Armin around. Crossing my fingers for that one.