met a goal i've had for like a year about now


when i made my first blog last year, i never  ( in a million years ) would’ve guessed i’d ever accumulate this number of followers. ever. with my on and off activity, n’ mass shitposting, i’m surprised i ever even surpassed 100. way more important than numbers, though, are the people who i’ve met & interacted with here, and who have inspired me – or encouraged me to stick around, when i wasn’t feeling it.  ™

i’ve said it countless times – & i’ll say it when i’m on my deathbed : i love cloud strife. he was the first muse i wanted to pick up, but i decided against it because he was already such a popular character and muse. finally making this blog back in october of 2016 wasn’t a mistake. despite being painfully awkward, i’ve met a ton of people ; some i speak to regularly, and others  ( – my bad  not so much. 

all the same  ( gross i appreciate everyone sticking around. ffvii has been a part of my life quite literally since the year i was born, and having some means of conveying how much it (& cloud ) means to me is pretty therapeutic, n’ relaxing. i won’t ramble much more, anyhow. i’m not gonna tag most everyone in the list below, obviously, but i’ll make some mentions. the usual stuff, right ?  cloud voice: let’s mosey.

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God today has been a good day but also really exhausting bc a lot of stuff and walking going on (or well, more walking than I usually do haha) but!!! I have great life news that you can find in the tags below haha

Francesco Totti’s lovely farewell speech

disclaimer: this is an approximate translation from another source (click) also prepare yourself from some tears

“Eh, ssh… It’s easy for you!

Here we are. The moment has come. Can you hear me? 

It looks like a concert! 

Sadly, this moment arrived, even though I hoped it would never arrive.

These days I read a lot of things about me: good, beautiful things. I cried a lot, every single day, by myself like a lunatic. Because 25 years are not going to be forgotten, with you behind my back that helped me through good and bad moments.

And for this, I want to thank you all here, even though it’s not easy in this circumstance. You know I don’t speak a lot, but I definitely think a lot. And these days with my wife we had talks about the years I had with this shirt, this unique shirt.

I wrote a letter for you as well. I hope I will be able to read it out. If I don’t manage to read it all, my daughter Chanel will do it for me, because she loves it.

(I need to take a breath, sorry, it’s not easy for me) - in a laughing manner - I’ll go before it gets too late. I suppose you’re hungry, it’s time for dinner. Even though I’d stay here for another 25 years.

Thank you Rome, thank you mom and dad, my brother, my family, my friends. Thank you to my wife and my sons.

I wanted to start from the end, from the farewells, because I don’t know if I’ll be able to read this all. It’s impossible to tell about 28 years in a few sentences. I would like to tell them through songs or else, but you know I’m not good at that. So I tried to write them with my feet, for these 28 years, which was a lot easier for me.

You know what my favourite toy was? The ball. It still is. But at some point we get old. This is how they told me time works, damn it.

It’s that same time that on that 17th of June of 2001 we hoped it would run faster. (The day Roma won the Scudetto) We couldn’t wait to hear the referee blow his whistle three times. I still have goosebumps about it.

Today time came at my door saying: “We have to grow up. From tomorrow onwards you will be old. Take off your shorts and shoes because from today you’re a man, and you won’t be able to smell the grass of the pitch from this close. The sun in your eyes when you’re running towards the goal. The adrenaline that consumes you and the satisfaction in celebrating.

I’ve asked myself in these last months, "Why are they waking me up from this dream?" 

Do you remember when you were kids and you were dreaming something beautiful? And your mother wakes you up because it’s time for school, but you preferred staying in bed and sleep? And you try to get back into the story again, but you never succeed? 

This time it wasn’t a dream. It was real life.

This letter is for all of you, for the kids that cheered on me, for the ones that were once kids and are now fathers, and for the ones of today that maybe still yell "Totti goal!”

I like to think that my career will be for you a tale to tell to people.

Now it’s really over. I take off my shirt for the last time and I fold it nicely; even though I’m not ready to do it yet, and maybe I never will.

Sorry if in these last few months I didn’t say anything about what happens and my thoughts, but turning the light off isn’t easy.

Now I am scared. It’s not the same fear I have when I have to score a penalty, this time I can’t see through the holes of the net what will happen next.

Let me be scared. This time I am the one who needs you and the warmth you are able to give me. The one that you always showed to me. – fans start chanting very loudly – With you by my side, I will surely be able to turn the page, and to begin a new adventure.Now it’s the time to thank all of my teammates, the staff, the managers, all the ones who worked beside me all these years. The fans, La Curva Sud. A symbol to us Romans and Roma fans.

Being born Romans and Roma fans is a privilege, being the captain of this team has been an honor. You are and you will always be in my life. I won’t be able to excite you with my feet anymore, but my heart will always be there with you.

Now I’ll go down the stairs, I’ll go into the locker rooms that met me when I was a kid, and I will leave as an adult.

I am very proud and happy to have given you 28 years of love. I LOVE YOU. “

anonymous asked:

Hello, this may sound silly but i'm currently enrolled to attend Art Center next year but, upon consideration (also the fact i have no money that i've had to push my acceptance by a YEAR) and your own information, i'm thinking of dropping the school altogether and going to a cheaper option (LCAD being a better option in my option) so i was wondering if i'm being rash in this idea? I know ArtCenter has a lot of name recognition, internship, and career help, but is that worth going into dept for?

i get a lot of asks from people who ask me if they should go to art school and my answer is always just “hell no no”, so i think i will make this my master Don’t Go to Art School post.

ok here’s the bottom line: just don’t go to art school. don’t go!! don’t go to any accredited art school!! unless you have a full ride scholarship or close to it, don’t go!! literally every working professional i have met since graduating a year ago has agreed with me. we love to get together and bitch about how art school is a waste of time and money.

an education at art center will cost you about $200,000 in tuition alone. lcad isn’t much better and runs about $120,000. during my time at art center, i had a scholarship and help from my parents and i still owe $30,000 in student loans.

and honestly art center didn’t help me get the job i have today. literally all it did for me was introduce me to talented and friendly people who are willing to extend a hand to help each other out in the field. but making friends shouldn’t have to cost you $200,000 lmaooooooo.

here’s my super simple guide to getting a job in animation:

1. move to L.A. this is non-negotiable. all the studios are here. i’ve had uber drivers that have studio hookups and i’ve been offered jobs just sitting in a cafe in burbank and drawing. just existing in the epicenter of animation is an advantage.

2. welcome to L.A! it’s really hot here but i hope you enjoy it. now that you’re here, let’s not go to art school.

3. here are some much cheaper options: (one of my old teachers from art center teaches a ton of workshops and classes all around town

and if you absolutely insist on going to some kind of 4 year college-like thing, try it is about a quarter of the cost of art center, which is still pretty steep imo, but is just as good.

4. i’m even going to give you a cheat guide on what you should study (all of this you can find online for free btw!! just google it!! damn just try pinterest even!! or buy a book!!), based on what i studied at art center. design, composition, perspective, anatomy, color theory, costume design, light logic, visual storytelling, character design, character acting, storyboarding, prop design, background design, environment painting, style development. there ya go that’s all you need to know.

