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Take a break from this toxic place, go out and take a walk. Go get something nice to eat and enjoy looking at people. Breathe some fresh air and refresh your minds. Think about where you are now in life and where you’d like to be. Take a picture; of you, a friend, the streets, life. Make someone smile today; just say Hello. Be the change you wish to see in the world.

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“Don’t worry, my lady. I won’t tell a soul”

“Who the fuk”

If Plagg noticed Tikki in Ali’s pocket instead of eating cheese in a trash can.

Based of ladyofacat’s post. @ladyofacat

they say grief is a well.
deep with creeping water that
seeps first into your socks. it climbs
like ivy, making an abandoned
building out of your bones.

i can see it. the well, i mean,
the grief and the water and the
creeping. i can see it.

but.

i think grief is more like a storm.
clouds that hug the horizon, caress
the sky with fingers that leave bruises
the colour of the skin under your eyes
when you haven’t slept for a week.

lightning bolts that illuminate
the shapes in the dark for just long enough
that you get to see remnants of a normal life,
picnic blankets not abandoned to rain,
beaches covered with sand and not hail,
but the light never lasts.

and thunder. thunder that drowns out
the sound of laughter. thunder that only knows
how to emphasise the gaps of quiet
in between each earth shaking sigh.

they say that grief is a well,
it collects in your chest and fills and spills over
as the walls wage war with the water. i can see it. i can.
but my grief is more like a storm where lightning likes
to strike the same place a thousand times each day.

l.s. | ON GRIEF © 2016

Blease excuse my inability to draw criss-crossed legs and puzzle boxes shaped like ducks…

fangs recs fics

SURPRISE! There is a tumblr fics edition! Also last installment for the fic rec days, it’s been fun!

These are all fics that have been published exclusively on tumblr to keep things sort of manageable. Since a lot of those don’t have titles or are prompts I titled them the way I refer to them in my head for ordering purposes. Sorry about that, I’m not very good with words.

Tumblr fics

Alex dates everyone except John@the-everqueen
Alexander Hamilton/John Laurens, Conservatory AU

Poor John. He’s a demon stay away! And then the demon gets fragile and yeah, there’s no way John is leaving him.

Burr steals bikes – the-everqueen
Alexander Hamilton/Aaron Burr, Conservatory AU

EXPLORATION OF CLASS DIFFERENCES! And what Burr’s decorating choices say about his life.

Eliza dates Hamilton@runawayforthesummer
Eliza Schuyler/Alexander Hamilton, Modern AU, character death

I love how this really shows all the stages in their relationship, even the one after Hamilton’s death. Because let’s face it, she might be alone but that doesn’t mean the relationship ended.  

Eliza has a good heart@shapechangersinwinter
Eliza Schuyler/Alexander Hamilton, Unicorn AU

Alexander Hamilton is a unicorn (but he doesn’t know he is) and Eliza has the best heart. He loves her so much. Part of this au by an amazing anon and the writer.

Hamilton dies - runawayforthesummer
Eliza Schuyler/Alexander Hamilton, Canon Era, character death

See what I put as the title. I AM IN PAIN! That said it’s also very beautiful and I love pain. It’s just that she’s alone and “People keep dying and she keeps living.  She should know how to do this.”NO! See this fic about little Eliza Hamilton and better times to heal.

Hamilton is jealous –runawayforthesummer
Eliza Schuyler/Alexander Hamilton, Canon Era
 

Eliza has a good relationship with the Reverend and her Hamilton is jealous and petty. Which I guess is an unbecoming trait but also hilarious!

Hanukkah - @theoroark
Eliza Schuyler, Alexander Hamilton, Jewish Hamilton Canon Era

This is a great AU and such a touching fic. Eliza wants Hamilton to feel included and respected! She takes care to make sure his background is kept alive in their family! He’s not alone!

John loves Alex@broromini
John Laurens/Alexander Hamilton, 1980s AU (HIV/AIDS), character death
Part of the One Year universe

This is really quiet and beautiful and you will be in pain because death. For something to dry your tears with see this user’s snapback au moodboards.

Lafayette likes emoji texting@because-cur-non
Gilbert Lafayette, John Laurens, Modern AU
Part of the Revolutionary Fuckboys universe

“il y a un language barrier” but not really! Basically Lafayette being a terror croissant over text which is great for me but not for John.

