does anyone else have sudden urges to reinvent themselves, travel the world, start jogging, learn new languages, learn to cook exotic foods, redecorate, or start journaling? like you’re just sitting there and all of a sudden you want to be able to speak fluent latin or look out over paris from the eiffel tower, or be standing over a shiny metal pot stirring some kind of soup in an apartment that’s perfect for yourself? because i get that a lot.
How about the guys' babies saying their first word? Bonus if it's addressing their father! :D
This turned out a lot cuter than anticipated. I am low key dying.
Lucis’s King trudged into his chambers, pulling the double doors shut behind him.
Paperwork. Mountains and mountains of paperwork. The workload increased day by day.
Noctis’s exhausted eyes searched through the darkness of his bedroom to find his wife sound asleep curled up in their bed. He huffed out a sigh of disappointment. A nonpolitical conversation the King held was his Queen was becoming a true rarity. Noctis hated it.
What he hated more was being separated from his newborn son, Corrin. He only nearing the age of 10 month and Noctis felt as if he never was allowed enough time with the young prince. It destroyed him.
As tired as he was, Noctis mustered enough energy to press on with a soft tiptoe toward Corrin’s crib situated only a few feet away from his mother’s side of their double bed.
The child laid safety in his crib, but laid wide awake. His bright blue eyes remained open as he searched over the chocobo themed mobile that leisurely spun above him.
Noctis peered loving down at his son.
The instant his father came into view Corrin let out an elated coo.
“Hey, Cor,” Noctis whispered, a smiling slowly crawling on his face. “How are you doing? Why are you awake so late?” He lowered his left hand into the crib. Corrin instinctively reached out and wrapped his tiny fingers around Noctis’s thumb. A chuckle passed through Noctis’s lips. “I missed you today.”
“D-d-d” Corrin began to stutter.
“Yeah?” Noctis muttered encouragingly. The baby had been threatening to utter his first words for the past few days, but never was able to sputter a full word. Only the simple sounds of letters.
“Dada!” Corrin exclaimed with a happy shriek.
“Hm?” The Queen grumbled at the sound of her child.
“Dada!” Corrin repeated again as if he was more sure of himself. Noctis’s lips parted. “
“Yes, Corrin,” he praised, unable to wipe the proud grin off his face.
The future King of Lucis had finally muttered his first words…
Ever since gaining their pediatricians approval, Prompto took 10 month old Ilaria to Wiz’s Chocobo Post nearly four times a week. It offered the perfect photo opportunities as it gave a wonderful reason for Ilaria to show off her nearly toothless smile while she giggled endlessly at the great birds.
“There y’all are! It was gettin’ late. I was wondering if something came up,” Wiz greeted Prompto and Ilaria, who sat safely in Prompto’s arms as they approached the post.
“Sorry for making you worry, Wiz. Ilaria is getting a new tooth and she’s been hurting a lot today. We were thinking about not coming and letting her rest, but I decided she needed some cheering up,” Prompto explaining, not even flinching as his daughter began to pull at his blonde locks.
“Aw, poor girl. Well, there ain’t nothin’ a chocobo can’t fix. Come on over,” Wiz gestured for the father and daughter duo to follow.
“Come on, Ilaria. Let’s get you to some chocobos ASAP,” Prompto pushed himself forward following Wiz to the stables. Once the yellow birds came into view Ilaria cooed in excitement and clapped her hands together in pure joy.
“There’s that smile I love!” Prompto exclaimed happily.
“Kweh!” The familiar cries of the chocobos filled their ears as the entered the stable.
“Chobo! Oco! Chobo!” Ilaria cried with a happy shriek.
Prompto eye’s widened as he shot a surprised look at Wiz.
“Well I’ll be,” Wiz chuckled lowly, scratching the back of his neck.
“Her first word!” Prompto gasped excitedly, putting Ilaria down on the stable ground and reached for his camera that was strapped on his side. Ilaria clumsily began to waddle forward and then tumbled onto her butt. The fall didn’t phase her, she simply crawled forward on her hands and knees to the nearest chocobo. The yellow bird leaned his head down to nuzzle the child.
“Chobo! Oco!” Ilaria repeated, hugging the birds beak.
Prompto swiftly snapped the picture of the adorable moment. “Not exactly ‘chocobo’ but… I’ll take it! Wait till her mom hears about this!”
It was not unusual for the two men of the Amicitia household to take a nap together. After a long work out, Gladio retrieve Aster from his crib and take him to the couch. There, Gladiolus would lay on his back while his son sprawled against his chest. Within minutes, the boys would be out like a light.
Aster and Gladiolus had all too much in common. Their urge to snore was one similarity. While Gladio’s snore was harsh and roaring, Aster’s snore was sweet, and hushed… but clearly noticeable. Gladio’s harsh snore never phased his child from his sleep… unlike his wife…
“Hun,” his wife’s familiar, sweet voice stirred him from his nap. “Gladio, it’s almost time for dinner.” Her light fingers tracing the skin of his upper arm.
With a yawn, Gladio’s amber eyes fluttered open. “Alright,” he complied sleepily. Aster began to stir as well. “C’mon little buddy, time to get you fed,” Gladio took his son into his arms and carried him into the kitchen.
The sound of sudden hysterical laughter escaped his wife’s lips. “Oh my goodness, did he just say what I though he said?”
“Glad dad!” Aster repeated, proud of the reaction he elicited from his mother.
“Heh,” Gladio chortled. “Nice job, buddy,” a sense of warm pride filled Gladio’s heart as he pressed his lips against his son’s cheek.
The only Ignis allowed a mess in his kitchen was when young Aleena wished to play by banging on the pots and pans. She always sat at the edge of the kitchen with numerous sets of metal bowls, pots, and plastic Tupperware lying out before her with a wooden spoon in hand.
Hearing his daughter making the strangest of music always made Ignis chuckle as he prepared dinner for the evening.
“What a lovely song, Aleena,” Ignis complimented as he busied himself at the stove as he created stir fry for the evening’s meal.
Aleena giggled with joy at her fathers compliment and continued to hit the materials laid out before her with her spoon.
With each and every sound that echoed through the kitchen, an excited squeal escaped the baby girl’s mouth. It was true music to Ignis’s ears.
“Darling! I think we are raising an upcoming musician!” Ignis called to his wife who was busy in the laundry room across the apartment.
“I hear!” His wife responded enthusiastically.
“Daaaaaaddy!” Aleena began to sing loudly as she rhythmically hit a metal stirring bowl over and over.
Ignis turned to face the sound of his daughter’s voice, his lips parting in utter surprise. “Did you hear that?” Ignis called out to his wife once more.
“Yes, I did!” His wife sounded much closer than before. “How sweet, Aleena,” his wife muttered. He could only assume that she hoisted their child into her arms, as the loud banging halted. “Your first word is ‘daddy.’ That’s so cute,” his wife gushed. “Look at how big your father is smiling now.”
“Daddy!” She exclaimed with a sweet coo.
Ignis didn’t even realize the large grin on his face before his wife pointed it out to him.
Pursuit of Happiness (Bucky Barnes x Reader) One-Shot
Pursuit of Happiness: After witnessing your boyfriend Bucky’s struggle with anxiety, you take it upon yourself to help him by any means necessary.
A/N: HEY YALL! ❤ I’ve had this in my noggin for some time and I absolutely HAD to put it in a story. I’ve always wondered how Bucky would act in this scenario. (it probs looks like I’m a pot head but I’m not lol. I have the lungs of pre-serum Steve!) BUT I hope all y'all super cool ppl like this! ENJOY! -D.
Bucky Barnes was a different man now. No longer was he the same flashy, overconfident man that he used to be in the 1940’s. Instead, all that stood now was the giant puzzle that was his mind, which he desperately tried to put together again.
The anxiety meds that his doctor had given him worked, but only for a short amount of time. Because of the serum, medications rarely worked on him for long.
You’ve had this idea for a few weeks now, but you were still in some inner turmoil when it came down to actually giving it a go. Seeing him toss and turn each night, unable to get the much needed rest he needed, or having to to hold him as he sobbed into your chest after another one of those terrible anxiety attacks he experienced every day was torture; both for you and him.
You would give anything in your power for him to be at peace and he knew that. And honestly, it made him fall even harder for you.
After many exhausting days and nights, you decided to give your idea a try.
You told Bucky that you would be home from work a little later, which wasn’t unusual. Unbeknownst to him, you actually took off from work an hour early to meet an old friend of yours.
“Are you sure this isn’t too strong?” You ask, staring skeptically at the black haired woman in front of you.
“Y/N, it’s not crack, for god’s sake. I’d never do that to you or your precious Bucky.” She reassured, pushing the small little bag closer to you.
“I know, I know, Jess,” you laugh, putting your hands up in defense. “I’m just checking!”
Jessica rolled her eyes playfully before giving you a hug. “Have fun,” she says with a wink, before disappearing into the sea of New Yorkers.
You hoped that you just made the right decision.
You were seated on your shared bed, staring at the small bag in front of you. You trusted Jessica -really, you did- but you were skeptical by nature. Especially when it came to your boyfriend.
You sighed and rubbed your temples with your fingertips. It was worth a shot, right?
“What’s wrong, doll?” You jumped slightly and looked at your boyfriend.