5. lock yourself in a studio apartment for 4 years and practice all the above everyday.

6. study the work of artists working in the field that you admire. do what they do, then put your own heart into it. make work relevant to the industry today. know what your goal is. like literally, having access to soooo much artwork from working professionals on a daily basis is almost like cheating.

7. and go here and draw when you have free time. make friends with other artists. join a plein air painting club, or do a workshop, or ask for a mentorship. talk to people in the field!! make friends!!

8. make really good work and put it online. everywhere. share it!! have a website! contact recruiters! contact studios you like and ask them when they have internships open!

9. go to CTN every year and bring your portfolio. sign up for portfolio reviews. bring cards with you. ask the recruiters about internships.

10. congrats u now have a pretty good chance of getting a career in animation and u didn’t spend $200,000 for it.

i may sound bitter and jaded about art school (and maybe i am……..a little…….) but honestly i’m way more excited because after a year of working in the industry and meeting people who either didn’t go to art school or went to shitty no-name schools, i am super passionate about the fact that we live in a day and age where anyone who’s willing to put the work in and discipline themselves can develop the skills to become a professional artist without going to school. art is for everyone!! not just people who can afford school! art is fun! and great! and i want everyone who is passionate about it to succeed and not let the obstacle of $$$$$ stonewall them out of a career they’ll love!

don’t go to art school!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

A little bump here and there

There’s so many things I’ve been wanting to do for a long while now, but I’ve let a pretty bumpy year get the best of me.  I’m human, and not perfect, sometimes things bring me down too.  My outlet to de-stress used to be games for the most part, but since starting Youtube I rarely have time to play things to just to chill / unwind.  That’s not to say I don’t have fun recording games for YouTube, I just miss out on so much stuff that I’d normally just geek out about by myself with no commentary or anything to de-stress.  For example, I still haven’t played more than an hour of The Witcher 3 when I was so hyped about it.  One short term goal I have is to make sure that I don’t let that happen to Fallout 4, I need to play it.

I do want to say though that this whole journey on Youtube has ultimately become one of the proudest achievements in my life.  I've put everything I have into it, and pushed through so many challenges along the way like doubt, and near endless uncertainty.  Way before I could even call this a job I just loved hearing how just watching me play and have fun with something brought a smile to your face, or made you think a little bit less about something that was stressing you out.  I know that my content can vary quite a bit with all of the different games I play, and with friends swapping in and out often, etc. but it’s so awesome to know that you guys always have my back as we experience this journey together. 

With that said, I really do need to find a way to find some balance, and pick myself back up as I’ve been feeling a bit down for a while.  There were a lot of bumps in the road that I didn’t anticipate surrounding the move, and even when the move stuff was mostly taken care of it felt like a bunch of other things fell off track.  I’m trying to fix that, but there are some things with dependencies that I have little control of.  Still, I’ve been doing my best, and while I might not have the solution to all of the challenges just yet I’ve always been strong, and adaptive.

No matter what though I always want you guys to know how much I appreciate you.  For some of the very difficult things I’ve had to go through in the past (I’ve shared a few bits), and even with some things still on my plate in the present (maybe one day I’ll do a draw my life to go into more), having had the chance to experience all of this in my life has been a true blessing that I will be forever grateful for.  Seriously, it is still hard to believe how far we’ve come. 

So to all of you out there that have been here for me thank you all so much for supporting who I am, and what I do, and for helping me work towards what’s essentially a dream.  I care so much about this community, and I feel like every day I get to know more and more of you a little better as I read your comments, tweets, emails, and everything else.  I may not have met you in person, but I’ve come to know many familiar names and faces over the years.  Remember that I read almost everything, even if I can’t always respond.  

Again, thank you for everything, I mean it from the bottom of my heart. 

on the second years

Short meta this week – I swore to myself I wouldn’t write one but god, fuck this show.

It seems our third year arc is finally over, after half a season of build-up and two incredibly emotionally charged episodes in which everything finally came out.

However, though our third year arc has come to a close, this show isn’t anywhere close to leaping off the angst train. I’ve seen this coming for several episodes actually, and I would have been very, very sad if it hadn’t been addressed – but like in so many aspects, Sunshine has continued to exceed my expectations in every way.

Of course, the show is also really, really gay. Every episode I tell myself “this must be the most gay Love Live will get”. Each new episode continues to prove me wrong, and Episode 10 is no exception.

Spoilers up till episode 10 under the cut.

