mental victory

Kind of proud of myself for today...

Yesterday (Saturday 21/01/17) I had a headspace melt down and depression took over my mind, I stayed on my bed/in my bedroom most of the day. Today (Sunday), I was determined to not let those thoughts and worries of my life keep a hold of me. It’s just gone midnight on Sunday evening and I’m laying here in bed feeling proud of myself for how I handled today. I didn’t let the thoughts defeat me, I came up with a plan in my head, used it effectively and matched that with keeping myself busy. I worked through my to-do list, spent time with family, spoke to my girlfriend throughout the day and kept my depression under control.

What I need to constantly remember is that not everyday is perfect, some will be near that and others will just be a case of getting through the day. What counts is that I enjoy the small things, the things that make me smile, the moments that are enjoyable. Then when things seem bad, use those memories to aid me through. It’s all a process, this journey is a process, just as life is a process really…✌🏼💕


Spell Craft Week One; Swift Focus Jar

With the school season soon approaching, you may find yourself overwhelmed with work and unable to focus. To combat this I present to you the Swift Focus Jar, designed for you to quickly burn your way through a piece of work that needs doing.

For this spell, write on a piece of paper that you are going to focus, or what you are going to get done. Place it inside the jar. After this point, you have a choice of what ingredients you can add. I just used a lavender tealight, some dried jasmine flowers and bay leaves but you and use whatever you have from this list that suits your purpose best.

  • Jasmine (For the creation of new ideas and promoting mental creativity)
  • Basil (relief from mental fatigue, focus)
  • Lavender (for creating a calmed mental state)
  • Bay Leaf (victory, success, strong wishes)
  • Ginger (Success)
  • Cinnamon (concentration)
  • Peppermint (Alertness, energy)

Add whatever herbs you decide upon into the jar. (You don’t even have to use any, but it helps a bunch) Carefully light a tealight candle and drop it into the jar, then screw the lid closed. This is going to cause the candle to become extinguished within about 10 seconds due to it’s lack of air. Stare at the candle intently until it burns out, visualising the candle burning through all the remaining air in the jar. Think now of yourself as the candle and the air the work you need to get done fast. Imagine how you will burn through the work until none is left just as quickly as the candle burned away all the air. Finally, get the candle out of the jar again and relight it, then put it back in. This time leave the lid off so it can breathe. Sit it on your desk while you prepare for school. The flame will then become your helpful companion, serving as a gentle but firm reminder everytime you see it.

Fire is the element of productivity and fast action. Or for lack of a better term, the ‘get your shit done’ element. So make sure you ask the element to help strengthen your resolve and thank it for the guidance it will give you!

Spell Craft by VioletWitchcraft is another new weekly series. Every week I will ask my followers what spell they feel they need in their lives, and then I will create one. For more custom spells made with you in mind come back every Sunday for the next instalment. If you leave a request on what spell I should do before Saturday night you may be picked! For more spells check out the Isobel’s Spellbook section of my blog.

The little victories are the days when you have the opportunity or chance to go look up how an abusive person is doing in life and yet you manage to not do so. 

They are not worth your time, not worth another whirlwind of PTSD, and not worth the emotions you’d spend: be it loving them or wanting to see that they’ve suffered. 

At first every hour is a victory, then every day, and then every week. 

Take your time back. Take yourself back as best you can. 

libra · september 23 - october 22

People born under the sign of Libra are peaceful and fair, and they hate being alone. Partnership is very important for Libra -born, and with their victorious mentality and cooperation, they cannot stand to be alone. The Libra is an Air sign, with expressed intellect and a keen mind. They can be inspired by good books, insurmountable discussions and interesting people.

  • Aramis: I'm resigning my commission and retiring at the monastery at Douai.
  • Porthos: ...
  • Athos: ...
  • D'Artagnan: ...
  • D'Artagnan: Can I have your hat?

people born under the sign of libra are peaceful and fair, and they hate being alone. partnership is very important for libra-born, and with their victorious mentality and cooperation, they cannot stand to be alone. the libra is an air sign, with expressed intellect and a keen mind. they can be inspired by good books, insurmountable discussions and interesting people. the ruling planet of libra is venus, who is a lover of beautiful things, so the quality is always more important than the quantity for people born under the libra sign. they are often surrounded by art, music and beautiful places. they are cooperative by nature, so they often work in teams. libra is fascinated by the balance and symmetry. libra-born prefer justice and equality, and they cannot tolerate injustice. they avoid indulging in all types of conflicts and prefer to keep the peace, where this is possible. they like to do everything in pairs and not alone.

