“I was born and raised to entertain other people. I’ve heard laughter and
applause and known a lot of sorrow. Everything about me is based on
show business - I think it will bring me happiness. I hope so.”
A/N: so I did this based on come back to bed by john mayer. its my favorite song by him and I’ve wanted to do a one shot based on it for a while now. anyways here it is, hope everyone likes it!!
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“I can’t believe you Dean.” you
shouted, your words echoing through the bunker. What had started out
as a simple argument with Dean, had now turned into a full blown war
between the two of you. You don’t even remember at this point what
started it all, but you couldn’t take it anymore. You were rushing
around the bunker, gathering clothes and other items that belonged to
you, preparing to storm out the door any second. Tears streamed down
your cheeks as a mixture of anger and sadness ran through your veins.
You weren’t sure if you could get over this one. He brought your
brother into it. Of all people. You had met Dean while hunting with
your brother, Ian in South Dakota. Ian and Dean had known each other
for years and had decided to get together for a hunt, bringing you
and Sam along too. It was during that hunt that you lost him. You
lost your best friend. Ian meant the world to you. You leaned on the
Winchester brother’s for support and they gladly took you in. Dean
quickly fell for you and you for him. But now the two of you were
fighting constantly. Early that day while on a hunt you risked
yourself to save Dean from nearly being killed by a vamp. Yeah sure,
you had a few cuts and scrapes but it was better than not having
Dean. But Dean didn’t see it that way. He only seen it as you nearly
getting killed yourself. And so the fight had begun. And it ended
with his harsh words. You almost didn’t believe he said it at first.
But the words flowed out of his mouth clear as day.
“Oh my god Y/N. You just don’t get it
do you. Sometimes I swear you’re just as stupid as Ian. It’s this
kind of irresponsible shit that got him killed you know.” Dean
yelled. As soon as the words rolled off his tongue he regretted it.
Silence fell over the room. Before he could apologize, you had
stormed out of the bedroom.
“Y/N wait.” Dean shouted as he
jumped out of bed and ran down the hall after you. He found you in
the library gathering some books. “C'mon babe, I’m sorry. What are
you doing?” he asked.
“I’m going to go for a bit, a need
some time… to think.” you replied, tears were still pouring out
of you. Dean looked to you deflated but you wouldn’t make eye
“No c'mon Y/N, please don’t. We can
fix this. I didn’t mean it. Come back to bed please.” Dean pleaded.
He cringed at the thought of losing you. If you walked out that door,
everything in him would break. He didn’t remember what it was like to
live without you, it just didn’t make sense.
“No Dean, I think you did mean it.
And I know it, I know what Ian did was stupid and reckless. But he
did that for me. He did it to save me. And the thought of that eats
me up inside every single day. Do you know what it feels like to have
someone die for you Dean?” by now you were screaming. Tears racked
your body and all you could do was drop to the floor. Dean knelt down
beside you and put a hand on your shoulder.
“I do. Y/N, my dad went to hell for
me. And I know that all you want to do is risk it all because you
don’t see the point in living without him, but you can’t do that. You
can’t risk your life trying to make the pain go away.” Dean’s hand
moved from your shoulder and cupped your face, wiping the tears from
your cheeks with his thumb. “I can’t lose you Y/N.”
“But I can’t lose you either Dean.
Sam and you, you’re all I got now. When I lost Ian my whole world
fell apart, and thank god I had you and Sam to put me back together,
but if I lose you I don’t think I could handle it. They’d have to
lock me up because I’d go insane. I know you don’t want me to risk
myself to save you but wouldn’t you do the same thing for me? I hate
that just as much as you do, but I know you would.” you looked to
Dean in agony. It hurt so much to even think of not having him
around, so if you lost him you figured you’d probably go crazy, maybe
even forget how to breathe. Dean let out a sigh. You were right, he
would die for you. But that didn’t mean he wanted you to die for him.
He wasn’t worth it. You meant something to the world to him.
“You know I would. It just kills me
that you would do the same for someone like me. You’re beautiful, and
caring, and this world needs you. I’m just some beat up old hunter
with nothing left to offer the world.” Dean stood up and turned his
back to you. He never ever wanted to see you hurt. Wouldn’t even
dream of it.
“But you’re mine. You mean the world
to me. And I can’t lose you. And maybe this isn’t perfect, hell it’s
far from it. But maybe that’s what love is, two people risking
everything for each other.” you stood to your feet and Dean turned
to face you. “And I love you Dean…” this was the first time you
had ever said those words to him. It almost felt foreign to you. Dean
wrapped his arms around you and pulled you in close. Your hands
traced his biceps and trailed up his shoulders to the back of his
“I love you too.” he replied. Your
lips curved up as Dean leaned in and kissed you passionately. He
quickly swept you up into his arms, causing you to pull away and
giggle. “Now can we please go back to bed?” Dean whined. You
laughed and nodded your head as he made his way back to the bedroom
with you in his arms.