mating facts

You don’t know anyone at the party, so you don’t want to go. You don’t like cottage cheese, so you haven’t eaten it in years. This is your choice, of course, but don’t kid yourself: it’s also the flinch. Your personality is not set in stone. You may think a morning coffee is the most enjoyable thing in the world, but it’s really just a habit. Thirty days without it, and you would be fine. You think you have a soul mate, but in fact you could have had any number of spouses. You would have evolved differently, but been just as happy.

You can change what you want about yourself at any time. You see yourself as someone who can’t write or play an instrument, who gives in to temptation or makes bad decisions, but that’s really not you. It’s not ingrained. It’s not your personality. Your personality is something else, something deeper than just preferences, and these details on the surface, you can change anytime you like.

If it is useful to do so, you must abandon your identity and start again. Sometimes, it’s the only way.

—  Julien Smith, The Flinch
THEORY

Okay so there’s this part in ACOMAF where Rhy’s talks about his parents and how they weren’t quite right for each other;

“my father and mother, despite being mates, were wrong for each other. My father was cold and calculating, and could be vicious, as he had been trained to be since birth. My mother was soft and fiery and beloved by everyone she met. She hated him after a time—but never stopped being grateful that he had saved her wings, that he allowed her to fly whenever and wherever she wished.“

And that’s sad and all but had anyone considered that they were mates purely for the fact that they produced THE most powerful high lords in Prythian’s history????!?

You don’t know anyone at the party, so you don’t want to go. You don’t like cottage cheese, so you haven’t eaten it in years. This is your choice, of course, but don’t kid yourself: it’s also the flinch.
Your personality is not set in stone. You may think a morning coffee is the most enjoyable thing in the world, but it’s really just a habit. Thirty days without it, and you would be fine. You think you have a soul mate, but in fact you could have had any number of spouses. You would have evolved differently, but been just as happy.

You can change what you want about yourself at any time. You see yourself as someone who can’t write or play an instrument, who gives in to temptation or makes bad decisions, but that’s really not you. It’s not ingrained. It’s not your personality. Your personality is something else, something deeper than just preferences, and these details on the surface, you can change anytime you like.

If it is useful to do so, you must abandon your identity and start again. Sometimes, it’s the only way.

Set fire to your old self. It’s not needed here. It’s too busy shopping, gossiping about others, and watching days go by and asking why you haven’t gotten as far as you’d like. This old self will die and be forgotten by all but family, and replaced by someone who makes a difference.

Your new self is not like that. Your new self is the Great Chicago Fire—overwhelming, overpowering, and destroying everything that isn’t necessary.

— 

Julien Smith

REASONS THAT RHYSAND IS MY FAVORITE FICTIONAL CHARACTER OF ALL TIME:

- Protected and loved Feyre even when it meant she had to hate him
- Feminist (i.e. making his Second and Third in Command ladies!)
- Recovering victim of sexual/physical/mental abuse
- Gave Feyre a wage even when she didn’t ask for one
- Taught her to write/made her eat/kept her moving when she was manically depressed
- Waited until it was absolutely inevitable to take her to the Night Court long term, because despite her declining health, she always chose to return to the Spring Court
- Endures prejudice of an entire nation for the sake of his people
- Gave up his body and his powers for the sake of his people
- Made sure that Under the Mountain, he gave Feyre a means of forgetting what would occur in his nights with her (the wine), but still show her where she’d been touched (the body paint)
- Let her choose freely to accept the Mating bond
- In fact, went so far as to hide it and allow her to continue on sleeping with the shithead that murdered his family
- Allows her to have certain parts of her mind be private, despite having complete access to them
- He’s extremely stylish
- And also very handsome and can get real nasty
- Literally does everything he can for everyone he loves and takes zero credit for any of it
- Is a strong male who can be portrayed as broken and in tears
- Rhysand is just the fucking greatest and gives me lots of feelings and holy shit

jackieo610  asked:

Holy crap mate. Fun fact: People have emotions and say offensive words when they're mad. And ya know what? They don't mean it. Please learn how to take offensive words in a better matter than calling them a bitch. Honestly, YOU are acting like the bitch since you can't take people being called retarded. Were not babies. You're acting like a retard. ;)

Ah, you’re saying that your emotions are influencing you to use slurs towards me? I’m rather honored to be messaged by you, O Great User Jackieo610! You are the greatest person I’ve ever met! The best! The fucking greatest fuckass in the galaxy, motherfucker! /s

Seriously, why the fuck are you coming to me with this bullshit. Slurs will not be accepted. Consider yourself blocked, fellow motherfucker on this same godforsaken planet!

Love At First Sight

Characters: Dean x Reader, Sam, Castiel

Word Count: 1,613

Warnings: Implied smut, language, but other than that, just fluff

Request: Can I request a Dean imagine please? One where the boys meet a girl while she’s hunting the same vamp nest as them and Dean basically has a love at first sight moment. This girl is all sass and Zeppelin shirts and Dean eventually asks her out and to move into the bunker. But the first time she meets Cas Dean has to ask why he’s looking back and fourth between them, so Cas confirms that they are in fact soul mates.

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Originally posted by sooper-dee-dooper-natural

“If I find that damn vampire, he’s going to fucking get it.” You growled to yourself, climbing inside your car.

This damn vampire was causing so much shit with his nest, that it drew you in. You hated vampires and hated hunting them but it is what had to be done. You were a hunter for god sake. You should act like it and stop being a damn baby.

You knew where the nest was and since you were alone, you needed to take them out by yourself. You never really hung out with other hunters because you had a certain way of doing things and other hunters would always fuck it up. So, you’ve been a lone hunter since you graduated high school.

