So, since the writers wanted us to compare Fiona/Jimmy’s situation in Season 5 with Ian and Mickey’s. That’s what I did.
I transcripted Fiona and Jimmy’s last conversation in the show, which seemed to me like the most dense with information. And then I added some gallavich comments here and there. See if you agree with me.
Fiona: “I do love you, you know” Jimmy: “I love you too.”
When Jimmy first came back, Fiona told him he didn’t love him, and he called her out on it. She does love Jimmy - because when you have long-lasting relationship with people, most of the times in your life, you can never completely forget them. Ian and Mickey haven’t said their “I love you”’s yet. Actually, Ian’s never explicitely said it, but so far he’s been far more emotional with Mickey than Fiona was with Jimmy. Fiona avoided Jimmy’s touch, Jimmy’s kisses, Jimmy’s eyes. When they had sex, she cried and they had to stop. Also, Fiona was, at the moment, already in love with Sean a little (even though she was married to Gus, lol).
Fiona: "Would be easy to get back to our life together” Jimmy: “Okay, good” Fiona: “But it’s not who we are anymore.” Jimmy: “Well, it could be.” Fiona: “It’s not who I am anymore. I used to like the danger. The not knowing where you were… the bad boy.”
There’s a lot to say here. Firstly, in Ian and Mickey’s case, it wouldn’t be easy to get back to their life together - apart from the fact that their lives together were never quiet, so it’s not about going back to a domestic routine as much as it’s to create a new one. Actually, following Mickey, for Ian, is the hardest choice to make. It’s against all odds and all better judgement, because Mickey is an escaped convict.
But Fiona says it’s not who they are anymore. It’s not who she is anymore. She’s gone through major changes in her life, and she’s not attracted to Jimmy’s lies and mysteries anymore. Ian, on the other hand, is still attracted to Mickey. He’s undoubtedly a different person, and yet, the bond hasn’t faded. In fact, while Jimmy stalks Fiona, calls her and she doesn’t reply, shows up in her house without calling first, has stalked her for months before showing up, Mickey leaves Ian the room of choice, because he’s a much more functional lover now than Jimmy was then. While Fiona was attracted to the not knowing, the bad boy, Ian was attracted to Mickey while he was changing as a person, Ian changed Mickey and was changed by Mickey, and loved him all along. Even when he complained Mickey wasn’t the bitch-slapping, piece of southside trash he fell with, he wasn’t talking about who Mickey was, but was talking about how Mickey behaved with him. He was feeling the burden of being the sick one, who needed caring. He couldn’t face the change the bipolar was bringing in his life. It wasn’t about who Mickey was becoming, it was about who Ian was becoming to himself and to everyone else and to Mickey.
Jimmy: “I’m not going to Dubai anymore.” Fiona: “What?” Jimmy: “I cancelled the trip. Already gave up everything for you.” Fiona: “Why are you doing this?” Jimmy: “We were right together, we are right together” Fiona: “You said this was the biggest job you’ve ever had.”
Here, I’m just gonna say that this shows that Jimmy’s still lying, that Jimmy hasn’t changed as a person. Jimmy is still there, while Fiona’s in another place. Plus, Jimmy lying means the relationship wouldn’t be healthy, the relationship wouldn’t change. Jimmy’s still ready to lie to win Fiona back. He didn’t cancel the trip. The trip was already canceled. He’s trying to manipulate her.
On the other hand, Mickey never lied to Ian. And since Season 4, he even stopped lying to everybody else, and to himself. Because, again, he grew as a character, Jimmy didn’t. If anyone was lying after Mickey went to jail, it was Ian. Ian lied to himself to get over the pain he felt after splitting up with Mickey, and told himself he didn’t love him anymore, didn’t care. Luckily, last episode, we saw Ian resist for a bit, and then let go pretty quickly. He lied to Trevor, but he didn’t lie to Mickey. He’s being true to himself and to him, by showing that he can’t let go, he won’t let go. He still loves him.
Jimmy: “I don’t care about any of that. I want us to have a life. Just tell me you want the same thing. Just tell me.” Fiona: “Part of me does want that. But I need something else now.” Jimmy: “Gus?” Fiona: “I don’t know. But I know it’s not you. You have to let me go. You have to let me let you go. I need you to do that for me.”
Final part. Jimmy lies again, but is honest when he says that he wants them to have a life together. And Fiona is honest when she tells him that part of her wants to be with him, but the other part, the strongest one, know that she doesn’t need him now. She needs something else. Probably, stability. Health. Rest. She knows she doesn’t need Jimmy. In Ian’s conversation with Fiona, he says that nothing gives him the thrill Mickey gives him. And you know that by thrill, he means emotion, happiness, passion, being there, being loved. Yes, that’s right: not even his job gives him the ‘thrill’, and it’s a thrilling job, I assure you. So Ian knows that he needs stability, but he also knows that he needs feeling things again, because he has gone two years without Mickey, and has realized that he’s never really been happy all along. He doesn’t want Mickey to let him go, although Mickey gives him the freedom to. Mickey is ready. “This goodbye?”, he asks, ready to be rejected once again. Ian seems conflicted: he knows he’s making a choice that will put his routine, his health, his freedom, at risk. And yet he takes that choice for the third time in the episode. Because he knows what he needs. And what he needs, right now, is Mickey.
The writers have built Ian’s self-confidence, his self-awareness, his judgement up since Season 6. he’s been building himself up since then. So there’s no point in pretending that his decision-making has failed this time. There’s no point in pretending like he’s manic and that’s why he chose risk-taking, dangerous thug Mickey. Why make him grow as a character for the whole season, only to then say “ops, he made a bad choice, guess he wasn’t as stable as you thought, huh?”
That’s not only boring and stupid, but it’s insulting towards Ian Gallagher’s character.
So here’s my SaveWOY inspiration board. It’s there for when I start to feel a bit down or in need of motivation to work harder.
It serves as a reminder of all the great characters I fell in love with, the amazing, lovable crew who worked so hard on the show, the stories they wanted to share in the third season, and all of the people fighting for/who want that third season.
It’s currently hanging above my bed but I’ll move it by my computer and next to my Wander Over Yonder poster in January.