I WAS JUST TOLD MY MENTAL ILLNESS ISNT REAL BY MY COWORKER??????
Othis IS TOO DAMN FUCKED TO PUT ON MY PERSONAL BLOG RN YALL NEED TO READ THIS
so i have finally mustered up some sort of courage to leave the house and now im in a noodlebox by my work because i left my debit card there. and in atempts to feel somewhat normal i even did my brows and put mascara on and i look pree cute
anyway i get in there and she asks me whats wrong because i wasnt at work today. my manager called me today (hes amazing)and was checking up on me because he was worried. i explained that ill most likely have to go on medical leave and he said theres always my job waiting for me back here and i cried on the phone because he was so kind.
but back to my coworker. and she is a very gruff, aggressive 55 year old woman that takes no shit. she basically yells at me after i told her wha i told our manager saying SO YOURE GOING TO ABANDON THE COMPANY AT THE BUSIES TIME OF YEAR BECAUSE YOU FEEL ANXIOUS????? WHAT IS WRONG YOU WERE FINE AT THE BEGINNING OF THIS
WHAT DO YOU EVEN HAVE ANYWAY
and i go to explain that ive been struggling with anxiety, panic disorder, depression and ocd from a very young age and this is just something i have to deal with and finally get therapy for because i never have in my whole life
YOU’RE TOO SMART AND BRIGHT AND HAPPY TO HAVE THAT. WHOS GIVING YOU THIS? YOU SAID YOUR MOM HAS IT AND I THINK YOU NEED TO GET AWAY FROM HER BECAUSE ITS OBNVIOUSLY RUBBING OFF ON YOU
yes it has actually she gave birth to me and it so happens to be in our genetics because i am her offspring but yes it must be rubbing off on me
AND DONT GO SEE A FUCKING SHRINK OR PSYCHIATRIST, THEY DONT KNOW SHIT, YOU NEED A LIFE COUGH. MY FRIEND STEPHANIE HAD ONE AND IN LIKE TWO YEARS SHE WAS A WHOLE NEW PERSON
right yes i dont need professional medical help i need oprah in my life tbh then ill be cured
anyway after that she hugged me and left and i cried in the elevator because she almost made me believe her, that its all in my head