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Heavenly Commentary: Deathly Hallows Pt1
  • Sirius: I can't believe he broke the mirror.
  • James: Didn't really need it, did he?
  • Sirius: Still. I liked that mirror.
  • ***
  • Lily: That's a nice little tribute.
  • Albus: Yes. Elphias always was a generous man. Although Rita Skeeters is far more thrilling.
  • James: Harry thinks otherwise.
  • Albus: He will learn the truth. That no one is without regret. Rita Skeeter was surprisingly quick.
  • Cedric: Even dead we can't get rid of her.
  • ***
  • James: I never thought I'd see Harry trying so hard to save these people. After everything they’ve done to him.
  • Lily: Our son is better than us both.
  • ***
  • James: That was downright emotional for Dudley.
  • Albus: I imagine that he is beginning to see through the veil of his youth. One’s parents are not always correct.
  • ***
  • James: The guard is all here.
  • Lily: Obviously. Oh yeah. How was Moony’s wedding?
  • Sirius: Simple. You know him. Not an extravagant bone in his body.
  • James: I'm betting Tonks got an extravagant bon-OW!
  • Lily: Shut up!
  • ***
  • Cedric: Seven Harry Potters fly out of a house. What does Voldemort do?
  • Albus: He will assume they will give the real Harry to Alastor. As he is the strongest wizard present. He is unable to understand that strength is not the factor here.
  • Sirius: I don't understand. Who is taking Harry?
  • Albus: Hagrid of course. There is no one there who loves Harry quite like Hagrid.
  • ***
  • James: Even dead you're right.
  • Albus: It appears not all habits die hard.
  • ***
  • Lily: I have a bad feeling. Nothing is ever this easy.
  • James: Oh shit. No!
  • Hedwig: Hoot hoot.
  • Cedric: Trust me. I know.
  • ***
  • James: I thought he was going to die.
  • Lily: How did Harry do that? He didn't look in any shape to defend himself.
  • Albus: I have my theories. But imagine the suspense if I choose not to share them.
  • Sirius: I never said this when we were alive but, you're a dick.
  • Alastor: I said that constantly.
  • Albus: Old friend! It's terrible to see you here. Welcome to the party.
  • Alastor: Where are we?
  • Albus: The next great adventure. Your appearance is rather disconcerting with two normal eyes.
  • ***
  • Lily: Poor George.
  • James: Everyone is going crazy. They've been betrayed.
  • Sirius: And of course Snape cursed his ear off. Part of the plan Albus?
  • Albus: Let's find out.
  • ***
  • Alastor: Grieve later fools. Fight the war now.
  • Cedric: Constant vigilance?
  • Alastor: Exactly.
  • ***
  • James: Remus says Harry is like me and yet he makes it sound like an insult.
  • Lily: Because it was. Something is broken inside of him.
  • ***
  • Sirius: They've done all this?
  • James: They're children going to war. What do you expect?
  • ***
  • Lily: That had the feeling of a kiss goodbye.
  • Alastor: Smart girl.
  • ***
  • James: Happy birthday harry.
  • Lily: He's all grown up now.
  • James: But he's still our boy.
  • ***
  • Sirius: You left them stuff?
  • Albus: But of course. A few trinkets I hope will be of use. Oh Rufus. If only you put this energy into helping me.
  • ***
  • James: The Snitch he swallowed. Damn it but that's genius.
  • Albus: Thank you.
  • Lily: “I open at the close”?
  • Albus: I have always appreciated a healthy use of theatricality.
  • ***
  • Lily: Of course Luna would recognise him. I really do adore that girl.
  • ***
  • James: Do you remember our wedding?
  • Lily: I'll never forget it.
  • James: I wish we could have had something like this. Not the rushed one we had.
  • Lily: It was perfect and I'll never think otherwise.
  • ***
  • Albus: Ah fate. It is always nice to know when one is on the right path.
  • Sirius: ...ok?
  • ***
  • Lily: Oh...Albus is this tr-
  • Alastor: Enough.
  • Cedric: But Prof-
  • Alastor: Enough! There are bigger problems right now.
  • James: The Ministry has fallen.
  • Cedric: Then it's over.
  • Albus: No Mr Diggory. Now it begins.
  • ***
  • Alastor: Excellent Miss Granger. She's prepared.
  • ***
  • Cedric: Why are they being so nice?
  • Sirius: It’s not actually mercy if they can't actually kill them.
  • ***
  • Albus: Charming, Alastor. But those would not stop Severus. Given his innocence they wouldn't need to.
  • Alastor: What?
  • Cedric: I'll fill you in.
  • Hedwig: Hoot.
  • ***
  • James: Oh man, do you remember that picture?
  • Sirius: Last day of our first year. We were children.
  • James: But not for very long
  • ***
  • Lily: I remember that letter. What happened to the rest of it?
  • James: Probably Snape. Greasy bastard.
  • Albus: ...
  • Sirius: Just because he's on a secret mission to save the world doesn't mean he can't be a bastard.
  • ***
  • Sirius: Regulus, oh God. You did...why didn't you tell me?
  • James: Like Hermione said. He was trying to protect you
  • Albus: Did you find your younger brother Mr Black?
  • Sirius: No.
  • Albus: Wherever he is, I honour him. I would never have been able to drink that potion alone.
  • ***
  • Lily: Oh
  • James: Why would he...
  • Lily: Har- oh no.
  • Sirius: Moony...
  • James: You did good Harry. You did the right thing.
  • ***
  • James: No. No!
  • ***
  • Alastor: Fools! Do they think these kids are going to school?
  • Sirius: They don't think. Wow, Kreacher looks...happy.
  • Cedric: I guess that's what happens when you're treated with common decency.
  • ***
  • Lily: Do you think they're ready?
  • Alastor: As ready as they'll ever be.
  • ***
  • Sirius: Don't ask a teenage boy what he was doing in the bathroom, Hermione. You may not like the answer.
  • Lily: I swear I will hit you.
  • ***
  • Albus: Let the games begin.
  • ***
  • Lily: Those are muggle bodies. I think I'm going to be sick.
  • ***
  • James: That's why he was so eager to get to work. His wife is on trial.
  • Lily: It’s not a trial. It's a sentencing.
  • ***
  • Lily: Holy shit. It's her!
  • Cedric: Why can't they just take the locket and run?
  • James: Because they don't know if she still has it. And stealth is still needed.
  • Albus: Also because that man is the Minister himself.
  • ***
  • Alastor: I think I preferred it when Crouch Jnr had it.
  • ***
  • Cedric: Mr Weasley is terrifying.
  • James: I think Harry agrees.
  • ***
  • Lily: Well so much for stealth!
  • James: Don't look at me like that! He's your son too!
  • Sirius: They might actually make it out.
  • Lily: Crap! Yaxley has them! He's seen Grimmauld Place!
  • Cedric: So where are we now?
  • ***
  • Lily: Ron must be really afraid if he's stopped saying “Voldemort”.
  • Albus: Perhaps not the most foolish of precautions.
  • ***
  • Alastor: You know why he's after Gregorovitch, don't you Albus.
  • Albus: I do. I'm curious to see if it will work.
  • ***
  • Alastor: Not a Christian but I appreciate the effort Potter.
  • ***
  • James: Ron isn't holding up too well.
  • Alastor: Some people aren't cut out for field work.
  • ***
  • Lily: The sword...?
  • Albus: Indeed.
  • James: So where is it?
  • Albus: Therein lies the question.
  • ***
  • Lily: He left...
  • James: I can't believe it. He's gone...
  • ***
  • Cedric: That's it then. He can't find them. He's really gone.
  • Albus: Perhaps.
  • ***
  • James: He doesn't care about the sword. He wants to go home.
  • Lily: Back to where it all started.
  • ***
  • James: Welcome home Lily.
  • Lily: I never thought th- they built us a statue?
  • James: Damn right they did.
  • Sirius: Where’s my statue? Bastards.
  • James: Why would they build you one idiot? You helped kill us. Remember?
  • ***
  • Cedric: I thought Dumbledore would be here to see his family’s graves. But I'm guessing he's actually with them now so never mind.
  • ***
  • Lily: He's crying...
  • James: So are we...
  • ***
  • James: Do you think they would've gone to all this trouble if Voldemort hadn’t been defeated?
  • Lily: Of course not. We'd have been just three more victims.
  • ***
  • James: Something isn't right. Bathilda was the sharpest woman I've ever met.
  • Lily: And now she looks...dead.
  • Albus: That would be because she is indeed deceased.
  • Sirius: How could you know that?
  • Albus: I just came from visiting her.
  • Cedric: Then who is that?
  • Alastor: What, not who. And that is Bait.
  • ***
  • Sirius: Holy fucking shit!
  • James: Run Harry!
  • Lily: Hermione! That was close. What's wrong with him?
  • Albus: I believe he is trapped inside the memories of Voldemort. The memories associated with the last time he stood there.
  • Lily: Oh...
  • ***
  • James: Grindelwald?!?
  • ***
  • Lily: Do you have anything to say?
  • Albus: Keep watching.
  • ***
  • James: Is that a...
  • Lily: Snape. That's his patronus.
  • Cedric: How do you know?
  • Lily: Because that's mine.
  • ***
  • Lily: Take the Horcrux off. Take the Horcrux off. Take the Horcrux off.
  • James: Dammit Harry.
  • Cedric: This can't end well.
  • ***
  • Cedric: I take that back!
  • Sirius: About damn time Ron!
  • ***
  • Lily: Family.
  • ***
  • James: This is genuinely hilarious.
  • Cedric: Hermione is a badass.
  • Lily: So cute. They're all back together.
  • ***
  • Albus: Ah boys. I wish I was there to help. But alas I am not.
  • ***
  • Alastor: More breadcrumbs Albus? If you trust Severus so much why didn't you just give him a letter to send to them?
  • Albus: Old friend, in this matter, the journey is far more important than the goal itself.
  • ***
  • James: The Deathly Hallows?
  • Lily: What are they?
  • Sirius: A children's story.
  • Albus: I think you'll find, Mr Black, that most children's stories are based on truth.
  • ***
  • Alastor: They should never have come here!
  • Cedric: They took his daughter! He had no choice.
  • ***
  • Sirius: Albus...are the Hallows real?
  • Albus: They are.
  • Sirius: How do you know? How can you be sure?
  • Albus: Because I've held them all.
  • ***
  • Lily: I really hope you haven't just split them apart again.