You think you were doing pretty good by yourself. You didn’t have to depend on any one but yourself and if something went wrong, you had only yourself to blame and you were okay with that.

Vampires were always a pain in the ass and deserved to die. You actually had close encounters with them and almost got turned a few times but you always managed to escape.

This was a strange hunt already because it seems like wherever you went, people seemed to be already questioned and the morgue seemed to already been visited. Maybe there were other hunters here but you got here first. This was your hunt and you were going to beat whoever the hell was here to the nest first. That is why you raced out of the motel you were staying at and zoomed down the street.

You got there in no time but your eyes zeroed in on the beautiful late 60s Impala. They were already here.

Oh well, you could use the help. You always had difficulty to take on nests alone.

You grabbed your machete, pulled on your leather jacket over your favorite Zeppelin shirt and booked it inside. You heard grunts and sloshes come from one of the rooms but before you could investigate, a vampire pounced on you. You growled and fought him off, doing your best to keep his fangs away from you.

The vampire pinned you against the wall and you struggled, kicking wherever it would hurt. You got him on his knees and brought your machete down so fast, he didn’t have time to react. Blood sprayed on you but you ignored it, walking to the room where you heard noises come from.

You walked inside, seeing two very attractive men fight off three vampires. You knew they would need help and you were here to provide it. There were already many vampires that lay dead but you weren’t going to stop until all of them were dead. You rushed to aid the men and threw the vampire to the ground, slicing his head right off.

This was the first time the men noticed you and the shorter, green-eyed one stared at you as if you were the only person in the room. You would have stared back but the vampire was sneaking up behind him. Your eyes widened and pushed past him, killing the vampire. The taller one already killed his vampire and now everyone was dead. You breathed heavily, looking at the men.

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anonymous asked:

My partner is set to deploy next month. This will be our 3rd deployment since we got together. It has me thinking about Sterek Military fics. Marines, Army, Navy, Navy Seal, Spec Ops, whatever I will take them all. Bless you and this blog for getting me through many lonely nights.

Awwww, sending your partner good vibes and well wishes!  Tried to find you some completed fics with happy endings bb, hope they help <3  -Emmy

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I’m Coming Home by redhoodedwolf 

(1,031 I Teen I Complete)  *military!Stiles

Prompt from Tumblr:
I’m not sure if your still doing prompts… but if you are I would love you forever if you could write a Military!AU, where Stiles surprises Derek be coming back early!! Very FLUFFY!!!

Everyday Will Be Like a Holiday by wirewrappedlily 

(1,395 I General I Complete)  *soldier!Derek

When Stiles woke at ten the next morning, Derek was curled tight around him, Erica’s head in the dip of Derek’s waist, and Isaac’s thin form thrown over their legs, Scott lying around both Stiles and Isaac while Lydia slept in as small a ball as possible on Stiles’s chest, Boyd’s hand on her head as if she’d had a nightmare. Stiles smiled to himself, going back to staring at Derek’s sleeping features. The curve of his eyelashes and the relaxed shape of his mouth. He wanted to trace his finger over the line of Derek’s nose, leave hickies over the straight edge of Derek’s jaw. It was new and old and so good Stiles wanted to cry.

Derek was home.

Coming Home For Christmas by Nerdy_fangirl_57 

(1,780 I General I Complete) *soldier!Derek, married!sterek

Stiles was trying to be the best dad he could be for his little girl after Derek was drafted into the military 3 months ago. That doesn’t mean he doesn’t feel like crying when Alex tells him that all she wants for Christmas is for Santa to bring her papa back home. 

What a Difference a Day Makes by the_gramophone 

(1,888 I General I Complete)   *soldier!Stiles

Derek is struggling not to feel lonely this Valentine’s Day, but he does his best to put on a brave and happy face for his daughter. Both their days take a turn for the better when they get an unexpected surprise.

Home Without a Heart by 138andcounting 

(2,145 I Not Rated I Complete)   *marine!Derek

Derek leave the Marines due to an injury, and finds himself in a small town in California, Beacon Hills. Not being able to stop helping others, he joins the police, where he meets 18-year-old Stiles Stilinski. A year of dating later, they moved to NY for Stiles to go to college. After dating for two years, Derek get’s an unexpected visitor.

Coming Home by Ella Dean Pendragon 

(2,277 I General I Complete)  *soldier!Derek

It’s been three hundred and seventy six days since he left and Stiles has been living each day as it comes but all that is about to change. Non werewolf AU. Army AU, Sterek, Slash. Other pairings Scisaac, Dethan and Lydia/Aiden.

A Soldier Surprise by Eburn 

(2,765 I General I Complete)  *soldier!Derek

The one where Derek is a Soldier and Stiles is at Uni, and they’re engaged. Derek surprises Stiles by coming home early.

Traveling Soldier by Angelwithwingsoffire 

(3,006 I Not Rated I Complete)  *soldier!Derek

Stiles works in a diner when one day a soldier walks in, dressed in army greens and sits down at one of Stiles’s booths. They end up talking and soon enough Stiles is sending letters off to one Sergeant Derek Hale, until one day, the letters stop.

Thank God Your Heart is Too Close by hoars 

(3,469 I Not Rated I Complete)  *soldier!Derek

There’s a boy, (“Fuck you, dude. I’m seventeen. Not fifteen.” Stiles laughs in his memory) waiting for him back home.

Coming Home by WyldeWombat (orphan_account) 

(3,766 I Teen I Complete)  *soldier!Derek

Derek joined the military over four years ago, and Stiles doesn’t get to see his mate very much. In fact, he hasn’t seen Derek in over a year. Little does he know, Derek is coming home.

