mental trap

The Pawns And The Kings

Part 1, Part 2, Part 3, Part 4, Part 5, Part 6, Part 7, Part 8

Originally posted by bangtanbtsmut

Pairing: Jungkook x Reader

Type: Smut

Plot: The reader is kidnapped, left alone in utter darkness. Once the day of her auctioning comes, she’s given to the head of one of the worlds most powerful gangs, Jungkook. She was nothing but a gift to him. But her little soul turns out to have the power to turn the tides in the worlds angriest ocean. And it turns out, Jungkook isn’t the only man whom eyes have settled upon her.

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You don’t have to be better than you are to make things

You don’t have to be better than you are to make things.

The things you make do not have to be perfect, and neither do you.

It’s ok to make flawed things. It’s ok to make mistakes.

Everything you make will be flawed. Everything everyone makes is flawed.

No matter how good someone is, what they create will be imperfect. If you wait until you’re capable of making a perfect thing, you’ll never make anything.

You do not need to be the best in order for it to be ok to make things. You don’t even have to be impressive.

It’s ok to make things even though other people make better things.  It’s ok to make things, even if other people know more than you do.

It’s also ok to make things even if you’re not sure the things you’re making are any good at all.

It’s ok not to know everything. It’s ok to make mistakes. It’s ok to make things that aren’t good enough.

Everyone who makes things, has made things that weren’t good enough, and will continue to do so. Everyone who is skilled started out unskilled. Nobody starts out as the best.

It’s ok to make things, even if you are the worst, even if you are the least skilled, and even if you make a lot of mistakes that others wouldn’t.

You don’t have to be the best in order to make things. You just have to make things.

You don’t have to be perfect. You don’t have to be better than you are. You can make things as you are, with the skills and knowledge you already have.

You don’t have to be a professional or an expert in order to make things. You don’t have to have years of experience making things in order to make things.

You don’t have to wait to be better, or to know more, or to hold off on making things until you’re capable of making better things. You can make the things you’re already capable of making.

No matter who you are or what your skill level is, you’re good enough to make things.

You can make the things you’re already capable of making, and you can keep learning.

trapped for months,
just because you were scared.
you held me back from adventure,
simply because you were a coward.
it’s not fair that you kept me locked in,
all due to your fear.
i let you hide me away,
keep me from so many experiences.
and now you’re gone,
doing everything you kept me from.
living as if you didn’t leave me broken,
walking this earth as a hypocrite.
although i cannot say i wasn’t broken,
all those months of being shut in.
—  Locked Away // a.p // 05.29.17

Don’t expect mentally ill/disordered people to not display symptoms around you because they love you.
Don’t expect someone with BPD not to have fears you’ll abandon them because they love you.
Don’t expect someone with psychosis to stop being delusional around you because they love you.
Don’t expect someone with autism to stop stimming around you because they love you.
Don’t expect someone with ASPD to show you lots of empathy because they love you.

For most is us, our symptoms don’t disappear because we’re with someone we love- it doesn’t mean we don’t love you or that you’re not special- mental illness doesn’t care who we’re with.

Nope, all I see is that C.R.E.A.M nigga, that green! 💸 I’m a black king, black jeans on my black queen, ✊🏿 and her ass fat, too fat for a flat screen! 🍑 I’m the type of nigga make the whole fuckin’ trap lean! Kingpin nigga, put wings on a crack fiend! If they want a nigga, they gon’ have to send a SWAT team, and I’m goin’ out like Scarface in his last scene 🔥🔥🔥

Originally posted by teaandbreakfast

Originally posted by r6

The worst thing about it that I don’t feel in control. It’s like sitting in the passengers seat and watching someone else crash the car.
—  Anxiety
Headcanon: Velociraptor Appearances

I dunno if you you guys heard about this fan theory, but I pretty much accept it as my main headcanon because it’s a pretty cool and sinister concept.

A lot of people have questioned why the Velociraptors from JP3 look so different from the ones from JP and TLW. Obviously it’s pretty much universally accepted that they are separated into two fanon species: nublarensis and sornaensis.

The nublarensis are naked, and the males are orange with black stripes, while the females are mostly brown.

The sornaensis males have small amounts of quill-like feathers on their head and neck, and are a lot more colorful, being reddish and brownish with a white stripe down the middle, while the females are white with brown/black spots.

Yet both species can be found on Isla Sorna, despite their names. The reason they look differently is never really explained or questioned by anyone in the third film, so it’s left to the fans to figure out why.

As we know, the sornaensis raptors depicted in JP3 show much higher prowess in vocal communication and pack mentality; even setting a trap for Billy and the Kirbys when they went to help Udesky. In some ways, these raptors were much more unsettling than the ones in the previous two films. We also know that the geneticists at InGen definitely tampered extensively with the DNA of their animals.

The theory is that the Velociraptor sornaensis were the first type of Velociraptor ever cloned by InGen. However, when faced by their sheer intelligence and how dangerous they were, they decided to create a new breed of raptor; less smart, less hazardous to guests, putting investors at ease. The feathers were removed and they eyes enlarged with slit pupils for a more terrifying appearance, although they were not as dangerous as the sornaensis. Of course, the nublarensis still proved to be a more ambitious endeavor than InGen had originally planned.

