media person

So last night I was scrolling through my feed on Instagram and I was just seeing all these girls who were showing off their beautiful looks, their progress which is always very inspiring to me!! but I found myself starting to pick myself apart wishing I had their hair, skin, curves, muscles, etc. I was thinking about ways I could change myself to try and look like them, and feeling like I wasn’t good enough and why should I even try to reach my goals when I’m never going to look like them. When I caught myself thinking these terrible things about myself, I had to take a step back put the phone down and breath. I reminded myself that no I’m not ever going to look like them and thats OKAY because everyone is different and unique in their own way! And instead of tearing myself down I started to build myself up with kind words and things that make me a good strong person. Social media is a great thing, but is can also be a very toxic place. It’s okay to struggle and have these little moments because it reminds us that we are all human. The most important thing to do is to love yourself, say and think positive things about yourself because you are beautiful just the way you are and you DO NOT need to change yourself what so ever! ❤


hi its elaine and just letting everyone know that im going to be on a hiatus until the end of the week and into next tuesday or something
i really just want to focus a little more on school and i have some important things coming up that i have to divert all of my attention to :(
ill probably be on a semi-hiatus until my spring break, which is the very beginning on april!
thats when ill have time to finish requests!! and if you really think about it i’ll be gone for less than a week before im partially on but just something you should know in case you were wondering why i’ll have disappeared 

Crest for the “black ops” units. Infiltration, assassination, espionage, sabotage, …. it’s their line of work.

Compared to other unit, they don’t display their crest and tend to wear it on the reverse side of the army crest. They’ll display it only at meeting and mission planning. If you see it, you are either already dead, or not the target.

That makes it the five I had originally planned, only a ghost of an idea for an artillery unit crest.

India ink plus dip pen (maru nib) and brush pen.

Today’s heartbreak is blocked phone numbers and being treated like a stranger, it’s leaving messages on read and not replying. Distrust sprouts from liking another girl’s photo or following a model on instagram. Relationships are ended just how they begin: with a text. Is he upset, you wonder, if he doesn’t use a heart emoji when he asks you how your day’s been? Does she still love you if she’s been out partying with her friends and hasn’t texted you for half an hour to let you know that she’s having fun? Does it mean there is already someone new hanging onto every word that spills from her lips, waiting for his chance? Are you even really in love with someone if you don’t share everything that happens, if you don’t send them photos of your dinner or that cute shirt you bought the day before? Are you even enjoying yourself if you don’t prove it by snapchatting your entire night?
Conflicts are carried out on twitter, on facebook, anywhere public, for anyone to read and take sides. And it scares me. I can’t deny the prospect of falling in love nowadays scares me. So many words disppear between the lines of texting. So many lies are told and secrets hidden and graves are dug when all we have to do is talk more. On the phone. In person. Tell people what we think and feel instead of dancing around the words we ache to say. Call me old-fashioned, but I don’t want to be availabe at all times, no matter where I am, no matter what I do. If this is what modern heartbreak is about, then I want none of it.

- is romance dead? / n.j.

Diego Luna's accent in Rogue One is a rebellion in its own; or why the representation of accents matters in the US

You know what else I really love about the diversity in Rogue One? The presence and non-issue of Diego Luna’s accent. Prior to Cassian (at least in my memory) if a Star Wars character had an accent other than English/American then they were an alien or otherwise a foreign or aberrant being. Not a single character in Rogue One signals that they can’t understand Cassian, or corrects his pronunciation, nor does anyone ever point it out or even justify his accent by saying he is from whatever planet. The film therefore implicitly takes place in a world where accents don’t mark someone’s otherness; accents aren’t a marker of un-education, illiteracy, or being an outsider. Granted the issue of nations and countries is a little loopy in Star Wars, but Rogue One presents to us a universe where some people just don’t speak the common tongue the way everyone else does and there’s no stigma attached to that, they are as much of a rebel as anyone else.

I’ve read time and time again, and experienced time and time again, that a foreign accent is everything in the way people perceive you. People are more likely to think you are stupid, untrustworthy, or just downright confusing. Even if an immigrant in the United States has been living here for 40 years, if they have an accent, everything is going to start working against them. That’s why so many immigrants fret over their English and go to accent reduction classes or avoid speaking in public too often. Because no matter who you are, as soon as you open your mouth, people think of you as a joke. No matter how smart, how patriotic, how hardworking you may be, your otherness is always spelt right there on your own tongue.

You’ve heard it a million times and here is a million and one: representation matters y'all. I was born in this country so I don’t have a Spanish accent, but my whole family does. My whole community does. I happen to live in an area heavy with Latinxs so here the stigma isn’t so obvious, but I’ve seen this kind of discrimination happen to Latinxs all over the country while I get to keep the privilege of the facade of whiteness because of my natural American accent. So I’m goddamn elated that Diego Luna performed Cassian in a unabashed Mexican Spanish accent in a mainstream film and it did not have a single repercussion on his character except for making millions of Latinx feel validates for they way they express themselves. My whole life, pronouncing Star Wars “Estar Wahrs” has been deemed the incorrect way. And now, it’s one of of many, equally valid ways. Amen to that.

