me & my old school

anonymous asked:

I didn't know you managed to meet Harry and Niall! How was it?

Weird. Harry because he quite intimidates me in general just like Louis who I would never have the courage to even say hi to tbh. I am not really good with this kind of ‘celebrity meetings’ cause i get very awkward and nervous if who I meet is someone I really love or in this case someone whose life i follow from very close here and all social platforms (if I don’t care or i am not a real fan of the person i am totally cool with it i even enjoy it, like that time I met Sebastian Stan with my friend and I was waving at him like he was my old friend from school - and he waved at me back lol - while @lattebiscotti​ was literally DYING besides me cause she loves him a lot). Harry is also part of the couple HarryandLouis which is the reason why I arrived in this fandom so it was particularly weird compared to meeting Niall, let’s say. Not bad weird, though! I was very starstruck, also because I read about him in so many fan fictions that it’s actually surreal to find him in front of me in real life and hear him talk and see him move, like realise he’s a real person. When I met him he was surrounded by London stalkers so it was a very brief meeting of ‘how are yous’ cause he was literally drowned by those psychos and he couldn’t approach anyone else but them cause they didn’t let him. He was very polite anyway as he spotted me outside the crowd, he also looked very tired and he couldn’t wait to get away from those creepy people. He’s a very charming guy and I can totally tell where all the adoration of fans and people in general who meet him comes from. He wasn’t enjoying the attention that night and he was very done with the psychos so I imagine when you meet him like out and about he’s also very smiley and more comfortable in interacting with you.  

With Niall was different as I actually talked to him, thanked him cause he was getting on the car, stopped and came back to take a picture with me even if Basil was shouting at me to go back and don’t go near him (very rude also but I imagine he was doing his job or he thought I was one of the LSC). I honestly felt bad for him when he was surrounded by stalkers cause they were literally climbing him so I didn’t want to bother him asking him for another picture. Before he went away though, I tried to approach him far from the crowd one more time and even if I was stopped by Basil, he heard me and go back to take the picture. I met Niall more than once cause we tend to go to the same clubs/pubs/concerts during the weekend and I often spot him in the crowd or see him with his group of friends. I never approach him nor go bother him but that only time we talked he was very lovely. (It’s also his job, I know). They all are, really.

Monday 8:27am
I woke up with you on my mind.
You called me babe last night —
my heart is still pounding.

Tuesday 10:53pm
Today I realized we won’t work.
What we are is hurting her.
And I think she matters more to me than you do.

Wednesday 11:52pm
I broke things off with you today.
She barely said a word.
I’ve never regretted anything more than this.

Thursday 4:03pm
I shouldn’t have sent that message.
You shouldn’t have been so okay with receiving it.

Friday 9:57pm
I almost messaged you today.
I didn’t.

Saturday 8:49pm
I’m walking around town in search of alcohol.
They say that liquor numbs the pain of having a broken heart.
I want to put that to the test.

Sunday 2:32am
I heard you texted a girl you’ve never spoken to before.
I wonder if it’s because you’re trying to replace me.
I can’t help but wish you weren’t.
I thought I was irreplaceable.

—  a week with you on my mind, c.j.n.
Move on, leave, run away, escape this place… but don’t forget about me, about us, about this town. Always remember where you come from so you can appreciate how far you’ve come.
—  c.j.n.