maybe i just think i look good

immortal-centurys  asked:

after suggestions from my doctor and open unashamed people like you, I started going to the counseling center at my college. I only went twice, and then I accidentally missed an appointment (simply lost track of time at work)and now I feel ashamed and afraid to go back, even though I need the help now more than ever. has this happened to you? any advice? I know my brain is making it seem worse than it is, but I still feel shitty.

Everybody forgets things, and everybody makes mistakes. You can go back and you don’t even have to say anything about missing the appointment. 

Let me ask you a question, though: are you maybe looking for a reason to not go? Are you maybe using “I missed an appointment so I can’t go back” as an excuse to not go back? I ask because our depression brains are really good at finding reasons for us to not do things.

You don’t have to answer that to me, just think about it for yourself, okay? And make an appointment! You deserve to feel better, and counseling will help you. 

My Imaginary Friend (Yoongi X Y/N)

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Y/N sat down on her bed throwing her shoes off. Another day of school had come to an end. Finally, Friday. She laid back and looked at the ceiling thinking.
“So today was pretty chill..thank God. Jake didn’t show up so I guess I was lucky. I just don’t understand why he hates me. No matter who I talk to they all describe him as a good and sweet guy..But when it comes to me he’s always so cruel, he just loves to see me suffer..He’s made my life a living hell.. And my mom, why doesn’t she like me? Why does she always tells me that I am a mistake? Maybe both her and Jake are right..Maybe it’s all my fault..”
She broke down, hiding her face into the pillows,she let her tears run free. It broke his heart seeing her like that. He wanted to go down there and talk to her, hug her..let her know he was there. He actually listened to everything she ever said to him.. But he couldn’t..It was against the rules. He couldn’t reveal himself.. After all his job was to protect her, like a father would, not to fall for her. But, he couldn’t deny his feelings..How he felt. He knew it was wrong, But He couldn’t stop them..He didn’t want to. After what seemed like forever Y/N had finally calmed down. The clocked striked 6 meaning, her mother would be here any minute now. Shit. She heard the door unlock and made her way downstairs. The sight was terrible, but not anything new. Her drunken mother stumbled inside,a beer bottle being held loosely in her left hand. She looked at Y/N before passing out on the couch. Y/N sighed loudly and grabbed a blanket to cover her mother. No matter how much she hated this side of her mother, she didn’t despise her as a whole. You know, she wasn’t always like but that when her dad died she changed. She started drinking and hitting Y/N.
“You’re the one to blame”
“Why do you look so much like him?”
The only things her mother would say to Y/N. They hurt. At first she didn’t let them bother her, but after a while they got to Her. But that’s when she found a best friend. She didn’t know his name, or who he was, but she knew he was there. She knew he listened to her. The one person she could trust and tell everything to. Her imaginary friend..Or was he real?
Five years have passed since that day. Y/N was now an adult and had her own job. It wasn’t anything special, she was just a waitress, but she could afford having an apartment of her own and that’s what really mattered. It was a Sunday morning and she was cleaning up her attic. Useless pieces of paper, broken necklaces, nothing special really. As she filled the third garbage bag though, her eyes fell into a white envelope.
‘Weird’ she thought to herself and curiously took over her. She opened it. A letter? She eyes scanned the tidy and beautiful handwriting as she begun to read.
“My dear Y/N,
I don’t know if you’ll ever read this and I, don’t exactly know where to place this letter but I hope one day you find it. I hope you still remember me, your friend. The one you told everything to. I remember the first time you realised I was there, with you. I’m sure you don’t even remember it. You were only two years old, such a beautiful baby girl that grew up to be such a beautiful young lady. You had thrown your doll out of your crib and I couldn’t help but give it back to you. I didn’t know how, but you had seen me. You shot me that beautiful smile of yours. Growing up, that smile seemed to be fading and ever since you entered high school you were not yourself anymore. Remember that jerk Jake? How he made you suffer? You don’t know how much I wanted to go and punch him for hurting you..but I couldn’t. It was against the rules. Whenever your mother came to the house drunk and hit you, oh how much I wanted to make her pay for what she did, but again, it was against the rules. I remember that time when you where 16, you were at your worst. Crying, having a complete break down yelling at me to show myself or to leave you alone. You told me I was making you go crazy, that you hated me. Later that night though, you whispered that you were sorry, so quietly yet, I heard it. You begged me to come there, but after a while stopped thinking I was gone. The truth is I was there all night, standing in the corner of your room watching you sleep. You don’t know how badly I wanted to come there and talk to you but I couldn’t. It was against the rules. That day I realised it was better I left, you can do so much better without me. Don’t worry, I’ll visit you once in a while, making sure you are ok. It’s my job after all.

Lot’s of love,
Your guardian angel Min Yoongi.”