In the Air, On Land, On Sea by enthroned 

(6,443 I General I Complete)   *marine!Derek, marine!Stiles

In which Derek is a marine on his way home.  He meets Stiles, a marine on his way to war.

Marine Sergeant Hale by Angelwithwingsoffire 

(6,258 I Not Rated I Complete)  *marine!Derek

Stiles has been bullied for years and it gets worse when the Sheriff is deployed one last time. One day, in the middle of the daily beating, a Marine comes to his rescue. A very hot and muscular Marine who also happens to be in uniform. And unbeknownst to Stiles, they’ve met before. Stiles can’t remember but Derek remembers it all.

If You’re Not Here to Turn the Lights Off (I Can’t Sleep) by losingmyangelgrace 

(7,234 I Explicit I Complete)  *marine!Derek, teacher!Stiles

“Honey! I’m home!” Stiles shouted into the empty apartment as he moved quickly through to the kitchen, dumping his backpack onto bench before crossing to the fridge and crossing off another day on the calendar. A month and a half. That was how long was left until Derek came home, until he was safe. Everyday felt like a lifetime to Stiles.

Grace - Prologue by Venchaser 

(9,655 I Explicit I Complete)  *historical au, WWII au, soldier!Derek, doctor!Stiles

Twoshot - Prologue (Complete) . It is the 1939, the world is on the brink of a second World War. Stiles is the son of a wealthy high ranking ministry official. His friend and childhood protector Derek Hale is off to the same medical school as he is, with the financial help of his own father, something Stiles is not too happy about, though he won’t admit it to himself that there might be feelings involved. Yet.

The Last Time by clawstoagunfight

(10,874 I Explicit I Complete)  *Soldier!Stiles

Stiles is leaving in the morning and Derek can’t find the words to say how he feels. Instead, he shows him.

Secrets of Suburbia by GiaUrsula 

(17,338 I Mature I Complete)  *historical au, Soldier!Derek

Lydia Martin was the Queen Bee of Beacon Hills so it was her job to welcome her husband’s nephew, Derek, and his new wife into the neighbourhood. Derek has returned home after service in Korea to settle down and marry his sweetheart, Gen, who Lydia becomes fast friends with. But after stumbling upon Derek cheating on Gen, she isn’t sure what to think. But who was the man she saw him with? Who is Stiles?

Air Mail by Handsofred 

(20,229 I Not Rated I Complete)  *soldier!derek, dad!derek, teacher!stiles

‘’Oh my god’’ Stiles breathed out as heavy booted footsteps faded away down the hall. ‘’oh my god’’

‘’Stiles?’’ Allison asked as he scrambled around the desk searching for the last letter before he was thrusting it at their faces.

‘’It’s him…my soldier…it’s him, it’s Mattie’s dad’’ He told them, his eyes wide as Allison took the letter from him, ‘’oh my god, oh my god and I fainted in front of him…oh Jesus Christ’’

Protecting Home by countrygirlsfun 

(38,400 I Mature I Complete)   *soldier!Stiles, Teacher!Derek

Stiles Stilinski is now an ex-army sniper and engaged to kindergarten teacher Derek Hale. All he wants is to leave his military service and experiences behind him so he can move on and build his life with Derek.

But it isn’t always easy when the battlefield follows you home.

I’ll Be Seeing You by thepsychicclam 

(81,489 I Explicit I Complete)  *soldier!derek, WWII au, historical au

In the summer of 1941, with the country on the brink of war, diner waiter Stiles meets Derek Hale, an army soldier just passing through Beacon Hills.

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klaroline as hel and dyggvi

Dygve the Brave, the mighty king,
It is no hidden secret thing,
Has gone to meet a royal mate,
Riding upon the horse of Fate.
For Loke’s daughter in her house
Of Yngve’s race would have a spouse;
Therefore the fell-one snatched away
Brave Dygve from the light of day.

“Different penguins species have different ways of attracting a mate. King Penguins, for example, sing long songs with their partners. Gentoo Penguin males give their mates gifts of small pebbles or stones.”

also this:

“Approximately 1 in 50,000 penguins is born with brown plumage rather than black. These are called ~isabelline~ penguins. They live shorter lives than other penguins because they are less camouflaged and often do not mate.”

anonymous asked:

I JUST SAW YOUR IMAGE OF SNOW LEOPARD MATING FACT WITH MCCREE AT THE END AND I ENDED UP LAUGHING CAUSE DOGS END UP DOING THAT WEIRD BACKWARD THING WHEN THEY GET TIED AFTER MATING AND I CANT I LOVE U GUYS OMFG THAT MADE MY DAY

I SWEAR WE DIDN’T KNOW THAT WE LOOKED IT UP ON GOOGLE AND WE ARE THE ONE LAUGHING NOW AHAHA

HE LIVE IN FEAR

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I have had these designs lying around for nearly a year now? about time i did something with them! added in a few other ones and smartened up some of the paint work. 

There will DEFINITELY be inaccuracies in the weapons, so please don’t think I don’t know XD it’s just a little bit of fun to explore some more variations and morphology in Pokemon. the original post can be found HERE. and the pokedex entries can be found below the read more line.

Hope you like the update :)

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Alpha/Beta/Omega sentence meme!

Feel free to add your own!