Lafayette is a good friend – because-cur-non
Gilbert Lafayette, John Laurens, Modern AU
Part of the Revolutionary Fuckboys universe

John comes out, and they go to dinner to celebrate Lafayette. Because Lafayette knows how to get what he wants.

LNY ’14 – because-cur-non
John André, John Laurens, Modern AU
Part of the Revolutionary Fuckboys universe

John André and John Laurens are roommates, and André gets a care package from home for lunar new year. I love how this digs a bit into André’s background, him not being fluent but knowing some characters, and sharing things with John. Also his mom sending new year’s money to John as well hahaha! But yeah, I have a soft spot for the softest bro, so this was extra nice!

Madison still stings – shapechangersinwinter
James Madison, Manticore AU

James Madison is a manticore without a stinger but that doesn’t mean he’s harmless and docile. He still thinks big! And has a sphinx friend to do the big talking! See here for more on docking tails of manticores in this AU (which is FASCINATING, all the POLITICS). 

Maria thinks about Eliza – runawayforthesummer
Maria Reynolds (Eliza Schuyler), Modern AU

Okay this is perfect because I too think about Maria thinking about Eliza more than I should. Because of course Maria would become fascinated with someone who is living a very different life that she has a little window into now. And then when they do run into each other, how Eliza still turns out to be different from what she thought.  See also this post for more Maria thinking of Eliza.

Paris - @sioscribe
Angelica Schuyler/Thomas Jefferson, Modern AU

I don’t know what it is about this ship but they’re so fascinating! YOU CAN DO BETTER THAN THIS PRETENTIOUS PRETENDER ANGELICA! But in the meantime I’ll read all about what’s happening with you two.

Philip looks like Laurens
– shapechangersinwinter

Alexander Hamilton, Philip Hamilton, Shapeshifter AU, body horror

Philip is curious and comes across a portrait of a person whose face he likes. His father is shaken up by it. This AU is so gorgeous and out there, like, shapeshifters who aren’t cute but actually really monstrous because limbs? Everywhere? Also shapeshifting is hard so disasters happen! See here for a thing Philip does that solid-form children don’t.

Pin – because-cur-non
John Laurens, Gilbert Lafayette, Alexander Hamilton, Modern AU
Part of the Revolutionary Fuckboys universe

 
Lafayette is going to his first American Pride with Alex, and John comes along. Poor John, he’s a bit uncomfortable but he also seems kind of glad he went anyway.

Selkie pelts – shapechangersinwinter
Eliza Schuyler, Angelica Hamilton, Selkie AU
 
Little Angie turns out to have a stronger connection to the sea than her mother thought she had. So Eliza figures she should have a pelt of her own. Selkieliza is good and horrifying! See also this fic about Seelie court Adrienne visiting Eliza, with a little hint as to how Angie is doing (not so well I just want her to be okay).

Snowballs - runawayforthesummer
Theodosia Prevost Burr, Aaron Burr, Canon Era

Ah, the classic “you should come inside and dry your clothes” scheme! Very clever, Theodosia, very clever. This is really cute, Burr is completely in awe of Theo (as he should be!) and Theodosia is so radiant and knows exactly what she wants. Read the very sweet first kiss sequel as well!
(and then I think of this post and I giggle)

Terror student Ham – the-everqueen
Alexander Hamilton, George Washington, Conservatory AU

Because Hamilton would absolutely be that student taking over the whole thing. I don’t know anything about classical music so I looked up all the pieces (?) while reading and it was so much fun! But yeah, poor Washington, he does not need this in his life.

  • Atsushi: I'm... grounded?
  • Dazai: *folds arms* Yes, you're grounded!
  • Kunikida: You disobeyed an order.
  • Ranpo: [holds up a shovel] and now we're gonna bury you 'til you've learned your lesson!
  • Fukuzawa: Ranpo... that's not how grounding works

anonymous asked:

I sometimes wonder if the fuckton of psycho/physiological distress has made you the writer that you are today or if you could write so beautiful even despite of it. I wouldn't wish that on anyone but your transparency on the matter and your writing acknowledging so many ill aspects of our lifes and how to maybe deal with them is balm and food for the soul! It certainly has helped me a lot. I wish for the scales to always tip for the better days for you, thank you Pia!