Y/N was wide eyed. All the memories came back to her. All those things she had been trying to push away for so long, she could fully remember now. She remembered him. Min Yoongi? She runned and grabed her laptop. She had to find out who that guy was. After hours and hours of researching she came across an old newspaper article that read:

“May 23 2009

The 23 year old male was found dead today at his and his father’s apartment. He was fatally killed by his abusive alcoholic father. His name is said to be… Min Yoongi”

She looked for the address of the boy’s house and to her surprise she found out that, that’s…where she used to live.

anonymous asked:

Your blog is sooo awesome!!! Thxs for all the good work! I'm looking for a lost fic: Stiles has kind of an orgy with several versions of Derek (seven maybe?) and there's also a young/de-aged Derek. It's very very smutty!

I think it’s this one. - Anastasia

Originally posted by myonlyloveisobrien

An Abundance of Dereks by antpower

(1/1 I 9,197 I Explicit I Sterek)

Something went wrong in the de-aging process and now Stiles is stuck Derek-sitting not just one but a whole pack of Dereks. He knows exactly what to do with them.

anonymous asked:

Maybe start looking at what the other team is doing right? Like you're never gonna improve if you just think "I'm playing perfectly my team sucks"

i’m…… mercy……………………….. i spend the entire game watching my teammates and yeah! there are good teams! but theyre few and faaaaaar between? i can do 2k hpm i can get multi person rezzes i can get gold ot every other fucking game but if my team isnt getting kills like… im supposed to use my gun? 

Storm in the Room thoughts

I’m about to go to sleep but I wanted to share a few thoughts on Storm in the Room!

I loved it. Easily one of my favorite episodes of the series (maybe even like, top ten). This meeting between Rose and Steven is something people have been thinking and theorizing about since literally episode one, and I just felt like the payoff was so good.

The thing that cements it as great in my book is the last couple of minutes, when the storm starts. First of all, the storm is so visually striking and the animation is stunning!! Rose’s hair looks great, Steven’s expressions and the framing of everything felt totally perfect. I really, really liked the way the colors of the room changed to a darker pallette that was still colorful. Normally depicting storm clouds in cartoons is so dull, because the only thing that changes is the clouds turn gray. For this, we got a beautifully animated and colored scene that definitely sticks out. The visual of Rose in the center of a storm with Steven kneeled down in front of her was really heavy hitting. And I feel like making peace with his role with regard to Rose will help Steven move forward, for sure.

It seems like he has to come to terms with the fact that he will never *actually* know or have a relationship with his mom. But then, the ending really tied it together by showing that despite not having his mom in his life, he still has a *great* support network and a loving family that will ALWAYS be there for him, so he’s never truly alone. Plus oh my gosh it was adorable seeing them all roll in and cheer Steven up, even though they had no idea what had just happened–it was exactly what he needed. And you know what I need? More adorable fluff, slice-of-life type stuff that includes the Gems. Cuz this pizza party is just so cute?? I also need sleep, so I’m gonna head out. Love you guys!

klance fic recs pt 1

i read an unhealthy amount of klance fics so i thought i’d make a list of my favs. i’ll be adding to this as i read more, which will be very frequently cause im garbage…..UPDATE: (this post was just getting way too long, so i made another fic rec list! you can find it HERE!)

I ALSO WANTED TO SAY, TO ALL FIC WRITERS OUT THERE, holy heckin hell you’re all amazing. some of these fics are better than ACTUAL books i’ve read like….you are all so talented and i just wanted to thank you all so much for everything you do. my life would be so dull without your writing. never be discouraged. so many people enjoy and appreciate your work more than you can imagine.

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i think one of the best feelings when learning a language is looking back on previous vocabulary lists or grammar points that you’ve studied or written down at some point in time and just being surprised that maybe a year or two ago, these were things that you either struggled with or could never remember, despite the fact that it might feel like second nature to you now. THAT FEELING OF PROGRESS IS GREAT, I HOPE EVERYONE GOES BACK AND LOOKS AT HOW FAR THEY’VE COME IN THEIR LANGUAGE STUDIES !!! 

Wrapped Around

Jimin x Reader // college!AU // 9694 words

Summary: Freshman year was a mess and sophomore year doesn’t seem to be looking too good either. You know boys like them are no good for you but maybe they’re just your kind of type

Originally posted by bwipsul

Genre: Fluff, warning: groping(?)

TA refers to teaching assistant

Part 2 | Part 2.5

A/N: This has been sitting in my drafts for a while now sigh and I feel bad for not putting out anything this winter break! This is a somewhat exaggerated version of what is a combination of my friends’ freshman year haha. Man I love college.

College had been a lot harder than you expected and you struggled, barely able to crawl past the finish line that was the end of freshman year. As sophomore year came around, new year, new me, you had declared. You were on a mission to bring your GPA back up. No more spending your nights at some random house, celebrating a birthday of a person whom you did not know but rather more nights spent hunched over your computer in some well-lit corner in the library.

Even though you felt invigorated to start the new semester, all that disappeared by the time Wednesday came around. You’re not sure why they call the first week, syllabus week when you had homework and quizzes assigned to you already. By the time it was Thursday, you could only thank god that you were so close to the weekend.

Sat in your final class for the day, your physics discussion section, you could only dream of the long shower you were going to take once you got back to your dorm. The bell rings, and the TA gets up to begin writing on the board but the distant noises of a person running down the hallway makes it difficult for you to concentrate. Within seconds, a rather sweaty boy reaches the doorway, panting as he bows apologetically at the TA before taking a seat right next to you. The TA waves at him dismissively as he continues to drone on about the material you learnt in class this week.

