Oh my, my, my, dear girl. Cge lang, keep me entertained, keep it up, I'll be here, just here.. Crippin, staying on the down low. Watching you go down with the load of mess you've created. Haha basta ako mgpapapayat for puto, para hindi siya titingin sa katulad mo. Always ready to make 'salo'. Sarry for hatin :P
Here I go again. Short Version.

Dark room, beaming bright lights, loud music, people, lots of people, familiar/unfamiliar faces scattered around, hazy, blurry faces;

Slowly after all the pushing and shoving I made my way, near the DJ booth, I found you. I can’t say it felt like a bullet train had hit me.. but I’m sure what I felt that time really came close. Pain. It came from all over my body. I couldn’t tell where it hurts all I knew was that, it hurts. My mind wouldn’t process. I didn’t know what to do. Weak. I’ve never felt this weak before. The pain pulled me down, down with all my drunkenness. I fell flat on the ground, face first. They were right, they were all right. From the start, I should have known. Yada yada yada. Like a scene from a movie screen, thoughts mumble and jumbled inside my head, screams of pain, numbness, and the epic slow motion of everything that is happening. Yet, it all happened so fast. So very fast. After that night, all the happy thoughts, lovely, carefree, safe and warm, all that yappy sweet feelings that came with you.. Died. Up until now.. I ask myself, after everything we’ve been through, how will or when will i believe again? What should you do? What should I do? Why can’t I let go? HOW CAN I LET THAT GO?

The picture of you with her, playing over and over again in my mind. Ang lalim e. Parang GIF na nastuck sa ulo ko, ung GIF na may dalang gaddamet na feeling. Nakakapagod. Questions. I ask and ask and ask myself with questions only you can answer. Answers, are they really what I’m looking for? After I get these answers, will I be relieved? Are all the doubts gonna die? After that answer, will it fix everything? Its been a while since I looked at your face and felt at ease. I miss the times when I would look at you and my heart will flatter and fly. I long for those days. Because now, all I feel is a bit of tingle and a whole shit load of KABA o_O

Wow. Nalabas ko na. Bow.

It’s been a while. A heartfelt thank you! for the followers who stayed :“> I’ve been very very very busy socializing. Its crazy! :D I hardly go OL. Hah! Which is gooood :) Life is getting better, I thank you God for that! Amen* with love.


I am 18 now. Free And Legal! I feel it, the weight, the responsibilities. I have this unexplainable urge to change and be better, it feels so weird.. It excites me :) Me and Paul, we are LEGAL to my mom as well.. I must have done something good to deserve all of this. Thank you po, WAGAS! :”>

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How To Love/ Space Bound MASH-UP by Laura Zocca

You had a lot of crooks try to steal your heart
Never really had luck, couldn’t ever figure out
How to love
How to love

You had a lot of moments that didn’t last forever
Now you’re in this corner tryna put it together
How to love
How to love

For a second you were here
Now you over there
It’s hard not to stare, the way you moving your body
Like you never had a love
Never had a love

When you was just a young and your looks were so precious
But now your grown up
So fly it’s like a blessing but you can’t have a man look at you for five seconds
Without you being insecure
You never credit yourself, so when you got older
It’s seems like you came back ten times over
Now you’re sitting here in this damn corner
Looking through all your thoughts and looking over your shoulder

I’m a space bound rocket ship and your heart’s the moon
And I’m aiming right at you
Right at you
250 thousand miles on a clear night in June
And I’m aiming right at you
Right at you
Right at you

We touch I feel a rush
We clutch it isn’t much
But it’s enough to make me wonder what’s in store for us
It’s lust, it’s torturous
You must be a sorceress ‘cause you just
Did the impossible
Gained my trust don’t play games it’ll be dangerous
If you fuck me over
'Cause if I get burnt imma show you what it’s like to hurt
'Cause I’ve been treated like dirt before you
And love is “evol”
Spell it backwards I’ll show you

I’m a space bound rocket ship and your heart’s the moon
And I’m aiming right at you
Right at you
250 thousand miles on a clear night in June
And I’m aiming right at you
Right at you
Right at you