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Alex Karev Imagine

Alex Karev Imagine
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Song: Wasted Love by Matt McAndrew
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Ooh, wasted love

You frowned, slowly realizing what happened between the last year of your life. Wasted. Unloved. Unwanted. That’s how you felt.

So I’m not supposed to love you no more
I guess I’m not suppose to care.
I held you so close, now I’m holding a ghost
How can love just disappear?
And where does it go when it’s over?
I know that it’s somewhere out here

It was 3 months after you and Alex broke up. It wasn’t working out. He was in love with someone else. You didn’t care, not anymore. You were falling out of love. You knew those nights next to each other on the couch felt distant. Very distant. It was nothing anymore.

Has anybody seen all my wasted love?
I’ve been down every street, no, I won’t give up
If I have to die trying to justify, that’s how it’s gonna be
Has anybody seen all my wasted love?

“Did you waste your time with me,” You asked him.

It was raining. You slowly realized you weren’t going to like what his answer was, you knew. Yet… You still wanted to hear it.

“Was all this time wasted,” You asked.

He stared at you in silence. Tears weld up in your eyes.

“Damnit, tell me,” You whimpered.

“Yes,” You heard a faint whisper.

Ooh, wasted love
Ooh, wasted love

You were wasted. Unused. Unloved. You weren’t wanted anymore. It hurt.

It’s late, I’m drunk and I’m running on empty tonight
Baby, I’m chasing my shadow around
Like smoke cigarettes I inhale these regrets
I can’t change what I’ve become
There’s pain and there’s glory, but this is my story
I’m asking everyone

You ended up smoking your sorrows away and drunk your sadness down with a bottle of beer. Bottle after bottle, the memories started to fade and you felt like nothing anymore. You just felt like nothing. You were hurt. You didn’t want to be, but you were.

Has anybody seen all my wasted love?
I’ve been down every street, no, I won’t give up
If I have to die trying to justify, that’s how it’s gonna be
Has anybody seen all my wasted love?

“(Y/n)!”

You turned around, stopping yourself from walking away from him. You wanted him to say it was all a lie. You wanted to hear him say that you were the only one for him. You wanted him to say something.

“…I… wanted to. I wanted to love you. But we fell. We fell apart, and you knew that.”

You turned back forward and continued walking.

Knocking down doors and I’m pounding the pavement
Lie at your mercy, will somebody save me? Save me?

You shook yourself awake, head pounding along with the rhythm of the door. Who is that? You didn’t know. You got up and staggered towards the door feeling empty. You opened it and revealed someone you’ve never seen before.

“I’m Jo,” She said.

You stared.

“And,” You asked.

“I’m sorry.”

You blinked twice.

“Why?”

“I’m the one Alex fell in love with. I didn’t know he was with you.”

Your surprised face faded into emptiness. You gave her a look.

“It was wasted love anyway. Goodnight.”

You shut the door and locked it. You wanted to crumble onto the floor and just lay there, but what good would that do? Nothing. That’s what.

Has anybody seen all my wasted love?
I’ve been down every street, no, I won’t give up
If I have to die let me testify, that’s how it’s gonna be
Has anybody seen all my wasted love?

“Hey (Y/n).”

Alex’s friend, Meredith. She came by to see you. You looked up at her, forgetting you sat on your porch in the middle of a summer day.

“Hey,” You mumbled.

She pulled up a seat next to you.

“He didn’t mean to waste your love on him.”

Bring it back to me, all my wasted love

“It’s in the past. My love’s been wasted, and I don’t think I’ll be in love again.”

You looked at her.

“You will. I’ll be there to help you. Don’t worry about it.”

I don’t know if everybody else feels the way that I do, the way that I felt when I just listened to you do that was like there’s so much chaos and there’s so many things in the world to distract us and there’s so many wonderful things and terrible things. But at the end of the day, I felt honestly like the whole universe just paused for a second, just to enjoy something that was so pure and so just simply bittersweet and perfect. And I’m just so happy that I got to do that. And thank you, Matt, for allowing me to do that.
—  Adam Levine