metaphorical

Ocean

I can’t love like a creek
Where it only takes a stretch of the hands
To touch and feel the bottom.
I can’t love with a gentle flow
Passing through, greeting, leaving behind.

I love like an ocean;
The further you go in,
We go in,
I let you in,
The deeper it gets.

I’m walking right in there with you
But you’re a better swimmer than I,
Equipped with the strength to let go,
To swim back to shore and explore
Another.

I’m incapable of that.

I love like the ocean
Not a lake,
Not a river,
Not a creek.

I love like the ocean
And I’ll take us
Into deep, deep waters
And you’ll swim back,
And I’ll drown.


So excuse me for calling upon my tides
To push you back to land.

Special Meal Order

I’d like to order something off of your menu,
The secret one that not many know of.
That special item that you take care of.
You keep its recipe to yourself.
Might not even prepare it for anyone else.
I have a hankering for it tonight.
I’ll definitely enjoy every bite.
I’d lick the plate clean.
No utensils required,
You know what I mean.
I might even get the groceries too.
Just be ready when I come through.
I want it with the cream on top.
Warm it up for me a little,
But don’t let it get too hot!
Nah, I’ll heat it up when I get there.
Might even greet it with a slight slobber,
I hope that you aren’t bothered.
I’m a bit of a sloppy eater.
I need a table the size of
A queen sized bed at least.
You know I feast like a beast.
Let me know upfront about the bill,
And I won’t mind paying top dollar
For ordering that special meal.

In 2016, Cards Against Humanity got people to pay them over $100,000 to dig a hole for no reason.  

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You may remember some of their protests from previous years - like that one time they sold actual bull shit to 30k people:

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Even never lied

“And when I tell you ‘I will save you’.. what you’re going to tell me? What? Well, guess what, you will say ‘I will save you back’”.

I think that’s when Even tries to subtly and desperately show his fear… and his biggest wish: to be saved.

And to be loved, without judgments.

And I love how Even always tries to speak through metaphors and movies and pictures and lyrics… because speaking the truth plainly and out loud is so painful. And yet he tries. HE REALLY TRIES. 

We just have to listen. And I hope that Isak hears him.

I hope that Isak will understand that Even never lied to him

Yes Even withheld the information that he is ill. But I think this is very understandable given the fact that Isak himself said he doesn’t live with his mom because he doesn’t want to live with mental illness people. I mean, imagine how hurt Even is by that unintentional comment.

So it’s very understandable that Even couldn’t say it plainly. But Even tries to give so much hints, and tries to explain everything without saying the label out loud. And he also tries to explain and confess his love to Isak the only way he knows how.

From the very beginning, on their first night together.. Even said, “I think life is just like a movie, and you can be the director of your own life”. And when I watched that at first I thought he was simply being melodramatic. But he’s not. He draws parallels between his life to Romeo & Juliet. The kiss in the water. The resignation that love ends in death and loneliness. When he talks that life is like a movie, he was convinced that his life would end in such state.

When talking about parallel universe… his first response is that it makes him feel lonely. Why? Because he is always alone. He even said “You can’t escape your thoughts. The only way is to die”. How painful is this. Before meeting Isak, he imagines that loneliness and death is the end. 

And yet.. in that hotel room… in his bout of entering a manic episode.. he reveals that he wants to be saved.

And Even’s speech in the kitchen makes so much more sense now. Oh god. Like how he desperately he tries to tell Isak that his feelings are TRUE and valid. He does admit that “everything Sonja said is true”. But sonja doesn’t understand, that his feelings are his. It’s never about the mania. It’s about real feelings, real love, which Isak sums up to: “Yeah, only you can feel what you feel”. And so while the kitchen is so cute and fluffy and all kinds of adorable… lets not forget the fact that’s the first time Even basically confesses his love for Isak.

Even never lied. He never pretended. He tries to explain it in his own way, in his own desperate way as he tries to make sense of everything. And when you take the time to stop and really listen.. it’s intense, vulnerable, and yet so, so beautiful.

Alright everyone. It’s metaphor interpretation time.
‘I’m a crumpled up piece of paper lying here.’
‘Two paper airplanes flying, flying, flying.’
Taylor was a crumpled up piece of paper; constantly being crushed down and hurt by the media. Then, however, she folded into an airplane, a new version of the same piece of paper, and she rose above their snide comments, renewed and strong.

You’re in my arms and all the world is calm. The music playing on for only two.

A very rushed drawing for soriku day because to day was busy, but I desperately wanted to put something out today. I won’t let something as frivolous as an occupation get in the way of soriku day. nope.

Trying to figure out if you’re ace or aro can be so much harder than other sexualities because it’s like, trying to find the absence of something. Imagine you’re at a pond and you want to know if there are any turtles, or fish. Say you find a turtle and you’re like “great! Now I know there are turtles.” Or a fish, now you know for sure there are fish. Or you find both, and now you know for a fact there are both turtles and fish in the pond.

But like, if you don’t find any turtles it might be that there are no turtles or maybe you’re just really shitty at looking for turtles and maybe you THINK you saw a turtle over there or maybe it was just a stick. Maybe there are only a few turtles. Maybe you need to do something special to find the turtles. Maybe a bunch of these rocks are actually turtles but you couldn’t tell them apart. Maybe there are no turtles. You have no idea. Meanwhile some people are saying “Oh there have to be turtles! You’ll find them eventually ;)” or “How many turtles have you found in your pond?” or “Try planting some vegetables at the shore to attract the turtles.” Or “Oh no! What disaster happened to your pond that there are no turtles?” And you’re just standing there wet with an empty net and a tired expression.

But whatever because whether there are turtles or fish or not your pond’s ecology works just fine without them because that’s what eco-communities do they form a system around what they have. You aren’t missing anything if you don’t have turtles you just have a pond system without turtles. If someone tried to change you by pouring a bunch of turtles into your pond it would probably fuck something up.

So you don’t have to be entirely sure. You don’t have to search every inch of the damn pond before you can decide there are probably no turtles. If you want to take the aro or ace label because you think it fits go for it. And if you do find your turtles you can rename the pond. That’s fine.