might delete this tbh

“Sæll vinur, hvað viltu? Þú veður í villu, ég vil stelpur. Hey, drullaðu þér, einn tveir þrír! Farðu í rassgat – ég er hýr, ég er hýr.”

[Translation: “Hey buddy, what do you want? You are mistaken, I want girls. Hey, get lost, one two three. Fuck off – I’m queer, I’m queer.”]

So uuuuh this is an Icelandic translation of a video by @jaxxgarcia which is… MUCH better than this lmao but idk have this thing I guess.

anonymous asked:

5 for COFT please? ( also that latest chapter of TGATNW was super great. hot damn that subtle torture!)

5: What part was hardest to write?

It was really hard starting, because I was so sure - like so sure - that people wouldn’t read it or want to read it. And there was actually a drop off between Game Theory and The Court of Five Thrones (some people love GT and not COFT, some people love COFT and not GT, some people don’t love either etc.)

Additionally, I had just cut off from an intensely emotionally abusive person, who was at the time quite entangled in my writing in a not healthy way. And so I’d not only cut off a relationship that had been super important to me for such a long time, some of their parting words included them strongly urging me not to write COFT because they had zero interest in it as a project. That, combined with the abuse, meant that COFT became a lot more to me than just…a story.

But that meant it also became more intimidating. My self-esteem has never been great, and it was pretty shattered at that point. I didn’t like any of my writing. I felt really burned out (and I was). One of the most helpful therapists I’d ever seen, left the state after confirming that I was in the equivalent of a verbal domestic violence relationship and she recommended a thing called No Contact which was really fucking hard, and I was in a grey area of looking for a new therapist, and I’d also lost a few other friends who I cared about deeply, or alternatively, the friendships changed to the point where we became acquaintances. Like, this irl stuff had a massive knock on effect, but these were often also people I knew on Tumblr, and so I was suddenly like, wait… what?

So I’ll always remember the first 5 chapters as the hardest. Introducing new characters, trying to find my way through a new format, losing friends, almost constantly suicidal for months, unable to reach out here (I felt muzzled by the situation), and also not really sure about myself. Things many people go through, but just felt sharper because of all this other stuff.

I’ve had writer’s block since then, sometimes pretty bad, but nothing compares to that period of time where I seriously was considering quitting writing and deleting Game Theory, and my finger would hover over the ‘delete this work’ button so many times you have no idea because I couldn’t stand myself.

So, so glad I worked through that.

valt: i m srorry n,guy s ijust can ‘tr stoop valterky fron awakenug bc im just a really relly lcuky amine protwgronist an now rnatros’ rreally sad tht i got intto natonalsbinstead of him im so sorry,, kumcho,,,,,,

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The Devil asked me how I knew my way around the halls of hell. I told him I did not need a map for the darkness I know so well.

Dhampir. Rogue. True Neutral.

Aesthetic board for my new d&d character, Robin Payne. 

I just replayed the latest chapter of The Freshman book 3 to break up with James ONLY because I wanted to see what would happen and then in the end I GOT THE ZIG SCENE ON THE ROOFTOP?!! and now I’m dead because I didn’t think that would happen???? I had my mc flirt with Zig every chance she got in the beginning (yes she’s a bad gf) but I didn’t pay diamonds to almost cheat on James and after that little bar scene we didn’t really get the option to flirt with him again if we had another partner???

And now I’m so split, I don’t know what to do?? I love James but I’m so into Zig. Can I really leave my boo???? Can I???? I don’t have the patience to replay the book what do I DO i’m shook

Hel ppp