may---june-2011

Natural Hair and Seborrheic Dermatitis

Is this it?

I’ve posted about this before, but let me just give you a brief recap before updating you guys on what’s new.

How it all began

i went natural may/June 2011, shortly after that i developed what i thought was dandruff, i used head and shoulders hoping it would go away, but nothing happened, it always came back, then i found out about scalp eczema/ seborrheic dermatitis and thought it was what i had, i was resigned to my fate…because many people said it was incurable (T.T), and then i found a youtube video saying that fragrance in hair products can cause contact dermatitis, so i thought “mm, i got this problem right around the time i started putting all this hair products in my hair” i really didn’t care for my hair much before that, so it was highly likely that it was contact dermatitis, i went fragrance free for a year in 2013/2014 and in the beginning it looked like it was indeed the fragrance and possibly not seborrheic dermatitis at all, but that solution didn’t last long and the scalp issues came back with a vengeance.

 i couldn’t do any long term protective styles, i put anything in my hair (synthetic braids or yarn) and my scalp would literally become white in three days), i just wore wigs everywhere, then broke my edges off because of an unfortunate case of braids, dermatitis and scratching (the eczema nicely covers my front hairline), so i gave up and just used my afro to cover it up (thank God for afros).

it was horrible and i was pi**d off! it was definitely seborrheic dermatitis, large hard flakes that wouldn’t come off my scalp totally, and touching my hair resulted in a mini snowfall and for some odd reason after a while my scalp began to develop this random odd smell after two-three days, so i kept washing my hair 2-3 times a week.

Now

Beginning of this year, i went through an epiphany and just thought i’d change areas of my life, this included going to the freaking GP to finally tell them that i have some whack ass illness on my head, (as opposed to trying to fix it myself). as i tried to show her the symptoms by parting my hair ((¬¬), flakes were just falling to the floor! Anyway, the doctor didn’t even finish her recommendations, i was like “yh tried those already”, she was like “olive oil?” ..and i was like “….Not only olive oil”, so she finally subscribed me a shampoo with 2.5% selenium sulphide (ah aha! something i never tried before) and i delayed a bit because after 3.5 years of no solutions didn’t really think i should rush to buy another shampoo like it was going to be my saving grace… then went to get it at the pharmacist.

usually when i use a normal shampoo or shampoo with anti-dandruff ingredients that don’t really work for me, the flakes never actually come off my scalp, i used this Selsun shampoo (not selsun blue, but they have the same active ingredient) and the white flakes that clung to my scalp for dear life was pretty much gone. i didn’t wan’t to start jumping for joy too fast, i  banded my hair and then half a week later took it down to use the selsun shampoo again (twice a week for two weeks, then once a week afterwards) and lo and behold no flakes falling as i parted my hair!

i pray to God it continues working, i’m actually dreaming of having fun with my hair again!

How this can help you

So you may have this problem and may be barely managing having tried all and everything people have recommended, different anti-dandruff shampoos etc, well i’m here to say that :

1. Stop self-diagnosis and self-prescriptions, go to the doctor!

2. You may think you’re using different shampoos, but the active ingredients in all those different brands may have been exactly the same!

before i went to the doctor, i tried

1. Apple Cider Vinegar

2. Head and Shoulders (probably zinc pyrithione)

3. Neutrogena T-gel (coal tar)

4. Fragrance free

5. Raw active manuka honey (T.T) that cost me £10 for a tiny jar! and sea salt

6. massaging my scalp with a concoction of oils and tea tree oil and peppermint oil

7. Nizoral (Ketaconazole)

Anyways, all that was not MY solution,  Zinc Pyrithione, Coal Tar and Ketaconazole were not My solution, Selenium Sulphide was, so next time you attempt to try a new shampoo, make sure you’re not looking at brand name but at the active ingredient.

i just had to make this post because seborrheic dermatitis is frustrating as hell, causes self-consciousness, probably low-self esteem, embarrassment (people thinking you got dirty hair because you don’t wash, when you wash you hair like once everyday….30 times more than they do in a freaking month) and i was hoping this could be a solution or 95% help to somebody.

i will also be eating well, and taking omega 3 and evening prim rose oil supplements, eating fish and veggies etc, i haven’t really started all that yet, So really, its just the 2.5% selenium sulphide that’s curbed this. in fact i couldn’t be bothered with the third shampoo session and left my hair for a week, i felt a very slight slight i mean sliiiight beginnings of an itch on a small part of my head,but even then there were no flakes on my head, it kind of felt like whatever was causing this issue was trying to raise its ugly head again because i skipped the dose, and even then as i parted my hair (a few hours before writing this post), no flakes fell from my scalp!

(T.T), thank you Jesus! 

Case Study ~ October 2011, Part 1 ~ Midnight

Very serious warning with this part.  There’s nothing that really happens in this section that would require a warning beyond the general one I’ve given, but things get very intense in this part of the story.  This was very hard to write, and I imagine it will be very hard to read.  Please, make sure you’re in a good place before you read it, and also, as always - this doesn’t reflect everyone’s experience.  