  • “Have you ever wondered what it’d be like to be an (alpha/beta/omega) instead of an (alpha/beta/omega)?”
  • “What’s it like? Going through (heat/rut)?”
  • “I think the world would be a better place if we didn’t have alphas or omegas- imagine, everyone as a beta!”
  • “I said no!”
  • “I don’t understand how people can cheat once they’re mated- everyone else smells wrong.”
  • “I know we didn’t get off to the best start, but I want to try again; I want to court you, please? Or at least be friends! I don’t care that you’re an (alpha/beta/omega), I want to know you.”
  • “I’m tired of dealing with my (heat/rut) alone, could you please help me?”
  • “I like it when you get jealous/possessive/protective~”
  • “You know… Next time we have sex… I wouldn’t mind being bitten, we’re practically mates anyway right?”
  • “Did you bite me?!”
  • “I have goals in life and I’m not going to let being an (alpha/beta/omega) slow me down!”
  • “Some days I just want to say ‘fuck biology’ and settle down with a Beta, less drama with them y’know?”
  • “So I’m not an (alpha/beta/omega), that doesn’t mean we can’t be together!”
  • “Wow you smell really good today; new perfume/cologne?
  • “If potential mates can’t handle the fact that we smell like each other because we’re friends then they aren’t worthy mates.”
  • “Remember those sleepovers we had when we were younger, and we’d whisper about what we thought we’d present as, tease each other about what we thought our mates would be like… We should do that again, we’ve got lots more to whisper about now.”
  • “Omega’s aren’t slaves and they’re not porcelain dolls!”
  • “Not all alpha’s are controlling egotistical assholes!”
  • “The next alpha to look at me like I’m a piece of meat is going to get my foot up their ass.”
  • “I’m sorry if I freaked you out, I didn’t like the way that (alpha/beta/omega) was looking at you- it creeped me out and I didn’t know if you felt comfortable around them.”
  • “I don’t care if you do or don’t have a knot, I’m not interested in sex with anyone.”
  • “You DO realize I’m aromantic, right? I don’t want a mate.”
  • “Oh gods, did your heat just start?”
  • “I love how submissive/dominant you are.”
  • “Can we just cuddle tonight? I want more than just sex with you.”
  • “Slick tastes really gross, does it taste better to alpha’s/omega’s?”
  • “Knots sound so scary, are they really worth all the hype…?”
  • “If you had kids one day what do you hope they’ll be?”
  • “Can you walk me to my car please/walk me home? I get nervous being alone at night…”
  • “I want you as my mate.”
  • “What do I have to do to make her/him/them realize I want her/him/them to claim me?!”
  • “I still want a wedding.”
  • “You’re the only (alpha/beta/omega) I trust with this…”
Benevolence 5

5/20 The unstable couple goes fishing! There’s a argument flashback towards the end. This chapter is finally here enjoy

Word Count:5,083


The bell rung letting me know someone had walked into the store. I was lucky enough to be given the opportunity to work at Parakiss, a clothing store ran by my favorite designer Johji Koizumi. Baekhyun had caused us to meet by ‘accident’ leading to him asking me to run Parakiss in Korea while he was away in Paris. I was grateful in every way possible it’s bittersweet since Baekhyun uses it often to bribe me.

“Hi welcome to Parakiss.”, I greeted finally removing my eyes from the sketchbook I was looking at, my eyes landed on Yixing. He had sunglasses and a mask on but still, I knew it was him.

“Every time I walked into this store it’s completely different.” he laughed turning the open sign to the closed side. I had almost forgotten that Yixing and I planned to meet today, we needed to talk about the way Baekhyun had been acting lately. In all honestly I was surprised articles hadn’t shown up when blew up on me in that restaurant on my birthday. Once again, Baekhyun got things to go exactly his way.

“You know you’re not supposed to just open and close the store whenever you please.”, I giggle walking around the counter to greet him properly. Yixing would often swing by Parakiss, whenever he was on his way to practice. Before Taeyeon came back into the picture Baekhyun would often come too, now he’s mostly with her at SM.

“I like it better when no one’s in the shop with us.”, He chuckled sitting on the love seat running his fingers through some fabric. I took the remaining seat next to him and lifted my feet under my legs.

“So what’s up.”, I asked only half paying attention because I have 6 different outfits I need to make within 2 weeks. When I turned in the dresses Lisa and I made she assigned us 2 more design projects meaning I’ll be spending more time with Lisa. After the other day I don’t even know how I feel about her, especially not after hearing her conversation. It was painfully obvious that she was the other woman trying to play victim.

“I wanted to talk to you about Baekhyun.”, He said softly not knowing my reaction. “I can tell something is going on with the two of you.” Yixing was always the type to notice the absolute smallest details so I wasn’t surprised when I couldn’t slip this one past him. We honestly hadn’t been friends long because Baekhyun and I were so reserved with our relationship. I had only been friends with Yixing maybe 6 weeks before Taeyeon came back into the picture. I had met all of the members of EXO since I worked at SM and made the outfits for their Lotto music video, but, I never tried to become close with any of them.

“I wanted to talk to you about him too, I know you don’t mean it by anything when you get close to me yet, Baekhyun has been losing his shit over the smallest of things lately.”, I chuckled looking away from his strong gaze yes, I found Yixing attractive but, that didn’t mean I was romantically interested in him. I guess I was raised to be loyal to the ones you truly love, now when it comes to other men yeah I’m attracted still I never think of them romantically.

“I know, that’s what I wanted to talk about he blew up on me for telling you about the trip without telling him. I didn’t even think he was going to invite you since he invited Taeyeon to come.”, He started.. invited I was under the impression that the company happened to have her tag along. “I know he loves you though, that’s probably why he keeps blowing up on us. His heart is in a good place.”

Whatever, if his heart was in a good place he wouldn’t be thinking about how he needs to fuck two girls more than one.

