mental health movement

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A paged called “End the Stigma” has created a movement to express your story of mental illness and invisible illness through colored word badges. They aim to erase the silence surrounding these conditions and to create solidarity among fellow suffers, advocates, and allies.

I will be participating in this movement in order to further educate about the conditions that I live with every single day and to also open a door for open dialogue on each of these things. Consider this an outstretched arm and a lent ear for listening if you share in some of my experiences.

Do not be afraid to ask me questions.

Black Sisterhood ✨
Event: Carefree Black Girl Social
School: New York University

The function of emotion is e-motion, to engage in action. If you are afraid, you want to move away from the object of fear. If you become angry, you feel as if you want to engage or get physical with whomever is making you angry. If you love someone, you want to make some
movement toward that person. That is the purpose of emotion—to propel us toward action. When you are traumatized your motion is paralyzed. A victim of violence almost invariably has been trapped, pinned down or unable to move. Later, if there is a perceived threat, the body reacts as if it has to move but it once again feels helpless
and paralyzed, prevented from being able to act effectively. All the chemicals are released to engage in action but the body doesn’t know how to move. Their challenge is that after confrontation with physical helplessness, it is essential to engage in taking effective action.
—  Bessel van der Kolk on PTSD

if you engage in bellletstalk and have made trigger jokes before, i hope you understand what you’re standing for and become more empathetic to victims of trauma and the mental health issues they develop, even if you find it “ridiculous.” triggers are a very valid and real term/thing used in psychology and now people who legitimately use it even cringe because it’s become a meme. trauma and triggers and trigger warnings are all a very important aspect of this mental health movement and bellletstalk. don’t fucking ignore it and i’m not going to say don’t support mental health initiatives if you believe trigger jokes are funny, because honestly whether you think it’s funny or not money will be going to good organizations, but i hope you sit down and learn that what you’re laughing at are very real, and very helpful parts of the healing part of mental health. 

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Been meaning to address the more foundational points mentioned way back for this Digimon project for a while but have just been unable to find the time to write and produce art for them. These two (terrible) sketch sheets were blasted out months ago to test-drive some of the ideas I wanted to explore, mainly the jettisoning of the canonical mechanic of “digital evolution” in almost its entirety. For the briefest of context, in this reinterpretation, Digimon exist in two forms - a code-only form that exists purely in Cyberspace and can never be brought into real space, and a physical, biocomputer form that occupies both real space and Cyberspace. Digimon in Cyberspace can change their form at any time through data reconfiguration, depending on the code they possess, to execute specific tasks in whatever Network they reside in or are otherwise a part of. Code-only Digimon serve numerable purposes, mostly outlined by the sector of which they are a part of (ex: industrial, service, and / or companion or homebrew). Because they exist only as code and possess no personal processing, these cyber-bound entities cannot learn or process the act of free-thought beyond what is allowed in their base programming. Their code can be expanded through the use of patches, but a full upgrade in software entails the destruction of the previous version, wiping it from a network. The change of form amongst code-only Digimon may or may not involve the access and use of external processing or memory power, depending on what is made allowable by its base code and the Network’s processing and memory access protocols. Depending on the complexity of the base code (ex: Tentomon), a shift downwards in execution complexity (Tentomon –> Mochimon) will require no need for extra processing. A shift upwards (Tentomon –> Kaubterimon) may or may not incur external processing or memory power. If no external resources are tapped, the greater form will be truncated in terms of ability unless reversed and re-performed with external resources. Greater forms accessed without external processing or memory can be maintained indefinitely, but those attained through resource borrowing will be reverted once the assigned task is completed to free up Network memory.

Physical, biocomputer Digimon are a feat of bioengineering and computer programming, designed as free-learning, free-thinking, self-maintaining data-writing and storage entities. Unlike their code-only counterparts, real-world Digimon develop along a single path from a primitive cellular culture to a complex organism that cannot be changed, which will be largely reflected in Cyberspace. Growth between recognisable “forms” is slow and visually unpleasant. Growth in a biocomputer can be halted (“capped”) through soft-editing (changes made to the code after setting within a cellular culture), but will drastically change and affect the creature’s lifespan and physical and mental health. The movement through stages incurs the internal development of greater processing power and memory, which can be further altered through the use external drives or physical / surgical replacement of internal components to alter performance in Cyberspace. The successful development of a biocomputer involves the proper ingestion of protein slurry, serving as “food”. A deficiency in protein intake will result in stunting of growth.

Above are chicken-scratch of Diaboromon and Cheribimon’s developmental lines (they’re rough and ugly I am sorry). Diaboromon / Dee was grown in a kitchen sink as a homebrew biocomputer that eventually grew to 25 feet by adulthood. The path of her development remained a mystery to her coders, who implemented a failed growth cap into her code, until she underwent metamorphosis. Cherubimon is an industrial data-maintainance Digimon with a variable / corrupted bottleneck variable code value that alternates between 0 and 1 throughout her development before solidifying (“baking”) upon adulthood. This switching code value results in a chaotic developmental path that constantly rewrites her physical build until the biocomputer reaches her final stage. In Cyberspace the forms of these Digimon will not change unless they are in possession of a script or application that masks their current form with that of an alternate form, related to their code (evolutionary) tree or not. Biocomputers in real space do not possess real-world equivalents of their abilities that come into play in Cyberspace only, such as armour or weapons or other abilities.

When we feel off, it can be difficult to figure out what has changed in our lives. This self care check in by Active Minds reminds us to check back through our day so we can see if we have covered some of our basic needs. Have you eaten today or drunk enough water? Go and have some now. Do you take medicine? If you forgot, figure out when the next best time to take it is. And if you didn’t get enough sleep, try having a nap or setting an earlier bed time. These steps will help you feel happier and healthier through the day. 

“…only 3.6% of Nova Scotia’s health budget is spent on mental health…" 

"For many years the province contributed virtually nothing to the CMHA while expecting [it] to run public education programs, mount workshops for various professions, support community mh centres, provide volunteers to visit the mh institutions, and establish community-based programs for the post-mentally ill….The lack of federal money for mh after dedicated post-war grants ceased meant that access to cost-shared dollars and project grants was limited.  Going after project funding…has consumed a disproportionately large amount of energy.  The lack of support for the CMHA has resulted in the sacrifice of much talent in the field of mental health.” [Protect, Befriend, Respect: Nova Scotia’s Mental Health Movement 1908-2008, 2008] p.1-3

(see this is EXACTLY why i’m v critical of the glut of awareness campaigns that move focus away from actual mental health funding and health care/programming/community supports for people living with mental illness. it’s a smokescreen, and without the latter you’re not going to decrease stigma or have people able to participate in the community anyway.)

My CPTSD really wrecked my life for a long time, along with nasty anorexia and a whole heap of panic and compulsions. I find myself resenting the new “mental health awareness” movement, bc it’s all focused on depression and anxiety. I’ve had people offer encouragement and kindness when I was suicidal, bc “mental health matters”, then turn around and make rape and trigger warning jokes. I’ve gotten so much shit from ppl w just depression and anxiety. It makes me so angry. This is not awareness.
—  Posted by Anonymous.