October 2010 ~ November 2010 ~ December 2010 ~ January 2011 ~ February 2011 ~ March 2011 ~ April 2011 ~ May 2011 ~ June 2011 ~ July 2011 ~ August 2011 ~ September 2011 ~ October 2011, Part 1 ~ October 2011, Part 2 ~ October 2011, Part 3 ~ November 2011 ~ December 2011 ~ January 2012 ~ February 2012 ~ March 2012 ~ April 2012 ~ May 2012 ~ June 2012 ~ December 2016

Warning: These stories all revolve around an AU world where Kurt and Blaine both have serious mental health disorders and end up rooming together at a boarding school geared towards special education.  I work in mental health, so I’m familiar with this stuff and will try to be as accurate as possible, but please keep in mind that this is a work of fiction.  There will be some angsty parts and some happy parts and many parts that are in-between, and I don’t have a definitive plan in mind other than a happy ending.

Also, Kurt and Blaine are in the same grade here, both juniors at the start of the story.

This part is PG-13, 2478 words

October 2011, Part 1 ~ Midnight

Blaine loved classes, except the last few in the afternoon when his mind typically turned to Kurt, Kurt, Kurt because they hadn’t seen each other for so many hours.  It helped, though, that last period this year was English.  Blaine loved English, and books, and stories.  They had just finished Among the Hidden, which was really, really good except the parts that were scary and sad, and next they were going to read Walk Two Moons, which Blaine was really excited for because Kurt said it was one of his favorite books from middle school.

Only Blaine hadn’t been able to concentrate today, not as much as usual.  He was feeling jumpier, like he had to get out of his seat, and for some reason everything was bothering him.  He’d been a few minutes late for breakfast this morning because he got distracted in the shower, and then Kurt had snapped at him, and then he’d snapped back at Kurt, and they had barely talked at all during breakfast and that made Blaine sad and also a little angry too, because really why did Kurt always have to be so particular?  And then he must have been in a bad mood because of that, because he yelled at Brittany this morning when she kept going on and on about Santana and unicorns, and he’d made her cry which really sucked, and yeah, he maybe wasn’t having the greatest of days.

But now it was English class, and he kind of felt okay with everything that had happened.  Actually, he felt kind of amazing.  He kept thinking about all those kids in Among the Hidden and how they never got to go outside.  And that must really suck, because Blaine loved to be outside.  And what would they do all day, anyway?  They must read a lot.  Blaine loved to read.  If only he could give them that, give them something to read.

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Case Study ~ December 2016 ~ Zigzag (Complete <3)

Well guys, here we are.  This part could probably use a little more revision, but I need to sleep now before work, so…

It has been such an honor to share this journey with all of you.  I can’t believe that this story actually came together this quickly, but it’s truly been a blessing, so… enjoy the epilogue!  Notes on the story, possibly additional drabbles (feel free to prompt, although I can’t 100% guarantee!) and the AO3 version will all most likely happen in near future :-)

Side Note: I told many of you that Blaine has intellectual disability.  That is what it’s called today, but when Blaine was diagnosed we were operating under a different diagnostic manual, and this story reflects that accordingly by using the multi-axial system and the term “mental retardation”.

October 2010 ~ November 2010 ~ December 2010 ~ January 2011 ~ February 2011 ~ March 2011 ~ April 2011 ~ May 2011 ~ June 2011 ~ July 2011 ~ August 2011 ~ September 2011 ~ October 2011, Part 1 ~ October 2011, Part 2 ~ October 2011, Part 3 ~ November 2011 ~ December 2011 ~ January 2012 ~ February 2012 ~ March 2012 ~ April 2012 ~ May 2012 ~ June 2012 ~ December 2016

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Warning: These stories all revolve around an AU world where Kurt and Blaine both have serious mental health disorders and end up rooming together at a boarding school geared towards special education.  I work in mental health, so I’m familiar with this stuff and will try to be as accurate as possible, but please keep in mind that this is a work of fiction.  There will be some angsty parts and some happy parts and many parts that are in-between, and I don’t have a definitive plan in mind other than a happy ending.

Also, Kurt and Blaine are in the same grade here, both juniors at the start of the story.

This part is PG, 4059 words (out of 45,323!)

December 2016 ~ Zigzag

Date:09/10/2009    

Psychosocial Assessment Summary:

Kurt Hummel is a 16-year old boy who presents to Dalton roughly six months following the death of his father and only remaining biological parent.  He comes here voluntarily and with the blessing of his step-family, Carole and Finn Hudson, who appear sincerely supportive.

Kurt stared at his image in the mirror, straightening his tie, fiddling with the cuff links on his tux.  He found it strange that he didn’t feel nervous—at least not about the commitment he was about to make.  Lingering in the back of his mind was a great deal of anxiety about the ceremony and the music and the reception going smoothly, exactly as planned, but Kurt was doing his best to ignore it.  Those things weren’t what today was about, after all.