Bucky was leaning against the door of the bedroom. He smiled softly, but you couldn’t ignore the dark circles under his eyes or the hidden exhaustion behind them. Even when he was suffering, he was still beautiful.
You smiled and patted the bed beside you.
“What’s in there?” He asks, sitting next to you.
“It’s something to help with the nightmares.” You reply, reaching in and pulling the small goodie out of the bag. The brownie was barely the size of your palm, but from what Jessica said, it was all he would need.
Bucky cocked his head to the side as he stared at the brownie. “Isn’t sugar supposed to make you not-tired?”
“It’s not just a regular brownie, hun,” you unwrap it and place it in his metal hand. “It’s a pot brownie.”
Bucky’s eyes shot back to you, widening in surprise. He expected another prescription, or hell, even alcohol. The last thing he expected was this.
“You’re tryin’ to get me high, sugar?” He asks, smirking at you. You scoff.
“No, I’m trying to help my exhausted boyfriend feel better. That’s all.”
He chuckled softly, staring back down at the brownie. You began to grow worried. The last thing you ever wanted to do was pressure him into doing something he wasn’t comfortable with, especially like this. Or make him feel like he was.
“You don’t have to try it,” you blurt out. “If you’re not comfortable we can ju-”
In one swift motion, Bucky took a giant bite out of the pastry.
You gaped at the crumbs in his hand in shock. This is exactly what wasn’t supposed to happen.
“BUCKY BARNES!” You cried. But it was too late. With a sheepish grin, he swallowed. God damn it!
“What’s wrong?” He asks. You softly swat his shoulder, making him laugh.
“YOU WEREN’T SUPPOSED TO EAT THAT MUCH!” You exclaimed. This wasn’t supposed to happen. He was only supposed to eat a quarter for today, then so on and so forth. You covered your face with your hands. Who knows what will happen now.
“Oh, come on, doll,” he pulled your hands from your face and placed a kiss on your nose. “I’ll probably just sleep it off.“
You glared at him. Was this all just a joke to him?
“What if it causes a panic attack?” He frowned.
“Then you get Steve. I’m sure he won’t mind.”
“And what do I tell him?” You ask. “Oh hey, Steve! I fed your friend some drugs and now he’s having a panic attack. Come help me?”
And he had the audacity to laugh. You swatted his arm again. “I’ll be fine, doll. Trust me!”
He reached out his hand and cupped your cheek lovingly. No matter what he did, you could never stay mad at him. You trusted him more than anyone else in your life.
All you could do now was wait.
You both ended up on the couch a while later and you were growing a tad bit concerned. It’s been forty minutes, yet Bucky was completely fine. You expected him to be completely passed out by now or panicking like crazy, but instead you got a normal Bucky, eating pretzels and watching first Harry Potter movie. Maybe Jessica’s brownie didn’t work on him. It wasn’t impossible, although it would suck. You’d have to come up with another way to help him.
Life was hard sometimes.
Halfway through The Sorcerer’s Stone, Bucky began giggling out of nowhere. You barely heard it at first, as it only happened every few minutes. But when you did, it caught you off guard, as you mistook it for crying. But when you glanced over at him, you saw him slowly turning red with laughter.
“What’s so funny?” You ask, cracking a smile.
That only made him laugh harder.
He covered his mouth with the sleeve of his sweater, sinking into the cushions of the sofa.
It has begun.
His giggling turned into full on laughter. You had never seen him like before. Bucky laughed around you, yeah, but this? This was a whole other level. He was laughing at the stupidest things, like Ron Weasley’s scared face, or Professor Quirrell’s purple head wrap (which he said looked like a giant plum.) This was the best thing you’d ever seen.
But what made him completely lose it was the three headed dog.
Bucky was in tears. He was laughing so hard, he fell over; landing on you and sending the pretzels everywhere. You watched him the entire time with a grin. This was far better than what you expected. There was no screaming, no panic attacks, and especially, no psychotic Steve kicking the door down with a medical team. This was going great.
This was the Bucky you’ve missed.
“Please?” He asks, staring at you with pleading eyes.
“No, you just ate an entire pizza!” You exclaimed.
“Y/N!” He whined, tugging your arm. “I’m starving!”
With a sigh, you got up from the couch and headed into the kitchen. You knew that getting the munchies was a part of getting high, but Jesus! Bucky had eaten an entire pizza by himself AND yours, too. You were only able to get a couple slices before he all but inhaled what was left of it. On top of all that, he wanted a sandwich!
Bucky was on the stool across from you giggling like an idiot at the cat videos that played in front of him. You couldn’t help but stop and stare at his actions. It made you wonder if it would help his nightmares. It seemed to be helping his panic attacks just fine, which was amazing.
“Honey,” You say, leaning over the counter and poking his arm. He glanced over at you and smiled. “Have you felt anxious at all yet?”
It takes him a few seconds, but you can see the wheels turning in his head as he processed your words. He shook his head. You felt your heart swell with joy. It had been a solid three hours now, which was really freaking good for his position. He usually experienced sudden flashbacks at unexpected times, sending him into a state of terror. But as you watched the way he contently watched the videos on your phone, you couldn’t help but tear up a bit.
You rested your head on your hands as you watched your boyfriend eat his sandwich happily.
He was doing so much better.
“Mmm, doll,” he purred, nuzzling into your chest. He moved so that he was lying on top of you, his head buried in the material of your shirt.
It was the end of the movie now, Gryffindor had won the house cup and Bucky had long forgotten the movie. He peered up at you with hooded eyes, smiling contently.
“How’re you feeling, Buck?” You ask.
He hummed, pulling you closer into him. “M’sleepy.” You gently ran your fingers through his hair.
“That tends to happen when you’re stoned, darling.” You assure him. But when you look down at him, his eyes are already closed and the only that’s audible besides the Harry Potter theme song is his soft snoring.
You closed your eyes, making a mental note to thank the goddess that was Jessica, and also, get more of those brownies.
My Impressions Of “Legend of Zelda: Breathe of the Wild” So Far
The rain is kind of relaxing to listen to, unless you’ve fallen off a cliff and didn’t get a recent enough autosave, so you have to sit there for TWENTY MINUTES AUGH RAIN IS SO ANNOYING
Literally nothing is as terrifying in this game as the lightning. NOTHING.
These are the best vidya game horses that have ever been vidya gamed.
Why did you have to ask for 10 Restless Crickets? I NEVER SEE THEM UNTIL THEY FLY AWAY UGH
Sometimes the puzzles seem to simple, sometimes they make me feel clever, and sometimes I look them up online and facepalm because of COURSE that is what I was supposed to do.
If cooking were this fun in real life, I would never stop. So instead I will cook for an hour at this campfire.
Also I got an edible (albeit dubious) dish by placing several Guardian screws and other metal parts in the pot. Conclusion: Link is a robot.
I love the idea that the durian fruit being so awesome in this game will cause unknowledgable youngsters to try eating it in real life. Hahahaha the naive fools
How the crap do the Octoroks always know where I will be when they shoot, NO VIDYA GAME MONSTER SHOULD HAVE SUCH GOOD AIM
The stamina wheel needs to be longer. *upgrades it* The stamina wheel needs to be longer. *upgrades it*
The stamina wheel needs to be longer. “But wouldn’t you like a heart-” Look, until I can climb this entire mountain unaided, the stamina wheel needs to be longer.
The Rubber Helm looks like a fish eating Link’s head. Best. Armor. EVER.
WHAT THE CRAP THE HINOX JUST PHASED THROUGH THE TREES LIKE A GHOST I MEAN EVEN IF THEY DON’T SLOW HIM DOWN THAT SEEMS EXCESSIVE
Uuuuugh it’s raining agaaaain why must this rainforest jungle be so realistic 8l
Blessedly, the Blood Moon doesn’t respawn enemies in a camp while you are in it. Because if they had come back right after I’d spent half an hour destroying that one camp I would have been TICKED
FREAKIN’ OP CENTAURS
*takes 8 million snapshots of low-flying serpenty glowy dragons* THESE ARE SO PRETTY now if only they’d stop dropping balls of elemental pain
I know there are a limited number of buttons on this controller but it’d be great if I stopped crouching and/or using my telescope during important fights to the death.
Look I’m SORRY I’m such a terrible rider, horse, but if you could stop bolting at the slightest sign of bad guys until I can get you to the stables, that would be great- okay nevermind he’s gone.
I should really head towards the next story point. *spends two hours reaching a shrine* Okay now I’ll definitely head out. *detours into swamp ruins* Right it’s getting late better start now. *explores half a map section on the opposite side of where she’s supposed to be going*
WILL YOU PLEASE FOR THE LOVE OF MY SANITY STOP RAINING I’M CLINGING TO THE SIDE OF A 60-FOOT CLIFF HERE
(NOTE: I freaking love this game and this is meant largely in satire, in case anyone gets the idea to rail on me for complaining. XD Lemme know if I should do a Part 2)
You woke up from another nightmare. Lately you’ve
been having too many of those.. You always end up waking up in the middle of
the night, covered in cold sweat, hands trembling in an unknown fear and a
strange jittery feeling in your chest that you can’t seem to shake off. It
makes breathing uneasy, feels like a heavy weight above you that’s pushing you
down. Finding sleep after that is next to impossible.
