memokkeen

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OMG WHERE DO I EVEN BEGIN

Thank you,

Erunei, for helping me make merchandise & get ready for the con, as well as taking time to photograph my cosplays during the con. You’re irreplaceable! ;A; <333
Spiccan
, for taking me with you to the artist alley! Thank you so much for the opportunity, I have never before sold as well as I did at this con, and I could have not done that without you!
Thanks for your company, you were a great table buddy to have, I hope I didn’t run around too much. ;w;  (and if I did, please tell me so I can work on my AA table manners)
 Kawppa, for accommodating me last minute! Thank you so much for taking me in with you to your hotel room, I don’t know about you but for me it was a little scary to share a room with a watcher I had not met in two years… XD (and I didn’t remember you until you said you bought a bead lizard from me, that sorta sparked a memory as to why was your face familiar to me)
 It was truly kind of you. But as we talked at the evenings, I noticed from the stories you told that that is who you are - a kind, caring person. Your friends are lucky to have someone like you. :3
Lamppu, for making time to meet up with me despite the circumstances, and I suppose having the courage to do so also. It was a short moment, with a slightly awkward start but.. I enjoyed seeing you, and I liked talking with you, and I hold to what we said as we parted - we should totally arrange time to see for a longer period of time. <3
(ps. I saw a Destiel cosplay (Dean & Castiel walking around holding hands) in Tracon! I thought of you and smiled, but didn’t have a chance to take a picture of them…)

Thank you to every single person who bought art from me, who squeed and pointed at it excitedly, who stopped to talk with me (special mention to people I knew from before but had not seen in awhile, was nice seeing you guys!!), who took a calling card (and especially those couple of folks who asked for one even though I had run out!), who complimented on my cosplay, thank you as well to the bunch of people who be-friended me on the way to the con (and away from it)…

It was exhausting, I was selling art for 12 hours on Saturday, and only 7 on Sunday but… it was worth it.
I bought cool stuff (MATCHA KITKAT, INTO MOUTH IT GOES OM NOM NOM), met cooler people and had the coolest of times.

Even though the artist alley is a bit restricting in the sense that you spend 90% of your time selling your merchandise instead of rolling around the con, I enjoyed my time at the con, I met a lot of cool artists like sadyna, aura-sama, leppu, maaria, ruhje, enfuu & evelmiina (who drew me the cutest Rei doodle everrr, ahh!! <3) plus a bunch more artists whose names I didn’t catch (except paperi… paperi…

GOD DAMN YOUR NAME. YOU, THAT ARTIST WHO HAS BEEN TO EVERY SINGLE AA AS ME AND WE ALWAYS TALK AND LULS AND GIVE EACH OTHER COOL FREE SHIT AT THE END ಠ_ಠ ). Alla you guys made the artist alley a nice place to hang at, and an experience I would gladly have again some time in the future. <3

Thanks everyone for being cool and awesome, I had fun because of all of you! <3

memokkeen asked:

Skech shared your pixel tutorial, had to come lurking into your blog because of how you wrote it You sir, are one fine lady. Is all wanted to say. Please carry on being awesome <3

Oh my gosh, haha! Skech is pretty great, but thank you so so much for the nice compliment♥!

Alphabet tag!

I got tagged by @memo-blogs <3 thanks!! I love these, as you might have figured out already ;)

a – age: 22
b – biggest fear: not heading anywhere/accomplishing anything with my life
c – current time:  9:57
d – drink you last had / are having: tea
e – easiest person to talk to: in what way? for my usual nonsense, my closest friends, but if something’s bothering me, it’s easier to complain to someone i’m not that close with yet and might have similar experiences?
f – favorite song: haiiro no suiyoubi. i tried to learn how to play it on piano yesterday, until i realised it’s far too difficult for me, since i can’t even read sheet music :P

g – ghosts, are they real: no.
h – heritage: all my closest relatives are finnish, but further back we have roots from several european countries
i – in love with: no one?
j - Jealous of: people who have their life planned out