“Yeah I know, it’s relieving in a sense knowing how much cares.”, I lied resisting the urge to roll my eyes.

“Kai was getting worried too we love you Y/N, just want to make sure everything’s alright.”, He smiled at me, Kai it’s been a few weeks since I’ve seen Kai. He was the other member that I had gotten close with however, he was always in a bitchy mood towards Baekhyun so I didn’t see him much.

“Whatever, go get me some food.”, I giggled standing back up to go behind the counter. Yixing got up as well to head back out the door.

 “Spicy rice cake?”, He asked.

“Yeah, that sounds good.”,I muttered “Make sure to flip the sign on your way out.”

“I’m just going to end up flipping it back when I come back.”, He laughed walking out. I just shook my head as I watched him walk out of the door.


Three days have passed since I’ve seen Yixing, I would see him and the rest of the members today. I was currently packing the rest of the things while those two pieces of  shit were in the shower. Surprisingly Baekhyun actually invited me in however, once again I declined him. I’ve been turning him down for sex a lot these days, unless I was really horny he wasn’t getting any from me. Taeyeon’s obnoxious moans could be heard all the way from the bathroom, trying my best to ignore it I stuffed the last couple t-shirts in my bag.

“You’re wearing those?”, I heard someone scoff behind, turning around to see Baekhyun naked with Taeyeon not far behind. He was purposely walking around naked, to get some type of reaction out of me. I couldn’t be bothered with him at this point.

“Yes I am, we’re going fishing on a boat it’s not fucking fashion week.”, I replied harshly zipping the rest of my items in a pocket on my bag. Baekhyun, just needed to stop talking honestly half the shit that come out of his mouth made zero sense. As I was getting ready to throw my bag over my shoulder I felt his arms wrap around my waist. Pulling my body closer to his body I felt his still semi-hard dick press against me. 

“No need to get upset about it baby, you seem so irritated lately are you on your period? Is that why you never wanted to have sex, it’s be awhile since we’ve played.”, He whispered into my ear lips trailing down my neck. “I miss you”

“Stop, we have to leave in a minute-”, before I could finish my sentence his hand was going down my panties dipping into my core. I gasped getting ready to shove him away, but, his grip on me was too tight and his fingers were already inside of me moving around.

“You’re not on your period so what’s the problem baby?”, He asked removing his fingers showing me that there was no blood before sticking them inside of his mouth. This stupid piece of shit has no respect for boundaries, he was going to finger me on my period! I think BDSM is hot and all but not fucking period sex.

“Get the fuck away from me Baekhyun.”, I snapped clearly disgusted by what he just tried to do. When the fuck are the rest of the guys going to get here? We had to drive at least an hour until we got the boats. Taeyeon rolled her eyes and shoved at Baekhyun’s shoulder.

“Stop it Honey, let’s go downstairs.”, She spoke looking at him in a loving way. That bitch. She was giving him the ‘won’t you do anything for me’ look. Of course Baekhyun just had to do whatever the fuck she said.

“We’ll finish this conversation later okay Baby?”, He asked me while grabbing the clothes Taeyeon had handed him. He makes me fucking sick, doing whatever the fuck she wanted him too.

“Whatever.”, I muttered before lifting my hand showing Taeyeon my middle finger. She’s been so up Baekhyun’s ass lately it’s annoying. “Go downstairs I’ll be ready in a minute.”

“Y/N, be nice.”, Baekhyun growled as he slipped on some boxers before heading downstairs with the rest of his clothes. After finishing packing my things I went downstairs just to see that they weren’t even there. Sighing I went all the way down to the parking lot to see them along with the rest of EXO.

“Hey Y/N.”, Chen and the others greeted.

“It’s been a while princess.”, I heard Kai chuckle before pressing his lips against my forehead.

“Don’t fucking kiss her.”, Baekhyun scoffed roughly shoving me behind him bumping into Taeyeon.

“Don’t be so rough Baekhyun.”, Yixing snapped at him furrowing his eyebrows before giving me a small smile. “We have to leave soon are you okay with riding with me and Kai?” Switching my gaze over to Baekhyun who tried to look innocent in this situation.

“Am I not riding with you?”, I asked faking confusion, this asshole purposly piled up all of their shit in the backseat, even so I’m his girlfriend yet once again he’s choosing Taeyeon over me.

“There’s no room Babe and I want Taeyeon to ride with me we have some things to talk about nothing serious you know you can trust me.”, Baekhyun fake kindness as the others all shuffled into their cars.

“Why wouldn’t you want to ride with me?”, I asked Baekhyun a little pissed off. I hope he wasn’t stupid enough to think his band mates wouldn’t notice the fact that he was in a car for an hour alone with his ex girlfriend instead of his current one.

“There’s more than enough room for you in the car Y/N. We can always move some of the stuff ”, Taeyeon looked at me with pleading eyes not to start anything.

“No, I’ll go with Kai and Yixing I’d rather not go with you two and I haven’t hung out with them in a while anyway.”, I snarled at them watching Baekhyun’s eyes go dark. I was over the entire situation within a matter of seconds. Baekhyun being the dumbass he was didn’t realize he was leaving me alone with Yixing for a one when it’s been clear he doesn’t like me around him alone. Kai has been eyeing Baekhyun and Taeyeon funny since I came outside he clearly has a problem.

“Don’t wait up you know I drive slow.”, Yixing yelled to the others as he opened the backdoor for me.

“Come with us Y/N”, Baekhyun spoke lowly right as I was sitting down in the backseat.