3 nights in a row now, the nightmares never end. Mornings are gloomy and nights
have become sleepless. The fact that you’re in a different house now doesn’t
This time it wasn’t Min Yoongi though. It was
someone else, covered in all black from head to toe; he dragged you by your arm
in a huge pit of fire. You screamed as the flames rose 50ft above the ground
and swallowed you whole. Your flesh burned and you called for help but nobody came.
Until you woke up and found yourself in your room all alone.
You sat on your bed now, hugging your knees while
looking out the open window beside you. A cold breeze passes through your hair
and an owl hoots somewhere in the far distance as you look on; you can hear the
cicadas buzzing. In the stillness of the night you can even hear the wind
howling. After sometime you start to feel an ease, the weight on your chest lifts
up and your heart settles down.
Then you hear some rustling outside your door,
metallic clatter of pots and pans. There’s light seeping into your room through
the small gap below the door. The time on your watch shows “12:45 AM”. What was
Jin cooking so late at night?
You crawl out of your bed; the floor is cold and
creaks underneath your foot with each step. You open the door carefully, step
into the small living area and you tiptoe towards the kitchen without making a
sound. Standing in a corner you watch Jin from a distance. His hand moves
gracefully as he slices and dices through vegetables quickly like a
You thought Jin was too busy with his cooking to
even notice your presence, plus you moved so silently like a ghost so there’s
no way he could tell. But you noticed how he turned his head just a little, as
if listening to your breathing, and then you caught a glimpse of his smile.
“Couldn’t sleep?” he asked without turning his
head and you came out of the dark.
“How did you know? I was so quiet.”
“Who do I work for y/n?”
You drag your feet on the floor and walk up
behind him, place your one ear on his back and wrap your arms around his torso.
“I had a nightmare” you said closing your eyes.
Jin was about 5 or 6inches taller than you and always smelled like vanilla
incense to you.
.“Again?” you could hear the concern in his
“Hmmm” You hum
“Do you want to talk about it?” he asks and you
shake your head.
“No. it was horrible, awful. Just really bad.. I
don’t want to remember it. I can’t even sleep anymore-”
“Well I can’t either” he says.
“Did you have a nightmare too?”
“No, I was just hungry.”
“You had my share of cold noodles too” you bury
your face in his back “you’re such a pig”
“I’m also older than you; How about some respect
for a change? Is that how you talk to your elders?”
“You’re an old pig”
“You little punk-!” you chuckle. After some time you
start to tell him about the nightmare you had.
“I dreamed there was this huge fire..I was
burning and screaming, it was worse than the last one. I don’t dream about
anything good anymore. I’m so scared of going to sleep.” Jin turns around, abandons
his knife, and brings you into a hug.
“Nightmares don’t last forever. Open your eyes
and look around” you look at him instead. “This is real, I’m real”
He was right. This was real, the doe eyed boy
with a sweet smile standing in front of you was reality. You flesh wasn’t melting
off, you weren’t surrounded by fire. You were wrapped in his arms, safe and sound,
where there was warmth and feeling of love.
You held onto him and he placed his chin on top
of your head.
“How long do you want to stay like this?” he
“Is there a time limit?”
“Yes, I have to cook.”
“Just 2 more minutes than” you say smiling.
“2 more minutes it is.-” He looked at his watch
and you squeezed him tightly.
Seok Jin’s embrace was always welcoming, it only took seconds
for you to melt within him, when his strong arms were wrapped around your back
you felt protected, as if there was nothing in this world that could possibly
harm you. It soothed you, made you forget the demons that haunted you every
You felt safe
You felt loved.
That’s how life with Jin past 3 weeks has been
like. Some day’s you’re nothing but a bundle of sadness, just a heap of despair
lying on the bed and staring into far distance. On those days, he picks you up
and helps you realize that you’re still alive. On good days you talk about a
hopeful future or a wistful past.
“Do you miss it?” you would ask him. “People back
there, all your friends? Family? Min Yoongi?”
“Do you want me to be honest?” he would say and
you would nod eagerly
“I do. But not much of it”
“Will you go back?”
was Jin’s reply.
One day you asked him how he ended up with
someone like Min Yoongi. He had laughed.
“My father used to work for Yoongi’s dad. He was
the head of finance, taking care of all the money matters. They were good
friends. Until one day he had a car accident, he died then and there. I was
only 12. Mother married another business man only after 2 months of father’s
death. Apparently father hadn’t left anything under her name so she refused to
take me in. I didn’t have any close relatives.. That’s how I met Yoongi and his
dad. He took me in, said they were my only family now”
“Your father served me well all these years;
you’ll grow up and serve my son. That’s your fate Seok Jin. The sooner you
accept it, the better it will be for you” Jin recalled the words Yoongi’s
father had said to him with a sad smile.
“You don’t have to do it. If you don’t want to-”
you told Jin.
“I don’t have to.. But I don’t mind it anymore.
Yoongi is family and for family you do that kind of stuff”’
The day after the incident with Taehyung, Jin
took you out for ice-cream. That easily became one of the best memories of him
that you have. The night was perfect. The weather was crisp cold; Jin wrapped
you up in 3 layers of clothes. Sweaters, overcoats, woolen caps, mittens and
scarf. No part of your skin other than your eyes and nose was visible.
You had laughed after looking at yourself in the
mirror. You looked like a rag doll.
“Is it too
much? Remove the scarf” You hadn’t laughed like that in such a long time, it
felt great. Like the heavy weight on your chest was suddenly bearable; you
could breathe easily now. Jin said the reason why you needed to wear a bundle
of clothes was because it was cold outside but you knew most of it was because
he didn’t want anyone to recognize you.
You held his hand and walked among a crowd of
people without worrying that anyone could recognize you. Twirled around the
street like kid high on sugar rush all the while Jin just watched and smiled.
He wore a mask himself but his eyes could tell he was smiling.
“Are you happy?” he had asked on the away back
home and you had replied by pulling your scarf down from your mouth and placing
a light kiss on his cheek. “I guess you are”
After that day Taehyung hardly ever showed his
face to Jin (or you), though they remained in contact through calls. One time
he did show up at the house to pick up some of his stuff. When your eyes met he
had just glared at you without saying a word, let alone an apology.
“Why do you hate me? What did I do to you?” you
had asked him that day, just as he was leaving, Jin was busy doing something in
“You’re asking me? Why don’t you take a look
around” Taehyung had replied “You’ve ruined us. Our family.. Who knows where
Yoongi is, Jimin and hoseok are on the run, Jin hyung is here babysitting you and
you dare to ask me what you did. Do us
all a favor and fling yourself off a building you selfish bitch”
That was the last thing Taehyung said to you and
after that you never saw his face. A week later Jin said they were moving into
a different house, a much smaller one. Where Taehyung won’t be living with you
two, it would be just you and him. You were relieved. Though Living with Jin
all alone did make you uncomfortable at first but slowly you got used to it.
With your cheek pressed flat against the surface
of the dining table you observed Jin quietly. His strong back flexed time and
again as his hands moved swiftly up and down opening cabinets and drawers. He
was skilled at cooking. It was his job to cook 3 times a day and yours was to
clean the dishes. Work was divided like that.
Jin turns and looks at you over his shoulder. “Is
it that interesting? to see me cook?” he asks.
You shrugged and he went back to doing his work. And
you just kept gawking. After he was done he brought the food to table and mouth
watered at the sight of it.
“Hey Jin, can I ask you something?” after you
both finished your food, Jin picked up the dirty dishes and stacked them in the
“Yeah sure” he replied while washing his hands.
“Why don’t you ever ask me anything-?” you raised
the question that has been on your mind for quite some time now. You were
always asking Jin about his life but he never asked you anything about yours.
Even Min Yoongi never bothered. “I ask you about your life all the time. But
you don’t ask me anything?”
Jin wiped his hands clean on a paper towel and
walked up to you before placing a hand on top of your head and giving you a
“I already know everything about you”
“How?” you questioned still confused.
“When you first stepped foot inside the
‘headquarter’, a day after that Yoongi gave me the job of finding information
on you. That’s what my job is Y/n, I’m the information broker.”
“That makes sense”
“I know it sounds creepy but I know every single
detail about you. Where you were born, your mom and dad’s name, where your
mother lives now, your elementary school, high school, your relatives and all
that kind of information, I had to look it all up”
You just stayed quiet after hearing that.
“Are you mad at me?” you shook your head.
“Do you hate me now?”
“Then look at me” you did. You looked him
straight in the eyes and he knew something was wrong.
“We trust each other right?” this time you
couldn’t say it back.
I didn’t tell you earlier-”
“It wasn’t your fault; you were doing your job. I
just.. I feel like my privacy has been breached.
I feel violated. Does that sense?”
“It’s not like that” he said crouching down so his
face was right in front of yours. “Don’t say that okay.. The truth is I don’t
know anything about you. I know who you are I don’t know you as a person, yet-”
“I’d like to know who you are rather than just your name and where you live. Those
are pretty useless information honestly” he smiled and held your face in his
hands before placing a kiss on forehead right between your brows. “C’mon lets
go to bed its already late.”
Seok Jin’s bed was laid out right in front of the
sofa, there was only one bedroom in the apartment and Jin had decided it would
be yours. His bed included a single mattress with a bed sheet covering it. Pillows
were stacked all around and a blanket that was big enough for two.
“Hmmm” he answers sleepily.