Today was about them: about Kurt and Blaine and everything they had somehow, miraculously built together.

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Case Study ~ September 2011 ~ Kindred

October 2010 ~ November 2010 ~ December 2010 ~ January 2011 ~ February 2011 ~ March 2011 ~ April 2011 ~ May 2011 ~ June 2011 ~ July 2011 ~ August 2011 ~ September 2011 ~ October 2011, Part 1 ~ October 2011, Part 2 ~ October 2011, Part 3 ~ November 2011 ~ December 2011 ~ January 2012 ~ February 2012 ~ March 2012 ~ April 2012 ~ May 2012 ~ June 2012 ~ December 2016

Warning: These stories all revolve around an AU world where Kurt and Blaine both have serious mental health disorders and end up rooming together at a boarding school geared towards special education.  I work in mental health, so I’m familiar with this stuff and will try to be as accurate as possible, but please keep in mind that this is a work of fiction.  There will be some angsty parts and some happy parts and many parts that are in-between, and I don’t have a definitive plan in mind other than a happy ending.

Also, Kurt and Blaine are in the same grade here, both juniors at the start of the story.

This part isPG, 1778 words

September 2011 ~ Kindred

“Well, Kurt,” Mrs. Faber began, sitting prim and proper, legs crossed, in her seat.  Kurt liked that she dressed well, today in a classy apple-red cardigan with beading around the neckline paired with a simple, knee-length black skirt.  “I know last week we were beginning to discuss your relationship with your father, figure out where those sparks of your condition might have started.  Have you thought about it like I asked?  Do you have any insight?”

Kurt stared at her shoes: black pumps with 1-inch heels, strapped and fastened with black heart-shaped beads.  “I have something I’d like to talk about,” he said.  “If that’s alright?”

He didn’t have to look at her face to know she was surprised.  “Of course!” she said, not even trying to mask her excitement.  “Of course, we can talk about anything you like.  Please.”

“I’d like to talk about Blaine.  I mean—things have been good.  But it seems I’ve hit a bit of a roadblock.”

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walker-nom  asked:

It amazes me how you come up with such fantastic fantasy creatures that just seem to flow together so fluidly. Got any tips on how you create these gorgeous animals?

(Super late reply woops)

Thanks! I’m honored you like them c: <3

Honestly, my best advice would be to just go with what feels right and don’t think too much about it— or at least not initially. 

A lot of the beasts and creatures I draw and create actually don’t have much forethought put into them. I usually just draw something random, going with what shapes feel right, and then decide upon its completion if it’s something I’d like to use again.

And there’s nothing that says you need to keep that creature 100% the same as its first rendition. You can always go back and change things!

My tora dragons have seen a bit of change:

June 2010

May 2011 (bigger pic since it’s long)

Design earlier this year (unfinished, as I scrapped it halfway for the below design)

Current design

Clearly far from the original design— or any others before it— but it shows the evolution of a creature that I originally made with little thought. After having the creature for some time, I was able to decide on alterations that I feel bettered its design and conveyed more power in the creature, particularly in its neck and forelimbs. 

Just experiment and play with shapes! Simplicity can be your friend, so don’t feel like you need to make something too fancy. If you’re satisfied with a simple, easy design— keep it. You’ll find it easier to draw again, and that you’ll focus more on the important details (face shape, muscles, etc) if you leave out unnecessary odds and ends.

Case Study ~ May 2012 ~ Wedding

I actually got a little teary while writing this… in a good way.

October 2010 ~ November 2010 ~ December 2010 ~ January 2011 ~ February 2011 ~ March 2011 ~ April 2011 ~ May 2011 ~ June 2011 ~ July 2011 ~ August 2011 ~ September 2011 ~ October 2011, Part 1 ~ October 2011, Part 2 ~ October 2011, Part 3 ~ November 2011 ~ December 2011 ~ January 2012 ~ February 2012 ~ March 2012 ~ April 2012 ~ May 2012June 2012 ~ December 2016

Warning: These stories all revolve around an AU world where Kurt and Blaine both have serious mental health disorders and end up rooming together at a boarding school geared towards special education.  I work in mental health, so I’m familiar with this stuff and will try to be as accurate as possible, but please keep in mind that this is a work of fiction.  There will be some angsty parts and some happy parts and many parts that are in-between, and I don’t have a definitive plan in mind other than a happy ending.

Also, Kurt and Blaine are in the same grade here, both juniors at the start of the story.

This part is PG, 2378 words

May 2012 ~ Wedding

Kurt smoothed the lapels of his suit, took a deep breath, and walked through the doorway.  The little bell jingled, assuring that the pretty, middle-aged woman standing behind the counter took notice of him right away.  “Hello,” she said, offering him a smile.  “Welcome to the Cheesecake Boutique.  Is there something I can help you with?”

He straightened his posture, reached down deep for his confidence, and said—“Yes, actually.  My name is Kurt Hummel, and I’m here to convince you to hire me.”

