me because of tumblr

(lol sorry for the crappy picture, i had to hand write it cuz im not wasting time with photoshop)
ok so i just want to say thank you to all my 1.1k followers i love you all
i really want to thank anyone and everyone who talks to me or just interacts with me in some way because i honestly love tumblr and all the people i meet on here and talk to
you guys really make me smile :D
and now without a further ado (i think thats how u say it)
my follow forever (in no particular order) 

@peachseokjins @smallkpoplove @jikookfantasy @bts420 @gotjimin @jinseok-net @park-jimizzle @jiminlogic @ofsunandstars @vmiiin @thetextingbangtan @ask-bts-stuff @smuttyassholes @oppaisthenewblack @jins-b @jinschin @jinships @googlebts @pjimns @hoseok1e @crownoftae @jiminrolls @jiminsgoddess @mozzakarp @jungkoog @slytherinyoongs @peachesncreamkookies @shaybear456 @jhoperfect @ohsnapitzmoony @hashtagotaku14 @our-kpopreact @mellonjin @kpopipod @minblush @pinklilies @donteatjin @taesies @jungkook-e @foryoubybts @jungkook-gifs @yoonseok @hayekangsangbin @1006yrs @95-kth @dadcrisis @pjmjjk @softjiminstan @sweaterpawsjimin @arthemida @bloominflowers @hoshoks @jeonnings @gothic-hobi @bbytae-v @psychodra @hobintae @ktvh @1una
@sftae @whyuna @sugavcube @mytaeddy @taechy @sugaspiano @myloveseokjin @madmeido @madmcmxciii @jeonheart @arualenna @taevisual @namjoonsgurl @seokjinthealpaca @itsimpossibletofindanamehere @askjeon @jminies @mintae @fy-jiminnie @healinqmv @nicorii @notxela @fandomsfandomeverywhere @washitaki (lol i forgot i was follow u gabe)
i could go on forever but im gonna stop here! 
i really do love all my followers and a majority of the many MANY people i follow so im sorry if i didnt mention u >m<

That long article about blog terminations circa 2014 made me so nostalgic about tumblr ofc, but also my teen years in general. Yeah I am still a teen at 19 years old, but as a sophomore in college looking back at the beginning of this journey in my sophomore year of high school I just feel very strange about it all. It’s been 4 years, and I shamefully still read fics which is why I got on tumblr in the first place and that’s whatever, but like this was such a thing…a major thing…that article talks about how the “weird smart kids” from their towns connected with the weird smart kids from other towns to create this dadaist absurdist humor in which self-deprecation was key but internally in private conversations a world of emotional vulnerability was fostered and people felt less alone and that’s so true

but at the same time I’m definitely looking at it with this nostalgic rose-tinted lens because though tumblr helped me realize that a lot of people feel the same way about things that I do, it made me so much more critical of myself like the explosion of hate and obsession with getting attention from followers was not good and the good thing about separating from the internet world is recognizing that nothing is ever that deep lmao and no one is ever going to be that hypercritical of you so pretty bittersweet 

definitely the coolest thing though is getting to see what all of the people I was once really close friends with on this site are doing with their lives like it just contributes to the whole idea of normal people feel the things that I do and that’s fine and we’re all great and will have great lives

the-winter-avengerrrrr  asked:

Top 6 fave tumblr friends!

Y'all are amazing but I talk to handful of you more lol Most of you get too scared to talk to me 💔 Breaking Sin’s heart here.

I’ll have to say

@clarencebells because she talks to me daily and I love our conversations. Ranging from smut to anything in between lol

@joanne-egberp because she’s a sweetheart and always asks how I’m doing. ❤️

You! Because you Snapchat me horses and I love it lol

@hmltntrsh51 because we talk about Eddie in DM all the time and it feeds my addiction.

@rckrbelle because she’s on of my best friends in real life lol And is subjected to seeing weird shit on her tumblr dashboard because of me lol But she keeps my dirty secrets 😂

And @trinus-ad-inferos because she’s so sweet!