“No, I’m fine here with them.”, I smirked before laying all the way down on the seats, I haven’t been getting much sleep lately so I was going to take advantage of the free sleep time.

“Goodnight sleeping beauty.”, Kai chuckled sarcastically getting into the passenger seat when Yixing started the car.

“Shut the fuck up Kai.”, I yawned getting comfortable into the seats.

“We’ll problably have to share a room is that okay?”, Yixing asked looking back at me.

“Yeah that’s cool.”

“Great.”, He muttered before pulling off causing me to fall into a deep sleep.

Kai carried my bags along with his as Yixing had his hand on my lower back. I’m pretty sure we were the last three ones to get on the boat since all of their cars were parked. Yixing pressed a button alerting the captain that the last three passengers were now on the boat. The boat shifted as little as it got further away from shore.

“Let’s go see which room they left us to settle with.”, Kai mumbled annoyed. Letting my thoughts sink in I wondered why Baekhyun didn’t even check on me once. All of these things he was doing made it easier and easier to hate him yet, sometimes it easier to love someone than to hate them.

“It can’t be that bad we’ll be here.”, Yixing tried to lift up the mood as a chuckled at his sorry ass attempt. 

“You tried Yixing, you tried.”, I cooed walking ahead of them both to go see which rooms we had gotten. I hope Baekhyun hadn’t chosen a room with Taeyeon, not only would that make me look stupid it would make things so obvious at that point. However, knowing him the deed had already been done still, I wouldn’t let him ruin this for me I loved the sea. We walked down three hallways before we found our room. Opening the door so Kai could stumble in with our things we entered the room. Shit, I wasn’t expecting this it was a nice suite.

Kai threw our bags on the floor and landed on the red love seat with a loud sigh. Yixing gently put his bag beside one of the beds, before sprawling his body across the floor. Sitting next to him criss-cross applesauce I questioned him.

“All of that mattress for you to lay on and you still choose the floor?”

“The floor actually feels better on my hip.”, He chuckled turning to gaze at me with a smile. In front of us I could hear Kai grumbling curses.

“I need to get my damn hip checked out from carrying all of those bags.”, He grumbled rolling onto the floor a couple feet away from us. Yixing shook his head at the his younger member before rolling on his stomach head facing away from both of us.

“Seriously Y/N, why’d you have to bring so much shit?”, He complained.

“First of all Kai, I didn’t ask you to carry it second, I brought one  bag while you brought 3 suitcases.”, I scoffed at him hearing Yixing let out a chuckle.

“Well excuse me for being a gentlemen the least you could do is kiss me. I’d ask to make love but, that can’t wait until later tonight.”, He winked at me while Yixing scowled at him.

“Don’t talk about her like that.”, He scolded the younger man while Kai just rolled his eyes.

“You couldn’t pay me to fuck you Kai.”, I giggle pushing my legs out laying on my back.

“Fine, then kiss me.”

“Go away little boy.”

“Come on kiss me.’, Kai giggled trying to climb on top of me. I don’t know what was going on but he wasn’t drunk or anything. Thankful Yixing gripped his hand around my ankle and pulled me towards him while Kai fell into a fit of laughter.

“Sorry Kai, I’d only kiss you if your were GD.”, I giggle sitting up on Yixing’s lap.

“What does GD have that I don’t?”, He fake cried burring his face into my knee.

“For starters talent.”, I retorted sarcastically while a gasp could be heard coming from Kai’s lips throwing the three of us into hysterical laughter.

“Come on guys I have something special to announce.”, Baekhyun grinned, he was jealous I could tell his grin was stiff. I didn’t know what he saw exactly but still, it didn’t really matter Baekhyun makes everything a big deal.

“Can’t you see we’re busy.”, Kai snapped at him stopping his laughter and wiping the smile off of his face. He whole mood just did a 180 as soon as Baekhyun had walked into the room.

“Watch your mouth kid, Y/N is the one I really want to come out anyways.”, He snapped back at kai. Yixing had dropped his hand from around my shoulder and gave Baekhyun a cold stare.

“It is pretty rude to just interrupt us like that Baekhyun, you never wanted us bothering you when Taeyeon was around at the studio.”, Yixing mumbled standing up offering his hand out to me.

“It’s pretty rude of you to be all over my damn girlfriend Yixing.”, Baekhyun snapped but, of course Kai couldn’t let that one go.

“It’s pretty rude of you to be with your ex girlfriend when your much better current girlfriend is here right now.”, Kai clapped back. “Besides can’t your little announcement wait until tomorrow?”

“Let’s just go now before he starts acting like a baby.”, I muttered taking Yixing’s hand lifting myself off of the ground.

As the four of us walked out of the the deck I saw the rest of EXO and Taeyeon standing there.

“Sorry it took so long they decided to be assholes today.”, Baekhyun chuckled sarcastically walking over to Taeyeon wrapping an arm around her shoulder. What the fuck is thinking?

“Taeyeon wasn’t invited to this trip by mistake.”, He started off while the rest of us stood beneath him and Taeyeon waiting for his next words. What the hell was he getting into? The way they were standing next to each made me feel extremely uncomfortable. It wasn’t out of jealously it was the way Taeyeon was acting, she was clinging to him like her life depended on it. She was never really open to PDA, since she liked to keep her relationships private but for some reason lately she’s been really touchy. “For awhile now I’ve known that my heart just wasn’t in the right place.”, He continued his little speech while I narrowed my eyes locking with his. No..He couldn’t be doing what I thought he was doing he knows damn well I’m not okay with this.

