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A Shoulder to Lean On

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 A JJ and Matt fic. I decided to do something different between the two. I hope you guys enjoy what I wrote.

  There was nothing that upsets JJ and Matt more than children being endangered. The team had just worked on a case where a man kidnapped a group of five young children and left them in a burning garage to die. Luckily the unsub was captured and both JJ and Matt saved all the children before the building exploded, but the aftermath left JJ feel uneased and she was mostly silent on the way home. Concerned for his friend, Matt decides to walk up to JJ who looks on at the window in the airplane.

“Hey, you okay?” He asked.

JJ looks to see Matt standing by her seat. “Huh?”

“Are you okay?”
“Yeah, I’m fine.”
“Are you sure? Cause you don’t look okay.”
“I’m fine, you don’t have to worry about me.”

  Knowing that something was still bugging her, Matt decides to sit across from her.
“What are you doing?” JJ asked.

“What? I just wanna sit.”

“Look, I know what you’re thinking, but there is nothing wrong with me-”

 “JJ, I know there’s something going on that you’re not telling me.” Matt then gently grabs JJ’s hands as he looks around to see the rest of the team resting. “Look, you can trust me, maybe I can help.” 

JJ was hesitant. “I don’t know, this isn’t something I’d like to bring up.”
“Well, maybe by sharing it, it’ll help you let go of the pain you’re feeling.”

“Well since everyone else is asleep, I guess I could tell you.” JJ then takes a deep breath before sharing. Bringing up a painful memory was not something she wanted to share. Though if she can open up to Will, then maybe there’s nothing wrong to not share with Matt. Besides, knowing that he also has kids, he might understand how she’s feeling. “But I have to warn you, this is something that I don’t want to remember, let alone share. Though maybe by telling you this, you might understand how I feel.”
“Okay, tell me.”
JJ takes a deep breath before sharing, hoping not to cry as she recalls what happened. “You know, that moment when we saved those kids from the burning building, it reminded me of a previous case we worked on two years ago.”
“I see.”

“The person we were dealing with was an arsonist who abducted and murdered four children by trapping them in a burning building.”

“Oh my god. Were you okay?” Matt asked, not knowing what to say though the thought of an unsub eagerly burning children alive pissed him off. 

“I mean, I burned my hand but other than that yeah, I was okay.” 
“But that wasn’t the problem.”
JJ sighs. “No it wasn’t. By the time Luke and I got there, the unsub already set the building on fire and tried to flee. Luke then ran out to catch him while I tried to release those who were held captive.” JJ struggles to continue as she tries to hold back the tears. “I tried to save all of them but, I uh….”

“You weren’t able to save all of them.”  

“No I wasn’t.” Just then, a couple of tears stream down her face as she wipes them away. “Francesca, her name was Francesca. She was calling me for help, and I didn’t do anything to help her. I tried to save her, I really did, but the building was about to blow and despite my protests, Luke and I had no choice but to leave and let her die.” She then paused for a moment before continuing. “I know that I should be happy that we managed to save all of those kids, but I’m not, because I always think of the girl I wasn’t able to save. Sometimes I still hear her, screaming my name, begging me to save her.”

“I’m so sorry JJ.”

“It’s fine.” She continues to wipe the tears from her face.

 Matt then gets up to grab some tissues and hands them to JJ. “Here.”

“Thanks.” She wipes her tears as he pats her back before sitting back down. 

“Don’t mention it. Besides, I understand how you must’ve felt.There were times during my IRT days when we weren’t able to save everyone. Plus knowing how both of us are proud parents, any case dealing with children are a parents’ worse nightmare.”

“Yeah, but still. There are times where I wish I could’ve done something to save her.”

“Well, I’m sure wherever Francesca is, I’m sure she’s glad that the unsub is captured and brought to justice.”
“Well, what would you do if you were in my shoes?”

Matt thought for a moment on JJ’s question before answering. “I don’t know but I would do whatever it takes to save everyone in there, even if I get hurt, especially if they were my kids.” 

“Wow. I think you might have done a better job than me.”

“No I wouldn’t. Besides, you’re a lot braver than I am.”
“Oh really?” JJ chuckles. “Thanks.”

“Don’t mention it.” 

The two were silent for a moment as they didn’t know what else to do, though Matt was relieved to see her smile knowing that he was able to comfort her.

“You know you don’t have to stay here.”

“I know, but I want to. Besides, you might need a shoulder to lean on.”

“Thanks Matt.”

“No problem.”

  The two stare at each other before looking at the window. Even though it was hard to forget about Francesca, it was easy to move on and let go of the pain. It was nice of Matt to comfort her after knowing what she’s been through. She hopes that someday she could return the favor for him.


#these two dorks in love#they are so precious #the way matt looks at her#relationship goals #please adopt me matt and esther #what angels in love look like #protect them at all costs

MatPat: *takes a deep breath*

MatPat: i lo-

Jason: yes, you love Stephanie, we know, you love Stephanie so much, she’s the light of your life, you love her so much, you just love Stephanie we KNOW, you love Stephanie you fucking love Stephanie okay we know, we get it, YOU LOVE STEPHANIE FUCKING PATRICK. WE GET IT.


Karen + progression of Frank’s name (1) (3)

do you ever think about how the night neil was taken was just a regular night and then suddenly it just wasn’t?

like the foxes kicked ass on court.  and to quote, following the game, “neil could practically feel the excitement radiating off [dan].” i mean they’re crushing it, they haven’t lost a game yet, the entire team’s probably waiting on liquor and sleep.  it’s an amazing, wonderful night.  i mean, shit, “thank you, you were amazing” followed by allison sending a significant look to matt?  she’s probably running through her head how much she’s about to win over bets.

but then the riot starts. there’s bottles thrown and then punches, and andrew’s getting an elbow to the face, and renee’s defending allison, and neil-

neil’s gone.

and then you’ve got everything flipping on its head.  like what do you think the foxes were thinking?  as andrew was choking out kevin, what are the chances matt was thinking about all the times neil avoided telling obvious truths?  as aaron was being bandaged up, do you think nicky was thinking about neil’s collection of languages?  do you think allison was giving a whole new connotation to “you were amazing” as they sat in the hotel room and waited to know if they’d be going back to PSU short one fox?  was abby thinking back to skin marred with scars she can’t even begin do describe the awfulness of?

they went from riding the high of another won game to crashing at the idea that they were never going to see neil josten again