I remember how being around you felt like I was on clouds.
In those hours I felt lighter than the air around me. You touched me, and I was on fire.
In those hours I was actually living; rather than existing.
Now I know how it feels to lose you. I feel like I’m underwater. I feel so heavy that I can’t seem to lift myself from my bed.
But if you were to touch me now, I wonder what’d it’d feel like.
you: dazai completely changed his life around when he joined the ada and is now a good human being.
me, an intellectual: a key tenant of dazai’s character is his amorality (his indifference to what is right and what is wrong). the only reason he seems like a good person is because he decided to work for a good cause, that does not mean dazai is now a good person. he has still shown the ability (and willingness) to be callously manipulative, rely on immoral tactics to get results, and be complicit in murder. He also continues to lack remorse for the lives he took while in the mafia.
As I mentioned in my post for Nursey Week, I’m from New York City, and by that I mean Manhattan. But I go to school in the mountains, where the most noise we hear at night is the occasional truck passing by. What this all means is that I can barely sleep on breaks now, because it’s too noisy and there are always lights shining through the windows. If Nursey lives on the Upper East Side, he doesn’t have the lights problem, but I’m still going to project my exhaustion on him (with some NurseyDex because of course). Here’s to 4 hours of sleep a night.
It’s the first night of summer break and Nursey is in his childhood bed glaring at the ceiling wondering why his mind is refusing to let him sleep. Maybe it’s the incessant honking of taxis, maybe it’s the way the streetlamp shines directly through the slit in the curtains that can never be fully blocked. Maybe it’s the fact that the smell of cigarettes is filling his room from the assholes smoking on the stoop right below his window. Either way, Nursey’s done. He just wants to sleep, damn it. Heaving what he knows is an overly-dramatic sigh, he rolls onto his back and pulls the sheet over his head.
The phone’s light is harsh against Nursey’s eyes, but he squints at it anyway. 4:37 in the fucking morning. Nursey scowls and goes to Snapchat. If he can’t sleep, he might as well see how other people spent their first night of break. Ransom and Holster are unsurprisingly together, at a motel somewhere along the way to Ransom’s house. Bitty’s Snapstory shows a cute fully-stocked kitchen with a cobbler cooling on the counter; the timestamp says 1:12am. Farmer decided to practically livesnap her and Chowder’s trip to California, and the last photo is of Chowder passed out on the seat of a plane, captioned “we literally just boarded.” Shitty sent Nursey a series of videos at 12:43, smoking, ranting about a case he recently read, and telling Nursey to “get a night of some real sleep you fuckin’ beaut.” Nursey scoffs. Sleep. Right.
But then he gets to Dex’s Snapstory and is surprised to see a timestamp of 4:29am against a black background, captioned “it’s too early for this shit.” Nursey switches over to text and types with one eye open, hits send, and promptly drops his phone on his face.
Me: too early for what?
Nursey isn’t expecting Dex to respond, but a few seconds later his phone is buzzing against his nose from where he left it.
Dexyyy: tf are you doing awake Nurse
Me: idk man what are YOU doing awake
Dexyyy: You’re gonna chirp me and it’s too early to be chirped
Me: awww dexy you take away all my fun
Me: pinky promise i won’t
Dexyyy: Ugh fine. It’s the beginning of lobster season. Gotta start waking up before the spirits go to sleep.
Me: damnnn dex, cant catch a break can you
Dexyyyy: You promised
Me: that was hardly a chirp
Dexyyy: So what the fuck are you doing awake
Me: couldn’t sleep. Too many cars, too much light, too many thoughts
Dexyyy: City boy.
Me: is that supposed to be an insult?
Dexyyy: Don’t know. Maybe?
Me: gotta step up your game, poindexter
Dexyyy: Shut up Nurse
Dexyyy: I gotta go
Me: have fun killing innocent life forms
Dexyyy: Fuck off
Dexyyy: Just go the duck to sleep nursey
Dexyyy: *fuck. Ugh.
Dexyyy: sleep well
It’s 4:48 in the morning. Nursey is contemplating just getting up and starting his day. The pre-dawn light is starting to filter into his room through the curtain, casting a hazy rectangle onto the wall. Nursey gazes at it, thinking about how somewhere a few hundred miles away, Dex is preparing to get on his uncle’s boat and spend the morning hours on the water. Nursey wonders if the sun looks different from Dex’s amber eyes than it does from his own grey-green ones. He closes his eyes, thinking about how he and Dex went from nearly killing each other during the seniors’ graduation ceremony, to texting before the sun came up.
When Nursey opens his eyes, six hours have passed. He stumbles out of bed and stretches until his shoulder pops. Glancing at his phone, he sees three texts from Dex: the first two are sent at 6:26 in the morning, and the last at 11:39.
