Characters: Jim, Reader, Little baby, Bones, Carol Marcus,
OKAY THIS WASN’T SUPPOSED TO JUST BE LIKE THIS. I had a plan, it was supposed to have a pregnancy announcement, some second and third trimester complaints, and then childbirth. Well guess what? That didn’t happen. This is going to have a lot more parts to it that the daddy!Bones series.
Warnings: Pregnancy, sex mentions, sweet amazing Jim Kirk,
Author’s note: I am
doing a daddy!Kirk series like I have started with Bones. I will eventually
make a list with all of them and the official name of the series, but I am HORRIBLE
with titles. Help me lol.
There were a lot of perks to being engaged to the Captain of
the Enterprise. You didn’t realize that there were so many perks, especially
since your fiancé had been playing a lot by the rules in his older age. You two
had been engaged for a few years, he wanted to wait till you two were back on
land before finally tying the knot. You happily agreed, your parents and
siblings would hunt you down and kill you if you didn’t have it somewhere they
could easily travel. The plan was to finish the five-year mission, take a small
vacation on Earth, get married and celebrate, and then see where Starfleet took
the both of you. Children were somewhere in the mix, the two of you hadn’t
fully decided when though. You had safely assumed that it was after the
Ain’t no party like an X-Men party, cos at an X-Men party you’ll have and died and been resurrected, been cloned several times, time-traveled to the distant dystopian future to fight your clone’s evil future self, and given birth to yourself after resolving a love triangle with two of your clones in a kinky time travel three-way, all before the first call for shots.
Carol sitting next to Bones on shuttle rides. Carol distracting him when he becomes uneasy flying. Carol teaming up with Bones to help him give Jim check-ups. Carol giving him a smile every time she visits him in sickbay. Carol remembering that he gets sea sick and teasingly warning him not to throw up on her.
Bones gravitating towards Carol whenever they’re both on the bridge. Bones holding her hand at the end of the tough missions. Bones sending her interesting data so she can study it on missions or in her free time. Bones becoming a more frequent visitor of the labs whenever she’s posted in there. Bones promising he’ll try not to throw up on her specifically before worrying that that might not be the most romantic thing he could have said right then.
Carol laughing at his ‘why did I say that?!’ expression. Bones relaxing into a smile as he watches her. Both of them slowly leaning in for a happy kiss.
So you know that McMolly log I posted last week that @sideofrawr and I had worked on that I finally finished? Well, by posting it to the “Stuff Of Improbable Legends” series, it immediately invalidated two of our stories, and I kinda panicked about it until I decided eff it, I’ll move them out and make a little AU trilogy out of it called the “Dreams” trilogy. This story is set in between the one where McCoy has the dream about proposing to Molly (“Dream A Little Dream”) and the one where they share their first kiss as an actual couple (“Dreams Do Come True After All”), where the relationship between him and Carol ends. I had planned on writing it as part of SOIL long ago but never got around to writing it so I figured why not now? So here you go.
Boulevard Of Broken Dreams -
Carol knows that the woman McCoy is dreaming about in the “true love” dreams is Molly, not her, and she’s willing to let him go. But in the course of their conversation, she’s surprised to find someone else had already done so so that she could have him.
She wasn’t blind, and she wasn’t an idiot. She hadn’t quite realized the situation she had walked into when she’d arrived in this universe and she’d taken up with Leonard. She hadn’t known the depth of his history with Molly. If she had, she never would have let the flirtations go as far as they had and she certainly never would have shagged him, of that she was most certain. No, it was quite apparent, especially since these damnable dreams had started, that she was not the one he was dreaming of.
Molly Hooper was.
She waited for him to come back to the apartment from the clinic. He spent quite a bit of his time there now, in a rather neat game of avoidance. She couldn’t blame him, really; she’d been snippy and hadn’t given him much reason to want to be around. But she’d come to realize, with the dreams that she’d been having, that she loved her Leonard, who wasn’t here, and this Leonard’s heart belonged to another and she didn’t want to take it away. She deserved better and he deserved to be happy, as did she. She knew he needed fresh clothing eventually, so she’d set aside going out until she knew he’d eventually come back.
The key in the lock alerted her to his presence, and she set her book aside, pulling her feet underneath her on the chair. He came in and stopped when he saw her in the living room, like he was surprised she was still in the apartment. She could have gone to Jim’s, she supposed, but that would also be awkward, considering he and Leonard were best mates. “Hey,” he said quietly.