“What’s your favorite color?” he opened his eyes
slowly and blinked a few times while you waited for him to answer
“I’ll buy you a gift”
“A gift?” he says in a raspy voice “why? What’s
“For taking care of me and for keeping me safe
all this time.. Feeding me Michelin star
worthy food everyday” you smile and he smiles back, his eyes shut again.
“It’s pink” he finally tells you “buy me
something expensive. No flowers though.. I have pollen allergy”
“-And proud” You end up laughing out too loud at
his words and he opens his eyes just stares at you.
“Why are you staring?” If only it was possible his
stare would burn a hole through your face. You start to get a little shy. “Is
there something on my face? Do I have an ugly smile?”
“You have a beautiful smile” Jin says touching a
strand of hair that fell in front of your face. “I knew someone who used to
laugh like that”
“Who was it? Was it your friend? Best friend?
Girl friend-” Jin’s smile dropped too quickly. It was a girl. You tried to change the subject quickly.
“You know what.. We should probably go to sleep
now. It’s already late. I should go now-”
“I want to kiss you.” You turned and gaped at
him. Your cheeks started to heat up and probably looked red at sight. With his
eyes still stuck on you. he supported himself on his one arm to hover over you
a bit. It was his sleepiness talking. It had to be.
“Jin” you backed a little when he came a bit
closer “I don’t think we should-”
“Do you mind?” he was asking for your permission.
You just had to say ‘yes’. One word and he’ll stop. One word and things will go
back to normal. Just one word
I do mind you kissing me. It’s not right, not when I have feelings for someone
else. So we can’t. We shouldn’t.
But then you froze and uttered the wrong word.
The moment the word slipped out of your mouth his
lips crashed against yours, knocking all the wind out of your lung. You fell
back and your hand caught the front of Jin’s shirt. His one hand was on your
side supporting his upper body and the other hand landed on your cheek. You
close your eyes breathed through your nose before kissing him back. Your hand
that was gripping the front of his shirt loosened up as you decided to push him
away. But somehow the hand just stayed there and your fingers started playing
with a button.
The last time you kissed Jin, 3 weeks ago, it really
felt like nothing. No great fireworks, no fluttering hearts. Just lips molding
onto one another mechanically and formally. This was different though, it was too
needy and a little sloppy.
Jin finally pulls away, you’re both breathless
and in some kind of awe. He just stares at you blankly. He doesn’t even blink,
doesn’t move until you move him out of his trance.
“Jin we shouldn’t..-” when you say his name he
leans into you again. This time, there’s no hurry. His lips are warm, comforting and soft like
the pillow below your head; you open your eyes while he’s still kissing you.
You stop and look at him.
“Jin stop” you hold his face in your hand.
“What is it?” he asks reading the worried
expression on your face.
“Jin, why are you crying?” you said wiping his
tear away with your thumb.
“What?” Seok Jin sat up straight and touched his
own face. You got up and wiped his wet cheeks with the sleeve of your t-shirt
“Did I just start crying?”
“Are you okay?” you asked still concerned. Jin
turns to you, adorning a frown on his usually smiling face; he starts to look
around here and there completely dazed.
“I don’t know. I just, I think need to go out for
some fresh air-” but you held his hand, stopping him from leaving.
“Let’s talk about it” You pleaded and Jin removed
his hand from your grip “You’re not okay. Tell me if something is something
“No” he lied. “I’m fine”
know you’re not fine. You can tell me. We could share such stuff”
“I said I’m FINE! JUST STOP ASKING ALRIGHT” he
yelled so loud you were taken aback. You let go of his hand. But he quickly realized
“I’m sorry” Jin apologized. He closed his eyes
and ran his fingers through his hair. “I didn’t want to yell. I’m just. I don’t
know what happened. But I don’t want to talk about it, I can’t. I can’t tell
anyone. I’m really sorry y/n”
“It’s okay. It’s okay If you don’t want to talk
about it.. Just stay here. Don’t lock yourself in like that” you stand on your
knees to hug him. “You don’t have to keep it to yourself you know. Weren’t you
the one who told me ‘there’s no shame in crying’?”
“I’m telling you I’m fine-”
“You can cry right now, you don’t have to hide it-”
you put your hand on the back of his head and ran your fingers through his brown
locks “we could just stay up all night, just hold each other. How about we go
out for ice-cream? On the way home you could tell me one of your stupid jokes
again. I promise I’ll laugh this time. Then I’ll tell you a lame story about my
high school, you could pretend it’s interesting.” you felt his arms finally
going around your back and squeezing your waist.
“We could do all that and so much more. You don’t
have to tell me anything right now. Just stay, that’s more than enough. I like
staying beside you Jin, it feels.. Nice.
Feels warm” He placed his forehead on your shoulder and started sobbing quietly.
It was weird change of scenario, usually it was you who was always crying and
grieving uncontrollably and it was Jin who whispered hopes and affirmations in
your ear. Now you held him in your arms, his shoulders quivered uncontrollably
and your shirt was getting soaked in his tears. He seemed so fragile you
started wondering how you could protect him instead; shelter him from this
“I miss her-” Jin said in a broken voice “I miss
her so much. It hurts. Fucking hurts”
“I know. I’m sure she had her reason that’s why
she left. It must’ve been hard for her too. Someday she’ll realize how much she
misses you she’ll come back. Then you can tell her how much you love her-”
“No, you don’t understand. She’s not coming back.
She’s dead y/n” you removed your hand from his hair and he tightened his grip
“She died and she’s never coming back. I was the one who killed her-”
“I wish it was me. Everyday..i keep wishing it
was me who had died, not her. She should’ve lived. It wasn’t fair. It wasn’t
fair!” his body trembled with each word, you held him in your arms with all
“Life isn’t fair” you said to him holding back
your own tears “you and I should know it better than anyone else.”
Your bodies molded easily with one another inside
the thick warm blanket, the room heater in a corner kept the small living space
heated up. You lie on your back and stare above, your one arm resting on your
forehead, eyes vacantly staring at the ceiling fan. A hundred different
thoughts run through your head. None of them stay too long, they come and go.
Jin sleeps beside you so peacefully, his face
buried in the crook of your neck, one hand snaked above your stomach and other
one held your free hand under the covers.
It would be morning in 3 hours but you couldn’t
sleep no matter how hard you tried. You shifted a little and tried to move away
from Jin but his hand wouldn’t budge.
“Why do you move so much” you heard him muttering
sleepily. “Go to sleep”
“I can’t sleep” you frown. “How do you sleep so
peacefully after such a long day?”
He didn’t reply. He was drained, you could tell.
Jin made you realize even the strongest looking people are broken inside; the
cracks were visible on him now.
“Hmmm..” he responded
“What are we
now?” you asked out of curiosity “You and I?”
Jin answered after a long pause.
“What do you want us to be?” he asked instead. You
turn towards him.
“We’re already a lot of things.” You move your
hand towards his face and touch his eye brows “We’re lonely.”
“And sad” Jin says after you.
“Hope-less” he says and you both end up grinning
like two school kids sharing an inside joke.
“We’re all that.” he blinks in agreement. “For
once, why don’t we try to be.. happy?”
Jin moves closer and places a long kiss on your
forehead. His mouth stays there when he speaks.
“If that’s what you want then we’ll be that.
We’ll be happy from tomorrow.” You smile and close your eyes.
“Yeah, that would be nice. Let’s be happy
You were clingy.
Not the bad kind of clingy though. It was the
kind of ‘clingy’ that made him want to protect you, he didn’t mind it, in some
way he felt powerful when he looked after you. When you crept your away into
his bed beside him, when you cried and leaned on his chest, when he held your
frail body and told you white lies about a better tomorrow.
He felt strong. It was something he had never
Strong was just something Jin could never be.
Even when he was younger Jin was different than
the other kids who were raised beside him. Yoongi and Namjoon, they were
strong, they could fight the world with their bare hands, and they knew how to
make it through the worst of the worst. Whereas Jin.. Jin was barely surviving.
Seok Jin was kinder; everyone always said he had a
‘gentle soul’; he could never get himself to hurt another being. And that made
his father had once spat at him. Jin was only 9; he came back from school with
one black eye and a bruised face. He got beat up in school by some older kids.
They wanted his new bag and he said ‘No’. He didn’t fight back, couldn’t even
protect his bag.
“Just look at yourself. Crying like a girl in
front of me. You let those scum bags beat you up? Why didn’t you fight back?
Don’t you have hands and feet’s? Are you slow in your head?” The look his
father had given to him that day was just pure disgust. “This is the second
time you came home looking like a piece of trash. I’m ashamed of you. Next time
this happens, I’ll beat you up with a belt until your skin bleeds and throw you
out of this house naked”
But Father was just like that. He was cruel to
his own blood but loved the extravagant world outside his home. His ‘secret’
yet not so secret affairs and immoral behavior led to mother turning bitter
towards every man that had ‘Kim’ as last name in the family.
Mother failed miserably on her part too. She was
never home, hated father from the marrow of her bone, Jin was just a nuisance
to her. Money and alcohol were her first priority. Her family never made it to
It was a few years later Seok Jin found out that
father had been hiding one of his offspring from the whole world, one from his
mistress; He had a half-sister, younger than him. His dirty little secret was
unraveled; people would talk about it in hushed voices and faint whispers. But
Jin heard it all and so did mother.