Dexyyy: Don’t tell Jack but I’d almost rather be doing suicides than fucking fishing for lobster. I smell like bait.
Dexyyy: Didn’t realize how used to cushy college life I’d gotten. I’m getting new blisters.
Dexyyy: Are you still asleep
Nursey realizes he’s smiling at his phone. And since it’s the first day of break and he has nothing to do all day, he’s pressing the call button before he can talk himself out of it. Dex picks up on the third ring.
“Finally get your ass out of bed?”
“You realize that you have to text me every night now? So I can go to sleep? I only was able to sleep because you told me to.”
“Nursey, what the fuck.”
And then they’re off, Nursey asking about Dex’s morning and listening to Dex complain about ‘going soft’ during the year while Nursey rolls his eyes and gets dressed, then Dex grouching about how Nursey doesn’t have anything to do for the summer, and an hour later Nursey finds himself booking bus tickets up to Maine while talking about how they’re going to celebrate Chowder’s birthday that year. He pauses just before hitting the ‘book tickets’ button.
“Uh. You sure it’s cool if I come up? I mean, like, dude, this isn’t really…”
“What we do?”
“Well. I don’t know. Maybe we should try being friends without Chowder playing middleman.”
“Okay, yeah, that’s chill.”
“Ugh, if say ‘chill’ ONCE I will throw you off a pier.”
“You just want to see me wet.” (Nursey nearly smacks himself for that one.)
“Fuck off, Nurse. We literally see each other soaked in sweat like six days a week.”
“Okay, well, tickets are booked.”
“‘Swawesome. See you in a few days?”
“Yeah man, see you soon.”
And then Nursey is left in a New York City brownstone grinning madly in the middle of his room, thinking how much better this summer has suddenly become.
Imagine: Klaus gets super jealous over you and you decide to punish, in a very hot way, him for almost murdering your best friend Stefan.
*smut, so read carefully
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sick of this, Klaus!” You yelled, the anger spreading through
your every cell. “You treat me like I’m your property, like I am
a fucking toy. Get this into your head: I’m not!”
I’m not finished yet! You have no right to hurt my friends because
have no right to seduce your friends to win a bloody
fight he had brought up started a week ago, when you went to a party
alongside Elena, Bonnie and Caroline. It was at Whitmore College, you
were still settling and getting used to being away from Mystic Falls.
And, surely, from your boyfriend as well. The blonde thought it would
be a good idea, to get out and have some fun. She did not let you say
no to it.
Hours later you were there, the music was loud and people were drunk, an extremely perfect inviroment to unwind a little. Your mind was so heavy, missing Klaus,
worrying about Silas… Sometimes you felt like you could not handle
this much pressure. That was when Stefan showed up, he wanted to check if everything was okay. You were all alone, since Caroline
disappeared with a guy named Jesse and Damon stole Elena away. The
younger Salvatore and you ended up talking, which lead to you pouring your heart out
to him. Both of you were very good friends and doing that felt good. He placed his arm around your shoulders and you let your
head fall against his chest. It was a very bad time to do that,
though, because Klaus had just arrived looking for you. He went nuts about it
and almost ripped your best friend’s heart out. God, you felt so
angry at him. And now, after he spotted you with Michael, a college
friend, he started with that crap again.
wasn’t seducing anyone! Iwas just talking, like normal people do.”
were touching him and smiling. The smile that gets me crazy over you!
I can’t picture the idea of you using that smile with other
guys, they might fall for you and…”
You raised an eyebrow and pushed him to your bed. “Now listen to
me: I love you and there’s no other man in this world who can make me
feel like you do. Got it?”
grinned and allowed his right hand to rest on your waist.
you’re sexy when you’re all bossy, love.”
just trying to make you understand, but I honestly think you deserve
a punishment for making me so mad.”
I can’t disagree with you. What do you have in mind to make your
powerful boyfriend suffer?”
lie down.” Klaus looked at you, the smirk still on his face. “I
said: lie down! Right now!”
pushed him harshly and he fell on his back, glancing at you with
“Now, rule number one:
you are not allowed to touch me. Just watch.”
Mikaelson nodded, agreeing with your terms. You put a soft song
to play and started to sway your hips, lightly, looking directly at
him. Slowly, you unbuttoned your shirt, rubbing your hands through
your body. Finally, you ran out of buttons and showed the black lacy bra you had on. Klaus tightened in the bed, motioning to stand up. You
knew he was tempted, but, at the same time, you wanted him to beg.
Beg for your sex.
“I remember saying for you lie down! Now I have to tie you up.”
Don’t say a word until I say so.”
lips hovered over his, your noses brushed each other, but you did not kiss him.