She nodded. “Hello,” she said. “We need to talk.”
He ran a hand through his hair, as though he was going to try and find a way to avoid the conversation, and then he sighed and ended up running a hand over his face. She could see he hadn’t shaved in a day or s, as there was stubble on his cheeks and chin. Good Lord, she thought to himself.He’s taking worse care of himself than I thought “Yeah, I guess we do.”
She waited for him to sit in the other chair in the sitting room, as neither of them seemed to want the sofa, and then she studied him. She was going to look at him, no matter how hard this conversation got. “You’ve been having the dreams, haven’t you?” she asked quietly. “Of your true love?”
He nodded slowly. “Yeah,” he said.
“And it’s Molly?” she ventured. He didn’t answer verbally, simply nodding again. She bit her lip at that. It hurt to hear the confirmation but it didn’t surprise her. This Leonard and her…they’d had what amounted to a flirtation. A brief fling. He and Molly had had years together to build a solid foundation of friendship. “Is she dreaming of you?”
“I don’t know,” he said, looking down at his hands. “But I know she loves me. She told me a little while ago. I made her tell me.”
Carol’s eyes widened. She hadn’t realized her knew that Molly was in love with him, and prior to the dreams. “I…see,” she said slowly.
“She told me she’d rather end our friendship than make me choose her over you,” he said. “She was willing to do that, for the baby.”
Carol felt something at that she hadn’t expected to feel. She was ready to give Leonard up, and hadn’t realized Molly had already done so, had already said for him to forget about having any relationship with her and make things work with her. And she could see that up until the dreams had happened, he had tried. But the dreams…they had told him what he had denied deep down. No wonder he had tried to avoid her. “And you tried to make things work,” she said quietly.
“I have a responsibility,” he said, looking up at her.
“You can have a responsibility to the baby and not be miserable,” she said. “What type of environment would that be for our child if we hate each other? I don’t want to raise a child that way. I deserve better, frankly, and so do you.” She tilted her head. “I love a different Leonard McCoy. I love a version who loved me back, who grew to know me as well as I know myself. You are not that man. But you know Molly that well, and she knows you that well in return. I didn’t realize she was willing to forgo her happiness for the sake of mine but I think it’s foolish. I want my Leonard, not a substitute. She should have the man she loves. And you should be with the woman you want to be with, not the one you feel duty bound to. We can figure out a way to raise this child together without being romantically involved. It’s done all the time, from what I understand. But I am not going to settle for less than what I deserve, and you shouldn’t either. It’s not fair to either of us, and it’s not fair to her, either.”
McCoy looked at her in surprise. “You’re taking this better than I thought.”
“To be honest, I’ve known for a little while you don’t love me, and I don’t think you could ever love me, not the way I deserve. Not when you love someone else, even if you wouldn’t admit it,” she said, giving him a sad smile. “And I had hoped that you could love me the way my Leonard did without realizing you aren’t my Leonard and you never could be. So we both made mistakes and while we do have something that we need to deal with because of our actions, we don’t need to make any more rash actions that will only cause heartache. We both deserve some happiness in our lives, even if, in my case, it takes time to find.”
McCoy nodded, and then stood up, coming over to her and kissing the top of her head. “You always were one of the smart ones,” he said.
“You damn well know it,” she said with a smile. “Now go change and for God’s sake, shave some of that scruff off your face before you go and inform Molly that you’re no longer attached.”
“Yes ma’am,” he said with a half grin before pulling away completely. He moved away and walked towards the bathroom, and she watched him for a moment before leaning into the chair. It was done. They were officially absolved of their relationship. Now all that needed to be seen was if they could function well enough as friends to navigate the rest of their lives together joined by the child they would share. But she had hopes that even as her romantic dreams with him died, that perhaps a new future could spring up in its place and new dreams could emerge.
Exquisite Torture Star Trek (Alternate Original Series) Leonard McCoy/Carol Marcus blue
It wasn’t often they got a moment alone together, to be honest, not on the ship. But they managed it. They had quick, stolen moments in some dark corner somewhere, with her fingers hitching up his shirt, bunching up the blue fabric, and his hands roaming along her blue dress that he rarely ever got to take her out of. Usually their lips were swollen by the time he went back to the medbay and she went back to the science department, but it was worth it.
But damn it, four more years in space were going to be torture.
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