What she means:
thanks to Merlin I fell completely head over heels in love with Katie McGrath but Merlin finished long ago and is a small fandom, with virtually no one gay for Katie. Thanks to Supergirl and supercorp there is now a huge fandom who all seem to be incredibly gay for Katie. I am no longer alone. I am happy.
This was actually mine & Colin’s idea when we came to filming. It’s - it’s like back in season 2 where he poisons me and he holds me as I die. He does it very well because there’s compassion in it even though it’s very violent. Exactly! It’s like he doesn’t hate you. He does hate me. I don’t think he does. He feels sorry for me but he knows it’s his own fault, whatever, get over it