“No absolutely fucking not.”, I spat at him shoving against his chest. Baekhyun had just asked me to make the ‘relationship’ with him and Taeyeon public. I’m not okay with that, this isn’t even a relationship more like an arrangement. The relationship Baekhyun and I had wasn’t even public so why would I be comfortable with them going public for the second time?

“No Baby, it’s not like that I want to tell the world that you’re both my girls.”, He tried to reason with me.

“Stop just stop, I’m not okay with any of this you said you’d keep us separate. Why the hell would you bring this bullshit out public when you know I’m not even okay with Taeyeon being around.”, I shouted  slamming my hand on the table.

“That’s enough Y/N, I’ve told you one too many times that I’m not just yours anymore. You are mine and so is Taeyeon, you two belong to me while I belong to the both of you. You’re being so insensitive towards Taeyeon and it’s making her feel really bad about herself Y/N”

“I mean shit I’d, feel bad about myself too If I broke up with my ex just squeeze my way back into his life when I was fully aware he had a girlfriend. You see the thing is I don’t think people are sluts, or whores because they sleep with a bunch of different people. I think they’re a whore when they do just that knowing that someone else is being hurt by their actions.”, As soon as the last word left my lips I heard glass falling down with a bang shattering onto the ground. Both of our eyes shifted towards the noise, Taeyeon was crouched down trying to pick up the glass cup she had just broken. 

“Taeyeon, did you hear what she said? Don’t pick that up you’ll hurt yourself.”, He spoke softly towards her, the look in his eyes was filled with love and concern. 

Her head was to the ground and her hands had stopped trying to pick up the pieces of glass, instead, they balled into small fists.

“Y/N.”, She spoke firmly.

“Please just mind your own business for once.”, I groaned getting ready to finish my conversation with Baekhyun. I seriously couldn’t even argue with him without her being there it’s so damn annoying. 

“I’ve had it with your disrespect, I’m your senior and I demand to be treated as so, you and Baekhyun are both younger than me meaning you are not as wise. Baekhyun and I made the decision together to bring out our relationship public two versus one Y/N.”, She tried to threaten me, keyword tried. I respect people who respect me. I usually have no problem whatsoever respect my seniors because they’ve always given me proper respect back.

Was I really supposed to believe that Baekhyun fell back in love with her out of nowhere? They’ve had to have had spent time together or something because I work at SM Taeyeon wasn’t even in the building the time we got together, she was on hiatus like she is now. Either Taeyeon or Baekhyun had initiated this entire thing to start over again, besides, I met Taeyeon to get her measurements for her failed comebacks with Girl’s Generation. She knew I was his girlfriend yet smiled in my face like she wasn’t fucking around with him behind my back.

“At the end of the day for whatever dumb reason Baekhyun still wants me here. I’m already five seconds from slapping the shit out of you and walking out this door for good but, I can’t risk my career. The point is, I’m not okay with it and if Baekhyun still wants me here then he won’t be either.”, My glare went from her to him.

“Y/N, we can’t run from this forever I’ll give you some time but, I want our relationship to go public sometime, you can’t run from this forever accept the fact that Taeyeon is now in our relationship. I expect you to apologize to her for your harsh words.”, His voice low and steady.. He was pissed.

“I expected almost what a year ago, to still love you but things change don’t they?”, I spat back knowing exactly what I had said. The tension in the room had died and Baekhyun’s face went from stern and angry to hurt, desperate and confused.

Taeyeon’s jaw had tightened and tears began to fill to the brim in her eyes. What the hell was she going to start crying for, I’m the one who is really not happy in this relationship. Taeyeon has Baekhyun back and Baekhyun has Taeyeon back and me on the side when he wants to pretend to be interested in me. I had a lying manipulative ‘boyfriend’ with his ex girlfriend who I’m 100% positive that he cheated on me with. Due to that dumbass mistake I made when I was 18, I have no other choice but to stay in this relationship. My dream of becoming a designer is the only thing I have left anymore. As I turned my heel to go up the stairs I stopped to say one last thing.

“Don’t even think about trying to do it behind my back like you did this entire so called relationship. Knowing the both of you, you’d try to sneak and do it giving me no other choice but to accept, but, I’m telling you now if you do that Baekhyun you’ll regret it.”, I spoke clearly before heading up the stairs..


But here we are now, the two of them up there while I’m down here once again going behind my back. However, I wasn’t going to even try and stop them because if he did this Baekhyun’s really going to prove his respect for me against hers. At this point I just waiting until Baekhyun decided to get tired of me, then I’ll live in a big house making clothes and die alone. That’s exactly what I wanted at this point, to be alone. Taeyeon’s eyes flickered over to mine while her grip on Baekhyun’s shoulder tightened. This bitch knew exactly what the fuck she was doing yet, I was enjoying it.

“Y/n and I have been fighting a lot like I told you guys before, and Taeyeon has been filling up the void when I need her to. My heart isn’t with Y/N anymore, it’s with Taeyeon.”, He spoke looking me directly in the eye the entire time. Bingo, he said exactly what I knew he was going to say making me look like the bad one. I had almost forgotten he said this in front of the rest of EXO. 

“Was this really the way to do things Baekhyun? By the looks of it Y/N, didn’t even know you were going to say this you’ve always been so selfish Baekhyun.”, Yixing spat out giving Baekhyun a cold stare, he looked so upset.

“No, it’s not like that Y/N, is still very much in the picture I’m just seeking other options. We’re on a break.”, He  tried to justify making himself sound like a straight asshole. I mean shit you could’ve given me a little more respect ‘other options’ really, more like I’m a second option if he ever gets tired of Taeyeon.