Okay but imagine high school!AU with Will, Jason and Percy as Nico’s potential boyfriends.

And Hades hates all three of them.

Nico: Dad, this is Perc-

Hades: Jackson? I raised you better than this.

Nico: Jas-

Hades: nO

Nico: This is the last one dad I swear to God-

Hades: Oh great, it’s that Solace boy from the next door.

Nico: *runs out of the door screaming*

Hades: *mental victory fist pump*


Hades: You can go home now. And don’t come near Nico. I will know.


Here is my progress pics since I started eating better, started and ended personal training (got to expensive), then picked up bbbenwilliamson Crush60 training program! I’ve lost 40 pounds, 6% body fat, 5" on my biceps, 4" chest, 3.5" waist, 4" hips, ¼" calves, gained ½" thigh. I’ve dropped from 4x to 3x shirt size and from 44 to 42 in pants. I’m far from my ultimate goals, but the past three months I’m knocking smaller ones off one by one! I’m gaining strength and endurance by the day.
I may have a full plate with work, college, and raising toddlers, but I made time to get myself healthy.

Thank you wearecrush, bbbenwilliamson without finding this program, I wouldn’t have been able to get myself to where I am today. I know I work hard and I’ve earned it, but it was your guidance that led me!

I just only started! The sky’s the limit! I cannot wait to see my one year progress! Thanks to everyone else on tumblr who have stood with me on this journey! I am motivated and inspired every day when I see you all break past your struggles! We are all in the same boat! Get out there and crush it!


Story time! Sorry this will be long….

I just kinda felt like letting you all in on part of my story. The first picture, left, was exactly one year ago, the day of the Brad Paisley concert 2014. Right was a few weeks ago (and the same concert is in three days). The girl in the first picture is smiling but i can tell just by looking at it how miserable I really was. I look honestly drained with such a fake smile. And thats what i was best at; hiding my sadness with a fake smile and acting like nothing was wrong when really i felt broken.

I really was fighting some dark times then. I suffered heart break after heart break, and honestly felt un-lovable. I hated the body i was given and threw around too many detrimental self hate words. I can remember just sobbing all the time, so disappointed in myself and my lack of self. I felt empty.

Fast forward to now. A few months ago something in me clicked, and i realized I NEED TO MAKE MYSELF HAPPY. I can’t depend on anyone else for that. I need to believe in myself, to trust myself, to acknowledge my beauty AND my intelligence. That’s when i started Crush because i was finally ready to take my fitness seriously again for the first time in a year or two. It’s really helped me buckle down and focus on my goals. And while my physical progress is awesome I’m most proud of my mental. That picture on the right is totally candid, and i can see my own happiness in it. I feel proud, happy, and I really love my life.

I just want people to know that it gets better. Just because you’re in a rut now doesn’t mean you’ll be there forever. You’re worth loving, so recognize your own worth. Start doing things for yourself, and make yourself happy. The greatest gift I’ve ever given myself is self acceptance. And i think my happiness has become radiant, and i hope infectious. ☺️💕

Maybe today you got out of bed when you felt like you couldn’t.

Maybe today you went to work when you just wanted to stay home.

Maybe you ate all three meals today even though your mind told you not to.

Or maybe all you did today was breathe.

No matter how big or small your day may have seemed, be proud of yourself. You have done what you could and tomorrow is a brand new day. 

Great job! Keep going.

Me: don’t worry if you can’t go to work school or socialise today!! You’re eating regular meals, you’re not selfharming, your liver is pretty functional!! These are victories!! Mentally ill folk shouldn’t have to hold theirselves to NT’s level of functioning!! Ur doin ok!! 
Me five minutes later: death I am a leech to society