So many though

Hey, sooo because I’m quite new on tumblr, and I got a lot of new followers (i am really thankful for that by the way 💕) i thought it would be nice to give you a little impression of what I look like. I don’t know if this is a thing … but anyways 🙈 I love being here with you - it’s so much fun!! Greetings from Germany I really hope you are doing all well, all the love! ❤️❤️

How I’ve grown

Hi, this isn’t the usual thing I post on my blog, but this is more serious than normal

Today, I have 50 followers. This is huge to me, as when I posted my first story, I had a mere 14 followers. To put that in perspective, that’s 36 followers more. I’ve never been the most amazing person, being small and annoying, but just knowing that 50 people are behind me, supporting me. It feels like a million dollars

You guys, though it might seem like nothing, are basically what keep me going. I have many psychological problems; anxiety and depression my most prominent. You 50 people out there, even if only a few of you are actually reading this, are what have kept me from killing myself. Or from having anxiety attacks. Or from falling into a state of pure sadness. All because Tumblr has given me so much support.

Thank you all so, so much. I love you all, and you guys are the best. And, I know, 50 followers isn’t half as many as many as most fan fiction writers are getting, but this is something very important, to me at least.

Thank you guys. You are awesome.

mini messengers.


recent collection of jimin and his (?) baby ft. jungkook lol (more descriptions in the captions)
i’m still debating where this kid came from (eg. coz of abo, from a mysterious affair, it’s actually baby jm, legit he’s their kid, or born from a peach come down from the heavens IDK YET)

[here are my original tweets]

maybe i was lucky
because he didn’t make
my body bleed
and the bruises
faded quickly;
lucky because she
finally called
my mother,
even if it was just
because i wanted her to.
because four is a lot less
than twenty, or fifty,
and intentions
are supposed
to speak louder
than actions.
but he tells me again
he isn’t yelling,
with raised voice
and clenching fists,
and i begin to wonder
if his hands really did
touch my throat
or if i
was just hurting.
—  poeticallyordinary
For the first time, the words aren’t where I need
them to be. This is to say: my hands aren’t shaking
and your name isn’t a spinning top on my tongue.
You see, there’s this blue thread that hangs from
my wrist and I know it’s attached to the last piece
of you. So I spent the night pulling it out until the
pain became unbearable and I couldn’t see straight.
My morning was wasted cleaning the stain out of 
the carpet. But there it is, clean, finally. I know
they’re talking about rain tomorrow, and for once
I don’t think it has anything to do with us. I think 
the universe is always fighting for our collision,
but sometimes even fate gets it wrong. It might
always come down to poor timing, and maybe
four years from now my heart won’t be so restless
and you won’t be so indecisive and I’ll never have
to write another poem about birds not being able
to survive storms. But for right now, I’ve got steady
hands and when somebody has given you a million
reasons to leave, you stop listening for the reason to
—  WEATHER FORECAST, angelea l.

favorite Disney princesses (according to my followers) » #3 → Rapunzel

I’ve been looking out of a window for eighteen years, dreaming about what I might feel like when those lights rise in the sky. What if it’s not everything I dreamed it would be?

the poets were wrong.

you don’t burn and there are no tornadoes in your chest,
your hands don’t hold galaxies or stars
and your anger isn’t a volcanic god
ready to smite every enemy.
the moon doesn’t love you and neither do the stars,
but the earth does, in its own way, i guess.

see, you are human, my dear,
born to destroy and to take and to make,
born to learn and to watch. you observe the stars;
they do not observe you.

you run from tornadoes or you chase them,
you do not become them. your anger is just anger
an emotion to control or be controlled by;
volcanoes can stay dormant for years
but you are never still.

and why would the moon love you?
why would the stars?
they are too far away to be swayed by a pretty face,
but the earth lives under your feet, it feels you dance
to the beat it drums out in thunder and rain.

you are human, fragile
and while your skin is weak your heart beats strong.
it might not hold hurricanes but it does hold love,
and this can be just as deadly.
your anger won’t ever level cities
but it can topple friendships
and they amount to the same thing.

the poets were wrong.
you are not out of this world,
you are of it and beloved to it,
and you are still special.