After father died, Mother was quick to put an end
to the rumors. She made sure that nobody ever knew about the existence of the
girl or where she came from, in fear that in future she would demand her own
share in fathers will. Poor girl disappeared without a trace.
Jin only heard from one of the maid:
“The mother died in a some “unfortunate’’ car
accident and the girl.. She was sent out of the country. I heard she became
mentally unstable after her mother died- ”
Years later Jin ended up sharing his family
history with Min Yoongi.
“Rich people are fucking crazy” Min Yoongi had
chuckled “It’s a miracle you turned out fine”
Jin was a years older than Min Yoongi and yet it
was always Yoongi who looked after him. After moving into his house Yoongi and
Jin hit it off quickly, they became inseparable. Yoongi was 11 and Jin was 12.
They went to same private school, shared the same bedroom, had dysfunctional
families and lacked any kind of right parental guidance.
So they found family in each other.
By nature they were poles apart. Jin was quiet,
more reclusive, avoided opening up to other people. He always wanted to help
others, care for them. He wanted to have a family; he had aspirations for when
he would grow up. Jin always believed that his future would be much kinder than
Min Yoongi on the other hand was downright cruel
ever since he was a kid. He was blunt without any regards of the other person’s
feelings. He liked winning, didn’t matter how, he loved standing over other
people said it made him feel powerful. Min Yoongi lacked a sense of morality.
World was either black or white for him.
Most of it was his father’s fault.
“People always have a choice. Live or die? Fight
or fly. You can choose to become weak or
you can be strong. What kind of men do you want to grow up to be? Weak,
spineless, whimpering cowards who spend their life chasing women and paying
debts or do you want to become strong and powerful. When you have power and
stand on the top the people below you just look like ants scramming for a grain
of rice. You have the power to let them live or crush them beneath your feet”
That was his father’s ideology. That’s what was
fed to you and Min Yoongi on the dinner table for a long time.
A year later another new face made an entry in the house. Another kid, another
young mind for Yoongi’s father to manipulate..
Kim Namjoon. He was even younger than Min Yoongi.
A scrawny little 10year old, face tanned and eyes eerily hollow. He wore rags
for clothes and looked like he hadn’t been fed properly in last 2 or 3 months.
3 years later, in a school playground, the same
scrawny little boy almost beat another boy to death. Reason: The boy accidently
knocked shoulders with Yoongi and refused to apologize. The boy survived only because
Jin pulled Namjoon off him in right time.
The boy who had lived was 17. He survived with a broken
jaw, a fractured left arm 4 or 5 missing teeth, 20 stitches on his face and a
compensation of 50,000$ from Yoongi’s father that came with a term that he
would leave the country and never comeback unless he actually wanted to die
this time. They never saw his face ever again.
“Did I do it right?” Namjoon had asked Yoongi
excitedly, like a child seeking approval from his parent.
“You almost killed him..” Yoongi would say with a
cigarette dangling from his mouth “On the fucking school property. You know how
angry father was. We would be in so much trouble if he wasn’t good friends with
the principal. Be careful next time.”
That was only the first of many more to come. Incidents
like those became a common thing for the three of you. Namjoon had a reputation
for spilling blood everywhere he went and Yoongi loved playing fetch with him.
“Namjoon is trouble” Jin had warned Yoongi once.
It was after Namjoon ended up in a drunk and drive accident. An old man lost
his life, Namjoon had his car privileges taken away for next 6months.
Yoongi’s father took care of it though, just like
“He’s just a kid” Yoongi would brush it off.
Namjoon was 16 and far from a kid. He was the tallest among them and the
quickest to get angry.
“He’s old enough to understand the consequences of killing someone. That too
“People do mistakes. He did too..Geez let the kid
It was only a few years later Yoongi saw the
monster Namjoon had truly become. It took 1/3rd of his organization
and a dead 14year old to make him realize the atrocity that Kim Namjoon was.
Yoongi never said it openly; But Jin knows he
secretly blames himself.
Half of Seok Jin’s childhood and all of his
teenage life was spent under Min Yoongi’s shadow. Min Yoongi wasn’t just his
boss. He was his best friend, his brother and the only true family he ever
knew. They could see through each other easily. Jin saw time and again how
broken Min Yoongi was and Yoongi knew Jin was weak. So Yoongi protected him,
stayed beside him no matter what, through thick and thin they remained brothers.
For Jin, Yoongi would put his life on the line
and Jin would do the same in a blink.
Because they were family and for family… You do
that kind of stuff.
What about the one he wanted? The one he dreamed
about. A home he had desired or a family that he wished for. He used to think
about it, a lot. Back when things were looking up, back then when there was
girl he could plan a future with. Even though they were young, they had hope.
Hope that their future would be different.
“Let’s run away”
“They’ll find us”
“They won’t look for you. They don’t need you
“Min Yoongi does. I can’t just leave everything
and run. Min Yoongi needs me-”
“What about me?” she had said with tears in her
eyes “I need you too. I need you more than him”
Jin still wonders what his life would’ve been if
he had said ‘Yes’. In his dreams he always ends up saying ‘yes’ but there is
nothing beyond that.
After Bo-ra died, Jin locked up that part of his
heart for good; the one that dreamed so fondly, the one that wanted love
constantly or had any hopes for a brighter tomorrow. After that day it all
became so grey. A monotonous cycle of work and survival, Family were the people
he was surrounded with, working for Min Yoongi was his moral obligation.
He was never deprived of anything good.
He ate good food, wore fine clothes and spent
leisure time with the ones he cared about. Women were never an issue.
He had his life set. Everything was perfect.
And he was doing just fine.
No, He wasn’t happy. But he was ‘fine’. Up until
After so many years of working under Min Yoongi
he had completely forgotten what real happiness felt like. And now suddenly he’s
starting to remember it all.
once, why don’t we try to be..happy?”
You said to him last night. And just like that
the realization hit Seok Jin, he did indeed wanted to be happy.
He was happy; these past three weeks were like a
dream. A dream he had dreamed about a thousand times in the past, the one he
had forgotten even though he wanted to hold onto it. Last three weeks were a
Waking up next to you every morning was something
he could get used to, he liked cooking for you and you liked watching him cook.
You laughed loudly, smiled brightly, held his hand so tight it made his palms
red. But he liked it all. He loved the warmth that you two passed onto one
another under the blanket. Your forehead next to his beating heart or his face
buried in your neck – He loved it all nevertheless.
When he kissed you yesterday, for the second
time, all he could taste at first was guilt. Yours and his, mixed all together,
gave a bitter aftertaste. There was a girl he loved whose face he started picturing
so vividly. He had a brother to whom he had given a promise
“Take her far away, keep her safe”.
How could he do this to the dead girl whom he
loved? Or betray his brother who was his only family?
He could’ve pulled away that very instance but
you kissed him back. And that’s all it took for him to forget it all. He didn’t
care about a girl who had left him so selfishly or his boss who ordered him
around all these years, some stupid organization he worked in or an old man who
was obsessed with power and money.
He only cared about you. You were sweet, a little
mellow at times, warmest person he had ever touched. And when he was next to
you, he was happy. Kissing you was like finding everything he had ever lost in
his life. The part that he had locked away for so long burst open and he was
washed up with all those feelings. Love, kindness, warmth, guilt, hurt.
And then he cried. He cried because he missed all
those people who had left him so abruptly. Mother who never cared to call and
Bora whom he couldn’t save, even father who could never see his son grow up. He
cried because he missed a chance of living a life. He cried.. because he missed
But now, Jin has decided he wanted it all. He wanted
to live, instead of just existing. He wanted to be happy, if not for himself
then for someone else.
If it was for you then he would give it chance to
“Tomorrow-?” You exclaim with a mouth full of
food. Jin nods while moving his spoon around in the bowl of oatmeal. He looks
at your still awe-struck face.
“Why? You don’t want to go?” Jin moves his hand
up to your face and wipes off food from the corner of your mouth.
“No.” You reply with a shrug “It’s just that we
don’t ever go out. Last time we went out it was 3 weeks ago, almost a month. I
haven’t been out of the house ever since. I feel like I’m in a prison sometimes”
“waaah you’re really ungrateful aren’t you” Jin
says while feeding himself “Last night you said I fed you Michelin star food
everyday and now you’re in a prison. Have you always been such a professional
liar? Fine then we won’t go”
“It’s not that…” you whined while clinging to his
arm “I do want to go out. It’s just that it’s kind of odd that you asked.”
“It’s Chinese new year tomorrow. Usually it’s
supposed to be celebrated with family but since we don’t have that right now-”
Jin brought a spoonful of oatmeal to your mouth and fed you “We’ll make-do with
You smiled while chewing.
“I know. I made it”
There was a sudden knock on the door that
interrupted your quiet eating session. Jin placed the bowl in your hand and
went to open the door. Usually it was one of his informants. They were the only
ones who knew where Jin was staying. It was either them or-
“Hyung” Taehyung stood outside the door, a
plastic bag in his one hand, wearing a cheesy grin and a dark hoodie over his
“I told you to call before you show up”
“I wanted to surprise you” Taehyung held the
plastic bag up front handing it Jin. “Here”
“What is it?” Jin asked suspiciously while taking
it from his hand.
“Rice cakes” Taehyung said with a tightlipped
smile. Jin was finally starting to recognize his younger brother. No
matter how much of a mess he created Jin could never stop seeing him as the
13 year old boy whom he had come to love so much over the years.