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Case Study ~ June 2012 ~ Year

So here it is a little late, friends - technically the last chapter of this fic, as tomorrow (aka Day 24 because I’m a day behind) will be more of an epilogue… and also a prequel, in a sense.  

I hope everyone is having the merriest of holidays! <3

October 2010 ~ November 2010 ~ December 2010 ~ January 2011 ~ February 2011 ~ March 2011 ~ April 2011 ~ May 2011 ~ June 2011 ~ July 2011 ~ August 2011 ~ September 2011 ~ October 2011, Part 1 ~ October 2011, Part 2 ~ October 2011, Part 3 ~ November 2011 ~ December 2011 ~ January 2012 ~ February 2012 ~ March 2012 ~ April 2012 ~ May 2012 ~ June 2012December 2016

Warning: These stories all revolve around an AU world where Kurt and Blaine both have serious mental health disorders and end up rooming together at a boarding school geared towards special education.  I work in mental health, so I’m familiar with this stuff and will try to be as accurate as possible, but please keep in mind that this is a work of fiction.  There will be some angsty parts and some happy parts and many parts that are in-between, and I don’t have a definitive plan in mind other than a happy ending.

Also, Kurt and Blaine are in the same grade here, both juniors at the start of the story.

This part is PG, 2734 words

June 2012 ~ Year

Graduation day was definitely the best day of Blaine’s life… except for maybe the day that Kurt had agreed to date him, or the day when Kurt had first said I love you, or that day when Kurt…

Okay, maybe it’s wasn’t the best.  But it was one of his very favorite days all the same.

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Cast Study ~ August 2011 ~ Legacy

I didn’t read over this one as much as I might like, so please forgive any glaring errors/oddities.  Stay tuned for “Kindred”, hopefully by tomorrow morning (and yes, I know I’m going out of order!)

October 2010 ~ November 2010 ~ December 2010 ~ January 2011 ~ February 2011 ~ March 2011 ~ April 2011 ~ May 2011 ~ June 2011 ~ July 2011 ~ August 2011 ~ September 2011 ~ October 2011, Part 1 ~ October 2011, Part 2 ~ October 2011, Part 3 ~ November 2011 ~ December 2011 ~ January 2012 ~ February 2012 ~ March 2012 ~ April 2012 ~ May 2012 ~ June 2012 ~ December 2016

Warning: These stories all revolve around an AU world where Kurt and Blaine both have serious mental health disorders and end up rooming together at a boarding school geared towards special education.  I work in mental health, so I’m familiar with this stuff and will try to be as accurate as possible, but please keep in mind that this is a work of fiction.  There will be some angsty parts and some happy parts and many parts that are in-between, and I don’t have a definitive plan in mind other than a happy ending.

Also, Kurt and Blaine are in the same grade here, both juniors at the start of the story.

This part is R, 1780 words

August 2011 ~ Legacy

It was the last weekend of break and Kurt was here again for like the fourth time this summer, in Blaine’s house in his room, actually liking Blaine’s family who liked him back, and things were pretty much perfect. 

But best of all was why Kurt was here—not just because it really, really sucked when they didn’t see each other, but also because it was Blaine’s birthday!  His eighteenth birthday, which meant not only cake and ice cream and presents and singing and Kurt which were pretty much all of Blaine’s very favorite things, but also that he was a man now.  And Mama and Daddy knew he was a man now, too, they even said so when they gave Blaine a pocket watch that had belonged to his grandfather, calling it a legacy even though Blaine actually didn’t know what a legacy was.  He didn’t really care, though.  Daddy had said, “A man needs a pocket watch,” and Blaine had beamed so hard it made his face hurt.

He was grown-up.  He’d been waiting his entire life to be grown-up, practically.

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Case Study ~ October 2011, Part 3 ~ Occasion

October 2010 ~ November 2010 ~ December 2010 ~ January 2011 ~ February 2011 ~ March 2011 ~ April 2011 ~ May 2011 ~ June 2011 ~ July 2011 ~ August 2011 ~ September 2011 ~ October 2011, Part 1 ~ October 2011, Part 2 ~ October 2011, Part 3 ~ November 2011 ~ December 2011 ~ January 2012 ~ February 2012 ~ March 2012 ~ April 2012 ~ May 2012 ~ June 2012 ~ December 2016

Warning: These stories all revolve around an AU world where Kurt and Blaine both have serious mental health disorders and end up rooming together at a boarding school geared towards special education.  I work in mental health, so I’m familiar with this stuff and will try to be as accurate as possible, but please keep in mind that this is a work of fiction.  There will be some angsty parts and some happy parts and many parts that are in-between, and I don’t have a definitive plan in mind other than a happy ending.

Also, Kurt and Blaine are in the same grade here, both juniors at the start of the story.