  • Albus: They are behaving as I expected them to.
  • ***
  • Lily: Oh it’s good to hear them again.
  • Sirius: Keep the faith.
  • James: NO! Ah Harry don't use the name.
  • ***
  • Alastor: Stay calm. Stick to your story.
  • Cedric: Too late. They've been found out.
  • James: They're taking him to Voldemort.
  • Lily: I think Harry is with him already.
  • ***
  • Albus: Poor Draco. I tried to help him.
  • Sirius: No you did the bare minimum. If you really tried to help him then we wouldn't be watching this.
  • Albus: I do believe you're right. But necessity demanded.
  • ***
  • Lily: Oh God. They're going to torture her.
  • ***
  • James: The mirror?
  • Sirius: What use is that going to be?
  • ***
  • Sirius: Pettigrew! You treacherous bastard!
  • James: Wait! What? No!
  • Lily: ...he's dead. What just happened.
  • Albus: Love. Mercy. Forgiveness. Things such as these can forge terribly great magic. Harry spared Pettigrews life and created a debt. Peter's hand, a construct of pure magic, just repaid it.
  • ***
  • Sirius: He's not here.
  • James: I don't think he wanted to meet the two people he betrayed and the one he blackmailed.
  • Sirius: He's gotten smarter. But I think I'll hunt him down.
  • ***
  • Albus: Oh my...
  • Lily: He's coming! You have to go!
  • James: Woah that was close! DOBBY! Excellent timing!
  • Cedric: Shell Cottage. Nice na- oh no. Don't...
  • Dobby: Master Dumbledore sir. What has happened?
  • James: Dobby. We are Harry Potters parents. We've been watching you help our son for five years. You've been so noble. So brave.
  • Lily: We want you to know, we love you so much Dobby. And you will always be with friends here.
  • Dobby: Kind Miss has Harry Potters eyes.
  • ***
  • Dobby: Such kind words from Sirs and Misses. And Harry Potter is sad.
  • Lily: Of course he is sad. He loved you more than we do. He is your friend.
  • ***
  • James: I don't understand what's going on.
  • Lily: Me neither.
  • Alastor: Then why don't you both shut up and listen to your son explain it all?
  • ***
  • Albus: Harry. You amazing young man. I'm proud of you my boy.
  • James: You had the Elder Wand? You took it from Grindelwald?
  • Albus: I did.
  • Lily: And why not give it to Harry?
  • Albus: You must pay closer attention Mrs Potter.
  • ***
  • Cedric: So we're planning again. But this time to break into Gringotts.
  • James: Should be fun. Did Godric really steal the sword?
  • Albus: It’s quite possible. No human account would ever admit to it. And who's to say the goblin history isn't biased either.
  • Lily: You were a teacher right?
  • ***
  • James: You're back. Moony has a son.
  • Sirius: Well I’ll be dammed. Good for you mate.
  • Lily: He looks so happy.
  • ***
  • Alastor: Weasley. As subtle as ever.
  • Cedric: Hermione is the only one who appreciates subtlety. The other two prefer a wand to the face.
  • ***
  • Albus: Once more unto the breach
  • ***
  • James: I recognise his voice.
  • Lily: Travers is the one who almost killed me. And then you dropped your wand and beat him half to death.
  • Sirius: Potter, your laziness is biting your son in the arse. “Half to death” finish the job!
  • ***
  • Lily: He just used the Imperius Curse...
  • James: It was necessary.
  • Alastor: Be grateful he's managed to avoid killing anyone. What was your bodycount?
  • Lily: More than zero.
  • ***
  • Sirius: Dammit! This is the ministry all over again.
  • James: Onwards. Get the Horcrux.
  • ***
  • Lily: They’ve got i- GODDAMMIT GRIPHOOK!
  • Alastor: They should have never trusted the goblin!
  • James: They had no choice! Time to go son!
  • ***
  • Cedric: They did it. They got the cup.
  • Sirius: Lost the sword.
  • Albus: They did well. But now Tom Riddle will know what they are hunting.
  • James: He already knows. Now what?
  • Lily: To Hogwarts.
  • Dobby: Once again Harry Potter frees a poor and hurt creature. He is truly great.
  • Albus: You are correct Dobby. He really is.
  • ***
  • James: They're in trouble!
  • Sirius: They need to-
  • Albus: Brother.
  • ***
  • Lily: Your brother isn't being helpful.
  • Albus: He's worrying more about their safety than their success. He's a better man than I ever was.
  • ***
  • James: Oh...
  • Lily: Albus...oh Albus I'm so sorry.
  • Albus: I should introduce you to my family. They would like you. But that may have to wait. I believe we are about to go home.
  • ***
  • Alastor: The war came to Hogwarts.
  • Albus: And here it will end. Never tickle a sleeping dragon.
  • ***
  • James: Use them Harry. You need the help
  • ***
  • Sirius: Why would you step out from the cloak?
  • James: He can handle Alecto.
  • Lily: So can Luna.
  • ***
  • Lily: Oh good. He's used Cruciatus.
  • James: Let's just hope he doesn't need to use the last one.
  • ***
  • Sirius: Oh great. This dick.
  • James: Oh man! Look at Minnie go! Kick his ass!
  • Lily: They're on the same side!
  • Sirius: So?
  • ***
  • Sirius: I wish I was there. One last battle.
  • James: Me too Padfoot.
  • Sirius: Although...maybe not at this very moment.
  • Lily: This is so awkward. Jeez Fleur, really?
  • ***
  • Lily: Aww they made up.
  • Alastor: Just in time to die.
  • James: Death did not make you any cheerier did it?
  • ***
  • Cedric: See I’m impressed by the visual. But the fact that it’s always Slytherin versus the other three, seems to highlight a major problem in this school.
  • Albus: I agree Mr Diggory. A simple idea that has such permanent consequences.
  • ***
  • James: In the middle of a battle and he forgets what he's doing.
  • Lily: Has your attention span.
  • James: Why is it that every bad thing comes from me?
  • ***
  • Albus: The Grey Lady. Harry you marvelous young man.
  • Dobby: Ghost Miss Ravenclaw has always been kind to me.
  • Albus: Ah of course! Before he met with me. In case I escorted him out.
  • James: But where did he hide it?
  • Albus: I do not know. But I believe Harry does.
  • ***
  • Lily: Even now he is loyal to you.
  • ***
  • Cedric: Chamber of Secrets? Hell of a romantic date Ron.
  • Albus: Aaahh of course. These children are magnificent.
  • ***
  • Lily: It’s about damn time!
  • James: They're really going at it.
  • Alastor: Timing. Idiots.
  • ***
  • James: Sirius is following Tonks. Cedric and Alastor have gone to see other people.
  • Lily: I guess it's just us then.
  • Albus: Fitting in a way.
  • Dobby: Yes sir.
  • Hedwig: Hoot.
  • ***
  • Lily: These three again?
  • James: When are old school enemies not welcome?
  • ***
  • James: He just tried to kill Hermione...
  • Lily: Were we like this?
  • James: Probably.
  • ***
  • James: Fucking fiendfyre! You crazy bastard!
  • ***
  • Lily: We would never have tried to save them.
  • James: Speak for yourself. I saved Snape remember.
  • Lily: Oh shut up. They destroyed another Horcrux
  • ***
  • James: Oh no...
  • Lily: Hello Fred.
  • Fred: Blimey. You're the Potters! Professor Dumbledore! Oh hell!
  • James: Yes Fred you are dead. But if it makes you feel better, you can call me Prongs.
  • Fred: But my pare- YOU'RE JOKING!
  • Sirius: No he's not. I'm Padfoot. And this is Moony, who literally can’t duel to save his life.
  • Remus: I’d say it's good to see you Fred bu...James? Lily?
  • James: It’s good to see you old friend.
  • ***
  • Remus: It’s been years.
  • Lily: For you. Where’s Tonks?
  • Remus: Dolohov killed her after he did me. When Padfoot collected us she went to see Teddy.
  • ***
  • James: Let's go end this.
  • ***
  • Fred: This is chaos.
  • Alastor: This is war!
  • Fred: Mad Eye! You’re al- oh yeah I'm dead.
  • Sirius: You get used to it.
  • ***
  • Sirius: Dammit Hagrid!
  • Remus: Wonderful. Giants.
  • ***
  • James: Focus Harry. You can do this.
  • Lily: Luna! Bless your soul.
  • ***
  • Remus: I'm not sure how I feel about Voldemort using this place.
  • ***
  • Lily: Oh God. Snape, run!
  • James: Too late.
  • Remus: What is he doing?
  • Albus: That's a memory.
  • Severus: Albus? Where are w- Lily??
  • Sirius: You sonofa-
  • James: Motherf-
  • Lily: QUIET! No one says a word until we see that memory.
  • Albus: If I may-
  • Lily: Not a word! You have both played with my sons life as if he were a piece in a game! No one has the right to talk until we see that memory!
  • ***
  • Lily: You bullied my son. And his friends. You went out of your way to torture and torment them. But you also risked your life for my son, every day for the last three years.I do not forgive you, but you can stay. For now.
  • Sirius: Wait what?
  • James: You heard her. But I swear, you pine after my wife even once and I'll punch you in the face.
  • Severus: I won't be here long. I want to see how it ends. After that, I will leave.
  • ***
  • Severus: It’s good to see you Lily.
  • Fred: He says after we just watched a montage based on sixteen years of his love for her.
  • Remus: Fred, shut up.
  • ***
  • Cedric: I thought you'd be more disturbed about Harry having to die.
  • Lily: I...
  • James: Don't think for a second that we aren’t being destroyed inside. But there is no choice. Our son has t-...
  • Lily: To defeat Voldemort, our son has to die. And we'll be here to greet him.
  • ***
  • James: He told Neville. About the snake.
  • Lily: Oh. It's Ginny.
  • ***
  • Sirius: The Snitch?
  • Albus: Excellent Harry. I imagine you four should get ready.
  • James: Ready for what?
  • ***
  • Cedric: The Stone! Harry was right!
  • Fred: What the hell is that thing?
  • Albus: Old and powerful magic.
  • ***
  • Lily: He dropped it!
  • James: Harry NO!
  • Lily: Wh-what just happened? Why did Voldemort fall?
  • Severus: What did you do this time you mad old man?
  • Albus: My greatest work! My masterpiece! Engineered from beyond the grave!
  • Lily: Stop patting yourself on the back Dumbledore and tell me what happened to my son!!
  • Albus: Lily! James! Harry is alive! Now, let’s see if this works.
  • James: What? What are you muttering? What-WHERE DID HE GO?
  • ***(Due to Tumblr limits, the rest is under part 2)

