This post talks about Depression as one of its main topics, heads up!
I wish I had chosen a happier topic to write about, but this it very important so I think this text might be needed.
I myself have been diagnosed with depression almost three years ago, and have been dealing with it ever since. It’s influenced practially every part of my life, but most importantly it’s had a huge impact on my school life. Such as recently:
I had to write my Seminararbeit, a ~30 page paper that determines whether I’m allowed to do my Abitur or not. But because of depression I felt unable to start it or finish my art project or anything, so I procrastinated for up to two weeks. And because of procrastination my work didn’t reach my expectations, which again feeds into my depression. Sounds great right? I think this might feel familiar to some of you. So I wrote down some of the things that kept me from writing my paper (or anything else that you just can’t get yourself to do) and how I dealt with them. I hope I can help at least one person, then this wasn’t a waste of time.
- Unrealistic expectations: I hold myself to ridiculously high expectations, especially when it’s about my work. Whenever that happens I sit down, take out a paper and write down the exact situation I’m in right now. It doesn’t even have to be on paper but it helps me groud myself and get back to reality, so that I can evaluate what is possible for me to reach and what isn’t.
- Unhealthy levels of procrastination: STICK. TO. A. SCHEDULE. On the worst days I seriously set a timer on my phone for every single thing I was about to do. This takes a lot of discipline, which is the best weapon against procrastination and is easiest to train on your better days. Ofc a journal helps tons but that’s a no-brainer.
- Do the bare minimum: On some days doing the bare minimum for myself is taking a shower, on others it’s writing a 6-page essay. And on the worst days I can’t even do the minimum. But doing one little thing makes the day feel like it wasn’t wasted. And on the better days, work ahead so that you have a bit of a puffer for the worst case, such as cleaning your room for example (I can tell how bad I’ve been doing by how dirty my room is).
I hope these three little things help at least someone, I’ll be posting more again the following weeks, but slowly so that I don’t have to force myself.