When I was really young (up until about 9), I was super outgoing. I loved to dance, perform and I was pretty secure with who I was.
When I got to middle school, a lot changed. I moved from Florida to Pittsburgh, PA and I didn’t have any friends. I started off 6th grade with little confidence. All of the sudden, I had become this introverted young girl who didn’t know how to make friends. The extreme change in climate wasn’t helping either. It was always cold and I was always getting sick.
Eventually, I became a part of a group of 3 girls and we were friends. I was a pushover though, and I wasn’t confident with myself. One of my “best” friends was pretty blunt. She would also get mad at me for no reason, and I would feel horrible about it. Looking back, I know that I was just being myself and I had no reason to feel bad because I wasn’t doing anything wrong. This is where my impatience for drama started.
On top of that, I was a skinny little stick, my two front teeth had a gap and boys didn’t like me (and if they did, I sure didn’t know). It seems so unfortunate now because I had no reason to not like myself. Whenever someone would bully me, I would never fight back. I would just obsess over their comments and drive myself crazy.
I’m not sure what has happened to me in the past 3-4 years, but I have decided that I couldn’t care less what people say about me. The fact that boys didn’t like me in middle school doesn’t matter anymore. All of those things that my supposed “best friend” said to me when I was younger have no place in my life. I like myself. I like the person that I’ve become. I guess what I’m trying to say is that I didn’t want to keep going through life disliking myself. It’s impossible for everyone to like me, and I know that now (I used to be a BIG people pleaser). You have to look at the good things about yourself and focus on that. I don’t even know you, but I am 100% sure that you have a lot of great qualities. You just have to appreciate them.