mikage okay

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Suzuya has a flashback to his days as Rei and is comforted by his squad.

TW for PTSD. 

“You’re an artist,” a CCG Investigator says, admiring Suzuya’s efficiently slain victims. 

Suzuya pauses. 

“He’s an artist already.”

“Rei-chan, you did so well. You get … fifty good boy points!”

Hanbee Abara frowns as Suzuya slips away without saying anything. He’s seen that blank expression before, and usually it ends with Suzuya crying alone in his room. Suzuya thinks his squad doesn’t hear, but they do.

“No one out there will want you, but I do.” Big Madam rubs his hair as he doubles over in pain. Blood seeps out from between his thighs. “Such a good little girl.” 

“I don’t want to be a girl,” he whispers to himself.

“Suzuya?” Keijin Nakarai approaches hesitantly. 

Suzuya stares at the ground. “I wanted to see the giraffes.”

“Hey.” Mizurou Tamaki snaps his fingers. “Back to present, Suzuya. We’re here.”

“Huh?” Suzuya raises his head.

“Are you okay?” Miyuki Mikage wants to hug him, but he’s not sure physical contact is what Suzuya needs.

“I’m a bad boy,” he says, beginning to cry. “Rei.”

“No. No, you’re not.” Keijin grabs their leader and wrestles him into an embrace. “You’re Juuzou.”

“And we like your name,” says Mikage.

“And we like you,” adds Hanbee, joining the hug.

“We think of you as a good, strong leader boy,” says Mizurou. 

“We love you, Suzuya,” Hanbee says.

Suzuya sniffles. His eyes are wide. “Do you?”

“Yes,” declares Keijin.

“I love you all, too.” Suzuya begins to sob. “Can you just - hold me - I miss Shinohara, and sometimes I miss Big Madam - and sometimes I hate myself -”

“We know, we know.” Keijin rocks Suzuya back and forth.

“There’s nothing that’s been done to you that takes away your value,” Mizurou assures Suzuya.

“We love you,” Hanbee repeats. It’s all he can say.

But Suzuya smiles, even if ever so weakly, and Hanbee thinks maybe it’s enough.

3

OKAY WAIT WHAT

I’ve not really seen Dark!Utena outside of his super cool basement hangout his mom said he could use and his office, so I wasn’t sure if he was just like, an Otohori cryptid or what, but MAD DOES HIS BRING UP SOME IMMEDIATE AND SCREAMING QUESTIONS

A: How the fuck does Saionji know Mikage? IS Mikage actually the one that’s the lead in for End of the World here, or what? Or was there like, a Jets-Sharks snap war between the Student Council and the Black Rose people?

B: Okay so Mikage is CLEARLY not a fucking human, because he got in, unheard, into a dorm room where I assume it was locked because Wakaba’s so protective of her own secret here. Is he one of the boys of the black rose, whose outlines we see when Utena does battle??

C: SINCE WHEN THE FUCK DOES MIKAGE GO TO ANYONE? He generally waits for them to find him from his lair. Is Wakaba still so good (or, conversely, still so stubborn) as to not need to seek out the help of his “counseling center” (which i will never be over) Why does he need to push this in yet another direction? 

Does it have something to do with the fact that Saionji WAS finishing that leaf for Wakaba, perhaps thus signifying that he had finally found some sort of happiness with Wakaba and was indenteding not to be a huge dick all the time anymore and Mikage just COULD NOT LET THAT HAPPEN, HE HAS SHIT TO DO? 

I DON’T KNOW

Please note I haven’t seen anything past this and am watching spoiler free! Please don’t confirm, deny, or explain anything to me! Even if I should be able to figure it out based on past episodes! Even if it’s cultural! Even if there is no answer! It ruins it for everyone when I get spoiled!

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SPOKE TOO FUCKING SOON I SEE I don’t fucking…

The only reason I see Mikage not BlackRose-ing him is because the only thing Tatsuya has is “she should be with ME AND ONLY ME instead of HIM”. I think he doesn’t even go past Butterfly level?

Okay but Mikage doesn’t even fucking try? To “go deeper” or whatever. I mean with Kanae he fucking interrogates her and her sin is “not a huge fan of anthy”

If that’s the “surface darkness” then underneath there has to be all kinds of things like, entitlement, hatred, jealousy, etc–all things we’ve seen people punished for with the a black rose through the heart.

I get that y'all love this anime, truly, but I’m not going to be excusing this choice, at least not with the information I have. Feel very comfortable saying it sucks

Please note I haven’t seen anything past this and am watching spoiler free! Please don’t confirm, deny, or explain anything to me! Even if I should be able to figure it out based on past episodes! Even if it’s cultural! Even if there is no answer! It ruins it for everyone when I get spoiled!