k – killed someone?: no…
l – last time you cried?: last week
m – middle name: i have two, but this is where i draw the line of personal information shared online, for some reason
n – number of siblings: one 
o – one wish: “to get a cool job that’s both fun and brings in enough money to live!” was a good answer by memokkeen :)
p – person who you last called: my dad
q – question you’re always asked: how are you? :P
r – reason to smile: i’ve been chatting with a lot more people lately and i feel like i actually have a lot of friends, irl and online! :D
s – song last sang: fallen angel feat. aimee b

t – time you woke up: at 8
u – underwear color: orange and black right now, normally all kinds of colours, mainly pastels, white and some black garments. i’m sure you’re much happier now having this information :P
v – vacation destination: lappland for christmas
w – worst habit: procrastinating
x – x-rays you’ve had: my kidneys? my teeth?
y – your favorite food: several pasta dishes
z – zodiac sign: leo

Do you feel like doing this? Good, you’re now tagged! :D

memokkeen asked:

Sun FMA Olivier Mira cossi Traconiin? Se oli mahtava! Mut jos heität vaa jotku randomit päälle, neki on varmasti makeet. c; + tajusin just, sä oot Traconissa ku sul on sun synttärit? :D

Ajattelin eka laittaa, mut siinä univormussa tulee niin kuuma et mielummin johonki talviconiin! Ja joo oon Traconissa mun synttäreinä (sunnuntaina) :3

memokkeen asked:

I don't always talk to you, but you are my friend, and I took time specifically out of my schedule to meet you. It was nice & should the opportunity rise, I'll gladly do so again. You were one of the few people who got a card from me for xmas, too :)

Long story short - I see you and notice you, and you are enough. <3

Thank you, love. It’s just… I’m so lonely and I just want someone to hold me close and tell me that they love me as I am, and I’m trying to search for that someone. With no results. I had an opportunity last year with someone, but I totally destroyed that chance by not feeling the same and that was the end of it.

It’s, like… Everytime I like someone else, they don’t like me back. If someone happens to ACTUALLY LIKE ME I don’t like them back, even if I want to. So so so badly. Why do I have such bad luck with these things?!

And I’m trying as hard as I can. I actually asked from a friend if they were willing to go out with me, lol. I’m on various dating sites but whenever someone comes to talk to me, I freeze. Especially if they want to meet me.

For years I wasn’t interested in any relationships, but a year or so ago that changed and I to be loved and held so badly. I know I have friends and family who love me, but … I feel like that’s not enough! 

What I crave the most is physical contact. Just… someone touching me. Stroking my hair, holding my hand, spooning with me, hugging me… sleeping in the same bed with me… But, at the same time, I’m denying myself that contact when people actually offer it to me, because I think I don’t deserve it.

And now I’m in tears. Great.

Ugh, why is this so fucking hard…

chrisprattstum replied to your post “I’m having an art crisis, so I’d love if you guys could answer a…”

your lineart is super neat and i love the colors you use! maybe you need a little practice to make bodies look more natural but it’s just a detail and not really noticeable.

more natural? could you give me an example? 

ichigootaku replied to your post “I’m having an art crisis, so I’d love if you guys could answer a…”

I like your style. It’s different from anything I’ve ever seen before, and even though I’m not a huge Supernatural person, I always love to see your art!

awhh, thank you, darling. :’)

memokkeen replied to your post “I’m having an art crisis, so I’d love if you guys could answer a…”

You’ve got a pretty good handle on anatomy as is, and your style seems be pretty consistent. I know this isn’t probably what you want to hear, but you should focus on making your art look the way you want it to look.

No no, that’s perfectly fine! And it’s 100% true.

These are great so far! I’d love to get more feedback.

memokkeen asked:

The only thing that ever goes through my mind when I see a fat person exercising is "hey, you gotta start somewhere. At lest they're trying. Go random person! I believe in you!" Besides you aren't looking half bad :) And if you keep in the groove, you'll look even better <3

d'aww, thank you darling

and that’s what i always think when i see someone exercising who’s overweight