This part is PG, 1594 words

October 2011, Part 3 ~ Occasion

Blaine was discharged six days before Halloween.  Kurt was there with him for the ride home, so Blaine spent it holding Kurt’s hand while Kurt talked on and on and on about the costumes he had sewed for them and the new schedule he had made for them and the fish he’d gotten for Blaine so he’d have something to take care of.

Blaine knew he wasn’t quite right, not yet, maybe not for a long time.  He was better, yes, a little bit each day.  It was like waking up, slowly… but he was still so sleepy.

Kurt wasn’t right either.  He was different.  He smiled more but not as bright.  He talked more.  He was trying hard, and Blaine knew it was for him, and he loved Kurt…but he didn’t know if he could try, not as hard, not yet.  He wanted to.

It was a start.

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Case Study ~ February 2012 ~ Twist

Sorry for the delay, folks!  I’m doing my best <3

October 2010 ~ November 2010 ~ December 2010 ~ January 2011 ~ February 2011 ~ March 2011 ~ April 2011 ~ May 2011 ~ June 2011 ~ July 2011 ~ August 2011 ~ September 2011 ~ October 2011, Part 1 ~ October 2011, Part 2 ~ October 2011, Part 3 ~ November 2011 ~ December 2011 ~ January 2012 ~ February 2012 ~ March 2012 ~ April 2012 ~ May 2012 ~ June 2012 ~ December 2016

Warning: These stories all revolve around an AU world where Kurt and Blaine both have serious mental health disorders and end up rooming together at a boarding school geared towards special education.  I work in mental health, so I’m familiar with this stuff and will try to be as accurate as possible, but please keep in mind that this is a work of fiction.  There will be some angsty parts and some happy parts and many parts that are in-between, and I don’t have a definitive plan in mind other than a happy ending.

Also, Kurt and Blaine are in the same grade here, both juniors at the start of the story.

This part is PG, 1744 words

February 2012 ~ Twist

Blaine watched them suspiciously: four grown-ups in Ms. Genna’s office, sitting around in a circle and chattering about something to do with him.

“Come on in, sweetheart.  Sit down,” Mama said when she noticed his face peeking through the crack of the door.

Obediently, Blaine did so, feeling a tiny bit frightened even though he didn’t know why.  He liked all of these people, trusted them—Mama and Daddy and Ms. Genna and Mrs. Applewood.  He shouldn’t be scared.

He wished Kurt was here to hold his hand.

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Case Study ~ January 2012 ~ Scarf

October 2010 ~ November 2010 ~ December 2010 ~ January 2011 ~ February 2011 ~ March 2011 ~ April 2011 ~ May 2011 ~ June 2011 ~ July 2011 ~ August 2011 ~ September 2011 ~ October 2011, Part 1 ~ October 2011, Part 2 ~ October 2011, Part 3 ~ November 2011 ~ December 2011 ~ January 2012 ~ February 2012 ~ March 2012 ~ April 2012 ~ May 2012 ~ June 2012 ~ December 2016

Warning: These stories all revolve around an AU world where Kurt and Blaine both have serious mental health disorders and end up rooming together at a boarding school geared towards special education.  I work in mental health, so I’m familiar with this stuff and will try to be as accurate as possible, but please keep in mind that this is a work of fiction.  There will be some angsty parts and some happy parts and many parts that are in-between, and I don’t have a definitive plan in mind other than a happy ending.

Also, Kurt and Blaine are in the same grade here, both juniors at the start of the story.

This part is R/M, 2532 words

January 2012 ~ Scarf

Every minute detail was in place.  They had an entire day cleared and Blaine’s house to themselves, as his parents had flown out to L.A. to help settle Cooper in his new home after the holidays.  Kurt had all the supplies they would need, carefully researched and ordered discreetly.  They had talked and talked and talked the subject to death, making sure they both understood everything and wanted the same things.  They had already seen each other naked—on a few occasions now—and had made each other come.  They were ready.  Kurt was ready.

So why did he feel so nervous?

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Case Study ~ November 2011 ~ Please

This is kind of short and (mostly) filler-y, but I spent over 11 hours of my day traveling, so… Grand Cayman is super beautiful, in case you were wondering :-)

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Warning: These stories all revolve around an AU world where Kurt and Blaine both have serious mental health disorders and end up rooming together at a boarding school geared towards special education.  I work in mental health, so I’m familiar with this stuff and will try to be as accurate as possible, but please keep in mind that this is a work of fiction.  There will be some angsty parts and some happy parts and many parts that are in-between, and I don’t have a definitive plan in mind other than a happy ending.

Also, Kurt and Blaine are in the same grade here, both juniors at the start of the story.

This part is PG, 949 words

November 2011 ~ Please

Somehow, amidst their fading darkness, they began to fall into sync.

Kurt did consider medication, mostly to please Blaine.  He even talked it over with his therapist, but in the end he decided against it.  Maybe in the future, if things got worse and stayed that way… but he was managing for now, fighting his way through.

Blaine was fighting with him.

