This is a long-time coming buuutttt I guess I should finally say something. So first off- no, the blog isn’t dead forever! I’ve just been taking a very long, very unplanned hiatus due to personal reasons that I’ll touch on a bit.
Putting it under a readmore because it’s a lot but TLDR version:
EQP is not dead! It’s just on impromptu hiatus until I figure some real life things out.
I don’t want to stop people from trying to be positive or ruin anybody’s coping mechanisms, but…you guys do know that we’re 19 days away from the United States being ruled by an orange fascist dictator, right?
Like, there is no possible way this could be a good year unless Trump and Pence are both struck by lightning.
it’s okay if you want to stay down for now. others might not understand, but that’s okay. too many times in your life, other people have made decisions for you. you bent to their will so often that you lost your own. but the flicker you feel inside you now? that’s hope. it may take you longer. you may have to ask for help. but that’s okay.
reach inside yourself and feel the warmth that hope brings. it may be dark around you, but the fire inside will get you through. hold onto this feeling. don’t let it slip away because others tell you that you have to get up now, that you’ve been down too long, that you should have healed already. the pain inside you is your pain, not theirs, and how you deal with it is your choice.
if you need to take life day by day, then do so. congratulate yourself for each step you take, even if it’s wobbly and you can’t stand on your own. even if it’s only a few seconds until you fall down again. even if it hurts. you did it, and that’s damn fucking amazing.
see, what they think doesn’t matter now. truthfully, it never did, and it never will. the way you heal is your choice. the way you cope is your choice. no matter what, it is your choice, and they can’t take that from you. whether that means you will stand up right now, or many years into the future, it is your choice.