“Stay for lunch” Jin said as Taehyung removed his
hoodie, revealing his straight blond hair. He ruffled it up with his one hand
and looked over Jin’s shoulder before answering.
“I’m not invited” Taehyung said and Jin looked
behind him and found you standing there watching you two from a safe distance.
“I just came to gave you that. Also wanted to
talk about some important business.. But I guess we’ll talk about it later when
you’re free. Until then-” Taehyung put the hoodie back on and was on his way
when Jin stopped him.
“We’re going out tomorrow” Taehyung turned
hearing Jin’s voice “Since tomorrow is Lunar New Year, Y/n and I are going to
the festival. Come with us, later we can have dinner together”
After giving it a some thought, Taehyung nodded
“Okay, what time will you be there?”
“Meet us at the Japanese bakery by 9. We can see
the fireworks together.”
Taehyung put his earphones back in “I’ll see you
there hyung” he said before walking away.
Jin closed the door after he left and turned to
look at you. He smiled, but you didn’t return it.
“I guess we’re having rice cakes for lunch”
Time is just a handful of sand; the more you
tried to hold onto it the quicker it slips out of your fingers. A day passes
away in a few blinks and you’re left wondering how you utilized all those
Truth be told, you wanted time to go a little
slower when you were with Jin. But it just never stops. Hours go by as you’re
laid in his arms cozily. But it only feels like a second or two.
It was so perfect, the way the scene was set up.
Just Like a sweet dream. An old blue sofa sat in the living room, Jin was lying
on his back engrossed in his book; your pillow was his chest – swaying you up
and down as if you were on a boat that was putting you to sleep. You could hear
his heartbeat; the page turned after every 40second. There was a washing
machine that quietly burrred in the background. Jin’s one hand held his book
above his face and the other one was lost in your hair.
Half of you was in the real world while the other
half was strolling in a dream land. Just as you were about to drift off peacefully,
Jin moved and you woke up.
“It’s 6 already. I need to make dinner” he
mumbled, somehow it reminded you of your mother. You paid no mind to it. Your
eyes were still weary.
“Y/n” he whispered quietly in your ear “Get up
now. I need to make dinner”
“mmmm..” you replied but didn’t really move.
“Yah.. wake up now I need to do stuff. Quickly”
when you still didn’t move, he sat up straight in a quick motion pushing you up
“Why are you such a baby?” You heard him say when
you started dozing off while sitting straight up.
“WAKE UP Y/N! WAKE UP” he yelled and shook your
shoulders and you finally opened your eyes and stared at his face, his mouth was
curled up in a coy grin.
“Open your eyes baby” Jin cupped your cheeks with
his cold palms. You cried out at the contact but he kept holding your face
“Aaahhh you’re the one who’s acting like a baby.
You’re an adult baby!” You threw back at him but he just laughed at your words.
“Fine” he said without removing his hands from
your face “I’m the baby. Get up now, I have work to do”
You moved from above him and he made his away to
the kitchen. Then began the usual cycle doing evening chores: He cooked the
dinner; you cleaned the table and then you two washed the dishes together. After
that you would tiredly crawl back to your room and Jin would stay awake for
next 2 or 3 hours reading books or his work files.
Next day You were excited about going out. Almost
a month has passed since you stepped foot outside, in the real world. For a
time, you even started believing that these four walls were your only home and
Jin was your only reality. 2 months since that incident with Youngjae happened.
His dead face still haunts you at night, some nights you wish you could go back
in time and save him.. so you could save yourself in the process. 4 weeks and 2
days since you last saw Min Yoongi. You try to remember him every day – the
fading green and the musk of cologne – while still clutching the silver feather
in your hand. Not a day since you took off the locket, in fear that those bleak
memories of him in your head would fade away. But you still asked yourself at
times, “why? Why do you want to remember him so badly?”
You watched the sunset from the window of your
room. A fiery ball of red orb settles behind the crest of mountains and the sky
becomes ablaze with colors – Crimson, amber, hues of orange and pink shot
across the sky. You watched fireworks before the actual fireworks even began.
It was beautiful, an oncoming signal of the long night that was to come. You
smile to yourself; somebody somewhere must’ve had the same thought.
“You ready?” A voice makes you look back. Jin walks in, you smile and nod vivaciously.
He stands in front of you with his hands behind his back.
“What is it?” you ask him. He just stands there
holding in a small smile.
“Nothing” Jin replies while moving a strand of
hair behind your hair “It’s a good day. Isn’t it?..Oh, by the way. Here-” he
took your hand and handed you a small pink box. It had a cute bow on top of it.
“what-?” stared at the box in your hand and then
at Jin’s face. “- what is this?”
“A gift” Jin answered coolly.
“Just open it” you pulled off the black ribbon
and opened the box while Jin watched eagerly.
It was a bracelet. Just A simple thin gold
bracelet.. You didn’t even take it out of the box, the moment your eyes caught
a glimpse of the ‘gift’ you looked up at Jin in utter disbelief.
“Don’t say you didn’t like it. There’s a no-return policy”
“Why did you buy this?” Instead of answering, He
took out the bracelet from the box and wrapped it around your wrist and showed
it to you. Why did it have to be so pretty?
Jin smiled and cupped your cheek before pressing
his lips on your forehead.
“Happy new year kid” he then moved back and
looked at you one last time before taking your hand and pulling you out the
door with him.
You were surrounded by a crowd of people. ‘Strangers’
they all were and yet you felt a strange giddiness standing among them, a
‘sense-of-belonging’ that you haven’t felt in such a long time. You were
smiling to yourself like an idiot, good thing that the big woolen scarf hid the
lower half of your face.
A flock of young girls, probably 15 or 16 years
old, walked past you. They eyed Jin standing beside you who was too busy on his
phone to notice all the eyes on him. They giggled audibly and went on their
An itch bubbled up in your stomach at the sight
of them and you quickly found Jin’s hand and held it tightly. Jin finally
looked at you and smiled.
The light turned red. The crowd quickly dispersed
to get to the other side.
“Let’s go” Jin pulled you with him and you
crossed the road to get to the other side.
“Where are we going now?” you asked Jin, your hands
were locked tight and cozily tucked inside his over coat’s pocket.
“We’re going to see Taehyung-”
“Oh-” you said, sounding a little displeased with
You two walked in silence the rest of the way.
Everywhere your eyes went you would only see lights that decorated the shops,
building, houses even the trees. Streets were filled with cheery people, the
sweet smell of fried food made your stomach groan. Children were running across
the street without a care. There was man on the sidewalk surrounded by people;
he was doing some kind of magic show. You were intrigued but since Jin kept
walking you didn’t stop either..
“Walk faster! We’ll be late for the lion dance”
You heard a girl who walked past you with her friend.
“I don’t want to miss the firework this year”
Another boy talked loudly with his group of friends.
But your eyes were on a man who was juggling knives.
Everyone applauded him
“Somi! Don’t run! Hold my hand” you turned your
head quickly to look straight at the source of the voice but then something
bumped on your stomach and you heard a loud thud. You gasped at the sight of
the little girl who had fallen to the ground right in front of you. You let go
of Jin’s hand and helped the little girl get up.
“I’m sorry I didn’t see you. Are you hurt?” you
said crouching down to her position and dusting off some dirt from her orange frock.
“No, it was my fault. I should’ve watched where I
was going. I’m fine”
“Be careful next time kid” Jin said to her and
the kid just nodded obediently.
Then another woman, probably her mother, came
running behind her and started apologizing to you two before dragging the
little one ahead and walking off.
You two finally reached the small bakery. The
bakery was closed shut and no ‘Taehyung’ was on site.
“He said he’d be here.” Jin said looking at the
time on his watch. You started playing with a small pebble on the ground, moved
it around with your feet out of boredom.
“Why don’t you call him?” You said to him after 30 mins of waiting. You ended up sitting on the sidewalk.
“I did. He’s not picking up” Jin said sounding
more and more frustrated.
“We should just leave. We’ll miss the fireworks. I don’t think he’s coming” you proposed the idea. Jin
sighed and took out his phone from his pocket to call Taehyung one last time.
When Taehyung didn’t pick up again Jin decided to curse it out.
“Fuck it” he said and put the phone back in his
pocket “C’mon we’re going”
“Finally..” you said with a sigh of relief and
And then you were sprinting towards your
destination. “C’mon we’ll be late” You said while dragging Jin by his arm.
“We have plenty of time we won’t get late” he
tried to reason with you but you weren’t listening. You were just running.
There was a huge crowd surrounding the area, loud
music filled the air. In the middle, you saw some people in bright red costumes
dancing to the beat of drums and instruments while the crowd cheered and
applauded. The festival was all feathers, sparkles, smiles and laughter. You immersed
with the crowd and cheered while Jin stood behind, guarding you from those who
were pushing each other to get a good view.
You held Jin’s hand and started cutting through
the crowd to get a closer look at the people in the middle.
“Y/n wait” you turned and looked at Jin who was
struggling to remain in contact with you. Even though you were holding hands,
your sweaty palms were starting lose grip.
called his name but he probably couldn’t hear over the music. “Jin!”