Kurt suspected that maybe at first, Blaine had gone along with the whole schedule thing because he was Blaine and that’s what he did, a people-pleaser to his very core.  Eventually he probably did it more explicitly to please Kurt, because he loved Kurt for some crazy, unfathomable reason.  And now—now Blaine did it because it was good for him, and he enjoyed it.  It was good for both of them.

Kurt’s days went like this:

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Case Study ~ July 2011 ~ Jukebox

Sorry this is so late… it’s also the longest yet, though, so hopefully that helps make up for it!  Should be caught up by Saturday… I also plan to cheat ;-)

October 2010 ~ November 2010 ~ December 2010 ~ January 2011 ~ February 2011 ~ March 2011 ~ April 2011 ~ May 2011 ~ June 2011 ~ July 2011 ~ August 2011 ~ September 2011 ~ October 2011, Part 1 ~ October 2011, Part 2 ~ October 2011, Part 3 ~ November 2011 ~ December 2011 ~ January 2012 ~ February 2012 ~ March 2012 ~ April 2012 ~ May 2012 ~ June 2012 ~ December 2016

Warning: These stories all revolve around an AU world where Kurt and Blaine both have serious mental health disorders and end up rooming together at a boarding school geared towards special education.  I work in mental health, so I’m familiar with this stuff and will try to be as accurate as possible, but please keep in mind that this is a work of fiction.  There will be some angsty parts and some happy parts and many parts that are in-between, and I don’t have a definitive plan in mind other than a happy ending.

Also, Kurt and Blaine are in the same grade here, both juniors.

This part is PG, 2317 words

July 2011 ~ Jukebox

Their home had so many things that were put there just for Blaine—the baby grand piano he had struggled to learn to play.  The old jukebox, loaded with classics from the fifties and sixties.  The “play corner” they put together for him when he was little, which he’d made use of for far longer than most children would.  It hadn’t held his interest for a few years now, but they hadn’t taken it down.

If she had her way, they never would.

Pamela had known her son would be special from the moment she learned of his existence.  Henry had been content with only Cooper, and she’d had to be crafty to conceive again.  When it finally happened, she was thirty-eight and her son was eleven; her husband was angry, but she wouldn’t hear a word against her child.  Blaine had been her treasure, her precious miracle, from the very start.

The fact that he’d been born a little more special than she’d anticipated hadn’t changed that.  In fact, a part of her rejoiced in the knowledge that this boy would surely never leave her, never grow up.

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Case Study ~ January 2011 ~ Dessert

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Warning: These stories all revolve around an AU world where Kurt and Blaine both have serious mental health disorders and end up rooming together at a boarding school geared towards special education.  I work in mental health, so I’m familiar with this stuff and will try to be as accurate as possible, but please keep in mind that this is a work of fiction.  There will be some angsty parts and some happy parts and many parts that are in-between, and I don’t have a definitive plan in mind other than a happy ending.

Also, Kurt and Blaine are in the same grade here, both juniors.

This part is G, 800 words

January 2011 ~ Dessert

Kurt knew it would happen eventually, because as good as Blaine was with the schedule, he wasn’t Kurt.  He didn’t understand the benefits of planning his time, didn’t need to do it like Kurt did.  So when Blaine burst into their room one day too-late, at precisely 3:33 when Kurt was studying—and why was that so hard to remember?—Kurt was resigned rather than surprised.

That didn’t stop the irritation, biting at his throat, itching at his tongue, demanding Kurt snap at him.

Kurt bit his lip instead and glared.  He glared at Blaine’s smile, and he glared at Blaine’s shoulder bag, tossed carelessly on his bed instead of hung on its hook where Blaine very well knew it belonged.  Of course, Blaine didn’t seem to notice the glaring.

“Kurt, Kurt, Kurt!” he said, with all the enthusiasm of a five-year-old on the morning of his birthday.  “Guess what guess what!  Sam and Jeff and Nick are going sledding tonight, Kurt, and Mr. Francis is taking a bunch of us, and they want us to come!”

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Case Study ~ April 2012 ~ Vacation

Sorry for the delay again!  Next section should be out sometime in the next 12 hours or so.  Please note that I edited the part for March a bit - nothing that changes the plot, but I thought I’d mention it.  I just wasn’t happy with the original ending.

October 2010 ~ November 2010 ~ December 2010 ~ January 2011 ~ February 2011 ~ March 2011 ~ April 2011 ~ May 2011 ~ June 2011 ~ July 2011 ~ August 2011 ~ September 2011 ~ October 2011, Part 1 ~ October 2011, Part 2 ~ October 2011, Part 3 ~ November 2011 ~ December 2011 ~ January 2012 ~ February 2012 ~ March 2012 ~ April 2012 ~ May 2012 ~ June 2012 ~ December 2016

Warning: These stories all revolve around an AU world where Kurt and Blaine both have serious mental health disorders and end up rooming together at a boarding school geared towards special education.  I work in mental health, so I’m familiar with this stuff and will try to be as accurate as possible, but please keep in mind that this is a work of fiction.  There will be some angsty parts and some happy parts and many parts that are in-between, and I don’t have a definitive plan in mind other than a happy ending.