tpn1697-deactivated20150908  asked:

I've been planning a story of mine for a little less than a year the thing is I've only written a very small portion. I don't know how to get more done and I don't really have a scheduled time for writing.

Have you lost motivation to write it?

You’ve been planning for so long, and I know that some people (myself included) will lose the motivation to write after extensive planning. After all, I already know everything that’s going to happen. If that’s the case:

  • Add in a twist, change something up, make it new and exciting again! 
  • Tell a friend or writing buddy about it, see if they can pick out and plot holes or things that don’t make sense. You might have to restructure some stuff, but that’ll give you something new to do. 
  • Which aspects of the planning have you been thorough on, and which haven’t you been? If you’re world building and haven’t given much thought to the politics of your world, give it go and maybe you’ll find something out about how it relates to your MC and plot. 
  • Place it aside for a while, and start on something new. Maybe you’ve been focusing on it for too long, and have grown tired of it. Come back to it later, when you can rework it with fresh eyes and hopefully more enthusiasm. 

Are you procrastinating? 

I met someone who planned a novel for fifteen years. No joke, she had binders full of worldbuilding and like 200 pieces of card, each with information for a different character. She said she was going to start writing the story that month, but ended up putting it off to plan more. Moral of the story: when you’ve planned enough to write, stop planning and start writing. 

  • You’ve said that you have a scheduled time for writing, but you could try it out. It doesn’t have to be “every morning I will wake up at 7.00am and write for two hours straight.” It can be something like “write when I take public transport to work/school,” “write during lunch break,” or “write for ___mins sometime after dinner but before bed.” 
  • Set out word goals, they can be anything number that you feel like you can comfortably finish and feel satisfied with at the end of the day. Track your progress through something like NovProg, or a spreadsheet. Feel the satisfaction that your wordcount is improving. 
  • Find some writing buddies and accountability buddies. These people are there to sound things out with you, motivate you, and check up on you to make sure you’re making progress! 
  • Join the next (Camp) NaNoWriMo. No really, it helps. 
  • Remember that it’s a first draft, and that it does not need to be perfect. You do not need to wait until you’re “good enough” to write your masterpiece, just build the base now and transform it into the masterpiece you know it is later!
Show Me A Hero: Prologue

Title: Show Me A Hero
Category: Het (Canon AU)
Characters/Pairings: Felix Agreste/Bridgette Cheng, Chat Noir/Ladybug, Adrien Agreste, Marinette Dupain-Cheng, Alya, Nino, Tikki, Plagg, Hawkmoth,
Summary: Marinette and Adrien learn that they don’t need a mask to be a hero.

Go forth and have no fear
Come close, the end is near

It’s our time to make a move
It’s our time to make amends
It’s our time to break the rules
Let’s begin
-Renegade, X Ambassadors


THE Game Board was all set now.