Originally posted by gameraboy

As for why the two types of raptor can be seen on Isla Sorna, but not in the same place, it’s possible that the two breeds keep to their own respective territories on the island. Since TLW took place on the east side of Isla Sorna, and JP3 took place on the west side, this is entirely probable.

I hope you guys like this theory as much as I do! I think about this stuff way too much.


Jinyoung X Reader

Fluffy ~ Maybe Angsty


Super fab Anon That Gives Me All The Love Asked: Hiiiiiii the bad english speaker here again… OMGGGGG The Jaebum oneshot… im in love with it… and i have another request… can you do a Jinyoung one now?… where his s/o gets really angry with him cause his savage(? But he do his best to apologise… hope you can understand the idea… ALL THE LOVE💜


Originally posted by u-me-xist

 You stood in front of your boyfriend, shocked at what he’d just said, tears threatening to fall onto your cheeks. You knew he joked around all the time but this joke went too far. He insulted one of your biggest insecurities.

 You tried to ignore the stinging of your eyes as you left out an agitated sigh before rolling your eyes. Jinyoung saw your actions and realized what he’d done, regret pooling over him. “Babe, I’m so-”

 “Yeah I know. You’re sorry.” You interrupted him out of annoyance. You spun around to walk away but he was too quick and took ahold of your hand. He looked at you with sorrow in his eyes, pleading for you to stay. 

 Of course you knew he didn’t mean what he had said but that doesn’t make it stop hurting. You removed yourself from his grasp and left the room, going out into the living area to be met with a few other members of Got7.

 “Hey ____. Where’s Jinyoung-ah?” Youngjae asked innocently, not knowing what happened.

 “In his room.” You answered simply as you didn’t want to get into it. You started to play with the black hair tie that was around your wrist, this being a common nervous habit of yours.

 “Oh.” He breathed out, understanding something had happened. “Well, I was just about to take Coco for a walk, do you want to come with us?”

 You gave him a thankful smile, “Sure.” You said. Youngjae hated seeing you upset, especially with one of his best friends so he’d try to distract you.

 By the time Jinyoung left his quiet room, you were already gone. His eyes scanned the dorm, looking for you. “Where is she?” He asked aloud for anyone to answer.

 “Her and Youngjae took Coco for a walk.” Mark uttered, focusing on the television.

 “Did you two fight?” Bambam blurted. “I don’t want to be nosey-”

 “Then don’t be.” Jinyoung snapped, grabbing his shoes and heading out the door. He felt extremely bad for what he said and he knows he shouldn’t have even thought about joking like that but he couldn’t rewind the clock and take it back. He can only apologize.

 As you and Youngjae stroll down the walkway, he looks over at you. He can see that you’re in a different place, maybe not physically but mentally. You were trapped inside your mind, having no choice but to keep replaying Jinyoung’s words, only being able to escape when you hear Youngjae’s laugh. 

 You looked over to your friend and smiled as he continued to giggle. “What?” You ask curiously.

 “Look at Coco.” He said, not being able to stop his laughs as you turn your head to see the small dog chasing a butterfly. She would try to jump to catch it but always failed, it was as if the butterfly was teasing the pup.

 You began to giggle while you watched the two, shaking your head at the dog. Youngjae looked over to you when he heard your soft noises. “____?” He muttered. “What happened?”

 You take a deep breath after your gaze meets his. “I don’t Youngjae, it’s probably something stupid.”

 “No.” You jumped at the familiar voice. “It’s not stupid.” Jinyoung breathed out, you could tell he ran here. “____, listen. I know you’re pissed at me and you should be, I was being an ass. I am an ass, but I love you. I love every part of you, even the parts you hate about yourself. I never should have said what I did and I’m aware that my jokes can be rude sometimes and I’m so so so sorry for that.”

 You and Youngjae both just stared at the person in front of you before exchanging glances and looking back to Jinyoung. You weren’t sure how to react but you knew you wanted to hug him, so you did.

 Jinyoung tensed up for a second before relaxing into the hug and grasping onto your body. He rested his head on your shoulder, feeling relieved. You smiled before whispering, “If you ever say shit like that again, I’ll murder you.”

 He let out a breathy laugh but never let go. “If I say anything like that again, I deserve to be murdered.” 

 “Glad you agreed.” You smiled and kissed his cheek.

 You both turned to youngjae when you heard a small squeal. “You guy are so cute.”

 You all started laughing while Jinyoung pulled you closer to his torso, placing a small kiss on top of your head. “When we get back I should probably apologize to Bam too~” He admitted.

 You and youngjae sigh, “What did you do?” You said in unison as small laughs escaped your mouths. 

Jinyoung always found a way to make things up to you, he loved you too much to be stubborn. It hurt him to be away during tours so if you avoided him out of anger while he was home, he’d do anything and everything for you to forgive him. Words could describe his affection towards you.