Ci perdiamo negli scatti su Snapchat, ci dimentichiamo delle vecchie chat di whatsapp , ci nascondiamo su Tumblr , cerchiamo un riparo da noi stessi su YouTube , diventiamo facebook star , scriviamo libri su Wattpad , Ci innamoriamo attraverso Skype , impariamo su Instagram e sogniamo su twitter. In tutto ciรฒ abbiamo ancora troppi problemi a parlare con la gente .

Tw: slurs and transphobia

An open letter to instagram (and affiliated sites):

Almost every day I am welcomed to instagram to this screen. No notice of which photo was removed– no way to protest, fight, or repeal the removal. Nowhere to even send a complaint. It’s a guessing game what part of my identity, anatomy, or life is offensive enough to warrant removal. Meanwhile I get death threats, slurs thrown at me, I’m called a faggot, a tranny, told i’ll never be a man, that I’ll burn in hell, it goes on and on. Instagram never flags those comments, and even when I personally flag them they’re often just hidden from my view not actually removed. Hell those accounts are left to operate and troll whoever they like.

And before you say it’s just social media and just get off it: I share my journey so that young trans people know they’re not alone. So that I can help some kid know there are people like them. So I can be a light in someone’s darkness, the way that some people online were for me. I also share my journey so I can see where I’ve come from. I don’t share my journey to be policed and told that trans men’s nipples aren’t held to the same standards that cis men’s are. I don’t share my journey so I can be treated like a picture of my body in boxers is more provocative than every teen idol in Calvin kleins. My body is not a bad body, my body is not overly sexual. Society has deemed and fetishized the bodies of trans individuals so much that we can’t even post censored progress photos without being told we are a violation.

There is something inherently wrong with a system/platform that takes over a week to take down a catfish using my photos (this has now happened about 5 times) but within an hour removes my pre-op photos because my trans body “violates community guidelines.” A platform that allows for cyber bullying and hate speech, but nipples are where we draw the line. Even if you censor what society deems unfit, you are still unfit to be as body positive as Justin Bieber, who can flaunt in his calvins all he wants, but a trans person– god forbid. Now, I understand that images are only removed when they are flagged by someone who deems them inappropriate, but the algorithm at the end of that flagging system should recognize that gender isn’t always inherently reflected in the size of ones nipples, and that if Zach galifinaks can go topless, why can’t I if I’m feeling particularly body positive. (Don’t worry though, I spent $6k to remove those socially offensive parts of my chest, and still received about 100+ violent comments on a video of my surgery reveal).

When you tell a person that their body, and in turn their identity, hell, their very existence is a violation to a community that allows white supremacist pages, porn pages, and catfishing like it’s a sport to run rampant you are telling people that they are unfit to be within a community that has morals so low it makes the Trump Political team look progressive.

Instagram, or as we should call it Cistagram, perpetuates society’s idea that only cis passing bodies are valid (and we could go into depth about which cis passing bodies are actually allowed, because I have seen (among other things) plus sized women’s photos removed for violating these guidelines, which is 7 shades of fucked up) and that we should be ashamed of what we are and what we look like. Can you imagine after a lifetime of being told otherwise, finally being confident to be yourself and show the world, or hell, just the 25k people who happen to follow your page, just to open your page to see this message of violating community guidelines over and over again?

By keeping the community “safe” you are endangering the lives of countless trans individuals. Letting other people (and some computer formula) dictate their worth. You are infringing on their right to express themselves, when they aren’t doing anything you’d remove a cis person’s photos for. You are emotionally harming people who have fought their entire lives to be seen, actually fucking seen, by keeping everyone else “safe.”

The next time I have a 12 year old come onto my page and tell me to burn in hell I’ll wonder who exactly we are keeping safe here. (Side note, why we allow minors to interact with adults is a problem in itself, that’s a real safety issue). The next time a mother tells me I’m a disgrace to my own parents I’ll wonder who is the problem here. The next time a 40 year old religious zealot tells me there’s only two genders I’ll wonder where my safety is then. The next time a young man with a confederate flag profile pic calls me a “faggot tranny dyke” (wouldn’t be the first time) I’ll wonder how many comments they’re allowed to make like that before they violate your supposed community guidelines and why their account remains unflagged (trust me, I’m reporting these people left and right yet they’re still going strong and my photos drop like flies).

This isn’t just about selfies, This is about representation. When your app and other apps flag trans bodies as inappropriate we become more taboo than we already are. We can’t even see ourselves reflected on shitty free social media applications in any capacity. When you tag our queer posts as NSFW and mature content you are othering us, and more importantly telling us that we are nothing more than a porn movie fetish.

Your slogan is “capture and share the world’s moments” but you’re excluding a world that accurately represents those of us outside the binary. And you’re leaving me guessing as to what part of my world I shared violated and offended this time.

My body is a good body and it doesn’t violate your community guidelines, trust me, I’ve read them more times than I can count.