The pieces had been weeded out until those necessary for the final play remained. On the white side, the woman had a ladybug, a black cat, a lion, and a tiger. On the black side, the man had a butterfly, a fox, and a bear. A slew of white pawn shaped pieces lay behind them, strewn across the chessboard.

The two Players sat across from each other, staring down at the board in concentration, each contemplating how to win the Game. The red haired woman eventually reached out and moved the Ladybug several spaces forward, into the midst of the other Player’s side.

The black haired man frowned at this, realizing that his Trump Piece was in danger. Carefully, he reached out and moved the butterfly several spaces back—right into a corner. A wicked glint lit in her eyes and she smirked, moving the black cat several spaces forward.


Now, the Final Play could begin.

The world waited for their return in silence. Paris, once so vibrant, so full of life, was still. Terror weighed heavily on the corners of the inky, silent night.

“Marinette…” The whisper pierced through the air, breaking the heaviness. A match was struck when ocean colored eyes locked with emerald. “Do you think we can get them back?”

“I’m not sure.” The light dimmed. “But to not even try is unacceptable. We owe it to Plagg and Tikki, don’t we?”


“Then we’re just going to have to keep trying until we find them again.”

When she caught Adrien’s fingers between hers, the match met gasoline.

“Hey, Adrien?”

Adrien frowned at the blurry face on the screen, but it cleared fairly quickly. Felix rarely talked using colloquial language, so it caught his attention more so than the rest of the cat-pun filled conversation. He leaned back in the chair, lacing his fingers together over his stomach


“Remember when I told you about possibly coming back to Paris soon?”

He nodded. “A few months ago, right? You said after you graduate.”

“And here I thought you didn’t pay attention to anything I said.” The teasing tone made his voice years lighter, and Adrien smiled.

“I always listen to my older brother. I just ignore most of it. Now, his very pretty girlfriend on the other hand…”

Felix laughed. “I’d be jealous if you hadn’t admitted you thought of her like she’s a sister.”

“Well, Bridge is awesome.”

He rolled his eyes. “I thought you’re dating that marionette girl?”

“Marinette? No, of course not. We’re barely able to talk before she starts stuttering. She’s nice enough, just a little shy. Besides, I have a crush on somebody else. Stop teasing me. Why are you talking about graduating and Paris?”

Felix’s dark eyes danced with mischief, an expression that had once been as uncommon as father’s affection, as he leaned forward, resting his head on his fingers. “Well, you see, I may have been doing extra credit…”

“What? Really?”

“…And I managed to move my graduation date up a semester, if I just so happen to choose. The beautiful Bridgette has threatened to, and these are her exact words I swear, "hang you up by the toes” if I don’t, at least, spend three months with brother dearest before taking on daddy’s apprenticeship to the company.“ He rolled his eyes. "I’m not too sure how I’m going to break it to him that I have no intention of taking over anytime soon. I want to travel the world before settling down.”

Adrien snorted into his palm. “How about you break it in the same way you told him you were going to New York to study political science with your high school girlfriend?” He suggested idly, playing with the edges of his shirt. The string was coming loose. Felix groaned softly.

“Not one of my smarter moments, I admit. I’m just glad he didn’t ban me from contacting you entirely.”

“I would have emailed and skyped you anyway.”

“… You’ve hit your rebellious years, haven’t you?”

“You’ve never left yours.”


Author’s Note: For anyone who’s reading A Crown of Golden Leaves: I promise I didn’t go down without a fight. In fact, I went down in a blazing ball of glory. But after writing a 12k rough draft and a 6k chapter outline, I gave in. Sometimes, a story just demands to be told and will. not. shut. up.

Especially after Felix appears, apparently. I think I lost the fight there.

Same deal as always - 2000 to 4000 word chapters, my goal is to update weekly if I can. I’m not sure how my 400 word drabble, but apparently, it’s not going to leave me alone until I write it, so here we are. All I know is that it’s going to take over 20 chapters to get to the first major turning point in the story, I have vague ideas for a middle (something about dodgeball and inner conflict?) and even vaguer ideas about an ending (something about a battle and sacrifice?), so I’m pretty much in the same boat as the rest of you while writing this out. xD

To celebrate passing 500 followers a while back, over 1 year since I became a VIP, and going to K-Con Paris last week, I thought it was about time I made another list of the beautiful people who light up my dashboard! (ive been putting this off for ages whoops)

Mutuals are in italics, baes and/or blog goals are in bold. Both means go follow them this instant.

@ahjummajiyong   @alengthoftime   @ampelette  @antleredocelot   @azar-potter   @bingu-choi   @brooklynbaebae   @ceo-seungri   @chimchams   @cypherslut   @daeseungie   @daesungs-thighs   @deathbyg-dragon   @eirianerisdar   @epikcry

@harubelief   @hironechan   @h1gh-h1gh   @i-cry-cry   @jiminahhh   @kiizuki @kkuks   @koreanghetto   @kwon-ji-yongie   @kwon-jyong   @letstalk-about @lostinsquirtlewonderland   @lordzuuko   @maiissk   @myvipwaves

@n-amtaehyun   @n-yongs   @newevolut1on   @nokoe   @officialyanghyunsuk   @party-kings   @pekebella   @pocketumbrella   @seokjins-princess   @sexy-tabi   @seunghoonnn   @seungrifeels   @seungriseyno   @shovelqueen   @swimpuku-matsooka

@tattsunsan   @tigerteeth   @textmebangtan   @toit   @top-is-bae   @toppedbybigbang   @topsdaydream   @the-almighty-narwhal   @thechoomingbingu   @trixiedragon   @winnervevo   @yg-drag   @yoongischeeks   @youngbaesthetic   @youngbaebae   @2h4 

Some extra thanks and emotional babblings under the cut.. ❤️

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So last night I started thinking about Youtuber!Klaine AUs and ended up writing out a huge idea for it in a post. Today I wrote that. It took me hours when I thought it would just be a quick drabble, so I really hope you like it! (I’m also not proofreading it so I’m sorry for any mistakes! I need to lay down now, haha)

Summary: Kurt gets popular on Youtube for a “It Gets Better” video. Blaine is popular for his covers. Kurt is out. Blaine is not. 8,500 words.

It Gets Better Really Happens uploaded by kurtehum 
Published on September 20, 2012

[Kurt sits in front of the camera, with a brick wall background. He takes a deep breath] I can’t believe how lucky I am right now. Growing up in a small town in Ohio, which was just so conservative and god even the parents of my bullies hated me and who I was, I never thought that it would get better. I always saw those Youtube videos about older people in the LGBTQIA community talking about the It Gets Better campaign and I just….never believed it, really. I had more bullies than friends in high school. Glee club was my only safe place and even then….performing didn’t end up being the escape I needed to get out of that town so I just - I took the chance and came out to New York City on my own with no plan. It’s been two weeks now and somehow - somehow I’m making it? [laughs] I got an internship at vogue dot com and it’s - it’s a whole new world for me and it’s amazing. My boss is probably the single most amazing person in the world and - now I can’t believe it but I’m making one of those videos I hated in high school because I thought it would never happen to me. [he reaches up and wipes away a few tears] Because I’m here in a city that accepts me for who I am and I’m actually thriving and I know I have so much more to do, but right now - I’m not in my little homophobic town anymore getting beat up by people who hate me just because I love who I love. Or well, hypothetically, because I still haven’t had a boyfriend but you know, New York City. It’s full of possibilities. [laughs] So to anyone like me who is watching this from Ohio or Kentucky or Texas or - or anywhere where you don’t feel safe being yourself….it can get better. It really, really can. [smiles]

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Dragons of Renown: Nicol Bolas

Thousands of years ago, it was told that mighty dragons clashed against each other in a great war now known as the Elder Dragon War. Serpent against serpent, the battles crossed the fabric of multiple planes. In the end, only a few reigned victorious.

