this is true

Once upon a time, in my early 20s, I lived in Boston. I had a roommate, a girl I’d known in college whose friendship was warm but fleeting, and we were running an errand together. It was the middle of the day, but for some reason – I don’t remember why – we got off the T and went into a bar.

In my memory, the bar was empty except for the bartender and one young, brown-haired woman sitting in front of him, but I don’t know if it really was. I also remember her honing in on us right away, but I don’t know if that’s true either. What I am sure about is that she started the conversation.

At first, it was benign – small talk – and then she halted and looked up at me with an amused smile.

“Deja vu,” she said, confusing my roommate, and then, still holding my eyes, “No, not me. You. You just had Deja vu, didn’t you.”

It wasn’t a question, and she wasn’t wrong.

My acknowledgment opened a floodgate and we had a long, intense conversation about death and past lives and the soul. This was the year of (or after) 9/11, and she said that it was a terrible, terrible thing, but we should be comforted by the fact that everyone who’d been lost had signed up for their fate. She said none of us felt any pain or sorrow we hadn’t already agreed to before our births.

It was an outrageously shocking thing to hear someone say aloud when the country was still angry and in mourning, but she said it with such conviction and peace.

It was a fascinating conversation. I think of it whenever I hear about a tragedy or a death. I wonder, if that’s the way it works, what else is in store for me? What did I agree to?

kingscunt  asked:

yoooo wtf you gave me right deja vu and i didn't realise you're percyval lmao i'm an idiot (this prob sounds rly stupid omg)


Hunters Life {34}

Dean x Reader

Warnings: Swearing, Yelling

Words: 2,152

Part 1, Part 2, Part 3, Part 4, Part 5, Part 6, Part 7, Part 8, Part 9, Part 10, Part 11, Part 12, Part 13, Part 14, Part 15, Part 16, Part 17, Part 18, Part 19, Part 20, Part 21, Part 22, Part 23, Part 24, Part 25 , Part 26, Part 27, Part 28, Part 29, Part 30, Part 31, Part 32, Part 33

Alright guys, this came up a lot faster than I expected, but there is just one more part after this. Can you believe it? I can’t. So yeah, Hunters Life is almost done. Enjoy it while you can. And I know that’s not Dean, but I like the gif, so sue me lol. Love you guys.

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the sharp edges of us

She would have scrubbed her skin raw had the sight of blood not reminded her that she was not a hollow word, not an endless joke.

She was tangible flesh attached to bones that somehow still managed to hold her head high, still managed to carry her weight as if her accumulated baggage were composed of nothing but feathers. Laughter still died under her gaze.

She was tired, exhausted, on the verge of breaking to the point of a return that would be damaging, destructive, to her nurturing personality upon which the world laid its foundations. The bitterness made itself obvious, its roots spreading and tangling at a speed that had her beating records yet to be settled.

Shiraz had become overwhelming sweet on her tongue, tasting of too good to be true, of it’s me not you, of deja-vu – that had her walking barefoot down a memory lane of broken glass that had once grasped time as sand.

It had slipped through her fingers, it all.

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A Night In With Luke

Making out, laying down in front of him in his tshirt and his boxers while he strums his guitar, and play fighting. You bask in each other’s company, constantly sharing kisses and playful banter. And the only time you take off the shirt of his you borrowed is when you lose your playfight and the winner gets to do whatever they want to the loser.

  1. Coffee Shop Soundtrack- All Time Low
  2. Always- Blink 182
  3. Hold On Till May- Pierce The Veil
  4. Kids In Love- Mayday Parade
  5. All My Heart- Sleeping With Sirens
  6. Bad Enough For You- All Time Low
  7. Kiss Me Again- We Are The In Crowd (ft. Alex Gaskarth)
  8. Take Off Your Colours- You Me At Six
  9. Deja Vu- Sleeping With Sirens
  10. A Little Less Sixteen Candles, a Little More Touch Me- Fall Out Boy