Today is my last day at Mather.
After two months of going there every day, today is my last day.
Although I’m a little nervous about leaving, for the first time since the beginning of my eating disorder, I can say that I truly think I’m ready to be on my own. I won’t be truly on my own of course; I have supportive friends and a supportive boyfriend, I’m seeing a therapist starting Wednesday, I’m going to see a nutritionist. I’ve got a ton of people that are willing to help me, and now I’m capable of reaching out for that help.
So ten years after my eating disorder began, I’m finally feeling like I’m capable of having a solid period of recovery. For the first time in my life, I believe in full recovery, I believe I am capable of achieving that one day.
Going to Mather was one of the best decisions that I’ve ever made. It saved my life.
I’ll write another post tonight or tomorrow morning about my last day, maybe recapping some of the most important things that I’ve learned but for now, I’m kind of just…reflecting on the past two months. It’s amazing that I’ve come this far in such a short period of time.