I…think about this all the time, anon. Though your message had me thinking about it a bit more over the weekend (I would’ve responded sooner, but I had no idea what to say). <3

The thing is, I never planned to be a writer or an artist. Not like, as my main professions. I always wanted to be a scientist or to lecture media at university like any good media studies wanker graduate. But because of health, and mental health stuff, I have sort of been concertedly blocked from almost everything I’ve wanted to do on a professional level. Which has been very frustrating and…difficult. Glen says I’m a type A personality not allowed to live a type A life.

Ending up with art and writing - I have loved both, I do love both, but sometimes I have days where I stare out of a window and am aware how much of it is contextual and situational. How much of it is circumstance, and not ‘my childhood dream.’ (Whatever, dreams change, sometimes it’s good that they do). Glen calls me a fiercely independent person and I think most people who know me, know that I’d be happiest being financially independent and mobile, but I’m unable to drive, and I’m unable to be financially independent, and…writing and art both give me a measure of like…self-agency, but I work too hard at both a lot of the time to sort of carve a niche for myself where I feel like I’m working. Ultimately, I have used what I love to harm myself for not being able to do more.

I wish that was uncommon for people with chronic illness or chronic trauma, but apparently a lot of us do that to ourselves. It sucks. I’ve never met a chronically ill person who was like ‘yeah I love being able to do hardly anything it’s such a relaxed lifestyle’ (like the government kind of wants you to believe of people on disability welfare as I am).

So I think about…I think about who I’d be without all that distress, and what I’d write (if I’d even be a writer) and I always think you know, I wouldn’t be this person, I wouldn’t be writing this stuff, I wouldn’t be all of these things. I’d certainly not be writing trauma recovery stories as a central theme. I’d be so unrecognisable to myself. It’s such a weird thing to contemplate? But you can’t help it either.

But then on the other hand, I’m also tremendously grateful that I can reach out to people with this stuff, that I can share it, that there is a space for the things I write and even its heaviness or angst. That I’m not alone with it (which is on the one hand sucky, too many people are suffering basically - but on the other hand, means we’re *not alone with it*), and so on. Do I wish things were different? Sure. But being able to write what I do for people like yourself make things as they are now a whole hell of a lot easier to deal with and live with at times.

I’m so…fortunate, so grateful, that I can turn some of it into stories that resonate with all kinds of people, regardless of their life experiences. Sure, it’s not content for everyone, or even most people, but for those of us in this weird blanket fort that is Fae Tales and SAL and TGA and everything else, it’s like…you know sometimes it’s not a bad place to retreat to when life is hard. :)

I wish the scales to tip to better days for you as well, anon. <3 Thank you!

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This has been sitting in my wip folder for the whole week, so I thought I could just finally post this. Tho, tumblr does nasty things to the picture quality, click to view to see the more hq version q__q

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I wonder if people see my work the way I do… because I look at my art and sims post sometimes like garbage and then someone else comes along and tell me they love it and just hdjsgfjshsjdhdhdjdhskabaahfidbkaj. 🤷🏾‍♂️

The Markiplier and Jacksepticeye tag/search is usually filled with so much positivity and support and now all of a sudden just because of some drama it’s some of the worst ones to be on, and its made me realize that maybe tumblr is just too toxic of a website for me to really be on

turningblackred  asked:

I was just wondering.. if camren is really together now, why the need for indirects in social media? i mean, maybe its just that im used to communicating with my special someone thru phone calls or text, that we dont have time for anything else. or maybe its just how kids are nowadays? like, twitter and tumblr is just a necessary outlet for their feelings? dunno if im just a really private person that im not used to it. but maybe the indirects add to their excitement? or maybe its for fans?

Great ask Munchkin… Think about it like this. When you are dating someone you guys talk on the phone and see each other in person, but don’t you have those moments when you’re not together and you see a post that reminds you of them so you like it or reblog it? Or you’ll have a thought about them and just feel the need to tweet it or post it? It’s not about using it as their only means of communication, but a way of saying those things they say in private in public as well…😏