Your locked hands were released from each other’s
grip. You looked at Jin’s face as he was trying to make his way to you while
pushing and shoving the people around him. You decided to get out of there, as
you started to walk towards him someone pushed you from behind, you regained
your balance and kept walking towards Jin’s head which was barely visible to
“JIN!” you yelled. This time he heard your voice
and looked up at you. He made a gesture telling you to get out and meet you
outside. You nodded and started walking through the crowd again. You were
almost out when suddenly someone bumped into you. The collision was hard enough
to make you hiss in pain, you still turned and apologized to the person who had
already mingled with the faceless crowd.
You pushed your way out and breathed in some
fresh air. As soon as you were out of the ruckus you started looking around for
Jin. You searched for him frantically. Your heart was racing too fast; a cold
shiver ran through your body when you started having all the wrong thoughts.
if they found him? What will they do to him? What are you going to do? Where
will you go?
Your eyes started to well up when you couldn’t
find him no matter where you looked.
In the end you just stood on that one spot and
prayed that he’ll see you there standing, somehow, He’ll find you.
“oh! Eonnie” A kid’s voice ringed loud in your
ear, even among the blaring music and cheering crowd. You heard the voice. You
turned and looked at person who had called out. It was the little girl who had
bumped into you. You gave her your best smile and she returned it with a bigger
one. She let go of her mother’s hand and ran towards you.
“Eonnie!” you sat on your knees to face her
It was your bracelet. You looked at your empty
wrist and realized you must’ve dropped it. She handed it to you and gave you a
toothless grin since her one front tooth was missing.
“You must’ve dropped it as you were leaving. I
found it on the ground where we had bumped”
You took it from her hand and wore it quickly.
“Thank you so much. You’re a really smart kid you
know that” you got up and placed a hand on her head.
“Y/N!” finally you heard Jin. You turned around
and saw him in a distance, out of breath running towards you. Your eyes started
to water out of relief but then-
“Eonnie…” you turned and looked at the kid whose
face had turned pale in horror. “Eonnieblood”
You noticed she was pointing something on your T-shirt.
You followed her finger and saw what she was pointing at.
She was pointing at your stomach.
No, not even that. She was pointing at the
growing red stain on your T-shirt.
You tried to find the source. Was someone hurt in
the crowd? You must’ve got their blood on you.. Maybe they need help.
But then you felt it, the excruciating pain on one
side of your torso. It felt like someone was hitting you on the side with a hot
metal rod over and over again.
“Eonnie…” the kid read the distress on your
face quiet easily.
“Run to your mother. Go now” you said hiding your
pain the best you could and refraining to touch her with your bloody hands.
“Y/n!” Jin yelled, you turned and saw him huffing
at a close distance now. You smiled; you knew he couldn’t see your pale face
from the distance. He started walking towards you and you took small steps to
When the distance between you two was less than an
arm you ran towards him jumped and he enclosed his arms around your waist so
tight, picking you off the ground.
It hurt, so much, tears came out but you couldn’t
miss out on hugging him, not if it was the last time.
“Fuck I was so scared” Jin’s face was buried in
your hair. You squeezed him back with all the strength in your body
“I’m sorry.” You said in a broken voice.
“Okay let’s not do this ever again alright. I’m
not doing this stupid ‘date’ thing ever again. We can just stay at home and
I’ll cook for you instead-”
“I didn’t know this was a date” you smiled
leaning your head on his shoulder tiredly and closing your eyes.
“I thought if I told you.. You wouldn’t agree.”
“You could try again” you laughed but the pain
just made your legs weak. You were trying your best to stand still on your two
“Hey.. Jin” you said in a meek voice.
“What is it?” he finally looked at your face
“Can we.. go back home now..I don’t.. feel good..”
he held your face in his hands and sensed something was wrong.
“Yeah.. of course. Fuck why is your face going so
pale? You’re cold. Are you sick?” It was only when Jin moved his hand away from
your face he saw blood all over his hands that had transferred to your face.
“What-?” You fell but he caught you in his arms. “Y/n..”
“No.. no” You fell to the ground “I’m fine..”
The last you remember before losing consciousness was Jin’s petrified face as he had held you in his arms and fireworks.
“Jin look.. the fireworks” You said in a weak voice that he probably didn’t hear. he muttered something like a ‘what?’ or your name maybe you couldn’t tell . So you raised your hand and pointed at the ignited sky above your head, Jin looked above.
“So pretty…” you said just before closing your eyes.
Thank you for reading it
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Warnings: Sad, swearing, kinda cute ( if you squint)
Dean x reader , Sam x Reader
The three of you were losing this fight. In all the years you’ve been with the boys, you’ve never been this terrified that all of you weren’t going to make it out of this battle . You try to pick yourself off the ground, but the deep Claw wounds down your side stop you. You watch as the boys are taking just as bad of a beating from this pack of wolves . There was only suppose to be 5, but the pack was larger , there were 15 of them and only three of you . The three of you managed to take down 10, the last five are the issue .
You finally get up , pulling your backup gun from your ankle and shooting two of the 5 in the heart with the silver bullets . Sam takes down another , leaving two left . One is holding Deans arms back, while the other goes to claw out his heart . You use all your strength , launching yourself to tackle the one Infront of him to the ground . As you do, Dean breaks from the others hold , moving out of the way while Sam plunges his knife into it . The last monster stands , his hand flying to your neck and lifting you with him .
You struggle to breath as he applies more pressure to his grip, squeezing your airway almost completely shut. He hears Dean approach him from behind, he drops you to go after Dean before he can stab him . You fall to your knees, gasping for air . The black spots disappear from your vision , making the sight In front of you scarily clear . There is another wolf, one that must of been hiding until the perfect moment, appear behind dean; with one of the boys guns .
You’re off the floor in a second , bolting towards Dean, pushing him out of the way . You hear the sound of the gun being fired 3 times , and felt three different bursts of pain jolt through your body .
You hear another shot , looking up you see the wolfs body hit the ground . Your legs give out, sending you backward into sams arms .
“ Y/n hold on , we are going to get you out of here!” Sam tries to reassure you . You look down, seeing blood soak through multiple spots on your shirt .
You send him a lazy smile ,
“It’ll be okay Sammy.” You slur , the blood loss and pain hitting you like a train .
“ Y/n hold on or I swear to god .” dean threatens . You feel pressure being applied to your wounds, but you know it wont stop what’s going to happen . You slowly place your hands over Deans on you abdomen,
“ I wouldn’t do anything different. I love both of you.” You say quietly as you watch the tears fall
From their eyes . Dean leans down , gently kissing you. You’ve waited years for this moment, and of course it would happen now.
You let out a dry laugh,
“ I waited years , and you do this now? Great timing Winchester.”
You don’t get to hear his response , you slowly close your eyes , thinking it’ll be for a moment ; only it wasn’t . Your world faded out, and that was the last time you saw your boys ; well while you were alive at least .
You stare across the table , locking eyes with you he grinning Winchester in front of you .
“ See something you like Sweetheart?”
You roll you eyes , kicking him under the table . He winces, giving you a ‘wtf’ look.
“ Behave yourself Dean . ” you warn .
“ if you two are done , we’d like to eat our dinner without your gross , weird foreplay. ” Sam states , his infamous bitchface firmly set over his features .
“ Sam let them be, just because you aren’t that cute with me doesn’t mean you have to rag on your brother.” Jess says as she follows you she follows your example , kicking Sam from her spot across from him. Thank Goodness for this girl . You let out a small giggle along with her , clinking your wine glass with hers .
“ you boys better treat your girls right , I raised you better than to do them wrong.” Their father warns , making both sons mumble in response . You watch as Mary enters the kitchen leaning down to kiss Johns cheek. Her long blonde hair cascading down her shoulders . These boys really got the best combination of genes .
After dinner you and Dean volunteer to do dishes; well you do, Dean groaned as the words left your mouth . You place the last dish into the washer, as get it closed a pair or arms encircle your waist .
“ well hello beautiful .” Rolling your eyes as Deans lame line , you decide to turn in his arms ,
“ your getting awfully lame Dean Winchester.” You taunt as you wrap your arms around his neck , right as your lips are about to touch his , a voice interrupts ,
“ Y/n.” What the hell?
You look over Deans shoulder , seeing The familiar face of Chuck Shirley .
“ Chuck? What are you -”
“ I’m here to bring you home .”
Your face scrunched in confusion
“I am home? ”
“ you’re in heaven Y/n . It’s time for you to come back down .”
Dean is gone from your arms , the kitchen you were just in fades to black ; leaving you staring wide eyed at Chuck .
“ how the hell are you doing this ? A prophet can’t possibly do this!”
“ that isn’t something to worry about right now, you’ll get an explanation soon .”
This isn’t the same , shy, set doubting Chuck you met before ; he’s more confident now , oozing more power than before .
In a blink of your eyes , you’re in an unfamiliar kitchen . It’s very plain , metal pots and pans hanging above a shabby wooden counter . A simple stove and slightly small kitchen table are also present in the room .
“ chuck where the hell -” you stop when Chuck is no where in sight . Sighing you lean against the counter , dropping your face into your hands ; three minutes ago you were with the man you love , the family you adored in a perfect world .Now your sitting in a strange kitchen , confused and crying , wondering what the hell you were just placed into . You hear a door open the fall shut, and a pair of deep voices echoing down the hall .