(☞゚ヮ゚)☞ Requests open for got7 ☜(゚ヮ゚☜)
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Why I ship Reylo and Like Kylo Ren


Okay consider this: Have you ever heard of the starwars character the Bendu? From Star wars Rebels? He is neither Light or Dark side, but in the middle. I’ve studied the lore (not deeply but enough) to know that there are separate paths for both jedi and the sith (the Ashla and the Bogan)… but there is also a path for the Bendu, the Gray.

What is important to understand about Ben/Kylo is that he’s been literally brain washed from his mother’s womb (as Quoted from the novel: Bloodline). Manipulated and lied to in many ways and I think the harshness of the Luke’s Jedi ways from what he learned from Obi-wan a war general who had a seat in the Jedi order, it’s that it’s too restrictive. Especially if you’re as emotionally vunerable as Ben Solo and Anakin for example is. 

And with toxic values such as this, and with such an authoritarian oppressive constrictive view forced onto people with too much passion or uncertainty. Is it any wonder that Kylo ren feels torn?

Turning Sith, seems to be his only option because it’s all he’s ever been told. It’s one or the other. He’s literally being torn apart. And killing his father, which he was told would set him free… has done the opposite. It’s made him feel more conflicted than he already was. He’s trapped; mentally and spiritually.

That is, until he meets Rey. And Rey is by no means Jedi material. She’s just as passionate and emotionally vulnerable. Too many lost attachments… isolated just as he is. 

Both kindred spirits that are both equally lost and I think the last Jedi is going to illustrate this perfectly. There is no more Jedi. Luke is right, it needs to end along with the Sith. Too many lives have been destroyed trying to kill each other instead of trying to understand the flow of the force. I believe, these two are the key to bring back balance. The first two Gray jedi; since Kanan Jarrus and Ezra Bridger and many like them who have tried before.

I like these kinds of stories personally, because life isn’t black and white. It’s complex and whiney, harsh, terrifying but inside there’s light in everyone. Willing to come out. Kylo ren is very much like all those morally gray coded characters, in every sense of the matter. 

Whether you enjoy it or not, whether it entertains you…is irrelevent. These kinds of characters and stories are needed for children. To not judge a person by their cover, or condemn a person to death for their mistakes if they’re willing to make up for them. 

I could go on and on with how many literary comparisons with Kylo ren’s character I could make: 

Severus Snape, Heath cliff, Mr Darcy, The Count of Monty Christo, Lelouch Vi Britannia, Captain Jack Sparrow, etc. 

Look up the term Byronic Hero: 

Definition: Cooked up by the “mad, bad, and dangerous to know” Lord Byron, a Byronic hero is an antihero of the highest order. He (or she) is typically rebellious, arrogant, anti-social or in exile, and darkly, enticingly romantic.

(This. Is why I like him. I’m not saying you have to, I’m not saying everyone does. But I’m not going to stand here and be belittled for what it is perceived to be “Why are you shipping a hero with a villain are you into torture porn?”)

Neither Rey or Ben are Ashla or Bogan. They are bendu. It is the will of the force. (or could be… we shall see.) Part 2 of the conversation here:

Tips for dealing with self hatred

-remember you’re you. no one else. shitty or not, damn, you’re the youiest bastard alive, whatever that may entail

-you can’t make that bitch Wanda change but you can make yourself change. no matter how shitty Wanda is, there’s nothing you can do to make her stop. but you. you got full controls over you, even on days when it doesn’t feel like it. even on those days you’re still more in control of you than you are over Wanda.

-speaking of Wanda who cares if she’s doing better than you, she’s doing her own thing, you don’t got time to be doing her thing. do your thing even if it’s just being you and not dying.

-you’re talentless so what, talent is capitalist propaganda. don’t be a part of the machine. be useless and unproductive. or else the capitalists win. you don’t want them to win.

-you don’t have friends? no one likes you? you’re ugly? that sucks. it really does, no sugar coating or lying there. but bleh, these things come and go anyway, they always do. humans are such shallow ass cunts. if it’s meant to be, it’ll be. looks will get you places, good places, but damn, man, you’ll find your own place. no use worrying. get a dog. watch a YouTuber and pretend their friends are yours until the time comes.

-not doing well in school? ah, school is hard. life gets in the way. everyone sucks at school sometimes, it’s a mental death trap designed to make us all compliant. disregard when you need to, pick it up when you want to. don’t worry so much about doing what you think you’re supposed to. things will work out, or you’ll find shit you were never expecting. that’s something they don’t teach you in school.

-just unhappy? same. what can you do? listen to unhappy music. read unhappy people blog about their unhappy lives. draw unhappy pictures. make passive aggressive comments at Facebook friends and full out bitch on Tumblr. live. just stay alive. time is on hold. there’s nothing to be afraid of.

we’re specks of dust on a bigger speck of dust in a dust bowl.

chances are the aliens will mercy kill us all anyway.


Don’t feel bad about being convinced by delusions- that’s what they do. You shouldn’t have to feel embarrassed about your delusions once you realise that’s what they are. NTs and the media try and pressure us into feeing guilty about our delusions when we shouldn’t be.