Imagine accidentally killing Lisa but later making a deal to bring her back. Dean was in the beginning furious with you but then feels guilty and devastated because he lost you. (Part 4)
“I didn’t-” he started but felt the lump in his throat make it impossible to speak or breathe in the first place.
“What?” your voice was still hoarse “Didn’t mean it? Because it really sounded to me like that, Dean. You wanted a life with Lisa, a life I didn’t even exist in, and I offered it to you. And if this is now somehow a problem, don’t worry, I’ll make sure that you won’t have to face me again once the sun rises.”
“You’re going to leave.” it was a statement in a grave voice “You’re going to leave us. Me.”
“No, Dean.” you breathed out, getting up from your seat and turning to face him.
The moment you locked eyes he felt more hurt than he could ever have, and it wasn’t because you had red and glossy eyes, a tear-stained face or a look of pure hatred for him and what had happened. No it was the complete different, you almost looked indifferent for him and towards him and that hurt worse than anything. He remember when he had returned from Hell himself he had only been dreaming about running to you to find you and when he had, he had looked at you with so much love and longing. But your eyes held no emotion as they looked at him, and maybe yes you felt things for him, but you were probably hiding it real well and he couldn’t see it.
“You’ve left me.” you breathed out, taking a deep breath “You were the one that abandoned me, you let me rot down there with your last words repeating over and over again. Demons, taking turns one after the other and having the pleasure to take your face, repeating those words while torturing me. And you, Dean, you let me believe it. You didn’t just let me go through it, you also left me to be believe I never meant a thing for you or for anybody else.”