I rip the tapped note from the metal door , sending Sam a questioning look. I begin reading it out loud ,
I know I haven’t exactly Been around , but you two seem to have things under control . Well, as under control as you can manage . Hopefully this gift will help, and also make your days and faith in me a little brighter .
- Chuck .
“Does he think he can just pop in whenever he wants ?” I grumble , crumpling the note in my hands.
“ Dude, he’s God. I think he can do whatever the hell he wants” Sam says with a grinds he continues and walks in front of me .
“ what kind of gift -” sams voice trails off & he stops dead in his tracks ; making me run right into his back .
“ warn me before you do that, your like a freaking brick wall.” I rub my forehead that smacked into his back, stepping around him only to have my eyes nearly pop out of by head .
Both of us are staring at the girl in front of us ; the girl that we watched die years ago . Her beautiful long (y/c/h) is the same as I remember , falling around her in loose waves . Her eyes are glazed over, tears rolling down her pink cheeks . Her lip is caught between her teeth , and I can tell she is barely holding herself together . Sams speaks before I do, any and all words getting stuck in my throat .
My good friend and I used to make these a lot when we were really hungry, but broke. It takes about 10 to 20 minutes to make depending on whether or not you want an egg and your beans are canned or not.
This can easily be made vegan, just make the necessary substitutions to your taste. You can also totally make your own beans and salsa if you’re worried about sugars and fats!
- 1 bag of dehydrated refried beans OR 1 can of refried or whole beans.
- 4 corn OR 2 flour tortillas
- 1 or 2 eggs
- cheese or cheese substitute that will melt
- salsa or hot sauce of your choice
- butter or vegetable (canola is a good, heart-healthy one) oil
- seasoning to tastes
- fresh tomatoes, spinach, corn, onions, fried garlic, etc. (optional)
- small square glass or metal baking dish
- small pot for beans
- liquid measure (cup) if you’re using dehydrated beans
- spatula for serving & for your eggs
- small or medium-sized skillet
Start off by preheating your oven to 350 F. Then start heating or prepping your beans according to the bag’s instructions; season or leave unseasoned as you please. You can do this in a pot or in a microwave if you’re using canned beans. Place aside.
Grease your baking dish with a small amount of oil or butter, coating it thinly but thoroughly. Lay your tortillas in the dish. It’s okay if they stick up out from the sides, they’ll just get nice and crispy in the oven as you bake your “rancheros”.
Spoon your beans into the tortillas, spreading them out in an even layer. Add your veggies now if you want them– cooking them before or not is up to you, but remember raw vegetables release a lot of water when cooking, so prepare for a soggy bottom.
If you’re planning to have an egg on this, heat a teaspoon of oil or a small pat of butter in your skillet, and cook your egg(s) to preference. Season them with a little salt and pepper if you’d like as they cook. (Tip: for easier over-medium eggs, once I put the eggs in the pan, I cover them and put them in the oven for about 2-4 minutes, until they’re done to my preference. This helps them cook a little more evenly).
Slide your eggs onto the top of your beans and drizzle your salsa or hot sauce on top. Sprinkle your cheese or cheese substitute over it and bake for around 10 minutes, or until your cheese is melted. Remove, slice in quarters or in half, and enjoy! This doesn’t exactly keep in the fridge well with the egg, but I imagine if you don’t opt for an egg it’ll keep for about a day or two– but if you’re really hungry it won’t last!
Summary: After never hearing you sing before, the boys are shocked when the opportunity finally presents himself.
Dedicated too: Moana. That movie is life, that movie is life.
Your boyfriend was an amazing singer; that was a give. He’d sold out concerts, climbed the UK charts within hours of releasing a song and won several awards. You’d always been so fucking proud of him, for achieving his dream and staying humble whilst doing so. His fans were loyal, and the few you’d met were lovely. He was living the dream, and the new friends he’d made on the way through were now insanely important to him.
No longer did people only get to hear him sing, now they got too see him be the stomach achingly funny person he was. From his alter ego characters to the stupid things he did whenever the opportunity presented itself.
When his brother first moved from Brighton to London, he immediately insisted that they rent an apartment together; and even ended up with a tree size human living with them too. Thankfully, your apartment was nearby and so you spent the majority of your free time at their place. You weren’t a youtuber, nor were you a singer, but you did run a highly successful blog and guest star in quite a few of the boys’ videos. Other than the occasional hater, everyone seemed to quite like you - mostly due to the fact that whenever you were around, Conor was alot louder and more outspoken. Not that he wasn’t before, you just seemed to bring a larger percentage of that side out of him.
You and Jack got along like a house on fire. You could turn virtually any subject into a listen worthy conversation and often conducted research for his videos and your blog together. When Conor left to go on tour for two months, you spent that time either with Jack and Josh or at home, binge writing to keep your mind occupied. When he returned, you hugged him and woods let go, later on telling him that you were never letting him leave you for more than two weeks again.
After a long day of filming followed by a quiet stroll around Hyde Park, you and the boys were snuggled under your duvets on the sofa and were eating ice cream straight from the pot as Moana played on the TV. You’d never actually seen the movie, but you’d listened to the soundtrack on repeat for days and by now the fact that you’d never actually watched the movie was ridiculous.
So far it was amazing, and your eyes were attached to the TV screen - when you were like this, the boys knew never to bring you out of your trance, the last time they’d done that all hell had broken loose. All because Jack wanted to know if you had any more ice cream.
When the familiar tune of the song you adored began to play, you leant forward in anticipation and sang along subconsciously, having already had multiple jamming sessions to this song hen you were in the shower. It didn’t even occur to you at the time that you’d never actually sung infront of any of them before - but that was the last thing on your mind as the song ended and the movie progressed.
With an hour, the movie was over and you were stunned, leaning against your boyfriend with your eyes wide and your breathing shallow. “Holy fuck, that was beautiful.”
“Yeah, the movie was fine, but you?” Josh exclaims, looking over at you with wide eyes. “Since when can you sing?”
Your heart speeds up and you frown, laughing in confusion and looking between all of the boys who were staring at you with their eyebrows raised. “What the hell are you weirdos talking about?”
“Somehow you knew the entire bloody soundtrack!” Jack says, disbelief written across his face as he looks over at his brother and shakes his head slightly. “Did you know she could sing?”
Conor scoffs and looks down at your red cheeks with an annoyed frown. “No. And now I think about it, I’ve literally never heard you sing until then.”
You wince slightly and look down at your hands. “Sorry. But honestly, I’m not very good. I’m a shower singer and that’s it.”
Conor scoffs and wraps his arms around you, pulling you into him tightly and rolling his eyes at your statement. “Oh please, you hit those high notes like a fucking professional.” He exhales in shock and rests his head on her arm with a loud sigh. “Babe, we could have a number one single by now, you understand that, right?”
Rolling your eyes, you push him away and climb out of the duvet and onto your feet, collecting up the empty pots and metal spoons that’d been placed onto the coffee table at some point throughout the movie. You walk into the kitchen and can’t help but giggle to yourself at the mere thought of being ‘good’ at singing. That was Conor’s job, you only excelled in writing and that was that.
Though when you logged onto snapchat later that day and watched Jack’s story, your heart dropped. He’d managed to record you singing along to the movie, along with the shocked faces of your boyfriend and Josh, all you wanted to do was cry in embarrassment. Thousands of people had probably seen you singing already, and you had absolutely no idea.
You dared to log onto your twitter account a few minutes later, and came across a tweet from your boyfriend which simply read ‘apparently my girlfriend is a better singer, cook, writer and artist than me. go figure.’
You can’t help but smile and like it, before checking your mentions and pursing your lips when you noticed that quite a few of your friends had reblogged the video (that Jack had conveniently posted on literally every social media site), and had expressed their shock. Your large following had also stumbled across the video, and the hashtag #(Y/N)cansing was trending number seven worldwide.
You cheeks flush and you like a few more tweets and even reply to a few before placing your phone down and walking into the kitchen, wrapping your arms around your boyfriends waist and pressing your lips to his back silently. “Have you started writing our number one hit yet?” Her tone was laced with amusement, and he turns around and looks down at her with an eye roll, brushing their lips together and smirking against them.
“So, these lips can do more than one breathtaking thing, huh?”
Warnings: Just Boomer getting a little too handsy, basically he goes to a dinner party and flirts with Luce, a girl he probably shouldn’t be flirting with…
Digger “Captain Boomerang” Harkness X OFC // Suicide Squad
1. The Party
“Finally,” Anita sighed as Luce pushed through the screen door, her arms full with a bag of groceries.
“I bought all the spaghetti they had at the store,” Luce stated as she set the shopping bag on the table. She reached into the brown paper, pulling out a large can of Guinness and crossed to the living room, handing it off to her uncle who occupied the recliner in the corner, his old hound dog curled up at his feet. He was a bitter old man but the one thing that made him smile without fail, was a cold beer.
“You’re a God send,” he stated, cracking the seal and taking a drink.
“No problem, Manny,” Luce replied with a smile. Though she referred to the man as her uncle they were not technically related. “Guess who I ran into on the way back,” she began, returning to the kitchen to empty the rest of the shopping bag’s contents.
“Big Foot,” Her sister-in-law replied. It was obvious by Anita’s tone that she had no patience for Luce, preoccupied with slicing tomatoes.
“Remember last week, Eddie was talking about meeting that guy from Australia at the bar?” Luce leaned against the counter as she spoke, “I met them on my way home.”