You are far too hard on yourself! Most online artists I see often have similar (and dare I say- boring) art styles! Yours, however, looks beautiful in a fun and energetic way. Not to mention that as far as I can see, your anatomy and coloring is onpoint. Honestly speaking, whenever you post something new, or I see your art, I always feel giddy afterwards. So for the love of all things holy (or unholy, choose your pick), don't call your stuff "garbage" or "bad".
I feel like I’ve been a real art rut lately, largely because of how taxing school is (I’m taking next semester off tho!!) so I’ve just been ‘meh’ about a lot of my stuff, even if it’s only a few months old? and I do def use that good ol self-deprecating talk as a sort of crutch hgkdlhH I can’t promise I’ll stop entirely, but. thank you, this message really means a lot for how I’m feeling rn <3