“Dominaria’s most ancient evil.”

Nicol Bolas by D. Alexander Gregory

There were five of these Elder Dragons: Arcades Sabboth, Chromium Rhuell, Nicol Bolas, Vaevictis Asmadi, and Palladia-Mors. However, only the most powerful among them still lives today. Nicol Bolas may have lost much after the Mending, but he is still a tremendously powerful being, having a wide arsenal of spells and the capacity to planeswalk.

Tyrant of Worlds

Nicol Bolas, Planeswalker by D. Alexander Gregory

I have heard his name spoken both in admiration and in fear. Nicol Bolas, the last surviving Elder Dragon from the wars, is a fearsome being. He has survived cataclysmic events and fought many battles, and remains as one of the most feared forces in the Multiverse.

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anonymous asked:

So we're seeing in LoT that Len is changing for whatever reason but it is happening with regards to saving the world etc. In the flash family of rogues episode Barry says to Len about not letting his past define him. Now obviously I'm not saying everything is down to Barry, but do you think we are starting to see Len as someone who is finally able to let go of his past and as someone who wants to ensure he never becomes like his father?

Okay this has been in my inbox 2k5ever, but that’s because I was struggling to decide how to answer it haha. But ultimately I agree, but there’s so much more I would add, because it’s not about 2x03, it’s about his entire arc. So I’ll unpack my thoughts on this a bit…

One thing I think is important to note is that Len has been changing since his first appearance in The Flash 1x04. In 1x04, even though he doesn’t want the guard to get hurt, Len himself killed three people outright (two of them other criminals, one of them a random innocent stranger), each with arguably little genuine necessity. He also endangered a train full of completely innocent people, including children.

But in 1x10, with Mick at his side, he steals a painting but no one gets hurt, and he kidnaps Caitlin but ensures that Mick doesn’t burn her, and makes sure things are set up so that they don’t have to kill her if they succeed in their aims of killing the Flash. The only one he tries to hurt that episode is the Flash, and collateral damage is highly minimized (and localized to a particular street). Still, his goal that episode is murder, and he is willing to cut down Caitlin Snow or whoever else he has to in order to accomplish it. Lisa and/or her crew definitely kill some guards at the end, off screen, in order to help Len and Mick escape.

In 1x15, Len, with Mick’s help and later Lisa’s, kills a fair few men in the mafia, both at Don Santini’s house and at the casino. He also kidnaps Cisco and temporarily maims his brother, which Cisco himself likens to torture. 

But note that by 1x15, the collateral damage is way lower. Len and his Rogues kill who they intend to kill, main instead of killing when they can, and don’t put anyone at risk when it isn’t necessary for their aims. No innocent bystanders are in their way save for the people who run out of the casino, and those people aren’t in genuine danger of Len and Lisa, though potentially from a ricochet bullet of the Santini’s. And at the end of this episode, Len agrees to stop killing bystanders and innocent people altogether (and maybe to stop killing altogether; it’s unclear to me if this deal extends to the Santini family and other criminals but I choose to believe it doesn’t really, or doesn’t extend to anyone threatening Len’s life).

So it’s not just 2x03 that has an influence on Len changing. Len’s been changing from the moment we saw him. And I think a big part of it is working alongside the one person he trusts (Mick), so that he doesn’t have to be so harsh and so cutthroat because he’s got someone he knows can watch his back. I think another major part is having his sister back in his life, the person who he cares about more than anything, the one he wants to protect, and the person who I think is his heart, is the reason that Len turned out as good as he did, learned to love and care for more than just himself (link). Having her in his life again, spending more time together, helped bring out the side of him that was more ready to actually enjoy what he was up to rather than just doing it out of compulsion, had him wanting to change and grow, and not hurt innocents like Cisco.

By 1x22, we see more of that, with Len saving Barry’s life, even though he betrayed Barry (and he technically upheld his end of the deal in protecting Barry and his friends and in getting them safely to the airfield, just saying). No one died except the person (Simmons) threatening Barry’s life, which I’d argue was a matter of defense and necessity (link). So Len has definitely changed his approach, and that he agreed to help the Flash at all, even for selfish reasons in the end, I think is very telling about how he’s changed over the course of season 1.

But you’re right in that 2x03 did represent a massive shift for Len on a lot of levels. I think it has less to do with being told that there is good in him – although I do think that had an impact – and a lot to do with being out of the shadow of his abuser. Because Len has always known he doesn’t want to turn out anything like Lewis, has despised his father for years, even if he couldn’t before bring himself to kill Lewis. But with having Lewis finally dead, with having done it himself, freed himself from that emotional constraint and prison still holding him, the constant fear for Lisa that would’ve gone along with Lewis’s continued existence? Len is free in a new way. Free to grow. Free to fulfill more of his own potential, to want to fulfill it, to want to have more and be more.

So yes, to quote you, “we are starting to see Len as someone who is finally able to let go of his past and as someone who wants to ensure he never becomes like his father”. He’s able to move so much beyond his past now, a clear dividing line between who he was and who he can be now. We see that when he doesn’t deny that there’s good in him, only asks how much being good pays. It’s an admission, that sure he’s not all bad, but he’s still not going to be what Barry is. And we see that in 2x09, when he goes to warn Barry about Mardon and Jesse – that is about honor, and thus a good part of Len, and Barry knows it, and Len can’t even deny it (link, link). 

And I think it grates on him, that change. It’s a slow-moving process, at least partially unconscious to start, and change can be scary, and fraught. It leaves us feeling vulnerable and untethered. I think that’s part of why he’s so keen to have Mick on the Legends trip with him, because he needs something he can hold on to, something he understands, someone he trusts. And because he genuinely wants this opportunity, wants to try being a ‘legend’ and wants to see what’s out there (and steal along the way, because he’s still him). And he wants his friend to share in that as well – they’re partners, after all (link).

So by mid-season in Legends of Tomorrow, by the time Len realizes and acknowledges out loud that he’s changed, we can tell that it’s been going on since we met him, slow at first, but accelerating after 2x03. We see him as someone who wants others to be able to leave their pasts behind, and we understand that he wants that for himself as well (link). We see him as choosing what is right, not what is easy, and shifting his priorities. We see him caring about the team as a whole, and not solely his partner, even if his partner means the world to him. We see him struggling very genuinely, grappling with his changes, with his options and what he wants versus what he believes is right, and that’s new to him, that depth of internal conflict (link).

