me too taka me too

Tagged by @archervale and @a-million-chromatic-dreams woot!! I’ve only just had a chance to do this properly ahahah xD

Rules: Copy this post into a new text post, remove my answers and put in yours, then tag up to 10 people plus the person who tagged you.

a- age: 19 (soon to be 20 ahh! xD)

b - biggest fear: technically it’s large spiders (although it depends what type…) because that gets the biggest fight or flight reaction out of me. But in terms of what makes me long-term anxious on frequent occasion, I guess it’s that feeling of not having enough information and so not being able to prepare and thus being terrified that you’re going to seriously screw up something important. 

c - current time: it’s 21:48 Taiwan time! :D

d - drink you last had: orange juice

e - every day starts with: what was I dreaming about 

f - favourite song: agHH I don’t know!! SO MANY. But if I have to narrow it down….I really like Ísjaki by Sigur Rós, as well as The Archers’ Bows Have Broken and Degausser by Brand New (and so many others by this band GAH). At the moment I also have a particular love for Gimme Sympathy by Metric, Morning by Racing Glaciers, and Epilogue by The Antlers.

g - ghosts, are they real: good question. My answer is rather complicated and I haven’t enough time to write it, so in short….quite possibly.

h - hometown: ahaha my answer for this is also complicated, because I hardly remember the town I was born in? So it’s hard to say it’s my hometown? So technically it’s Nuneaton, but I consider Saxmundham and Kenilworth/Coventry more like hometowns.

i - in love with: Taiwan!! It’s so incredible here!! Also I love the Taipei metro a bit too much aghhhh I don’t know why and I miss it so bad because we’re in Chiayi right now and I don’t think they have a metro :( 

j - jealous of: Taipei citizens who get to use their metro everyday

k - killed someone: with this thumb

l - last time you cried: I very nearly cried today because a friend of mine was crying. It was good tears though!! (they were overwhelmed at the generosity of two of my other friends) But I don’t think anyone noticed my almost-tears because I was able to pretend I was looking at something else - that said, one of my friends is VERY observant and people smart and so probably noticed ahaha xD 

m - middle name: it shall never be spoken because I hate it

n - number of siblings: 1 sister, @theplatinthehat and she is actually the coolest and I miss her so baaaaad because she’s the only one who gets all my obscure references :/

o - one wish: that I could ride on the Taipei Metro at least one more time pff

p - person you last called/texted: my friend Adam. He was the last in a line of people I sent a photo of this AWESOME moth I saw (if people wanna see it I’ll post it)

q - questions you’re always asked: what on earth is disaster management?

r - reasons to smile: the Taipei metro exists! It’s Doctor Who today! A really good fanfic I’m following will update today! I saw a cool moth! I SAW A LIZARD! Taiwan is awesome! I recently held long conversations with the same person multiple times! There’s a washing machine AND dryer at this hotel!! (I am so grateful you have no idea ahhh)

s - song last sang: Gimme Sympathy by Metric

t - time you woke up: 8:15am ahhaha but I woke at 5:15am yesterday hahaha ahhhhh

u - underwear color: skin coloured

v - vacation destination: well I’m in Taiwan right now? I’d like to come back again, it’s awesome!

w - worst habit: having no shame in stealing other people’s food

x - x-rays you’ve had: my ankle! 

y - your favourite food: agHHH I dunno probably margarita pizza

z - zodiac sign: Gemini

tagging: ummmmmmmmm @theplatinthehat @ursapolaris and hmmm oh hey my two new followers!! @soniclegendaryhedgehog and @pa-pa-plasma if you want to!! 

i am in hell

  • gintoki blaming himself everyday for the day he wasn’t able to prevent shouyou being taken away by the naraku
  • gintoki also blaming and hating and loathing himself every second of his life for having to behead shouyou
  • gintoki not being able to talk to or to even look katsura and takasugi into their eyes for weeks after cutting down shouyou
  • gintoki constantly having nightmares about these events and often not even being able to sleep at all
  • gintoki waking up screaming at times and when ppl ask him what’s wrong he tries to assure them that everything is ok and although no one buys into that they never ask any further
  • some days gintoki not being able to even wake up and function but forcing himself to get up because of kagura and shinpachi and the others
  • gintoki never being able to talk about this with anyone ever
  • him enduring all the guilt and self-hate dwelling inside him everyday although it eats him up so much
  • gintoki constantly thinking he could never actually fulfill his promise to shouyou and therefore thinking that he will eventually disappoint everyone in his life and that he and his life is worth nothing
  • gintoki himself wondering how the hell he is even able to keep on living but then he looks at his kagura and shinpachi and all the other important people to him and he tries to live at least for their sake
  • gintoki making himself believe that he moves forward at first but then actually slowly and bit for bit at least trying to move on
  • maybe gintoki finally slowly realizing that although he is by all definition a broken man that his life is indeed worth living and that he changed the life for so many people and that even though the pain will always be inside him that there are still things worth living and that he means so much to the people around him

fyi I’m about to reblog a ton of content for the Young Blood Chronicles, which is full of a ton of potential triggers including blood/injury, amputation, torture and PTSD. I’ll tag everything ‘ybc’ and I’ll try and tag individual triggers for people to blacklist - send me an ask if there’s any tag I miss! 

also if you like the Young Blood Chronicles - SCREAM AT ME PLEASE THANK YOU

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