“No we’re not.”, I deadpanned, I could tell by the look in his eye Baekhyun wanted me to tell them that we were in a poly relationship his little plan is going to backfire on him. He just gave me a reason to get away from him, honestly I am a little hurt. Why is it that Taeyeon and Baekhyun make all of these decisions behind my back? I had no say in anything at all it’s like he doesn’t even care if I have feelings or not. I felt a hand on my lower back, turning towards the person Yixing was giving me a worried gaze.

“What do you mean?”, He asked voice filled with concern while Suho gently tried to get Yixing to calm down. Kai was upset as well, you could see it written all over his face. Kai was never okay with Taeyeon being in the picture and he often yelled at Baekhyun whenever he was rude to me. The next few words that come out of my mouth are ones that I’ve wanted to say for a long time.

“It means I’m done once again, Taeyeon, you got exactly what you wanted the both of you did.”, I laughed harshly feeling Kai wrap a firm grip around my shoulder damn it, he was pissed.

“What the fuck did you do Baekhyun getting back together with that bitch ! Did you  forget what happened when she first broke up with you? You cried like a punk for days Baekhyun and now you repeating the same steps”, Kai spat the words towards the two of the them filling the words up with hatred. Something obviously had to have happened for Kai to be this upset over someone else’s relationship.

“It’s not like that Kai, I was feeling unloved from Baekhyun and decided to break up with him now he’s feeling the same way I did with her.”, Taeyeon decided to speak up. This stupid bitch just doesn’t know when to stop does she? I was getting ready to snap on her when Yixing beat me to it.

“Maybe that was Baekhyun’s fault did you even think to consider Y/N’s feelings in this? You didn’t because both of you are so insensitive, then you tried to push all of the blame on Y/N like this is her fault. If Baekhyun was a real man and really cared about her, he would’ve spoke to her about before running his sorry ass back to you.”, He shouted stepping away from me and more towards them. Why were they getting so angry about this I don’t understand? This is the second time I’ve seen Yixing stepping out of his character to shout at a woman.

“Either way it doesn’t change the fact that Baekhyun’s a dumbass for throwing Y/N out just because she isn’t sucking his dick whenever he wants it or the fact that Taeyeon is still a whore.”, Kai growled pulling me closer towards him, even though he was angry he was rubbing my shoulder  gently letting me know he was there. I didn’t like the fact that they were pushing themselves into I didn’t want this to affect their relationship with Baekhyun. However, at this point you can clearly tell that Kai has had his blood boiling towards Baekhyun for some time now.

“Stop, just stop, I don’t even care anymore.”, I chuckled harshly surprising everyone on the boat. 

“I want to talk to her in private.”, Baekhyun stated I could see the look in his eyes it’s the same look he gives me whenever I even mention anything about another male, he was scared. He was jealous, scared, and desperate  for me not to leave.

“Go it’s not going to change anything my mind is set.”, I spoke to the rest of them. “Especially you, just being in this room with you makes me sick to my stomach so hurry the fuck up.”, I glared at Taeyeon as she gave me an unfamiliar look of pity. 

“Even if she takes I’m back I won’t allow them to be in the same room alone after this. Baekhyun you really need to get your shit together.”, Chen said throwing him a look of disgust. 

“Let’s go Taeyeon, I need to have a word with you anyways.”, Suho spoke turning around already leading the rest of the members out.

“Don’t fucking say anything rude to her Suho!”, Baekhyun shouted before she began walking out with them our eyes locking the entire time. “I don’t care what any of you say to me but, I love her and I won’t allow the disrespect towards her.”

“Stop Baekhyun I’m a grown woman I can handle myself.”, Taeyeon responded walking off in front of Suho.

“Can’t handle yourself whenever you’re walking around riding dick.”, Kai blew under his breath causing me to stifle a giggle.

“Kai enough! Do not speak to her like that.”, Baekhyun threatened. “Or you’ll regret it.”

“We’ll be waiting for you in the my room.”, Yixing whispered before walking off.

“I’ll be waiting for you in the kitchen.”, Kai spoke towards Baekhyun making his words sound like a threat.

They were gone now it was the two of us face to face, the way it should’ve been from the start. I’ve given up so much for him already and he’s done nothing for me, not only that I’m giving up something so important by leaving him.

“What the hell is your problem.”, He whispered taking a step towards me. “You did  the exact opposite of what I wanted you to do, us breaking up really?”

I small smirked tugged at my lips before I repeated the words I had said earlier.

“I’m done.”

“You don’t know anyone at the party, so you don’t want to go. You don’t like cottage cheese, so you haven’t eaten it in years. This is your choice, of course, but don’t kid yourself: it’s also the flinch.
Your personality is not set in stone. You may think a morning coffee is the most enjoyable thing in the world, but it’s really just a habit. Thirty days without it, and you would be fine. You think you have a soul mate, but in fact you could have had any number of spouses. You would have evolved differently, but been just as happy.

You can change what you want about yourself at any time. You see yourself as someone who can’t write or play an instrument, who gives in to temptation or makes bad decisions, but that’s really not you. It’s not ingrained. It’s not your personality. Your personality is something else, something deeper than just preferences, and these details on the surface, you can change anytime you like.

If it is useful to do so, you must abandon your identity and start again. Sometimes, it’s the only way.

Set fire to your old self. It’s not needed here. It’s too busy shopping, gossiping about others, and watching days go by and asking why you haven’t gotten as far as you’d like. This old self will die and be forgotten by all but family, and replaced by someone who makes a difference.

Your new self is not like that. Your new self is the Great Chicago Fire—overwhelming, overpowering, and destroying everything that isn’t necessary.”

—  Julien Smith