Why I love Tay so much it's hard to understand

Some nights I just wanna lay in bed and think about how much Taylor has done for us and how much she has up her sleeve. I mean like name another celebrity that sends gifts to their fans and reads every single word of their post. Like who does that? Even though I know she’ll never see this in a million years because i know I’m just another swiftie, thank you taylorswift for everything. There has been no regret through this relationship that this wasn’t what it was supposed to be. So I would just like to say, I love you Tay to the moon and back and nothing can change that. And don’t ever EVER change unless it’s for the better. I will forever and always call you my role model and I will forever and always be loyal and supportive. Thank you for being here with your songs that I always scream at the top of my lungs which my step siblings hate or whisper it in the dark in the middle of the night or just sing, in the shower, in front of people, everywhere even though they told me I sucked or to shut up. I cared for a while. Until I heard shake it off. That changed everything. That was my anthem for a while and still is. Shake It off also helped me through this I guess this funk i was having where I had no confidence or determination in anything other than school because of this horrible dance teacher I had that made me feel inferior to everyone else. I mean who does that to a 10 year old?! I’m 11 now. I know I said I was gonna end this but it think I’m gonna keep going so I hope you don’t mind. I remember being three years old and just like jumping up and down on my bed singing our song at the top my lungs like I don’t even care who cares.? I almost think one of my earliest memories was that my dad had to move his truck to a different spot at my great grandmas house and I went with him and our song was on and he let me stay in the car until it was finished and I remember singing that whole thing. Our song was where my love for you began. And then love story came and I was constantly singing it and watching the music video. And I remember when fearless came out I would carry around the lyrics booklet and study them like it was my job. They used to do this little st Patrick thing in my neighborhood and one time they had karaoke and I really wanted to do it and i’m was really scared and finally I got the nerve to ask your them if they had love story or any Taylor Swift and they said no. And then like 10 minutes later some girls started singing love story and I got really mad but I guess I didn’t really even care at that point so I just rode around on my bike screaming love story at the top of my lungs with my friend. And then Christmas rolled around. I didn’t even know about the fearless concert being I was about six or seven years old and I remember Christmas morning opening the package with The sticky note that said Taylor Swift fearless concert and would ever date and location it was. Which was Orlando but I don’t remember the date. I was so stoked it being my first concert. I think it was May when the concert was or June and my mom always being late got us in there literally like 60 seconds before the curtain went up. And everybody was shouting Taylor, Taylor, Taylor, Taylor, Taylor, Taylor. My mom told me to sit down in the aisle and wait to get in our seats and you came up and I was COMPLETELY mesmerized by the way you were dressed that you were right there in the same building as me. I think this sparked my fandom of you to the fullest and all of a sudden I knew I wanted to meet this girl that I did that I wanted to go to this thing called the t-party I would do anything. Then came speak now the single a few years later and I remember getting it on my iPod and listening to it with my cousin and we both became instantly obsessed and this was at maybe age 8??? Christmas rolled around again and what do I one I got speak now tickets!! I was super stoked to see you again and I was more devoted this time then i was last time. I had this little biography book of u and I would go around asking everybody trivia about you with the book. I have that book til this day. Back to speak now. This was a really awesome experience after I found out me and my friend were going to the same concert but sitting on different sides of the stadium. 😔😥 so we decided to make shirts that had corresponding shirts like mine said speak and hers said now and we made them with white t shirt and puffy paint and tried to write all the song titles from speak now but didn’t succeed. Speak now tour was a wonderland. I can’t even explain I mean like the 3-D book? Even though I can’t really enjoy it now that I’ve lost the 3-D glasses. Great job Kaelyn. I was completely obsessed with back to December for a very long time. Red came out and I remember that day at school being so anxious to get home. And as soon as I did I grabbed my iPod and went to the App Store and got my copy of red. I also made my dad buy the deluxe version at target he was kinda mad I bought both but oh well. I went to the red tour and I dressed out fully and was all lit up just hoping to catch the corner of your eye or maybe even meet you. I obviously didn’t succeed at making it to club red. I went through some hard wrenching things in fifth grade and it chokes me up trying to talk about but it’s not like my friends are on here from school so I can open my heart. This girl and I bonded over you and were best friends and in third grade we were in different classes and we were still great friends until fourth week in around ignoring me and she started to drift away but I didn’t want her to. She Started being really nasty and different than she used to in fifth grade and I was a victim of her teasing at the end of fifth grade. During the beginning of 2014 she was my BFF because I would take any friend I could get. Because i didn’t have any of my friends in my class. The two girls she was friends with the at the time wasn’t talking to her so she decided to be my friend. I thought it was the best thing in the world back together turns out I was wrong. Soon as she became friends with the other girls he can just left alone by myself. It was heart wrenching. After that starting in May she started being really mean and nasty to me. She said I was always there and following her and her little group around and she and this other girl who is now my friend because she didn’t know any better than to listen to the other girl would make me come home crying every day. But the other girl in the group the one that went to the same speak now concert that was the girls friend wasn’t mean or nasty. And one day the mean girl started a horrible rumor about the one I was kinda friends with. I wouldn’t stand for it. I wasn’t bullied yet here. She went to the bathroom crying at lunch and I followed her. I talked to her and then we went to go eat lunch together. To this day we are best friends. I know I’m kind of all over the place but hang in here with me. One week in that year is what I call the worst week of my life, was the week the nagging started, my dance studio kicked me out for no reason, the Dance I was working on in class for months went down the drain, missed pictures for yearbook, kicked out of safety patrolI, and missed the auditions to go to the Philharmonic with my school. It was the most stressful and emotional time in my life. But I made it through it. I was saying before school started when is Taylor going to have another album out? It’s like you read my mind the same week I started school shake it off was released. I love that song with all my heart and I still do. That music video still makes me laugh matter how many times I watch it. I was really surprised when I heard it. my mom is actually the one that told me about it and I freaked. When 1989 was released mom let me stay up till midnight that night to get it on iTunes and I listened to the whole album before going to bed for school the next morning. I couldn’t get it to stop playing in my ear buds ever since. On Christmas I got my tickets for my fourth Taylor Swift concert and I’m crying just thinking about how great it’s going to be. I’m going with five of my friends and we’re going to have a blast me and dancing Our awkward dance all night long. Can’t wait for October 27, 2015 exactly a year of 1989 came out. I made sure my mom got that day just because of that. Before that I want to make sure i secure meeting you. my friends are counting on me and I want to want to give this to them and share the experience with them of meeting you. I’ll be at the Miami show hoping and hoping to meet you. I do not know the seat and row number that I will find out as soon as possible. if there is any spelling or grammar mistakes please forgive me. Sometime Siri does not like to work and it’s also four am. I know you get this all the time but I would really appreciate if you read this I’ve been up since 2 AM doing it. And I would wait forever and ever to meet you.
Hugs and kisses, Kaelyn
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