So I don’t think it’s down to any one person or any one thing. I think Len’s changes are something put in motion by Mick, by Lisa, by the new challenge and opportunity presented by facing off with the Flash, by helping the Flash and being helped by him (saved by him, Lisa saved by him, realizing he can have that, can trust that), by killing Lewis and being free of that spectre, by being reminded staunchly that there is good in him even if he doesn’t know what to do with it and isn’t ready to stick his neck out with it. And now those changes are compounded in Legends, with a team he is coming to care about, probably in spite of himself, and with a mission and goal more important to him than just stealing, than just making a name for himself, and with conflicts that challenge his growth versus his original desires.

Tyler Hoechlin, MVP of My Heart: DOTW Chicago

This Sunday was the second day of DOTW Chicago, and I was lucky enough to attend. After a number of dramatic airport antics, I finally arrived at the convention just before it began. I flew halfway across the country and I couldn’t be more excited for the day, even if I had been awake since Friday night. The only real goal was getting to talk to Tyler for a little bit, but along the way I made some friends and the day turned out all the better for it. The day began for me with Orny coming on stage and introducing Ian, but as this trip was mostly about Hoechlin for me I’ll leave the recaps of everything else for others.

The first big thing I did was attend Tyler’s Meet and Greet. The amazing darkenednights (Go check out her photo’s of the con!) was kind enough to sell me her ticket, and I couldn’t be more thankful. The whole day was the best ever, but this really was it’s core. Now I don’t know how much we’re actually allowed to say about it, so I won’t go into much detail about it. But he was so nice and made sure to involve and talk to everyone during it, and answered questions and smiled and was just so nice. At one point I asked him about the Dodger’s game, and he said it was amazing to be a part of, but that his brother had been teasing him about how he only hit two home runs, and when I said “but you were MVP” he said his brother reminded him he was only the co-MVP. I responded by putting my hand on my chest and saying “Well you’re the MVP in my heart” to which he just gave a really big ‘awh’ and said “that’s the one that matters.” He really is just the best guy like wow. 
While in there I met some super awesome people, such as switch842 / runningwithwolves42! It was pretty great. Everyone in there was amazing and it made it all so much fun.

Next up was his panel, which has been reported on in depth I’m sure. I didn’t get to ask him the question I wanted to, but a highlight has to be when someone asked him how he would survive in a zombie apocalypse. He decided he would want dragons (because who wouldn’t?), but when I yelled out asking what if they bite the dragon, he just said you’re done. It’s over, you’re dead. haha Another just amazing part was when this little kid asked him what his favorite Beatles song was and he talked about rocking out in the car to the ‘na na’s at the end of Hey Jude. He was just so happy and perfect and it was great (also I crazy want to hear him car singing now haha)

The last two things were the photo ops and his signing! I had two photos, and told him at the Meet and Greet I had a plan for it, and he said he was looking forward to it as he left. When I got up to him in the line, he remembered that I had a plan and asked what it was.
I had a bottle of coke in my hand. He hadn’t noticed it.
I smiled and looked at him.
“okay, Tyler?”
“I need to ask you the most important question I can ask someone.”
He looked a little worried. He didn’t know. Hadn’t realized yet. I drop to one knee.
“Will you.. *presents the coke bottle with his name on it to him* Share a coke with me?”
He died. He threw his head back laughing and clapped while saying “I will”. It was so great I was so excited. After he stopped laughing he grabbed the bottle a little and smiled down at me: PHOTO HERE. (the photographer took it just as his smile started to fade, which is a little sad but I still love the photo). I stood up and gave him the coke and he seemed surprised he got to keep it?? He’s so great oh my gosh. 
He put the coke to the side and was like “hug?” 
I thought he meant an actual hug. He meant a photo hug. I went for it. My head fell into his shoulder and He started to pose. I realized halfway through and turned my head awkwardly with my hand on his shoulder to look at the camera. He thought it was funny apparently, though, so that’s nice. PHOTO HERE
I left after getting a real hug, and made my way upstairs to the autographs.

Now, I almost missed my autograph. Things were running a little slow and I had to catch my flight. I had been up since Friday night still. Starbucks had closed. I was so tired it was a mess. Eventually the wonderful Creation team bumped me to the front so I wouldn’t miss my flight, and I got to say goodbye to Tyler. He laughed and smiled when he saw my photo, and said he was sorry I had to leave so quickly (I told him why I got bumped up). But before he finished signing, I told him how much he meant to me and why. Basically I told him that he was the best, and my hero, and that he and Derek got me through a really really bad depressive/almost suicidal spot four years ago and have been helping me ever since. He got these really wide eyes (which is a sight to see even in my state truly) and an awed expression, and looked a little lost for words (he said “that’s amazing” or something similar at first) and then made for a high five before just getting up and walking around the table and giving me a huge hug (which was magical and I was almost crying because it was really hard to say and I was so tired and he was being so amazing and fantastic to me). I told him he was my hero again and that I had to go but just thank you so much for existing, and he got this really serious face and nodded as he sat down but then immediately smiled and told me he wanted me to come see him again soon (and I died inside). I smiled and nodded back but joked that the goal was he was going to be so famous that he wouldn’t do these anymore and I wouldn’t be able to afford it. He just smiled and waved at me and told me to have a safe flight. And then I was gone. I left the room and said goodbye to my new friends and got to the airport and cried for a long time because of how amazing he is and how much I wish I could talk to him again and how much I missed him already, and because I have no idea when I’ll get to see or talk to him again and it kills me.

So. That is my (very, extremely long) recap of my day at DOTW Chicago, and the part that was most important to me (for reasons that I hope were made clear). The take away should really just be that Creation Events are great, con friends are the greatest, and that Tyler Hoechlin is the best human being in the world, my favorite person, my hero, and now MVP of my heart. 
Nate out.

The Breach - 2/?

 A/N: Guys, I received so much love for my last chapter I don’t know how I can possibly thank you all. Every time my phone lit up with a little notification or message or tag or like it made my day. Also, yes, each chapter has a Greek deity theme. Not really sure why. Just go with it. Also as you’ll find out I’ve sort of taken liberties with certain characters, not out of character, just… Just go with it.

Question: what nickname do Americans use to mock the English? All I could find that I felt applied was ‘brit’ and it feels so weird to not be able to use 'pommy bastard’.


The Breach

CS teachers au

(looking for Chapter 1? Also available on FF)

2. Tyche - luck

Checking her watch Emma decided that five more minutes and she’d definitely get back to her work.

She’d been trying to do just that for the last twenty minutes, but she was sure that in five minutes time she’d be ready.

Emma collapsed her head into the nook of her elbow, arms crossed upon her desk, and shut her eyes.

There were some days that Emma loved her new job. Days where the biggest problems she had to deal with were disinterested children skipping classes. She’d only been living the counselling life for - what was it, five weeks? Five years ago she had been a bail bondsperson and while she had decided to move on from it, it had also been a satisfying career move. She had loved chasing down creeps and fools, and being paid reasonably to do so. She was not blind though – she knew the whole exercise had been somewhat self-serving. Bail bondsing had scattered some earth in a certain emotional trench.

But that was a whole other story.

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