Also, Kurt and Blaine are in the same grade here, both juniors at the start of the story.

This part is G, 1894 words

April 2012 ~ Vacation

Blaine sat awkwardly, silently, tapping his toe against the foot of his chair.

“I can’t make you talk to me,” Ms. Genna said, for probably the fourth or fifth time.  “But something went wrong here, and it would be good for us to work it out, Blaine.  I know it’s been a long time since we saw each other last, but I had hoped things would look a little better when I was finally able to return to work.”

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Case Study ~ February 2011 ~ Evening

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Warning: These stories all revolve around an AU world where Kurt and Blaine both have serious mental health disorders and end up rooming together at a boarding school geared towards special education.  I work in mental health, so I’m familiar with this stuff and will try to be as accurate as possible, but please keep in mind that this is a work of fiction.  There will be some angsty parts and some happy parts and many parts that are in-between, and I don’t have a definitive plan in mind other than a happy ending.

Also, Kurt and Blaine are in the same grade here, both juniors.

This part is G, 1384 words (1292 of which are mine).  It contains excessive fluff and is probably a little predictable.  You have been warned.  The song referenced is written by Tom Jones and Harvey Schmidt, performed by a bunch of people.  It is one of my very favorites and it often makes me cry, too.

February 2011 ~ Evening

Blaine liked to sort out his favorite things.  Sometimes they changed, like how mornings used to be his favorite time of day because of breakfast, but now evenings were his very favorite because of Kurt.  He couldn’t decide about his favorite holiday anymore.  It had always been Christmas, because his favorite color was red and because presents, duh.  But now it was almost Valentine’s Day, which also had red and was a day about love.  Suddenly, Blaine found love a lot more interesting than he used to.

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Case Study ~ March 2012 ~ Uniform

I’m not overly happy with the ending, but my plane leaves in a couple hours to fly back home and I wanted to get this out to you guys :-)

October 2010 ~ November 2010 ~ December 2010 ~ January 2011 ~ February 2011 ~ March 2011 ~ April 2011 ~ May 2011 ~ June 2011 ~ July 2011 ~ August 2011 ~ September 2011 ~ October 2011, Part 1 ~ October 2011, Part 2 ~ October 2011, Part 3 ~ November 2011 ~ December 2011 ~ January 2012 ~ February 2012 ~ March 2012 ~ April 2012 ~ May 2012 ~ June 2012 ~ December 2016

Warning: These stories all revolve around an AU world where Kurt and Blaine both have serious mental health disorders and end up rooming together at a boarding school geared towards special education.  I work in mental health, so I’m familiar with this stuff and will try to be as accurate as possible, but please keep in mind that this is a work of fiction.  There will be some angsty parts and some happy parts and many parts that are in-between, and I don’t have a definitive plan in mind other than a happy ending.

Also, Kurt and Blaine are in the same grade here, both juniors at the start of the story.

This part is PG, 1515 words

March 2012 ~ Uniform

They were fifteen minutes early—exactly as planned—when Kurt pulled into the parking lot and killed the engine.  Blaine was asleep in the passenger’s seat, looking heart-breakingly adorable as usual, and Kurt was almost grateful when he began to stir because he couldn’t bear the thought of waking him.

He reached over to tuck a stray curl back into place, fingers brushing softly against Blaine’s forehead.  “Did you have a nice nap?” he asked.

Blaine yawned, stretching his arms up until they banged against the roof of the car.  “Yes,” he answered, finally blinking his bright hazel eyes in Kurt’s direction.  “Where are we?  Are you gonna tell me now?”

Kurt smiled.  “We’re in Westerville,” he said.

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Case Study ~ November 2010 ~ Balance

October 2010 ~ November 2010 ~ December 2010 ~ January 2011 ~ February 2011 ~ March 2011 ~ April 2011 ~ May 2011 ~ June 2011 ~ July 2011 ~ August 2011 ~ September 2011 ~ October 2011, Part 1 ~ October 2011, Part 2 ~ October 2011, Part 3 ~ November 2011 ~ December 2011 ~ January 2012 ~ February 2012 ~ March 2012 ~ April 2012 ~ May 2012 ~ June 2012 ~ December 2016

Warning: These stories all revolve around an AU world where Kurt and Blaine both have serious mental health disorders and end up rooming together at a boarding school geared towards special education.  I work in mental health, so I’m familiar with this stuff and will try to be as accurate as possible, but please keep in mind that this is a work of fiction.  There will be some angsty parts and some happy parts and many parts that are in-between, and I don’t have a definitive plan in mind other than a happy ending.

Also, Kurt and Blaine are in the same grade here, both juniors.

This part is PG, 1228 words

November 2010 ~ Balance

Kurt couldn’t find much to complain about with Blaine; he was a vast improvement over the boys Kurt had been forced to share space with in the past.