“Alright, now you can work in pairs or groups to solve the worksheet. In 15 minutes, we’ll come back to solve questions 1-3,” your TA declares.

You turn to your right to see that the person next to you had already formed a group with a few other students and you were too shy to ask if you could join. You turn to your left to find the sweaty boy silently working on the problem set. Letting out a light sigh, you begin attempting to solve the worksheet on your own.

There’s a long overdue silence before the boy seated next to you turns eagerly towards you and introduces himself. “Hi, I’m Jimin and you are?”

“Y/N,” You smile politely before turning to your worksheet.

He glances over at your worksheet and scoffs. “That’s wrong,”


“That’s wrong,” He points. “You have to use the first equation that’s written down on the board.”

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The chemistry between Henrik and Tarjei is just off the charts. i don’t think i’ve ever seen two actors as young as the two of them act so naturally with each other, their characters affection towards each other looks so natural and believable (maybe it’s really good acting, or maybe they just are compatible idk either way) Just the way they move together and how they feed off of each other…i’m amazed.

Reylo Chatroom?

This may sound totally bizarre and maybe I just don’t know how to tumblr - but like, does anyone wish there was a Reylo chat room for verified Reylo tumblr fans?

I like chatting on here with individuals, but I also feel like it would be so awesome to just join a channel with nothing but Reylos chatting and making connections and squealing about metas and Episode 8 updates.

I wouldn’t even know where or how to begin hosting a chat channel, and it would obviously need a good method of gatekeeping (maybe a blog needs to have at least 1 month of Reylo content on their tumblr before they’re allowed to join, and must be over a certain age), but would this interest anyone? If enough people think it’s a good idea, I’ll look into options. Also, let me know if you see any real negatives here (I know we would need to be watchful of antis).

Dreamworks' Most Underrated Movie

There are plenty of Dreamworks movies out there that never got the recognition they deserved. Prince of Egypt. Megamind. But there’s one that (at least in my opinion) is absolutely criminally neglected. Rise Of The Guardians. No one I know thought much of this movie from the (very few) previews it got. An emo-kid looking Jack Frost? Bo-ring. OK maybe the Santa looks cool. But giant bipedal Easter Bunny? Ew. But this movie is SO GOOD. And I don’t mean just because it’s funny. It’s actually NOT a comedy, which for animated Dreamworks films is something of a rarity these days. There’s humor, yes, but it’s not a central theme. I can’t think of any other kids’ movie that deals with the traditional Western mythology figures (Santa, Tooth Fairy, Jack Frost, etc) the way ROTG does. They’re literal beings in the movie, yes, whose power is linked to childrens’ belief in them… but they are also concepts. The movie is very clear about that. Santa outright says he is “wonder”. The Easter Bunny is hope and new beginnings. Jack Frost, the main character… he’s laughing in the face of fear. Specifically the fear of death in winter. Turning the cold, life-threatening ice and snow into something fun so that children can live without fear. I mean come on, that’s great! On top of all that, these are just… great characters with wonderful backstories. Some are only hinted at - but oh my god, scratch the surface and it’s beautiful. Not to mention the art is GORGEOUS. The details, the designs… everything about this movie is just rich with visual interest.

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okay but listen. louise belcher and mabel pines? they wouldn’t get along. i know everyone wants to have ‘em cross over and be pals because shared voice actress and yeah maybe they’d bond over boy bands a bit and louise would think the monster hunting stuff is cool but mabel would say one word about her glitter glue or her scratch and sniff stickers and louise would just scream

ya wanna know which belcher kid would actually get along with mabel?


*Me as a woman sports writer on the internet* “Like, I have better things to do with my time than serve as an outlet of frustration for nerds and angry white suburban men.”

“Because I know exactly what is going on here.”

“Sharon, it’s not sexism. OK, maybe a little it is. But some of them genuinely disagree with your writing style and opinions. They’re simply outspoken. Is it just you? How good a writer, are you? Really?”

“I keep getting told ‘Shut up, bitch’ and stalked online  These people have scared my family.They make constant remarks about my appearance. I’m the only girl writer. This is truly about my writing style?”

’”Look , the only black dude on BR gets it way worse than you do.”

“Um, I think that’s part of the problem.”

“Well, he’s a mediocre writer too. No one likes him”

“Yeah, that totally explains all the n***** slurs the mods have to delete every time he posts an article.”


“You sound so much like your father,” she said. “He offered to stop the tide for me once. He offered to build me a palace at the bottom of the sea. He thought he could solve all my problems with a wave of his hand." 

"What’s wrong with that?" 

Her multicolored eyes seemed to search inside me. "I think you know, Percy. I think you’re enough like me to understand. If my life is going to mean anything, I have to live it myself. I can’t let a god take care of me…or my son. I have to…find the courage on my own. Your quest has reminded me of that." 


A steely look of anger flared in my mother’s eyes, and I thought, just maybe, I was leaving her in good hands after all. Her own.