u need to stop
okAY BUT LISTEN
sirius (post azkaban) finding an old photo album and it’s got photos of all the marauders and his heart hurts, aches, burns, and on the last page there’s this picture of remus and he’s laughing and so happy, cheeks flushed and eyes crinkled and sirius can remember it like it was yesterday, remembers wanting to kiss him then and clutch him close and he has to bite his lip to stop himself from crying out, because he misses it, misses his remus and the world they lost.
(but later, when fred and george cracks some silly joke, and remus smiles, nose and eyes crinkling and little breathy laughs, escaping him, sirius leans over and tangles their pinky fingers together, smiling helplessly when remus squeezes back. maybe he hasn’t lost him yet)