Kurt hardly ever felt the need to yell at him.  Blaine was good with Kurt’s rules and routines, seemed to thrive under them, in fact—even if he had needed a little help getting started.  Kurt had pressured and prodded Blaine for a copy of his daily timetable for a full week before finally sitting down with the boy to come up with one together.  Blaine had seemed positively thrilled when he’d finally had the pristine, type-written schedule in hand.  Now it was printed neatly on their white board next to Kurt’s. 

Blaine liked to use a dry-erase marker to check off each activity as it occurred: Wake-up, Bathroom, Dress, Breakfast, Arithmetic…

Kurt didn’t mind so much.

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Case Study ~ October 2011, Part 2 ~ Needle

This part is better than the last, in my opinion, but there’s still some potentially triggery stuff in here folks, so please use caution.

October 2010 ~ November 2010 ~ December 2010 ~ January 2011 ~ February 2011 ~ March 2011 ~ April 2011 ~ May 2011 ~ June 2011 ~ July 2011 ~ August 2011 ~ September 2011 ~ October 2011, Part 1 ~ October 2011, Part 2 ~ October 2011, Part 3 ~ November 2011 ~ December 2011 ~ January 2012 ~ February 2012 ~ March 2012 ~ April 2012 ~ May 2012 ~ June 2012 ~ December 2016

Warning: These stories all revolve around an AU world where Kurt and Blaine both have serious mental health disorders and end up rooming together at a boarding school geared towards special education.  I work in mental health, so I’m familiar with this stuff and will try to be as accurate as possible, but please keep in mind that this is a work of fiction.  There will be some angsty parts and some happy parts and many parts that are in-between, and I don’t have a definitive plan in mind other than a happy ending.

Also, Kurt and Blaine are in the same grade here, both juniors at the start of the story.

This part is PG, 2235 words

October 2011, Part 2 ~ Needle

It had been eight days since Blaine went into the hospital, and Kurt felt untethered, like he was hanging on to sanity by the frailest of threads.  There was so much inside of him now, too much for even his carefully-ordered world to contain, and yet there was a horrible, aching void there too.

It was hard, so hard to get out of bed each morning.  Most mornings Kurt didn’t manage it on time, lingering as his alarm blared, staring at his clock as the numbers ticked past—one minute late, two minutes late, three minutes late, until the anxiety building within him overcame the emptiness.  He’d jump up, jittery, rush through his routine and nothing would go right and most mornings he was sobbing by the time he was through. 

But that wasn’t the worst part.  The worst part was coming out of the bathroom to find Blaine’s bed vacant, having no one there to wake up, no one to fill his morning with familiar, happy chatter, no one to walk with down to breakfast exactly on time.

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Case Study ~ May 2011 ~ Harmony

This is quite possibly my favorite part yet, but it comes with some very serious warnings!!!  There is non-con in this chapter, although nothing anywhere close to actual rape.  There is also more serious depiction of mental illness.  Please be aware of these things before you read!!!  If you’re not sure, feel free to leave me an ask and I can give you a synopsis or explain what you’re getting into in further detail.

October 2010 ~ November 2010 ~ December 2010 ~ January 2011 ~ February 2011 ~ March 2011 ~ April 2011 ~ May 2011 ~ June 2011 ~ July 2011 ~ August 2011 ~ September 2011 ~ October 2011, Part 1 ~ October 2011, Part 2 ~ October 2011, Part 3 ~ November 2011 ~ December 2011 ~ January 2012 ~ February 2012 ~ March 2012 ~ April 2012 ~ May 2012 ~ June 2012 ~ December 2016

Warning: These stories all revolve around an AU world where Kurt and Blaine both have serious mental health disorders and end up rooming together at a boarding school geared towards special education.  I work in mental health, so I’m familiar with this stuff and will try to be as accurate as possible, but please keep in mind that this is a work of fiction.  There will be some angsty parts and some happy parts and many parts that are in-between, and I don’t have a definitive plan in mind other than a happy ending.

Also, Kurt and Blaine are in the same grade here, both juniors.

This part is R for non-con only (nothing terribly graphic), 1773 words

May 2011 ~ Harmony

Everything was going so well, their lives together in near perfect harmony, and then…

It started in the morning, to the best of Kurt’s knowledge.  He woke up to the blare of his alarm, and there was Blaine sitting Indian-style in only his boxers on his bed, CDs spread out haphazardly across the entire expanse of it.

“Blaine?” Kurt said groggily, sitting up.  “Blaine, what’s going on?”

“Kurt!” Blaine declared, a huge smile blossoming on his face.  “Kurt, you’re awake!  You’re finally finally finally awake!”  He switched into song.  “Good morning, good morning, the little birdy said!  Good morning, good morning, it’s time to get out of bed!”

Kurt groaned, fighting the urge to slap his hands over his ears, because Blaine’s voice was loud.  “Are those my CDs?” he asked.

Blaine nodded.  “I was looking for your Broadway love songs CD.  I was going to sing you a love song, Kurt, but you’re awake!”

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