He grunted when you backed away, leaving his wrists tied up with your
shirt and giggling. His eyes followed your every movement, especially
when you took off your skirt, revealing a sexy black thong, matching
your bra. Klaus loved to see you wearing lingerie sets and you would not waste an opportunity to
drive him over the edge.
this is not funny! Look how hard you got me!”
your commander did not allowed you to say anything yet.” You
slip off from your underpants and gently rubbed it against his nose. “Can you smell
my arousal, honey? Oh well, I know you do. Still, be aware that you will not taste it. At least not now.”
I don’t believe this is a fair game.”
agreed to play, though. Live up to your promise and I assure you’ll end
time we play this, I’m in charge. I’m a bloody alpha, not any mutt you
can boss around.”
talking like that and you’ll end up with no pussy today. And mine is,
oh, all juicy.”
laughed as you heard him growl. Klaus had a short temper and, heck,
you enjoyed so much to play with his feelings. Biting your lower lip,
you touched your clit, tracing figure eights on it. Your boyfriend’s
eyes widened as you sat in front of him, still rubbing the soft nub.
The other hand grabbed a boob and you realised you were still wearing
a bra. You pushed it down a little, stroking your nipple and letting out
feels so fucking good, oh…”
if you don’t sit on my face right now so I can help you with that…
Fuck, I don’t know what I’m going to do to you.”
guess you already know, sweetie.” You smiled, sticking your wet
fingers inside his mouth. “Only you can make me get like this.
Look at the sheets, all dirty with my juices…”
“I’m going crazy over here. My dick is so hard for you, babe,
help me out a little.”
my poor Nik. I’m going to give you treat. Tell me, do you want me to suck your cock or ride it?”
this a trick question?” His blue eyes looked at you so deeply,
you almost felt your skin burn. “I want to feel your pretty
pussy clenching around my thick cock.”
sighed, nodding and taking off his trousers and tearing up his shirt,
leaving only his blue boxers on. His hard length could be seen miles
away and you almost felt sorry for him, it was probably hurting a
lot. Klaus’ body was claiming to feel your soft hands and, without
hesitation, you went for it, pumping softly his dick and hearing his groans fill the room.
be so screwed when this game is over.”
fair when you do it, but no when I’m in charge?” You questioned
him, finally sinking down on his dick. The Mikaelson closed his eyes
whilst you moaned. "Niklaus Mikaelson, you need
boundaries. Someone to put on your place. No Elijah, no Mikael.
Me! I’m the one who’s going to set you straight.“
was the breaking point to the man under you, he tore the shirt
locking his wrists and grasped your butt, slapping it and increasing the
movements’ velocity. Next morning you could bet you would be sore.
Klaus!“ You reached your clit, stroking it.
love my cock inside your pretty pink pussy, don’t you?”
hummed, nodding, unable to answer properly, and digging your nails on
his chest. The only sound echoing was of your hips clapping and the
strangled noises both of you were making. His large hands cupped your
breasts, stroking gently your nipples. You did not think it was
possible to feel this amount of pleasure.
fuck, fuck, fuck…” You squeaked, heavy breathing and
punching his chest. “I’m going to fucking cum around you!”
on, kitten, show me what you got.”
took a deep breath, the numbing feeling starting to crawl up your
body. By this point, it was not about dominating him anymore, you
just wanted the tension built up on your stomach released. Klaus
angled his hips, finding a sweet spot inside you, which made you huff
last, since your body could not withstand any more of that pressure, you felt your mind
levitate. Your toes curled up and you clutched his hair tightly,
almost ripping a lock off. Klaus came right afterwards, in hot spurts
inside of you and squeezing your waist so strongly you knew it would
leave a bruise behind. When the thrilling sensation left, you smiled,
satisfied and cuddled on his chest, his unique scent invading your
such a complicated person, Y/N.”
am?” You did not look at him, just kept drawing imaginary
figures on his chest.
“Yes, even though that is exactly why I love you.”
love you too, sweetheart. However, don’t think that means I’m not
angry with for you trying to kill my friends.”
truly sorry, love, I just… I’m scared one day I might lose you.”
shook your head, giggling.
really upset you didn’t realise, by now, you’re stuck with me forever. Well,
forever if one day you decide to turn me.”
up only to you, darling.”
Y/L/N!” Caroline cried, covering her eyes. “What did we
agreed about bringing boys in?”
us a minute and we’ll fix everything.”
and you laughed at the blonde, leaving the bed and getting dressed.
You sighed, getting lost on your boyfriend putting on his trousers.
He raised his eyesight, staring at you and making you blush.
you keep looking at me like that, I won’t be able to leave.”
I’m still listening.”
“We’re almost done, Care. Don’t worry.”
more laugh, one more kiss and he was gone, taking a piece of your
heart alongside him.